I Love You More than Myself Part One

Chapter 25

"It is not the most lovable individuals who stand more in need of love, but the most unlovable" - Ashley Montagu


*Tonks's POV*

I was squished up against the window of my family's car next to Aaron. Trying to fit a 17 year old, a 15 year old, and an almost 13 year old into the tiny backseat of a car was no easy task; we barely had room to breathe. But discomfort was no matter for me. I was finally going back to school, to see my friends. I had missed them desperately this summer, more than I had ever imagined. I now wished James and Sirius had given me proper goodbyes before we parted.

The trauma of a few nights ago seemed to have worn off by now. Aaron and I didn't talk about and we didn't tell anybody about our conversation in the back garden. But I had finally figured out why I was in a such rage; I had gotten my period the morning after. I didn't need to tell Aaron that, but it just helped me be sure that I hadn't gone mad.

I had told myself this morning while I was getting dressed that I would find out the big secret this year. We were all teenagers now, we didn't have to hide anything. If I had to squeeze it out of James and Sirius or go and actually ask Remus himself didn't matter. I was going to find out the truth once and for all.

For some odd reason, King's Cross was not as busy as it had been in years past. My father looked around warily and whispered something to my mother. I opened my ears and heard a few phrases, but the rest was incomprehensible.

"… He-Who-Must-Not-Be-Named… everyone too scared… don't want to risk it."

He-Who-Must-Not-Be-Named? Who was that? Curiosity almost got the best of me, but before I could ask my father any questions, I bit my tongue.

We crossed onto Platform 9 ¾ and suddenly realized how empty it was. I would say about a good 10% of the people were absent from the usually packed platform. But, nevertheless, it was much easier to maneuver our trolleys to the luggage cart and get our trunks inside. After a few short goodbyes, me, Sasha, and Aaron boarded the train. We waved and waved until we could see our parents no more, then separated.

"See ya, sissy," Aaron said as he stalked off down the train.

"Behave yourself, Nymphadora," Sasha warned. I almost aimed a good kick at him, but decided against it. I would confront him later.

After my brothers left, I continued on to the compartment where the boys and I had arranged to meet. As soon as I walked in, I saw the compartment was uninhabited except for Peter.

"Er… Hello," I said, walking in and taking a seat. Peter and I had never been very friendly, so this was a bit awkward. "How was your summer?"

"Fine," he answered, his watery blue eyes looking up at me. He was still the pudgy little boy he had been last year and the year before. The only difference was he grew a few inches. "How was yours?"

"Uh… fine," I said, shifting uncomfortably in my seat across from him. Where were James and Sirius? Suddenly, the compartment door opened and in walked a very tall handsome boy. Wait no… That was Remus!

Remus seemed to have matured a great amount in the two months that I hadn't seen him. He was definitely a few inches taller, maybe 5' 6", and his light brown hair almost touched his shoulders. He seemed to have added a few more scars to the collection on his face and hands, but all in all, he looked fantastic. He was so handsome. I soon realized that my mouth was hanging open and I had to close it fast.

"Wotcher," I exclaimed, standing up and running over to embrace him. I felt his strong arms wrap around my waist and I couldn't help but start beaming. "Someone grew up this summer, huh?"

"A bit," he answered, chuckling. He released me and stared down into my eyes. "You look older too."

"I do?" I asked, cocking an eyebrow. My waist-length black hair and dirty old converses didn't seem very grown up to me.

"Very much so," he answered, still beaming. "I missed you."

"I missed you too," I answered. I then heard someone clear their throat; it was Peter.

"So, uh, Remus," he started. "How've you been?"

"Oh God," Remus said, blushing. "Sorry Peter, didn't see you there."

"Obviously," he muttered under his breath.

"Yeah…" Remus said, putting his hand on the back of neck and sighing. I couldn't help but chuckle. Not long after Remus arrived, we settled down opposite Peter. We then started wondering where our other friends were.

"Where the hell are they?" Remus asked, standing up to peak out the compartment door and down the hall.

"I dunno…" I said, shrugging my shoulders.

"Geez it's been like 45 minutes," Remus said, coming back to sit down. We sat there alone for another 15 minutes before dumb and dumber showed up.

All of a sudden, the door burst open and the compartment was filled with the sound of roaring laughter. We all turned around and saw James and Sirius staggering into the compartment bent over in stitches.

"Did… did ya," James said, gasping for breath, still laughing his head off. "Did ya see his face?"

"Yeah!" Sirius answered, falling on the floor of the compartment and pounding the floor. "He was all like-" He made a ridiculous face "-and then… and then…"

"What is so funny?" Remus asked, standing up.

"We… we…" James tried to say, but couldn't finish because he bent over laughing again.

"We turned Snivellus green!" Sirius blurted out. All of a sudden, he and James were overtaken by roaring laughter once again.

"What?" Remus said, jaw dropped. "You didn't!"

"We did!" James choked out.

"Oh my God!" I said, standing up laughing. "Fantastic!"

"No, this is not fantastic!" Remus said, rounding on me.

"Common Remus!" I said, turning to him. "He's a git!"

"Yes, maybe he is," Remus said. "But they-" He pointed to James and Sirius. "-could be expelled!"

"Common Remus," James said, trying to regain control. "It's all in good fun!"

"Good fun?" Remus exclaimed. "Good fun? You could be expelled!"

"Yeah… maybe we could…" Sirius said, taking deep breaths, finally under control. "But who cares!"

"Yeah who cares!" James said, throwing his hands in the air and chuckling.

"Okay.. Okay," Remus said, putting his hands up in surrender. "I'll lay off."

Then, as if on cue, the compartment door burst open and a green blur rushed in and pinned James to the ground.

"Potter!" he screamed. "Change me back now!"

"Hey, woah! Snivellus!" James said, still smirking. "I was just matching you to your beloved Slytherin green! I thought you would be happy about that!"

"No I am not!" Severus said, aiming a good punch at James and making his nose bleed.

"Woah! Snape! Let him go!" Sirius said, trying to pry him off of James.

"Leave me alone Black!" Severus said, trying to punch Sirius as well, but Sirius ducked.

"SEV!" We heard someone yell. We all turned around and saw Lily standing in the doorway, staring open mouthed at Severus on James. "Let him go!"

"Lily, let me handle this!" he said, turning away from her.

"No Sev!" she said, walking into the compartment and pulling him off of James, who scrambled away behind Remus, trying to stop the flow of blood from his nose.

"Do you see what he did to me?" Severus said to Lily.

"Yes, of course I do Sev!" she said, putting her hands on his shoulders. "I can put you back to normal, you just have to calm down!" Severus stopped struggling.

"Sorry…" he said, taking a deep breath.

"Common," Lily said, walking toward the door, Severus following her like a child who just had gotten disciplined. Before they crossed the threshold, Lily looked back and gave James and Sirius a dirty look. But soon, they were gone. We all stood there in silence for a few seconds. Then, all of a sudden, James and Sirius burst out with laughter again.

"Man, Lily has control of him!" Sirius said, bending over.

"You two…" Remus said, throwing himself down on the seat behind him. It took a few minutes, but eventually, James and Sirius calmed themselves down again.

"That-," James said. "-was interesting."

"Agreed!" Sirius said, settling down next to Peter.

As we sped of toward Hogsmede station, I couldn't help but think that this was the most interesting train ride so far. But all in all, I was more than happy to be back with my friends. This was going to be an interesting year…


So, the paragraphs might be all screwed up, and I don't really know what happened to them! I must have hit a button last night! Grrr…

Anyways, feedback on this chapter? The quote? Remus's maturity level? Anything at all!



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