The first thing I saw with my new sight was Edward's beautiful face. After all the pain and agony I had suffered there was love and happiness at the end of it.I had my Edward and we had eternity to be together. The past eight months seemed like a distant dream as I lay in Edward's arms ready to start my new life as a vampire.
Edward's voice sounded truly beautiful. To me it always had been but now with all my senses heightened, I could see why I had always thought he was godlike.I gazed into Edward's eyes which were darkening due to his lack of hunting during my change.A thrill went through me when I realised we could hunt together and I could finally see Edward hunt,something I had secretly wanted to see since I discovered his secret and he told me about his diet. I realised Edward was looking at me with concern and panic in his eyes.
'Love I know it's all very overwhelming but its okay I swear. Please say something, I know this must be scary but I'm here.'
I looked at him in astonishment. Why would I be scared? I was lying in the arms of the man I loved as a vampire. I realised I should probably open my mouth and say something.
I stopped talking after saying his name. My voice was so different, it sounded beautiful, so unlike me. Edward was smiling at me with love in his eyes.
'How are you feeling love?'
'Fantastic. I mean, it's all so overwhelming but I'm so happy.'
Edward smiled then to my surprise he frowned.
'Yes, only because I still don't know what's going on inside your beautiful mind but how on earth could I be disappointed with such a magnificent creature as yourself?'
I knew if I could still blush like I could do when I was human, my face would definitely be the darkest shade of red possible.I moved my position slightly so I was facing Edward properly. He still had his arms wrapped around me so he pulled against his chest,wrapping his arms around me even tighter than he had them before. Instantly I wrapped my arms around his neck, my hands gripping his gorgeous bronze hair.I sighed contentedly; I could have laid like this forever. A smile appeared on my lips as I realised we could lay like this forever.I noticed Edward looking at me with a slightly confused look on his face but a smile was still on his handsome face, showing me how happy he was.
'What are you thinking about love?'
'I was just wishing we could lay like this forever then I realised we could.'
'It's one of the many benefits of being immortal, my love.'
After Edward said this, he leaned in and kissed my cheek. I closed my eyes at this, smiling at the contact.I so desperately wanted to know where things were with us. He was showing signs of affection but I didn't know if I should take it that he meant for us to get back together.He had said he loved me but he had also left. I didn't know which way to turn.It seemed Edward was thinking along the same lines as me as he had a look of heartache on his face, which I am sure was on my face too.I reached over and caressed his cheek. I noticed Edward didn't feel cold to me anymore and felt the same temperature as me.
'What is it love?'
'You don't feel cold to me anymore.'
'That's because we're both vampires, silly Bella. You don't feel warm to me anymore.'
I giggled and Edward tucked a loose strand of hair, which had come free when I was giggling, back behind my ear.I stopped breathing, even though vampires technically didn't have to breathe. I had to know where we stood before I officially started my immortal life.
Edward to my surprise covered my mouth with his hand.
'Bella we have to talk. I guess that's what you were about to say but I have to get my point across first before you tell me you're leaving me forever. Bella I love you so much. I...'
I quickly kissed his hand then removed it my mouth then put my own hand on his mouth, giving me the chance to talk.
'Edward, if you had let me talk before you would have known that I love you so much too.You were still willing to change me despite your beliefs about your soul, showing you love me like I love you.'
Edward smiled his beautiful crooked smile at me, dazzling me immediately.
'Love I was stupid to think that. I can see it is impossible for you to be a monster or without a soul.'
'All vampires have a soul Edward, not just me, so that means you have a soul too. Don't ever think of yourself as a monster.How can you think of yourself and your family as monster is beyond me?'
'It's something that I've always believed to be true but you're making me re-think my beliefs.'
'You're not eternally dammed. It's impossible Edward.'
'Thank you. You're always been gracious about our kind.'
'I've always meant what I said and I stand by those comments now that I'm a vampire.'
We sat in silence for a few minutes gazing into one another's eyes until Edward took my hands in his.
'Love we need to talk about what happened last September, on your birthday and the day I left.'
I cringed at the memory of Edward leaving me in the woods but quickly recovered myself. I nodded to Edward to let him know he could continue.He had noticed me cringe; nothing escaped vampires, so he softly caressed my cheek then took hold of my hand again.
'I'm so sorry. I'm sorry for everything. I read in Charlie's thoughts what you went through, all the pain I caused you.I know how much I hurt you by not being there when you woke up a few days ago.I was still clinging to the hope that you could lead a normal life without any interference but I was weak.It would only have been less than a hour due to me being stubborn before I would have showed up at your window begging you to take me back. I'd happily beg now.'
'Oh I am. Bella love, how could you have gone to the Volturi? Did you really believe I didn't love you in the forest when I was telling you goodbye?'
'Yes I did believe you. You had never lied to me before and you had been acting distant for a few days.You looked so sincere when you said you didn't want me. I immediately felt numb and believed you as I always knew I would never be good enough for you.To hear you say those words as well just confirmed my suspicions about what I already knew.'
'Love it is me who is not good enough for you, not the other way around. What I said to you was the darkest kind of blasphemy and I truly hate myself for causing you so much pain.'
'Don't say that Edward.'
'It's true though. I put the purest angel through hell and heartbreaking pain. Like I said, blasphemy of the darkest kind.'
'Edward please don't torture yourself like this.'
I reached and placed a kiss on his forehead. Edward smiled at me but I saw it didn't reach his beautiful eyes.
'Love you still haven't answered my question. Why did you go to the Volturi to die?'
I took a deep breath and looked directly in his eyes, trying not to get distracted by the beauty.
'I woke up and thought you'd left again. I thought you were acting on a guilty conscience on the plane so I pretended you wanted me like I wanted you.'
'I always wanted you and will always want you. I love you Bella.'
I smiled at him.
'I knew that if I didn't become a vampire the Volturi would come to Forks and kill me...'
I noticed Edward flinch at this.
'...and I didn't want that as it would put your family, Charlie and the innocent people of Forks in danger. I would hate myself forever if anything happened.The best solution was to go to Volterra myself and tell them the circumstances, ending in my demise.'
Edward looked like he wanted to cry if that was possible. He let go of my hands and crushed me to his chest, his arms tightening around my waist.He held me so tight and if I was human, I would have been gasping for breath.
'What were you thinking when you ran away when me?'
'I knew I had been stupid and wished I was back in your arms. I knew it had been a mistake to come to Italy...'
Suddenly something dawned on me. Edward noticed me tense up.
'What is it love?'
'Where are we?'
'Volterra. Carlisle explained the circumstances to Aro. After we've hunted, we'll leave.We can't take too long otherwise Aro would probably try and get you to join the Volturi. He was amazed by your gift and kept trying to get Carlisle to let you join the Volturi.'
Gift? I had a gift?
'Carlisle will explain everything when the rest of the family come to see you shortly. At the moment they are giving us time alone.'
'We need to talk.'
It was obvious when he said that and I felt like a complete idiot. I watched as Edward took a deep breath.
'Before you, Bella, my life was like a moonless night. Very dark, but there were stars—points of light and reason… And then you shot across my sky like a meteor.Suddenly everything was on fire; there was brilliancy, there was beauty. When you were gone, when the meteor had fallen over the horizon, everything went black.Nothing had changed, but my eyes were blinded by the light. I couldn't see the stars anymore. And there was no more reason for anything.'
'You're describing my life not yours.'
Edward grinned at me in spite of the situation, causing me to give him a look of concern.
'You see love; we belong together as we both experienced the same emotions whilst apart. Being apart from you causes me actual physical pain.I love you, I want you and I need you. I can't live without you.'
After he said that I couldn't help but smile back at him. We sat in silence, just smiling at one another. I wanted to continue the conversation but didn't know how to proceed.I felt hope for the first time in eight months and hoped I wouldn't be disappointed. Edward couldn't sit in silence either.We were right; we were compatible and did belong together. He cupped my face in his hands and gazed lovingly into my eyes.
'Bella I love you. I always have and I always will. I know I hurt you deeply and I regret leaving the love of my existence so much.The ball is completely in your court to where we go from here. Have I hurt you too much? Have you moved on like I wanted you to?Do you hate me? Do you not want to stay with our family? Please don't spare my feelings; what you want and how you feel are the only things that matter.Can you find it in your heart to forgive me?'
Edward looked really nervous and was rambling. I couldn't help it, I started to giggle. Edward's expression turned from nervous to hurt.I put my hand on his cheek to comfort him and gazed into his eyes.
'What kind of an idiotic question is that?'
'Please just tell me your answer.'
'I can find it in my heart to forgive you. I understand your reason for leaving and can see why you did it.Although it caused both of us a tremendous amount of heartache, you did it out of love. I haven't moved on, there can never be anyone else but you.I can never ever hate you and would never want to leave our family. Finally Edward I love you too. I always have and I always will.'
The look on Edward's face said it all as he listened to what I said. There was so much love and happiness I thought he might explode.I watched as Edward leaned closer to me, our faces almost touching.
'I love you Bella.'
'I love you Edward.'
This was all the encouragement he needed and the next thing I knew Edward's lips were on mine.The kiss was no way as careful as I remembered when I was human but obviously that was due to Edward being a million times stronger than me.It was weird to think I was stronger than him due to be a newborn vampire. The kiss wasn't rough but it was passionate, full of love and happiness.I was back where I belonged; in the arms of Edward Cullen, the love of my existence. We continued kissing for what felt like hours but I didn't want to stop.Time didn't matter when we had forever to live for and forever to be together. Suddenly I had the feeling we were being watched.My suspicions were confirmed when I heard a squeal.
'I told you all they would get back together!'
Edward and I pulled apart but still had our arms around one another. We turned our heads and I knew the squeal had come from a certain pixie.I looked and saw the other Cullens. The six of them were standing smiling at us, their arms wrapped around their own mate's. I smiled back at them, at my family.
A/N: Yay Edward and Bella are back together :) Finished all my coursework so can update more regularly. 2 weeks off school but last day tomorrow
:) Please review and thank you x