My own eyes met with Bella's beautiful eyes. Despite them being a bright red colour, it didn't bother me as I knew this was only temporary.I gazed into the love of my life's eyes. We had eternity together. I could hold this fantastic woman in my arms forever.Bella was just staring at me, not saying anything which worried me.
Bella gazed into my eyes and I into hers. I knew my eyes were darkening due to my lack of hunting.There was no way I would have left my angel during her painful transformation. A thrill went through me as I realised we could hunt togetherand I knew seeing me hunt would make Bella happy as it was something she had always wanted to see.I would have to try to not overreact and fight all my natural instincts when Bella hunted as I would have to let her wrestle with animals such as bears and mountain lions.I shuddered mentally at this but knew I wanted to hunt with Bella more than anything in the world. I realised Bella did hadn't spoken.
'Love I know it's all very overwhelming but its okay I swear. Please say something, I know this must be scary but I'm here.'
Bella looked at me in astonishment which made me feel slightly self conscious. To my relief Bella opened her mouth to speak.
I immediately smiled at her when that musical voice came out of her voice. It sounded so beautiful, just like how my Bella was. It suited her perfectly.The amount of love I had for this one woman was overwhelming, but it still could never be enough.I knew Bella herself would be overwhelmed with everything and she was probably thirsty.
'How are you feeling love?'
'Fantastic. I mean, it's all so overwhelming but I'm so happy.'
I smiled at hearing that. She wasn't regretting being a vampire. She was happy. I suddenly realised her mind was still silent to me.I had been secretly hoping I would have been able to hear her mind but of course my hoping hadn't changed anything.I frowned at my realisation and of course Bella immediately picked up on it.
I could detect a slight sadness as Bella said this as if she was worried that I was disappointed by her. I immediately had to change that.
'Yes, only because I still don't know what's going on inside your beautiful mind but how on earth could I be disappointed with such a magnificent creature as yourself?'
I knew that if Bella could still blush like she could do when she was human, her face would definitely be the darkest shade of red possible.I suddenly felt Bella moving and wondered if I had said something wrong. Immediately when I thought that I realised Bella was moving so she could face me properly.As my arms were still wrapped around her I pulled her against my chest even tighter than before.Instantly Bella wrapped her arms around my neck, her hands gripping my hair. I sighed contentedly; I could have laid like this forever.A smile appeared on my lips as I realised we could lay like this forever. I heard Bella sigh then a smile appeared on her lips.I looked at her with a slightly confused look on my face but I couldn't stop smiling due to how happy I was.
'What are you thinking about love?'
'I was just wishing we could lay like this forever then I realised we could.'
'It's one of the many benefits of being immortal, my love.'
I couldn't believe Bella had been thinking exactly the same thing as me. It proved how much we belonged together.I leaned in and kissed Bella's cheek. She closed her eyes at this, smiling at the contact. I so desperately wanted to know where things were with us.I was showing signs of affection and so was Bella but I didn't know if I should take it that she meant for us to get back together.I had said I loved her but I had also left. I didn't know what to do. It seemed Bella was thinking along the same lines as me as she had a look of heartache on her face,which I am sure was on my face too. She reached over and caressed my cheek. I noticed Bella raised her eyebrows when caressing my face.
'What is it love?'
'You don't feel cold to me anymore.'
'That's because we're both vampires, silly Bella. You don't feel warm to me anymore.'
This caused Bella to giggle and a loose strand of hair came free. I immediately tucked it back behind her ear.I noticed Bella stopped breathing, even though vampires technically didn't have to breathe. I knew we had to talk and I had to know where we stood.
I had to get my word in before Bella told me she was leaving me forever. I covered her mouth with my hand, surprising her.
'Bella we have to talk. I guess that's what you were about to say but I have to get my point across first before you tell me you're leaving me forever. Bella I love you so much. I...'
To my surprise this time, Bella kissed my hand on her mouth then removed it, putting her own hand on my mouth, giving me the chance to talk.
'Edward, if you had let me talk before you would have known that I love you so much too.You were still willing to change me despite your beliefs about your soul, showing you love me like I love you.'
I immediately smiled at her. I felt as if my dead heart was beating once again inside my chest.
'Love I was stupid to think that. I can see it is impossible for you to be a monster or without a soul.'
'All vampires have a soul Edward, not just me, so that means you have a soul too. Don't ever think of yourself as a monster.How can you think of yourself and your family as monsters is beyond me?'
'It's something that I've always believed to be true but you're making me re-think my beliefs.'
Bella was definitely making me re-think my beliefs about vampires being eternally dammed. She had changed me in many ways; all good.She had brought me to life.
'You're not eternally dammed. It's impossible Edward.'
'Thank you. You've always been gracious about our kind.'
'I've always meant what I said and I stand by those comments now that I'm a vampire.'
We sat in silence for a few minutes gazing into one another's eyes until I took Bella's hand in mine.I knew we had to talk about what I had done a few days after Bella's eighteenth birthday and how much pain I had caused us both.
'Love we need to talk about what happened last September, on your birthday and the day I left.'
I watched as Bella cringed as I said these words but quickly tried to recover herself. It hurt me to know how much pain I had caused this woman,meaning even by bringing it up it caused her physical pain. She nodded to me to let me know to continue.I had to comfort her so I softly caressed Bella's cheek then took hold of her hand again.
'I'm so sorry. I'm sorry for everything. I read in Charlie's thoughts what you went through, all the pain I caused you.I know how much I hurt you by not being there when you woke up a few days ago. I was still clinging to the hope that you could lead a normal life without any interference but I was weak.It would only have been less than a hour due to me being stubborn before I would have showed up at your window begging you to take me back. I'd happily beg now.'
'Oh I am. Bella love, how could you have gone to the Volturi? Did you really believe I didn't love you in the forest when I was telling you goodbye?'
'Yes I did believe you. You had never lied to me before and you had been acting distant for a few days. You looked so sincere when you said you didn't want me.I immediately felt numb and believed you as I always knew I would never be good enough for you.To hear you say those words as well just confirmed my suspicions about what I already knew.'
'Love it is me who is not good enough for you, not the other way around. What I said to you was the darkest kind of blasphemy and I truly hate myself for causing you so much pain.'
'Don't say that Edward.'
'It's true though. I put the purest angel through hell and heartbreaking pain. Like I said, blasphemy of the darkest kind.'
'Edward please don't torture yourself like this.'
Bella reached up and placed a kiss on my forehead. I smiled back at her but it didn't reach my eyes. She had avoided my question about going to the Volturi.
'Love you still haven't answered my question. Why did you go to the Volturi?'
I watched as Bella took a deep breath then looked directly into my eyes. I tried not to get distracted by her beauty.
'I woke up and thought you'd left again. I thought you were acting on a guilty conscience on the plane so I pretended you wanted me like I wanted you.'
'I always wanted you and will always want you. I love you Bella.'
She smiled at me, making my dead heart beat harder.
'I knew that if I didn't become a vampire the Volturi would come to Forks and kill me...'
I flinched at this and of course Bella noticed. How on earth could I be okay with anyone discussing my sweet love being dead?
'...and I didn't want that as it would put your family, Charlie and the innocent people of Forks in danger.I would hate myself forever if anything happened. The best solution was to go to Volterra myself and tell them the circumstances, ending in my demise.'
I wanted to cry. I had hurt her so much, time and time again. I wanted to sit and sob my heart out and beg her forgiveness.I let go of Bella's hands and crushed her to my chest, my arms tightening around her waist. I held her so tight; I knew if she was human she would have been gasping for breath.I had to know everything.
'What were you thinking when you ran away when me?'
'I knew I had been stupid and wished I was back in your arms. I knew it had been a mistake to come to Italy...'
Suddenly Bella tensed in my arms. I was immediately anxious .
'What is it love?'
'Where are we?'
I was instantly relieved as Bella was just simply curious to where our location was.
'Volterra. Carlisle explained the circumstances to Aro. After we've hunted, we'll leave. We can't take too long otherwise Aro would probably try and get you to join the Volturi.He was amazed by your gift and kept trying to get Carlisle to let you join the Volturi.'
This angered me at the fact Aro wanted my sweet Bella to join the Volturi guards and be like them. I mentally shivered.Bella had a surprised look on her face. I knew I should get Carlisle to explain about her gift as he was fascinated by it.
'Carlisle will explain everything when the rest of the family come to see you shortly. At the moment they are giving us time alone.'
I was glad my family were giving us alone time and were being quiet with their thoughts, even Emmett.It was easy to block them out when I was too busy concentrating on Bella.
'We need to talk.'
I knew Bella would have blushed as I knew she was belittling herself for not seeing the obvious. I took a deep breath, ready to say my bit to win Bella back.
'Before you, Bella, my life was like a moonless night. Very dark, but there were stars—points of light and reason… And then you shot across my sky like a meteor.Suddenly everything was on fire; there was brilliancy, there was beauty. When you were gone, when the meteor had fallen over the horizon, everything went black.Nothing had changed, but my eyes were blinded by the light. I couldn't see the stars anymore. And there was no more reason for anything.'
Bella gazed at me in amazement then shook her head slowly.
'You're describing my life not yours.'
I grinned at Bella in spite of the situation, causing her to give me a look of concern.
'You see love; we belong together as we both experienced the same emotions whilst apart. Being apart from you causes me actual physical pain.I love you, I want you and I need you. I can't live without you.'
After I had said that, Bella smiled back at me. We sat in silence, just smiling at one another. I wanted to continue the conversation but didn't know how to proceed.I felt hope for the first time in eight months and hoped I wouldn't be disappointed. Bella obviously couldn't sit in silence for that much longer either as I saw a look of longing in her eyes.I was right; we were compatible and did belong together. I cupped her face in his hands and gazed lovingly into her beautiful eyes.
'Bella I love you. I always have and I always will. I know I hurt you deeply and I regret leaving the love of my existence so much.The ball is completely in your court to where we go from here. Have I hurt you too much? Have you moved on like I wanted you to? Do you hate me?Do you not want to stay with our family? Please don't spare my feelings; what you want and how you feel are the only things that matter.Can you find it in your heart to forgive me?'
I felt really nervous and knew I was rambling. I couldn't help it, I wanted Bella so badly. To my surprise Bella started to giggle.Hurt flooded through me and I knew she thought I was an idiot for asking her to forgive me when I had hurt her so much.Bella saw my expression and quickly put her hand on my cheek to comfort me and gazed into my eyes.
'What kind of an idiotic question is that?'
'Please just tell me your answer.'
'I can find it in my heart to forgive you. I understand your reason for leaving and can see why you did it.Although it caused both of us a tremendous amount of heartache, you did it out of love. I haven't moved on, there can never be anyone else but you.I can never ever hate you and would never want to leave our family. Finally Edward I love you too. I always have and I always will.'
I couldn't believe it when I heard those words come out of her mouth. She forgave me and loved me!There was so much love and happiness I felt like I was going to explode from it. I started to lean closer to Bella, so close our faces were almost touching.
'I love you Bella.'
'I love you Edward.'
My heart did a somersault as I heard those words. This was all the encouragement I needed to secure Bella as mine again so I leaned in and kissed her.I didn't have to be careful like I did when she was human due to the fear of hurting her. Bella was the strongest one out of the two of us due to her being a newborn vampire.The kiss wasn't rough but it was passionate, full of love and happiness. I was back where I belonged; holding Bella Swan in my arms, the love of my existence.We continued kissing for what felt like hours but I didn't want to stop. Time didn't matter when we had forever to live for and forever to be together.Suddenly all my family's thoughts came rushing into my head.
'My brother and my best friend back together! I knew they would. Well I am psychic plus I did foresee it happening.'
'Everyone's emotions are full of happiness showing how Bella fulfils the Cullen family. I'm sure glad everything's worked out well.'
'Bellsie-boo and Edward sitting in a tree K-I-S-S-I-N-G! Well they're sitting on a bed and not a tree but that doesn't fit in with the song. Such a shame.One day I'll catch them in a tree and sing it to them. One day that will happen and I'll be ready!'
'The family is complete again. I have my brother back and I have a new sister!'
'My son and my daughter together again! I'm so happy. Everyone is happy because of it. Oh I could cry from being so happy.'
'Edward and Bella belong together so it's good to know they're back together! My son and daughter...these are happy days.I wonder how Bella's coping with her immortality. I'm excited about her new gift. It's quite extraordinary.'
I mentally laughed at how weird my family were, especially Emmett. I knew I should avoid trees for a while but I might sit in one with Bella just to get his songover and done with because Emmett would be very determined to see his song; he wouldn't care if he had to wait centuries just as long as he could sing it. He really is a child.I was happy all the family were happy my love and I were back together. I suddenly had the feeling we were being watched but I didn't want to stop kissing Bella.My suspicions were confirmed when I heard a squeal.
'I told you all they would get back together!'
'Yay I get more money which means more shopping. I wonder if Bella will be okay to come with me. Of course she'll have to wear contacts.So that's Emmett with $1000, Rose with $1000 and Jasper with whatever I want in the bedroom.God I love him, he's amazing in bed. Carlisle and Esme never bet with us, I wish they would. I can't believe they all still bet against me when I'm a psychic.I told them they would be back together by half past 10 but Jasper said 11, Rose said half 11 and Emmett said by 6pm. What is that boy thinking? It's Edward and Bella!'
Bella and I pulled apart but kept our arms around one another. We turned our heads towards our family. I smirked at Alice because of her thoughts and she winked at me.I watched as Bella looked round at our family with a smile on her face. The six of them were standing smiling at us, their arms wrapped around their own mate's.I smiled at them and saw Bella was too, at our family.
A/N: Hope you like this chapter of Edward's view of their reunion. Please please review as all your reviews mean the world to me . I have my GCSEs coming up soon but I'll still try to update as much as I can when I'm not revising lol.
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