Thanksgiving ended all to soon. One day I was laughing with my mom about what Dad had done the other day, and the next I was back at school. Even though I loved school, I hadn't realized how much I had missed my parents until it was time to go. I missed having them always there; where I could just curl up with them and be the little girl that they still thought I was. Where I could talk to my mom about anything and everything, and where my dad could show me how to properly shoot every gun that he owned. I sighed to myself, knowing that I would miss them terribly. However, I still had my friends that I loved dearly-maybe some more than others.
As soon as we got back on campus, Alice wanted to go shopping for the Winter Formal that was in a few days. Even worse, she wanted us to color coordinate with our partners. In my case, non-existent partner.
"Alice," I complained. "How the hell am I supposed to get a dress when I don't even know who my date is yet?"
"Simple you are going with Edward." Alice stated.
"I-I-I don't know that y-yet." I stuttered.
"Yes you do. And I think that you guys will be wearing dark blue." She mused thoughtfully.
Ignoring my obvious denial that Edward would even be interested in going with me, Alice and Rose started going through my clothes to get what I was wearing for the day. Once they found what they were looking for, they let me get dressed. I met them in our common room after I had finished, and found everyone waiting for me.
"Bella, go with Edward." Alice ordered, raising an eyebrow at me in challenge.
I rolled my eyes at her obvious attempts at matchmaking and nodded, trying to conceal the grin from my face.
Edward had gotten the Volvo all to himself since Alice and Emmett's cars had arrived at the school. I went down to the familiar car, and hopped in. Edward and I drove in silence for a minute.
"Can I ask you something?" Edward asked, breaking the silence. I looked over at his face and noticed that he looked anxious as he continued, never taking his eyes off the road.
"Sure." I replied cautiously, awaiting his response.
"Will you go to the dance with me as more than friends?" He blurted out.
My heart stopped as I processed his words. He wanted to go to dance with me? As more than friends? The thudding in my chest picked up rapidly.
"Edward-" I breathed, speechless.
"No, never mind it was a stupid idea." He muttered, looking away from me, a crestfallen look on his face.
The expression broke my heart.
"No, no! It's not that, at all. I would love to go with you. It was just so sudden, and I didn't think you felt the same way." I finished, sheepishly.
"How could I not feel something more than friendship for you? You are funny and sweet and beautiful and kind. You have so much strength, Bella. The way that you were able to face your ex and your ex-best friend? Incredible. You're incredible. You are one of the most amazing people that I have ever met."
I blushed violently and I couldn't stop the wide grin from spreading across my face.
Edward liked me.
I smiled wider at the thought.
He made me feel amazing, and now, I got to test the waters with him. I got to go to the dance with Edward Cullen. I did an internal happy dance at the thought.
When we got to the mall, Edward opened my door for me and grabbed my hand, sparks flying through my body from our connection point. We ended up being the first ones to arrive, and we stood by to wait for everyone, Edward's thumb rubbing circles on the top of my hand. I spotted Alice and Jasper first. Once she saw that we were holding hands, her eyes almost bugged out of her head.
"You finally got the balls Edward." Jasper teased.
"Took him long enough." Alice muttered.
"What do you mean "took him long enough" Alice?" I questioned.
"Please." Emmett scoffed as he walked up with Rose. "The dude's been crazy about you since you moved her."
My eyes brightened. "Really? Since I got here?"
"Yeah," Edward began, rubbing a hand behind his neck as he smiled sheepishly before leaning down to whisper in my ear. "It just took me awhile to work up the nerve."
"I'm glad you finally did." I whispered back, smiling at him.
"Will you all move your asses!" Alice almost yelled.
Begrudgingly, we all followed her into the mall, not wanting her to yell anymore. Once we were inside, she assigned us all colours. Edward and I ended up with dark blue. Emmett and Rose got red and Alice decided that black would be best for she and Jasper. She sent the guys to get black dress pants, and they were to meet us outside of some shoe store in two hours.
We got to the dress store where she proceeded to find the right dress for each of us. Rose and I stayed out of her way, knowing the consequences of bothering a pixie on a mission.
She found us all a few options that met her approval, and we proceeded to try on the dressed she had picked out.
The first few were to outlandish for my taste, with either too many rhinestones, or too little fabric. I was becoming slightly disheartened before I tried on the next one. The dress was simple. A sweet heart neckline swooped down low, exposing my collarbones and the slight cleavage I had before flowing gracefully to the floor. The studded empire waist was an elegant touch that made the dress absolutely perfect.
I stepped out of the change room and both Alice and Rose gasped.
"Bella, you look gorgeous!" Alice squealed.
"She's right, Bella. You have to buy that one. Edward will be all over you on Friday if you get it!" Rosalie winked at me as I blushed.
They didn't wait for me to respond, simply shoving me into the changing room and had me hand them the dress when I got redressed. One of them went up to pay and we all walked out with our perfect dresses. Even if Alice and Rose kept theirs as a secret from me.
The guys were all waiting outside of the store and Alice made sure that they got the right type of Dress pants. I nearly scoffed. As if any pair of Armani pants could be considered bad.
She approved their selections and pulled them to another store to get dress shirts that matched our dresses perfectly. Thankfully, that didn't take her to long to do, and before I knew it, we were in the food court for lunch.
Alice made us eat very quickly so that we could go on to the shoe store she had been blabbing on about. I sighed teasingly, but was beaming internally, knowing all of us could go together, and that I could talk to Edward.
"I was wondering," Edward began as we walked hand-in-hand to the shoe store. "After this did you want to, uh, go somewhere? Like, with me? As a sort of, er, date, maybe?"
I smiled. Edward was so damn adorable when he was nervous.
"Of course, Edward. I would love to. Where are we going?"
"I was thinking of taking you to this special place of mine. It's somewhere I like to go whenever I need to think, or just get away." He answered with his signature crooked smile.
"You aren't going to tell me are you?" I asked, pouting playfully.
"Nope." He smiled wider.
"Not fair," I whined. "I like to know where I am going."
"Bella," He said in a very serious tone. "You have to trust me. Please?" He asked, his emerald eyes smoldering beneath dark lashes.
I nodded, mutely before answering. "I trust you, Edward." I whispered.
"Bella, Edward! Shoes, now!" Alice yelled, snapping us out of out bubble.
I silently cursed Alice before we walked over to where she had a pair of blue satin shoes waiting for me.
"These will be perfect. So we can get your size in them. Oh! And I have shoes for you too, Edward. So, you two can leave once you try them on. OH! And Bella. Tomorrow, we have to go shopping after school so we can get a few other items." Alice said to us both.
"Okay." I mumbled.
The sales woman came back with the shoes for us. Not surprisingly, they were a perfect fit. . Alice released us from her wrath, and Edward quickly steered me to his car before she could think of something else for us to try on. Once I was buckled, he took off, driving away from the school.
We ended up in a huge park adorned with a man made lake in the middle, along with and a few benches scattered around the banks. Edward pulled me over to a bench that was secluded beneath a Weeping Willow. He wrapped his arm around my shoulder after we sat down, and I smiled contentedly, snuggling deeper into his arms as we looked out on the lake in silence.
"This place can always calm me," Edward said finally. "There's just something about seeing the running water, and just smelling clean, fresh air, untouched by car fumes. I can always relax here, even more so now that you're with me."
I smiled and buried my face further into his shoulder. "I like it here, too." I whispered in reply.
We both stared out at the lake for a little longer before Edward turned to me.
"Bella?" He whispered. I tilted my head up to look at him, my eyes burning into his. "Can I do something that I have been dying to do since I met you?" He asked, pleading with his expressive eyes.
"Yes." I breathed, hypnotized.
He placed his hand beneath my chin, cupping my face and tilting it up to him. His lips moved closer and closer to mine, to the point to where I could feel his warm breath on my lips. I longed to reach up and close the distance between our mouths, but I sensed he was waiting for something, so I held myself back. His eyes met mine, silently asking for permission. That was all the encouragement I needed. Leaning up, I lightly pressed my lips to his, reveling at how soft and warm they were against mine. He deepened the kiss immediately, reaching his hand up to entwine itself in my hair. My one of my hands rested flat against his muscled chest while the other made its way up to the nape of his neck, playing idly with the soft hair there. He ran his tongue lightly over my bottom lip, seeking entrance into my mouth. Without hesitation, I parted my lips for him. I moaned quietly at the sense of connectivity I felt as our tongues danced with each other. Unconsciously, I threw my leg over both of his, pushing myself up to straddle his thighs. We halted immediately after we'd realized what I'd done.
We broke away, gasping for air. "Wow," I said, breathlessly.
"Yeah," He replied just as breathlessly a moment later. "Wow." We looked at each other, allowing the smiles to crawl across our faces. However, mine quickly faded when I realized the position we were in.
"Oh my God, I'm so sorry." I gasped, immediately crawling off of his lap. "I can not believe I just did that. We haven't even been on our first date yet! Oh God, I am such an idiot!" My face flushed violent red with embarrassment as I looked down at my lap.
"Bella," Edward said. I didn't look up.
"Bella, look at me." He said, placing a finger under my chin so I would be forced to look up at him. His eyes shined with sincerity. "Bella, if it was anyone's fault it was mine."
I shook my head. "No it's not, Edward. I feel so horrible about taking advantage of the situation like that." I replied, still embarrassed,
"Bella, trust me when I say that I wanted that as much as you did." He told me.
"I- what?" I asked, confused.
"I wanted to kiss you like that too, Bella. I just-I don't know how you feel about me, and I don't understand these feelings I have for you. I just know that they're so strong, Bella. And I can't say that about any other girl I have ever gone out with, besides well, her. Most of the time I didn't feel anything with girls. I just needed a distraction from the pain. And-" He stopped before taking a breath and starting again. "And when I'm with you, that pain doesn't exist anymore." He said to me letting out the breath after he finished.
My heart leapt up to my throat. "Edward," My voice cracked with emotion. "I feel the same with you. I feel whole. I feel safe. I feel like-I feel like you will catch me when I fall, no matter what happens between us." I said to him happy to finally have him know the truth.
Once those last words left my mouth Edwards face broke out in the most amazing smile that I had ever seen, and I vowed to make him smile like that every chance I got for the rest of my life.
After our confessions to each other, we kissed a little longer before we reluctantly decided that we should leave to meet everyone for dinner. Edward led me to the car, and opened my door like a gentleman and he helped me inside.
Edward called Alice on the way to the school asking what they wanted for dinner. They decided on Mickey D's. As for the orders, everyone wanted a Big Mac, and in Emmett's case, two Big Macs. After we arrived at the dorms with the food, we walked up hand in hand, catching the glances of some of the girls, or more like glares that I could feel burning into my back. We got to my room a few minutes later, and the door was thrown open by Emmett, who was clearly waiting for us.
"Give me the bags." Emmett almost growled at us.
We handed them over immediately, laughing as Emmett tore through the food to get to his dinner. We made our way to the unoccupied love seat, and sat down.. Edward slung his arm around my shoulders, and Alice and Rose smiled widely at each other.
"Bella, Edward, we need you guys to stay here for the night." Rose said with a smirk.
"Okay." I shrugged, trying to seem nonchalant, but on the inside I was rejoicing.
We all ate our burgers, before Alice, Jasper, Emmett and Rose all left, leaving Edward and I alone in our room for the first time since we told each other our feelings.