If you leave me now, you take away the biggest part of me...
What the hell just happened?! They’d just killed Bambi’s mom!
He felt like he was in an alternate universe – The Time Travelers Husband, maybe.
Where did that deer come from? And what a way for her to go…suicide by car. The whole thing smelt fishy (gamey?) though. It had almost looked like she’d been thrown onto the windshield.
Murder? Conspiracy to kill? Venison Violence? A case for Law and Order: SVU, Special Venison Unit?
Gazing into those lifeless doe eyes caused a roiling, rumbling feeling in the pit of his stomach. It had nothing to do with the animal itself, although the death was unfortunate and a horrifying waste, but those eyes man…they reminded him of April’s. Soft, kind-hearted, sad and full of reproach. She was actually the reason he was here in the first place, April was. He couldn’t bear anymore bumping into her and seeing first-hand the carnage he’d caused with the divorce. And not to mention that other situation. He needed to clear his head. So he jumped at this opportunity to escape. Without as much as a by-your-leave. Desperate times called for desperate measures.
He was stumped at what to call his travelling companion. Was she a Kinka, Melly, Kelly or Krista? Admittedly he couldn’t get past the cankles, so in his own mind he called her Mankles. And out loud he evaded addressing her by any of her names, nom de plumes or pseudonyms. He had not the slightest clue which was real and which alias, and neither was he interested in finding out. She was simply a means to an end; getting the hell outta dodge. The culmination of that undertaking simply being avoidance. Allowing him to live a delusion for just a little bit longer. Limbo was not a bad place to tarry.
Real life, nevertheless, found a way. See exhibit A: The cop asking to see his license. His crime…being a passenger while Black. Mankles let him have it though, she called Bullshit. He watched in resignation as the red-headed Officer – Owen Hunt, said his name badge – did absolutely nothing about her ‘disrespect’, ‘resistance to authority’ and ‘arrest for resisting arrest’. The perks of white privilege. Hashtag: Blue Feelings Matter. Policing at its finest. He wondered if he had been confrontational would he have been exempted from its repercussions in the same manner, for he did possess the privilege of having light-skin. Colorism was something that darker people of color had to deal with – white passing privilege being an actual thing. Consequently, with the existence of colorism and judging from Officer Hunt’s demeanor, it appeared that racism trumped all the in-between shades leading to Black.