Punches, Seth, and Sons
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Oh how I love her, I thought to myself. I had just reunited with my girl. She and I have been together for years now and I loved her the moment I saw her. It was like love at first sight. We walked together, her beautiful brown hair and gorgeous blue eyes. I had been so relieved to see her. She's perfect. She's sweet, kind, intelligent, and everything I ever wanted in a girl and I knew she was the one that I would spend my eternity with. There was no one in the world like her. I love you, I heard her think as we walked into the forest more and more, heading toward the baseball field. I smiled back in response. I love you too, I thought to her a few seconds later. She smiled. I picked her up and placed her on my back, running into the clearing. We always did this. We both moved faster this way and besides that, it was more of an excuse to be so close to one another.
When I got there I saw a sight I never wished to see. I saw six figures that I have never met but know from stories. These figures…I never wanted to meet them. That was the last thing I wanted. I never wanted to ever see them. I hated them, every single one of them. The more faces I saw, the more anger I felt in my body. A feeling up rage started as I saw one person walk into the forest, the one person I knew that if I ever saw I would rip him apart, Edward Cullen. I hate him! I hate him so much! What the heck is he doing here! He CANNOT BE HERE! He left her! He is not about to just waltz back into her life after ten years thinking he can be with her again and he's insane if he thinks I'm going to just accept him so easily. He doesn't deserve her! He left! He LEFT! My anger kept building as resentment flooded more and more into me. Unable to control myself, I ran so fast that I felt like I flew over to him and started to punch him in his face repeatedly. I could hear people yelling at me. There was pressure on me from Jason and John trying to pull me off of him. I could hear Anne trying to calm down the rest of the Cullens. My love even tried to calm me down but I did not want to hear her. Right now my focus was hurting him. The next thing I heard stopped me mid-punch.
"Edward Jacob Swan, that is enough!"
I never knew a day could feel so long. It was like an eternity. Time was dragging by sluggishly. All I want is this day to be over. I don't want to have any more family reunions, though I wouldn't classify the Cullens as family. This was all just too much for one day. I didn't mean to upset my mom but I was just telling her the truth. I was not about to let her get disillusioned about a guy who doesn't deserve her. She deserves better, better than him, better than a man who would leave her and break her heart over and over again. But even in my anger I have this hidden feeling, a feeling I knew all too well, a feeling that made me both uncomfortable and frustrated.
I was sitting down on this rock in the middle of the forest, alone. Frankly, alone didn't bother me. I needed the space from my family. My mixed feelings were not easy to deal with in the presence of my so-called father. What was I supposed to do? I know I can't sit here forever, well I could but I'd get bored after a while. I do know that it would upset my mom and last thing I want is for her to be upset. Plus, my brother would not be taking it well in any way. I heard a twig snap from behind me. I turned around and saw a familiar face, Seth Clearwater.
"Hey, Em." greeted Seth, cheerfully. He walked over toward me and sat down next to me. "How ya doin', babe?" he asked, grinning. I smiled a small smile. He'd always called me 'babe'. He had since day one and it had always made me laugh and smile.
Seth and I were close. We were close for the longest I can remember and I can remember a lot. When me and my siblings were growing up rapidly, one thing always remained the same no matter how fast we grew or how far we moved away: our relationship with the werewolves in La Push. Jacob had been the first connection. Mom had known Jacob from her human life. He'd been there for her since Cullen left. Mom had always said that she doesn't know what would have happened had Jake not been there. Then after Jake came the rest of the pack, including Seth. Seth was the first behind him. He was very accepting of the vampires. Mom had known about Jake imprinting on Nessie so he naturally was the one Mom left her to. Jake ended up taking us all up to La Push every once in a while to see the rest of the pack. It was during those times that I had met Seth. We talked and teased. We loved to pick on one another. Neither one of us took it personally and I could always talk to him when I was upset. He was my best friend. The longer we talked the closer we got. Seth was also very protective and so very kind. I couldn't think of spending my time with anyone better.
Seth being here was a comfort to say the least. He was always able to get my mind off things that I didn't want to think about. It felt like he was the only thing right now that was making any sense. He surely was a unique character. I stared at him and jabbed my elbow into his stomach. Of course since he was a werewolf, it didn't hurt him.
"I'm doing ok, sexy. Thanks for asking."
"Oh so you think I'm sexy?" he asked. I rolled my eyes.
"Oh yeah! You're the sexiest man in the universe." He grinned. His eyes shining as they always have.
"I know right?" he responded. I shook my head before looking away. He chuckled before looking at me, concerned. "Are you okay?" he asked. I hesitated before shaking my head. "What's wrong?" he asked with his eyes full of questions.
"It's um, it's about my um, it's…" I stumbled with my words; unable to choose words seeing as I cannot call HIM 'my dad'.
"It's Edward Cullen?" he responded. I nodded. So he did know.
"How'd you know?" I asked in response. He smiled.
"I could tell by the look in your eyes and your inability to say who exactly it was. I knew it was always difficult for you to call him your father. I also kind of heard from Jake that he was here and I knew you wouldn't take it well. That's when I decided to come looking for you. I knew you'd be around here. I thought you'd need someone to talk to." he answered.
"You know me all too well, honey." I replied with a teasing edge. He chuckled again. I sighed, getting back on track. "It's just…I'm confused. I know that I hate him and I know I don't want anything to do with him but…there's this part of me that—"
"That does? A part of you wants him to be your father. A part of you wants a father. A part of you has some positive feelings toward him." he replied, knowing the answer. I nodded. "Well, sweetheart, you've got yourself quite the mess of emotions."
"Tell me about it." I responded. "I just don't know what to do. I can't be near him right now. I'm too infuriated to be near him. I just don't know what to do."
"Well you could come with me and go to the baseball field as planned and just ignore him." he suggested. It sounded like a great plan but that was the problem…I couldn't ignore him.
"And if I can't ignore him?" I asked.
"I give you free reign to punch him wherever you'd like." he said smiling his big grin. Seth's smile was never fading and that always made me happy to have him in my life. His smile was a sign of good in the day. He also always knew how to make me feel better. The image of me punching Cullen played through my mind. It was a kind of attractive sight but there goes my emotions, getting in the way. Why was it me that had to be sympathetic? Why did I have to be the empath? I stared at Seth and smiled.
"I just might take you up on that offer." I said, smirking at the idea.
"Let's try not to though otherwise your mother will kill me." replied Seth. I laughed. She would be mad. I shrugged like I didn't care. Personally I did. I mean who would I pick on if Seth were gone? He widened his eyes in mock shock. He put his hand over his heart, faking pain I had caused him with my comment. "You want me to die, babe? I thought you loved me." he whined in faux astonishment. I shrugged again.
"Eh. There's always more from where you came from, sweetie. You know like Embry? He's pretty cute." I said in a teasing voice. He feigned hurt once again. Then there was a mischievous glint in his eyes.
"Oh really?" he asked with a smirk. I nodded, looking at him suspiciously. Next thing I know I'm being picked up. He walks over to a lake that is nearby. I look down and then back at him.
"You wouldn't." I said. His smirk widened. He laughed.
"Oh I would." He replied before dropping me into the water. I screamed. It was cold. I hated getting put into water with my clothes on. I got above the surface of the water and glared at Seth, who was on the floor laughing.
"DANG IT, SETH! These are my new clothes!" I yelled, actually upset. He laughed.
"Aw, honey, lighten up. We can replace them. By the way, I love the wet look on you. It's very you." he chuckled. I glared and walked closer to the shore, grabbed his hand and pulled him under. He went under and came right back up and glared. I laughed.
"Aw, honey, lighten up. I love the look on you. You look like a wet dog." He glared.
"Oh yeah?" he challenged. I nodded.
"Yeah." He and I then started pushing each other under the water, playing around. We played in the water for almost a half an hour before getting out, laughing at each other's looks. "You look ridiculous." I laughed.
"Yeah well so do you." he replied. I chuckled again.
"Great comeback." I commented. He glared.
"Shut up." he spat. I laughed once again. He rolled his eyes. "So you think I should try and bear being around him for a little while?" I asked after a moment, still soaking wet. He nods.
"Yeah, I do. Em, you're one of the strongest people I know. I have faith in you. You can handle this." he responded. I smiled and came closer to him. I put my head on his shoulder. His warm arms wrapped around me. He was warm. I was too but that was beside the point. I looked up at him while his arms were still around me.
"Thank you, Seth. I don't know what I would do without you." I stated. He sighed.
"Go through your eternity, lost, lonely, depressed. Babe, you wouldn't survive without me. You need me." he teased. I rolled my eyes.
"Oh yeah, hun. I need you as much as I need actual human food to survive." I said with sarcasm in my voice. He grinned his wolfy grin once again.
"You love me and you know it." he replied still grinning. I sighed and chuckled. He's so persistent. Being the stubborn, half vampire I am, I looked at him challengingly.
"Maybe I do, maybe I don't. Don't you love me?." I responded.
"Maybe I do, maybe I don't." repeated Seth. We stared before bursting into laughter. We had this same conversation every time we got together. We never deviated from the normal routine. Sometimes it didn't manage to get that far because my mother sometimes stopped it.
I love doing this with Seth. He's more fun than the other wolves, including Jake. Jake's cool but Seth's better. He's always entertaining and overall just nicer to be around. He has better control over his anger. Like I said Jake's cool but I don't see what Ness sees in the wolf. I mean really, the guy has some problems sometimes with his anger, although I shouldn't be talking. E.J and I were the same way but still. I don't know what Taylor sees in E.J either. It's a mystery to me what anybody in my family sees in each other. I don't even get what Aunt Anne sees in Uncle Jase. He's sweet but he's such a smart-aleck and a pain the butt. Also, it's like he lives to torture me and E.J. Honestly, him and E.J constantly prank one another up to a point where someone has to start running, though I doubt now E.J will be calm enough to be his normal, dorky, self. E.J was going to be furious, that much I knew. I knew that better than anyone.
Since the day I was born, there was something special about me. Not only was I a unique creature in enough itself, I had gifts like other vampires. The only difference was that my powers evolved a bit as I got older. I have a wider range of what I can do. E.J and Nessie are the same way. I have the ability to read people's emotions. I feel and change them, regardless of what type of person they are: humans, vampires, werewolves, you name it. When I was a child, I was excited to know that my father's brother, Jasper, had the same power. I knew better now of course that the Cullens were not family but that's beside the point. Mom said that I had unbelievable control over that power for such a young girl. My gift…I can feel and influence emotions at a greater distance than any pure vampire can. And like my siblings, I have another gift. I have the gift of a physical shield. To make up for some of our human traits, we are given an extra gift. My shield can project far. Now it is not nearly as far as Mom's mental shield but goes about as far as E.J's mental shield does. I can block physical attacks. The longer I practiced with it, the stronger it became and the wider the range I had. The physical shield was mostly for protection purposes. When playing baseball though, everyone uses their special ability and to even out the playing field, I was given the chance to use my gift. It makes the game so much more interesting. My powers of influencing emotions were not very helpful. It was only helpful in the way they could help me make them feel distracted. But that was not nearly as much fun as using the shield was. The powers I had helped me understand what someone was feeling. It was why I knew E.J would be angry.
I knew I was right. It was why I realized I had to go back to the field. E.J would upset Mom further and I didn't need to add to all the problems in regards to Edward Cullen. I made my decision. I would ignore him. I would pretend he never existed just as he had to us all ten years ago. He would know what it feels like to feel ignored. He may be able to get Mom to forgive him quickly but he's going to have to work a lot harder than just telling me he's sorry. If he really wants to be my father, he'll try acting like one and not the selfish idiot he is. He deserves worse than that. I wish I could run and punch him in the gut for hurting my mom but I was raised better than that. Seth noticed my look of reluctance and determination. His hand extended toward me.
"If you want to go, I will be there with you every step of the way. You can do this, Emma." he said in assurance. I stared at his hand for a minute, trying to figure out whether or not I should really go. Then, in a split second, I made my decision. I placed my hand in his and together we made our way to the field, where my father is. Oh boy! This was going to fun, I thought to myself sarcastically.
I looked at the scene, shocked and worried. How did he find out? If Jacob told him, I'll kill him. Jacob wasn't supposed to say anything. My son was punching his father at this very moment. I knew E.J would react badly but I never thought I would see this. I expected Jason would have been the one to take the first swing, not our son. I didn't know Jase had the strength to ignore the call of pummeling Edward. At the side, I saw my family yelling at E.J and Edward's family doing the same behind me. Rosalie and Emmett looked like they wanted to intervene but Anne warned them to stay back. Taylor was beside the fight looking worried. She was not worried about Edward but E.J. I knew that. I saw Taylor trying to get his attention but his eyes were still on Edward's. It was then that I started getting fed up with this.
"Edward Jacob Swan, that is enough!" I yelled loudly.
E.J froze and turned his head toward me. I noticed the fire in his eyes, the fist he had been about to throw again into Edward's face. When he looked at me, his eyes softened. He looked to his left and saw our family and behind me to see Edward's. Then his eyes drifted to his right and what he saw brought him out of his fury, Taylor. I saw him gaze back at his father, then to me, and lastly to Taylor, who had been pleading with her eyes for him to stop, before getting off of Edward. His hair blew out of his face to reveal the face of his father. The Cullens behind me gasped. Edward however did not see it. My eyes never left E.J. He looked at me, not with anger but with apologetic eyes. Then he took off away from the field.
I'm sorry, Mom. I'm so sorry, I heard him think to me before he went silent. I took a look at Taylor to see an apology in her eyes as well.
"I am so sorry, Bella. I should have been able to stop him. I should have tried harder to stop him. I could have prevented all this." said Taylor, in a repentant tone. I shook my head.
"It's fine, Taylor. It's not your fault. I should have let E.J know what was going on. I just didn't think you would show up so soon." I responded dismissively.
"Yeah but still—" she started.
"Don't worry about it, Taylor. I don't blame you. It' s okay." I said reassuringly. She looked like she wanted to continue fighting but decided against it and nodded. Her eyes moved to the direction E.J had gone. My eyes did the same. I wanted to go after him but I decided against it, thinking it was probably not the greatest idea. I tried to do that with Emma and well, that didn't go over to well.
"I'll go after him, Bella." volunteered Taylor, seeing the fact that I was having a hard time letting him go. I smiled and nodded. She started walking.
"You are good for him, you know?" I called out to her. She turned around and looked at me, taken aback.
I never said anything to her in regards to her relationship with my son, so this was a first. I never disapproved, in fact I approved greatly but I never said anything. I knew there was nothing to worry about. Taylor was a great girl. She was kind, gentle, smart, and immensely pretty. She had great parents who love her dearly. She was truly perfect for E.J. Since the day they met, E.J was intoxicated by her. Taylor appealed to him in a way no one else ever had. No one ever quite understood him the way she did. He couldn't stay away from her. They were completely inseparable. That very day, he came in looking different, less moody and curious. Taylor was different and not just because she was half vampire like he was. She was different in a way that made her attractive to him. This did not stop Emma or Nessie from becoming friends with her. They loved the fact that Taylor was similar to them and that she was able to stop him in his tracks. She could fight with him up to a point where E.J couldn't argue anymore. He ran out of arguments whereas she kept coming up with more. She also had this ability to calm him down. No one else could, not even me or his sisters. Taylor didn't need powers to do that. Just by being there, she brightened his day. She made him that goofy, sweet, happy boy he used to be before his sister started dating Jacob. He acted differently when he found out Jake had imprinted on Nessie. Don't ask me why because I have no clue but he was.
"You really think so?" she asked, smiling. I nodded.
"You make him happy, happier than I have ever seen him. He loves you. You are everything to him, you know?" I replied. She nodded. Of course she knew. E.J never missed an opportunity to tell her so.
"I know. I love him too, so very much. He's my life. My life wouldn't be the same without him. He's a stubborn kid but I'm ok with that." she said, still smiling. Her eyes glowing with love. I chuckled. It is very true. He is one of the most stubborn people I know. She looked over to the direction he left. "I'd better go after him. I'll always take care of him. I promise."
"I know you will. Go." I said. She gave me one last smile before heading into the direction E.J went.
After Taylor left, I looked at my family and saw them smiling. My eyes moved over to Edward. He looked at me with a bewildered expression. I turned and saw the same expressions on the Cullens' faces. I had expected this. None of them had a clue about Nessie, E.J, or Emma even existing so they were not going to understand it when people they don't even know start retaliating over something that happened a long time ago to someone else. They don't understand what connections the four of us share. But judging by the looks on some of their faces, they are beginning to understand.
"Bella, who was that?" asked Alice in her high voice.
"That was Taylor. She's the daughter of one of my good friends. She's a sweet girl." I answered, hoping she would accept that explanation. I knew it was a useless hope.
"That's not who I'm talking about, Bella. Who was that boy, the one that was hurting Edward?" she asked. I was silent, not muttering a word. Truth is I knew exactly who she was talking about. But I didn't want to answer that question right now.
I didn't want to tell the rest of the Cullens without telling Edward first, alone. Edward needed to be the first to know. I looked at Edward and saw hurt in his eyes. It was then I realized he never saw E.J's face. If he had, he would have realized whose son E.J was. Unable to keep eye contact with him looking like that, I shared looks with my family. John shrugged, not giving his opinion on what to do. Anne nodded approvingly, telling me to talk to him. Jason was the one whose opinion counted to me. I love John and Anne. I do but their opinions don't mean nearly as much as Jason's does. Jase's opinion is important to me, more than some. I wanted my brother's approval in this. He looked a little reluctant but finally gave me a nod of encouragement. I sighed and turned my eyes back on Edward.
"Edward, can we talk…alone?" I asked. He nodded. I sent a gaze again to Jason and he gave me a small smile.
"Aren't you going to answer Alice's question?" asked Rosalie. I turned my eyes on her, on all the Cullens. I hesitated before answering, hoping I wouldn't have to mention anything.
"I would like to but I can't. Look, I need to talk to Edward about this first. I'll talk to you guys about it later. Edward needs to hear it first. I want to explain it to him first. I promise that we will come back and when we come back I will give you an explanation as to who he was but right now I need to talk to Edward. Stay here and we'll be back." I answered. The other Cullens nodded, looking curiously. I turned around toward Edward and saw him looking just as curious if not a bit confused by what I had just said. I knew he didn't understand why precisely I had to tell him first but didn't argue. Edward held out his hand to me. I gave him a quick smile before grabbing his hand.
With that the two of us walked further into the woods and into another clearing. The two of us were silent the entire time we walked. No one could find words to say. But I didn't mind the silence. It gave me the time to think about what to say to him, how to tell him that he and I have kids, that the boy who was hurting him was in fact his son. I don't know exactly how he will react to the news but I know that I have to tell him. There was no choice in the matter. He had the right to know. We finally stopped and stared at each other. Both of us were trying to figure out what to say. I had no clue how to start off our anticipated, long conversation.
"What did you want to talk to me about, Bella?" he asked. I did not say a word yet. How do I tell him the truth? That question was repeating itself inside my head. I looked at him trying to pick out my words cautiously.
"I don't know how to tell you." I responded, nervously. His eyes gazed into mine. I missed his topaz eyes. Even as vampire, he could still dazzle me.
"Just tell me." he replied. I sighed, knowing I had to get this over with soon. I kept telling myself he needs to know but it doesn't make it easier for me to confess. "Bella, who was that boy?" he questioned. I took an unnecessary breath.
"That boy…his name is Edward Jacob Swan. He was born October 10th, 2006. He's your son, Edward." I said, finally managing to get the words out. Now it was out there and I can't ever take it back.