Raven went to her tent to make the bomb while the rest of us waited outside. I looked at the ship, which seemed quite now. "I wonder how they're doing in there."
"Clarke is probably ordering around anyone well enough to care for the others," Bellamy guessed.
"So basically Octavia and Murphy are playing nurse, I'd pay to watch that," I said, I laughed but Bellamy didn't. "You ok?"
"What if this doesn't work?"
"Raven is good. It'll work."
"We could all die tomorrow."
"But if we do-"
"Bellamy, no one is dying tomorrow. I don't care about your last request, or your deathbed confessions, ok? No one is dying."
"You guys can come in now!" Raven called. Bellamy stood up and offered me a hand to pull me up.
"I'm going to go get some water, I'll be back in a minute," I told him. I went to the water jugs and filled up my bottle and took a moment to breathe. Then I walked back toward Raven's tent. As I got closer I saw Jasper talking to Bellamy, he nodded and they both went in opposite directions. Before Bellamy even made it a few feet he collapsed into someone's tent. I rushed towards him.
"Maia, stay back," he told me. I knelt beside him. "You'll get sick."
"If I was going to catch it, I would have it already." I turned to see a few guys staring at us. "Don't just stand there, help me carry him inside!" They covered their faces and helped him stand up.
Octavia was with Clarke when we came inside. "Bell, no. Clear some space!" She ordered. A few of the people who were already getting better moved around so there was a cot for Bellamy. They guys laid Bellamy down and then got out of the ship. Octavia rolled him on his side just before he threw up blood. "You shouldn't have come in here, Maia."
"Too late." I reached for one of the wet rags and wiped the blood off his face.
"I'm scared," he said.
"I'm not going to let anything happen to you, I swear," Octavia told him. She clutched my free hand tightly.
"Maia, what I wanted to say earlier-"
"No. You're going to be fine." I dropped the rag. "You can tell me when you're better. For now you just need to rest."
He grabbed my hand. "Please don't leave."
"I won't, I promise."
He fell asleep quickly and Octavia stood up. "I need to go check on the others. You should get some rest too. How much sleep have you gotten in the last week?"
"Not a lot."
"If the grounders really do come tomorrow you're going to need all the rest you can get." I nodded and she walked away.
I lay down on the mattress next to Bellamy. Even in his sleep he was clutching my hand like he thought I might disappear at any moment. "I'm not going anywhere."
The next morning Bellamy woke me up when he pushed himself up on his elbows. "Hey, feeling better?" I asked.
"Yeah, better than I was at least." He looked me over. "You're not sick?"
"I must be immune like Octavia and Finn."
Murphy came over with a cup of water. "Here." Bellamy knocked his arm away and water sloshed from the cup.
I took the cup from Murphy and pressed it to Bellamy's lips. "You need to hydrate." When he put the cup down I noticed his nose was bleeding again, Murphy offered me a rag and I took it.
"When I'm better, if you're still here-"
"You're sick, I'm just trying to help," Murphy said.
"I've got it from here," I told him. "Thank you." He nodded and walked away. Clarke took his place. "You look a lot better."
"I feel a lot better," she told me. "It'll be sunrise soon."
"We should get everyone inside, if the grounders come maybe they'll think no one's here," Bellamy told her.
"You don't think Jasper and Finn can do it."
"Do you?" He asked.
"I'll help you get everyone inside," I told her. We went outside and split up, directing people into the drop ship and to the third level for people who weren't sick. We'd almost gotten the entire camp inside when we heard the explosion. "They did it."
Octavia walked in my tent and sat down without saying anything. "Lincoln is leaving, he wanted me to come with him but I couldn't do it."
"Why not?" I asked.
"Because I know what side I'm on."
"Don't be. I just couldn't leave after watching Bellamy get sick. I may hate him some times but he's my brother. And I'm sorry I was upset with you."
"You had a right to be," I told her.
"Have you talked to Bellamy yet?" I shook my head. "Do you know what he's going to say?"
"No, but I have a few ideas. I'm sure we'll talk soon."
"Are you going to get back together?" I shrugged. "Do you want to?"
"You ask a lot of questions." She waited and I shrugged. "I really don't know, Octavia."
"For what it's worth, I think the two of you are good for each other."
"Hey, big shot, heard you helped save the day," I said to Monty, slinging my arms around Jasper and Monty. "You aren't going to let it go to your head like this idiot did, right?"
"You don't have anything to worry about from me," Monty assured me.
"Good. Now, Jasper, have you seen the error of your ways?" I asked.
He nodded. "I'm sorry I acted like such a jerk to you, you were just trying to help. Now can we be friends again so I can keep bragging about how I'm friends with Robin Hood?"
"Just because you said that I'm never speaking to you again, goodbye." I let go of both of them and started to walk away but Jasper grabbed me around the waist and pulled me back. He tripped and we both fell.
"If you children aren't busy, we could use some help cleaning up the mess inside," Bellamy said.
"Yeah, sure," I told him. As soon as he turned around Jasper and I burst into laughter. "Remember how I said you didn't need those people to be cool? Yeah, I'm pretty sure there's no hope for you at this point. You'll never be cool." I stood up and ruffled his hair. "Now, come on let's go be adults."
Everyone was tense in the days following the bombing of the bridge. We had people constantly patrolling our walls but on the inside things went on relatively normally. I dropped off a load of firewood and then took a break to see how Raven was doing.
She glanced up when I came in, and then quickly went back to work. "Hey, Maia."
"Still making bullets?" I asked.
"Yep, I'm splitting the gunpowder so we have double the ammunition. It's the best I can do until Jasper comes up with more gunpowder."
"Yeah, I heard about that. I tried to stop by his tent earlier but Monty told me Jasper was working."
"Well hopefully he doesn't blow us all up in the process."
I laughed. "We have our very own mad scientist."
There was a moment of silence. "Finn and I broke up."
I wasn't too surprised. "Oh."
"Just thought I'd tell you."
"He loved Clarke a whole lot more than he loved me."
"No, I mean, why'd you think to tell me?" I clarified.
She looked at me funny. "Because we're friends."
"Yeah, I mean, yes, I think so."
"Well I think so too, and friends tell each other when this kind of thing happens."
She patted my shoulder. "You need to get out more, Maia."
I shrugged. "When you've been in solitary for six months you kinda forget how to make friends."
"You were in solitary? I didn't know that."
I nodded and sat down. "You weren't locked up with the rest of us, I wouldn't expect you to know."
"I thought Clarke was the only one dangerous enough to get special treatment."
"In case you haven't noticed I sort of have a cult like following."
"Yeah, I've noticed. What were they afraid you'd lead some big rebellion or something?"
"I don't know, but they told me I wasn't allowed to fraternize with the other kids. Not that they needed to worry about it."
"You could have organized a rebellion, if you wanted to."
"If I wanted to, being the key words. I don't want to be a leader." I sighed. "Anyway, I needed extra security. They thought I would figure out a way to break out so they kept guards on me all the time. They even had to knock periodically to check that I was still there, if they didn't get an answer they barged right on in. Happened a few times I was asleep, very annoying."
"Why don't you want to be a leader?" Raven asked. "I think you'd be good at it."
"I just don't want to be responsible for a bunch of people, I guess. It scares me. I feel like if I were in charge I'd just let them down. They have such high expectations for me."
"Well, you do have quite the reputation."
"Other than Clarke most of these kids are just like you and me, they grew up in average or below average families with little to no connections. I helped a lot of them, or if I didn't I helped their best friend or their neighbor. Don't get me wrong; I'm glad I did. But if I'd known that one day everyone was going to know who I was and look at me like I was some hero…"
"You'd still do it all again."
"Yeah, but maybe I'd prepare for this. I'm really just a huge disappointment. I'm nothing special."
Raven rolled her eyes. "Oh shut up, so you're a little awkward, that doesn't make you a disappointment. No one great ever thinks they're worthy of greatness. I'm not telling you to go overthrow Clarke and Bellamy, I'm just saying that sometimes you should be more willing to help and maybe discuss things with them some times instead of moping about the way they handle them later."
"I know," she said smugly. "I usually am."
"I think I like this friend thing."
She laughed. "You did have other friends before, right? Besides Bellamy and Octavia."
"Yeah. I guess," I said. "I definitely had some acquaintances."
"Well it was sort of hard to make friends when I spent my free time stealing things. I couldn't very well tell people that when they asked me what I liked to do for fun, now could I?"
She laughed again, this time harder. "You really are new to this whole friendship thing, huh?"
I shrugged. "I think I'm picking it up as I go along."
"Ok, so, what do you like to do for fun?"
"Besides stealing things?"
"Yes, besides stealing things."
I thought for a moment. I tried to think about things I'd done on the Ark that would have been considered fun. Mostly I just remembered sitting on the floor of the Blakes' apartment and telling stories with Octavia and Bellamy, we'd always had overactive imaginations. "I guess I like to stargaze."
"How poetic," Raven said sarcastically.
"I'm not kidding. I used to sit by the windows and just look at the stars sometimes."
"Man, no wonder you didn't have friends. You were a strange kid."
There were screams from outside and we both ran out of the tent. The meat-smoking hut was on fire. "That's where Octavia's been working." I pushed through the crowd and found Octavia sitting on a log with Bellamy hovering over her. "Are you ok?" I asked her.
She nodded. "Yeah, just some stupid kid wouldn't listen to me when I told him the fire was getting to big." She glanced at the fire which some kids were trying to put out. "All of our food is in there."
"Come on, let's get you some water or something," I said. She stood up and we walked over to the water tent, leaving Bellamy behind us.
"What's up with you two?" She asked, once we were out of earshot.
"You still haven't talked to him?" I shook my head. "You're avoiding him."
"I am not." She raised an eyebrow. "Ok, yeah, but we've both been busy. I just don't think now is the time to have the conversation he wants to have."
"You're going to have to talk to him sooner or later."
"Yeah, well, hopefully it'll be later."
"Hey, Maia, we could use you in the hunting party," Clarke said.
"Me?" I asked skeptically.
"You don't have to be good at hunting to kill a boar, you just need to be quiet enough to sneak up behind it. Find a tracker and someone with a gun," she told me.
"Maia, you can come with me," Bellamy said coming up to join us. He had a gun in one hand and a spear in the other.
"Perfect," Clarke said. She smiled at me before disappearing into the drop ship.
Bellamy handed me the spear. "I just need to get some more ammo from Raven and then we can head out."
We walked to Raven's tent and I went in first. "Hey, Raven, you're coming with me on this hunting thing, right? I mean I don't have the slightest idea how to use this thing. I could use some moral support from my friend, you know?"
Bellamy laughed. "I think you can handle it, Maia."
I gave Raven a pleading look. "I need to stay here and work on building some walkie-talkies."
"I need more bullets," Bellamy told her.
She turned towards the table and mouthed "Sorry," to me. She handed him three. "I'm all out until Jasper gets the gunpowder done."
"Ready to go?" Bellamy asked me.
"Yeah, I guess."