Christmas has always been my favorite holiday. There was just something about seeing all of the decorations lighting up the town, and my home, and the warm aromas that filled the air. As I sat in my living room admiring all of the work that my mother and I accomplished the previous day, I began feeling nostalgic as the sight reminded me of my childhood. We worked so hard to make sure that everything was perfect.I put the tinsel everywhere and Mom set up all of the little houses. It tookforever but it was all worth it.
"Bella, you need to go get ready for the party." Mom called. I sighed to myself, not looking forward to being poked and prodded with curling irons and mascara.
"Ali said that she was coming over with Rose to help." I yelled back at her.
After a few minutes of relaxation, I heard the door open. Time for Bella barbie. I walked around to see them with their makeup kits and all of their hair products and tools. Let the fun begin.
"Shit girl you look like hell." Alice yelled.
"You have left us with next to nothing to work with." Rose added.
"Fuck off." I mutter at them. "This is what happens when I get nightmares."
They set to work on me for the next few hours, then turned their attention tothemselves. They both said that they did the best they could with what theyhad to work with, but I knew that they were just being a pain in the ass. Theyleft my room first and I followed them after a few minutes. I stopped on the stairsonce Edward saw me and I waited for him to come to me. The minute he saw mehis face broke out in the biggest smile.
I have been so worried about Bella lately. This past week she has been havingall of these strange dreams about the faceless bronze haired boy. It isfreaking the both of us out and now that we were home she doesn't have me tolook after her. Whenever she wakes up from those dreams, she is always so scarred and I never have a clue as to what to do. I tried to tell her that everything will be alrightthat there is nothing to worry about and she will believe me until the nextone starts.
Today, at least, I get to see her. I get to hold her and comfort her. Tell herhow much she means to me. But I can't say I love you. I haven't told anyone Ilove you since Charlotte. I fell hard for her. And the day I told her I loveyou, she told me she was moving away. That she needed to get away from me andour relationship. I was crushed. She took my heart and stomped on it. I couldn'thave that happen again. I have been through too much with losing my parents and my little brother eight years ago. I would be forever thankful that myAunt and Uncle took me in.
I knew I needed to tell Bella. I needed to tell her why I was distant at times; why I might need a minute alone to think about things. I also needed to find a way to tell her that I love her with all of my heart. I needed to find a way to share everything with her. I wanted that with all of my heart. I wanted to be able to give myself over to her body and soul. I have given her the first part of me. And she has done the same for me.
"Edward, man lets go." Emmett yelled. Bella. I get to see her finally.It had been way to long.
I walked downstairs to see Emmett, and my parents waiting for me. We all walkedout the door and across the lawn. Over to my Bella. Mrs. Swan let us in thehouse and I automatically started looking for Bella. I needed to see her. I neededto know that she is okay.
I looked upstairs and saw her standing on the landing. I rushed up to her and pulledher into my arms. Words couldn't describe how good it felt to have her in myarms where she fit so perfectly.
"Hey, I missed you." I murmured into her hair.
"I missed you, too." She told me in a small voice.
I grabbed her hand and pulled her downstairs to our families so we could get readyfor what the evening was going to bring.
We made our way downstairs and got settled in for dinner. Emmett startedpulling the things that were closest to him and started shoveling it into hismouth. Mrs. Swan looked over at him and her eyes almost fell out of her head.
"Emmett Cullen show some respect." My mom chastised.
We all started laughing at the innocent look on Emmett's face.
After dinner Bella, and I went up to her room to exchange our gifts. I desperately hopedthat she didn't hate what I got her.
I pulled the present out of my pocket. I went up to her room and sat down onthe leather sofa. I sat down in time to see Bella walk out of her closet. Shesat down beside me and smiled.
"Here I hope it isn't too much." I told her sheepishly. She took the small box from meand opened it.
She gasped at the small heart shaped diamond.
"Its beautiful." She whispered. "Will you help me put it on?" Before I can answershe turns around and hands it to me. I fasten the chain around her neck and place a light kiss to her neck before she turned around, smiling.
"Your turn." She says with excitement in her voice. She handed me a box andmotioned for me to open it. I ripped off the paper, and open the box. Holy shit. Shegot me the Steve McQueen watch. It was well over four-thousand dollars.
"Bella, I-I can't take this it is way to much." I stuttered, closing the box then moving to give it to her.
"You can take it," She smiled and opened up the box again for me. "I have the money. And I see you drool over it when ever you see it in the window at the Tag store."
I looked at her in awe and saw in her eyes she would not let me give it back. So I finally gave in and put it on my wrist.
"You will pay for this when you see what I get you next year." I told her.
"You are already planning for next year?" She replied.
He is already planning for next year when we have only been together for a fewweeks? I couldn't believe how lucky I was.
"I want to spend next year with you and many years after that." He whispers to me, a soft, sweet, genuine smile on his face.He leaned in and pressed him mouth to mine. We both battled for dominance, and with a strategically timed thrust against me paired with a swirl of his tongue, he won. He always wins. He pulled me down on top of him. I have to break for airand he started kissing along my neck and nibbling the spot right below my ear. I moaned at the sensation.
"Edward," I tried to sound stern, but ended up sounding breathy and seductive. "We can't..." He ran his fingertips up my sides, barely brushing my breasts. "Not here with everyone downstairs." I mustered all of my control and sat up to climb off of him, ignoring his persuasively adorable pout.
"Come on, we need to go back down and watch Christmas Vacation like we do everyyear. It'll be fun." I turned and started to make my way downstairs.
"Stupid cock-blocking family." He muttered from behind me. I just smiled andmade my way into the living room, making sure to sway my hips to get a littleattention from him. I got a growl in response. Mission accomplished.
"What did you do to my brother?" Alice asked.
"I don't know what you're talking about." I whispered back at her.
"He looks like he is in pain and he is glaring at you." Alice retorted.
"I may have teased him a little."
"I may have stopped him right before the clothes started flying."
"In your parents house?" Alice yelled.
Everyone turned to look at us, as I blushed bright red, and Edward put thatstupid smirk on his face.
"I have taught you well, bro!" Emmett boomed, guffawing loudly.
I just looked down at the floor waiting for them to stop making fun at myexpense. Luckily, Mom and Dad were somewhere else, so they did not hear Alice'slittle comment. Once they finished laughing, we turned on the movie. I movedover to sit with Edward.
The movie had everyone in hysterics. From the dry turkey to having hisboss wrapped in a bow.
Once the movie finished, we all said our goodbyes.
After talking with my mom and dad for a few minutes, I headed upstairs andcollapsed on my bed.
The dream started out the same as all the others. I was running; running from something or to something. I break through the trees to find the same small meadow. I see the little boy sitting in the middle on a rock.
Jacob comes up from behind and pulls out the lighter. He sets the boy on firebut not before I see his face for the first time. He has my eyes. My browneyes that look like they have seen many things in their days.
I woke up with a start and think about the little boy who for the first timehas a face he looks like Edward but he has my eyes. I couldn't help but wonderwhat the hell that all means. It was like my body is telling me something.
Right now, though, I didn't need to figure it out. There was plenty of time forthat in the morning or when we got back to school. Ali and Rose will help. Icould always trust them. Or maybe they would just go away if I stop over thinking
I needed a break. I needed to get away and go somewhere alone with Edward. Even ifit was just for a day it would mean the world to me.