"Edward." She says very faintly.
"How you feeling?"
"Like I've been cut open." she says with a smile.
"Funny I'm trying to be serious."
"I feel as good as to be expected."
"Your going to have to talk to the cops they already talked to me."
"I figured I'm just not ready for that one yet. I just need some time."
"I will be sure to tell them that but I don't know if they will listen."
"Thank you Edward for saving me for being my angel." She says to me through her tears, "I love you so much."
"I love you too my girl." I give her a very short but sweet kiss and pull away before anything can happen.
"Thank you for showing me that I can feel."
"I owe you for everything you have done for me." I hold her in my arms for a little while longer before I regretfully pull away."
"I can't believe that I almost lost you."
"Edward..." She whispers with tears in her eyes.
"Don't cry sweetheart I don't want you to cry I love you too much my girl." This only makes her cry more. I get he calmed down after a few minutes.
" I should let other people in to see you and let you get some rest I will come back in a few hours."
"What time is it?"
"10:30 am. I will be back later." I kiss her on the forehead and it is amazing that she does not shrink away from me.
I go outside to see that everyone has followed me back and they are awaiting me to come out of the room.
"How is she?" Alice asks when I walk out of the room.
"She's awake and talking you can go see her next."
Alice goes in and I lean against the wall beside the hospital room door and slide down it.
I put my head in my hands and just sit their wanting to cry but knowing I shouldn't for Bella's sake I should not cry I need to be strong for her for my girl I don't even know if the doctors have told her yet.
I can't even think the words let alone say them. How are we going to get through this I mean we have been through a lot but are resolve will be tested soon I mean I don't know if she will be able to look at me after I left her and gave Jacob his chance to hurt her. To kill our baby. Our baby that was innocent in all of this.
I want to kill Jacob for what he has done to us first he shows up at our school next he comes to Bella's parents christmas party with the girl that broke my heart and now this this is just too much. This is the last straw for Jacob Black he will finally get what he deserves a life ruined by being behind bars. Jacob Black will be going to jail and if I have anything to say about it he will never get out but I will settle for him to never come near us again.
Alice comes out of the room with a somber look on her face and Emmett goes in after she has cleared away from the door and this goes on until everyone has gone in and the doctor has finally kicked us out so he can talk to her.
Everyone parades through my room and I hug them all and possibly cry a little when they tell me how scared they all were of loosing me. How sorry they are of what Jacob did to me.
The worst one though was when Alice walked in she had tears in her eyes when she saw that I was hooked up to all of these machines. I never wanted to make her cry but I do and I hug her for the entire time that she is in with me and she sends in Emmett after her.
They all see me satisfied that I am alright or as good as to be expected and they leave. I think that I will be able to have just a little peace but much to my dismay the doctor walks in not 5 minutes after Jasper left. Great now I have to go through listing to what the hell happened to me I don't know if I am ready for this yet but I quickly realize that no matter what I could have done to prepare for this talk I never could have prepared for what came out of his mouth next.
"Hello Miss. Swan I am Doctor Bennett. I will be taking care of you and telling you about what happened to you earlier.
"Okay." I say in a small voice waiting for him to start.
"You were brought in with a concussion last night and you were rushed into surgery to make sure that your when you had the miscarriage that their was no internal bleeding with in the uterus which their wasn't-"
"I had a miscarriage?"
"Yes I am very sorry miss."
"I-why-I Why didn't anyone tell me?"
"They must have thought it was too painful to bring up and I am very sorry that it took us so long to tell you but with your family being here we just thought it best to wait until I could be alone. Now I have some questions where are your parents?"
"I don't know."
"For the moment the state will act then as your guardian until your parents can be contacted and I believe that the Cullen's are willing to take you in and seeing as they are certified to be foster parents their should be no issues with your staying with them until the state can figure out what is going on with your family Miss. Swan."
"Bella please." I say to him because I really didn't want to hear my parent's name at that moment.
"Okay then Bella, the state will be in charge of your well being if you fall into a coma or anything like that otherwise you are competent enough to make the decisions yourself."
"When will I be able to get out?"
"You have to be checked out by a psychiatrist and then we will keep you for a few days so you can be under our supervision also you will need to talk to the police most likely during your stay here."
"I will tell them whatever they need to know. I just want this behind me."
"That is great Bella I will be back soon but for now please get some rest I am sure you are going to have a trying time over the next few days."
"Thank you doctor." I say to him as he leaves the room and me alone with my thoughts.
I didn't want to cry in front of a stranger so I held it in until he left. And now I am letting it all out. I am crying for the loss of my baby. The child that even if it hadn't been born yet I still loved it with all of my heart. I cry for Edward for all of the pain that I have caused him and for the fear that he must be feeling now. I cry for myself for being defiled by Jacob. For allowing him into the house and into my body.
I cry for all of these things and when I am done I feel no better than when I started.
A few minutes after I stopped crying a nurse walks in and checks over the machines that I am hooked up to making notes on my chart and then she moves on to take my blood pressure.
"How you feeling hun?"
"I'm in a little pain around my stomach."
"I will get you something for it." She says to me very sweetly.
She leaves and returns in a few minutes with a needle full of clear liquid. I move back a little I am deathly afraid of needles.
"Don't worry sweet heart I'm putting it in through your iv."
I relax at the thought and wait for her to put it in. She does and I quickly feel the effects of the drugs as I fall into what will be a dreamless sleep.