I Love You More than Myself Part One

Chapter 15

"Back again, eh?" James said, his eyes on the approaching castle.

"Back again," Sirius agreed.

We were driving up the winding road leading to the great oak front doors of the castle. Our carriages were pulling themselves, which I thought was truly amazing.

When we finally pulled up to the front doors, we jumped out and ran up the steps. My first problem was the jumping down part. As soon as I went to jump, I just stumbled down and landed on my foot.

"Ouch!" I said, standing up and brushing myself off. This, of course, provoked James and Sirius to start laughing their heads off. Remus actually came over to see if I was okay, which I was. Then I had another battle with the front steps. I tripped and fell flat on my face.

"Ouch! Bloody hell!" I exclaimed, pushing myself upward and rubbing my nose where it had made contact with the stone steps.

"God Tonks, I've never seen anyone fall as much as you," Remus said, helping me stand up. It was a little hard to hear him over the roar of laughter from James and Sirius, who were nearly in stitches.

"Yeah me either," I said, smiling slightly.

After we got up the steps and into the Great Hall, I took a moment to let it sink in. I was finally back at Hogwarts.

We walked over to the Gryffindor table and sat down. I felt at home sitting there between my friends. Then, the sorting ceremony then took place, all the first years grouped at the front of the hall. They all looked incredibly nervous. I probably looked the same way when I was in that position.

"My God… Let's get this rolling," Sirius muttered. "I'm starving."

"Me too," James agreed.

Unluckily for James and Sirius, the sorting took forever. I swear there were double the amount of first years then there was last year. Maybe I was just making things up, but still it took way too long. As soon as the sorting was over, I realized we would have to sit through Dumbledore's speech again.

"Welcome everyone! Welcome to a new term!" he exclaimed, beaming out at all of the students. You could almost hear crickets at the short break in his speech. Everyone was so hungry we could probably eat a Hippogriff.

"Uhm… yes. Well… To everyone who is unfamiliar to me, I am Professor Dumbledore, headmaster here at Hogwarts. I am so incredibly excited for this term! Now I don't want to keep you waiting much longer, so bear with me," he said

He went over a few housekeeping rules, such as no students should enter the Forbidden Forest, no first years should own a broom and other stuff like that. I could tell Sirius was about to jump up and run to the kitchen himself he was so hungry. Or maybe he was just being dramatic, which is totally possible.

"Now, let me remind you, that the Whomping Willow that we have planted on our grounds is a very dangerous species of tree. Please, I urge you to be extremely cautious around this plant, as we don't want any injuries," Professor Dumbledore said.

Again, I felt Remus shift in his seat next to me. I had no idea why the thought of the Whomping Willow harming anyone was so upsetting to him. I mean, of course it would be devastating if someone was hurt, but I didn't feel the need to be so uncomfortable.

"Now everyone… tuck in," Dumbledore concluded. And the feast began.

This feast reminded me of Christmas Day's feast last year. It was so extravagant that I could barely decide what to heap onto my plate and what to leave behind. There were too many choices. Roast beef, mashed potatoes, soup, bread, steak, macaroni and cheese, noodles, anything you could imagine. Dessert was probably the best though. There was cakes, candies, chocolate fountains, cheesecake, strawberries, cookies, candy bars, and massive sculptures made out of ice cream. I almost exploded.

After the feast, everyone had to loosen their belts a little bit, especially the boys. I don't think I had ever seen Remus eat so much! It was like he was a hungry wolf devouring his prey. And don't even get me started on James and Sirius, who ate everything.

Dumbledore wished us goodnight, then sent us off to our dorms for a good night's rest.

We journeyed up through the castle to Gryffindor tower. I was so stuffed I could barely walk straight! When we arrived, Sasha was their to greet us again.

"Hey Tonks," he said, acknowledging me and my friends.

"Night Sash," I said, and climbed through the portrait hole. It was exactly how I remembered it; roaring fire, dozens of bookshelves, and cozy couches.

"Now, it is time to do my third favorite thing," Sirius said, walking toward the staircase leading to the dorms. "Behind causing trouble and eating of course."

"And what is that?" I asked, laughing.

"Sleeping," Sirius said, yawning. We bid each other goodnight when we reached the landing and the boys climbed the stairs to their dorm and I climbed the stairs to my dorm. This year, I went to a room on my right that said:

Second Year Girls

I pushed the door open and saw the four girls unpacking.

"Tonks!" Lily squealed, and ran over to give me a hug, closely followed by Lydia.

"Hey Lily," I said, hugging her back.

"How was your summer?" she asked as I gave Lydia a hug.

"Boring… Although I really did enjoy your letters! What's a… a tele…telefusion again?" I asked, confused.

"Television," she corrected me, then explained what it was again.

"Muggle stuff is so fascinating…" I said, walking over to my bed to start unpacking. I glanced over my shoulder at Scarlet and May. They didn't even seem to notice I had arrived. I shrugged it off. Who cares?

It didn't take me long to unpack and change into my pajamas. I laid down in my nice warm bed again and was in heaven. I took a moment to just lay there. Then I called goodnight to everyone and shut my eyes. I had another peculiar dream.

In this dream, I wasn't much older than I was now, maybe 13. I dressed in a gorgeous silver dress that was tightly fitted to my knees and black heels. My hair was done to a tee and my make up was flawless. I was dancing with someone across a magnificent dance floor set up in the Great Hall. I looked up into the face of my partner. It was…


His arms were wrapped tightly around my waist and my wrists were crossed behind his neck. The song that was playing in the background was slow and romantic. The lights were dimmed and everything was silent except for the music and some quiet whisperings from the other couples on the dance floor.

I looked up into Sirius's handsome face, which was cleaned up pretty nicely. He looked down at me, smiling as broadly as I've ever seen. He looked down into my eyes then started to lean in to kiss me. I closed my eyes and prepared myself for the kiss. His lips were centimeters from mine when we heard-


It was the most terrible noise I had ever heard in my life. It sounded like an animal was being tortured right outside a window in the Great Hall. The howl was so loud and horrifying that everything stopped. The dancing, the music, the kiss. Everything came to a screeching halt as everyone looked around frantically to see where the noise was coming from. Then we heard it again.


I sat bolt up right in my bed, cold sweat dripping down my face. That terrible howl from my dream rang in my ears. I was crying and screaming so loud that everyone woke up.

"Tonks! What's wrong?" I heard Lily call as the lights in the dorm flicked on. I had to take a few steady breaths to calm myself down before I could talk.

"Lily… Lily… Bad dream…" was all I could manage.

"Shh.. Shh.. It's okay," she said, hugging me tightly.

"Shut up Nymphadora," I heard Scarlet call from her bed.

"Scarlet, you shut up," Lily said, patting my back gently. Scarlet didn't answer back.

I quietly explained my dream to Lily and Lydia and began calm myself down. I begged them not to tell anyone about it, and they agreed. They made sure I was okay then went back to bed. The lights turned off and I lay in the darkness again, the dream playing over and over again in my head. What did it mean?


Ooh. Threw you all for a loop huh?(:

Remus or Sirius?



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