Revealing The Secret
Have you ever stopped and wondered if you were meant to do something else in your life?
If the decisions that you’d made in your life were unavoidable?
How things would be if you were different from what you are?
Do you regret everything you have done?
All those questions pass through your mind when you’re in the face of death. But they all disappear fast when the love of your life, your half, your soul mate, is going to be killed in front of you. Because no matter in what situation you’re in at that moment, you don’t regret giving your whole self to that other person.
In that moment, only two things go through your mind:
First, are you willing to give up your freedom for the safety of your loved ones?
Second, you can fight and risk losing not only your life, but also the lives of those who surround you.
Chapter 1: Revealing the Secret
Sitting at lunch in the cafeteria always gave me time to think about my life. I always considered myself a common girl, long brown hair, dark skin, like the one all my friends and known people on the Rez had; a common body, not too many curves, but not a square. The only thing that was interesting about me were my eyes. They were green—not the common green but the kind of shade that changed depending on the lighting and clothes I wore. Also, they were my mother’s eyes…the only memory I had of her.
I stopped short in my thoughts, I didn’t want to think of my mother.
But I didn’t mind my looks; on the contrary, I appreciated them. This look made me have a quiet life, the kind of life that nobody noticed. If you did something wrong or embarrassing, nobody was going to notice, except your friends of course. Luke and Cat—short for Catlyn—were my two best friends who I wouldn’t trade for anything in the world.
Cat was the typical American girl—dark, wavy hair with golden strands that ran down to the middle of her back. She had natural, tanned skin, and penetrating honey colored eyes. Luke, on the other hand, had the looks of pure Native American—high cheekbones, light, brown skin, dark eyes beneath thick eyebrows and straight, dark hair that he always wore in a ponytail.
My friends usually let me get lost in my own mind, but today they planned to make it different.
“Ami…hello? Ami, are you there?” Luke called out to me; of course I didn’t like being called by my full name, Amelia.
“Huh?” I tried to remember what he was talking about but came up empty.
“Damn, today you’re definitely in the Land of Oz. Haven’t you been listening to our conversation?” Luke bickered, dropping his half eaten sandwich on the tray in front of him.
“Well, the first part.” They both looked at me with frustration clear on their faces. Well, at least Luke did. Cat was looking at me in a way I couldn't understand.
“Well, I was just saying to Luke that it would be good to go to the bonfire on Saturday,” Cat said, while biting her bottom lip; something she did when she was going to tell me something bad.
Because I didn’t answer, she carried on, “You know some kids from here are going to be there and I was thinking it would be good to socialize.” She still had that expression on her face.
“Why do you have that look on your face?” I asked her. I was beginning to get annoyed.
“What look? I don’t know what you’re talking about.”
“Don’t pretend. What are you trying to tell me, and since when do you care to socialize with other kids?” I looked at her with my eyebrows raised. She knew I was onto her. I knew her too well.
“You know she’s going to react the same way as me, so just tell her,” Luke said. So, he already knew. What could she have been hiding from me but not from Luke?
“How come you know?” I asked Luke. “Since when do you tell Luke things first, Catlyn?” I was beginning to get frustrated.
At that moment she looked at Luke with pleading eyes. That made me really mad. Something strange has been happening to me since I was always a calm girl. Lately, I’d been getting really mad at simple things. For example, last week I just snapped at Luke for borrowing my cell phone without permission, since his was without battery. I usually let him borrow my stuff without asking, but that time, it made my blood boil with rage.
“Okay, can the two of you stop beating around the bush and just tell me what is going on?” I snapped. Luke looked at Cat as if to say, ‘it’s your funeral’, but didn’t say anything.
“Here is the thing,” Cat took a deep breath before continuing, “I’ve been going out with someone. Remember last weekend when I said I couldn’t go to the movies because my mom didn’t let me? Well, that wasn’t completely the truth.” I was finally going to find out what she had been hiding, because I knew that Cat’s mom was nice and would always let her do whatever she wanted.
“Since when are you scared to tell me about a boy? And why does Luke know about this first?” I asked.
“Well…actually, I caught her with her hands in the cookie jar,” Luke said, his voice full of bitterness. So he doesn’t agree of this guy?
“Hey, are you going to let me explain this to Ami without interruptions?” Cat asked Luke while glowering at him.
Luke made a gesture of zipping his mouth and continued eating his lunch.
“I wanted us to go to this bonfire so you and Luke could meet him properly…you know? He is going to be there with some friends and decided to invite me. I couldn’t say no, so I told him I was going with my friends.” It looked to me like she was trying to avoid telling me who this guy was.
“So, who is the guy? Do I know him?” I asked, now full of curiosity.
Luke snorted, obviously covering a laugh.
Cat took a deep breath before talking, which wasn’t a good sign. “It’s Kaleb Early.” She closed her eyes, scared of my reaction.
I felt my insides burn.
“ARE YOU OUT OF YOUR MIND?” I yelled.
Breathe Ami, you have to breathe, I told myself while trying to control the shaking of my hands—something that had been happening lately whenever I got mad.
What is wrong with me?
I looked around and a lot of people were staring at us. In a small school like The Quileute Tribal School—or better known as QTS—fights, gossip, and drama were always a cause of immediate attention. Faces with big attentive eyes were looking at us and I had to keep breathing deeply as not to stand up and yell at everyone to mind their own businesses.
I faced Catlyn. “Out of all the guys that show interests in you, you have to choose the worst?” I questioned through gritted teeth. I was starting to see red.
“He’s not that bad, you don’t even know him,” Catlyn whispered, trying to calm me down. She had also noticed all the attention I had brought to us.
Why did she have to be so closed-minded? Kaleb was the most gorgeous guy in this school, but was also rotten, egotistical, and self-centered. This made him the most horrendous guy I’d ever seen. Of course, girls only saw him physically. His tall, lean and slightly muscular body gave him the power to lure any girl into his trap. Also, we couldn’t forget his always messy looking hair and dark, hypnotizing eyes. And while Cat thought I didn’t know him, she was wrong. Living in a small reservation like La Push meant knowing everyone, at least by face, but in Kaleb’s case, I knew him pretty well. Unfortunately, his family was close to mine. This meant our lives clashed all the time, even though Luke and I pretended we didn’t know him.
“What has he done to you to not like him? He is so HOT, and he asked ME out. How could I say no to him? What is the problem of wanting to go out with the hottest guy in school?” She looked at me with pleading eyes.
Luke was looking at nothing in particular—he already knew that it was better to stay out of our little fights. But I knew he was screaming on the inside like me, as he was biting his sandwich forcefully. I looked at my untouched slice of pizza and realized I wasn’t hungry anymore.
“Yeah, okay, he’s good looking, but you know how he treats girls. He uses them for pleasure and when he gets bored, he gets rid of them like they are just toys,” I said, my voice full of bitterness.
At that moment Kaleb walked into the cafeteria and smiled at Cat. I knew then that my case was lost.
He started to head to our table, but when he looked at my face, decided it was better to continue to the other direction. Cat looked at me with fury in her eyes.
“Why did you do that? You didn’t have to almost kill him with your stare.” She began to rise from her chair, picking up her backpack and tray in the process. “Can you at least give him a chance and go with me to the bonfire?”
I didn’t know how to answer. One part of me wanted to scream “NO,” but another knew that she was my best friend and she would do the same for me.
I was still staring at her when Luke said. “I told you she was going to be on my side.” Something typical for Luke to say. He said this with the ‘I told you so’ face.
Obviously Luke didn’t like Kaleb. Once, there was this girl he liked a lot. When he finally got the courage to ask her out, she turned him down because she was going out with Kaleb, and that was only a small part of all the things he had done. Seriously, the guy thought he could have any girl in school. Well, he definitely would never have me. HA! Like he would even notice someone like me.
“So are you going with me or not?” Cat, again, was looking at me with pleading eyes. I couldn’t resist any longer.
“Okay, I’ll go, and so is Luke, right?” I asked Luke. He wasn’t going to leave me alone on this one.
He looked so pissed off. “Whatever.”
I knew I would have to repay him later with something. Maybe a bar of chocolate. He loved chocolate.
Cat was already going to Kaleb’s table when I yelled, “Oh, and me going doesn’t mean I promise I’ll be nice to him.”
Cat continued walking but I knew she had heard me.
Luke was laughing; he knew how I treated people I didn’t like. There was this guy at the Rez who didn’t leave me alone, so I just simply threw a soda at his face and left while everyone laughed at him.
So the rest of the day flew by, especially considering my mind was distracted with thoughts of what to do to Kaleb if he hurt Cat. He didn’t know who he was messing with.
Without realizing, school was over and Luke led me to the parking lot to his car so that we could get home.