I Love You More than Myself Part One

Chapter 29

Hello! A few quick announcements before we begin!

1. Oh yes, its that time again! I'm in another show! Yippee.. Kinda. So writing is gonna be hard for another two weeks, so PLEASE BEAR WITH ME! I love this story more than anything and your support is GREATLY appreciated! So expect almost everything on Friday or Saturday! (;

2. I'm running out of quotes for the beginnings of chapters! So if you know any quotes that relate to Remus and Tonks PLEASE PM ME! Greatly appreciated!(:

3. Do I have any Daughtry fans out there? Going to his concert in April! LOVE. HIM.

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Ps. HAPPY EARLY BIRTHDAY REMUS JOHN LUPIN! Tomorrow. March 10th. (;

You can't blame gravity for falling in love. - Albert Einstein

*Remus's POV*

I finally did it! I thought, pulling away from her sweet lips after the short kiss. I already wanted more. I looked into her face that was frozen in shock, not having moved a millimeter.

"Tonks…?" I asked warily, seeing if she was conscious.

"Did… did you just…?" she stammered out, and I realized why she was so quiet: she had just kissed her best friend, who happened to be a werewolf.

"I'm sorry," I said, suddenly standing up and starting to pace the corridor. "I shouldn't have done that."

I knew I had totally blown it. Ruined everything. Our friendship, a chance at love… hope that my life wouldn't be so bad. I felt so stupid. Why did the hell did I do that?

"What are you sorry for?" she asked, breaking her shocked gaze and standing up.

"That… that was uncalled for," I mumbled. "I shouldn't have… right after you found out about… about… my lycan-"

But before I could finish my sentence, her lips met mine, making me stop my pacing abruptly. Again, this kiss was no more than three seconds, nothing anything too romantic. But it was enough to make my heart flutter in my chest.

"Tonks…" I mumble as soon as she pulls away. "Are you feeling okay?"

"I'm perfect," she whispered, still close to my face. "I feel wonderful."

"Do you know what you just did?" I asked, thinking about what I had been trying to ask her before she had distracted me.

"Of course I did," she said, wrapping an arm around my neck.

"Tonks…" I say, and I felt like I had mumbled her name too many times in one morning. "I'm a… a you-know-what."

"I know that," she said, her fingers running through my hair.

"Tonks…" I mumble again.

"Shhh," she croons putting a finger up to my lips. "Don't talk, just enjoy it."

Then she leans in for another kiss. This time, I pull away and take a few deep breaths, my back facing her. Did she know what she was doing? She must be in shock or something… No one would ever want to kiss someone like me.

"What was that for?" she asked angrily.

"Tonks, do you realize what you're doing?" I asked, turning around to face her. She stood in the middle of the deserted corridor, hands on her hips.

"Of course I do," she repeated. "What's wrong with kissing, Remus? We're teenagers for God's sake."

"I know, I know…" I say, stepping back as she tries to advance again. "Tonks, you just found out I'm a you-know-what, so then you go and snog me?"

"You snogged me first!" she exclaimed, taking a step back in defense. Okay. Maybe I did. Shit. Why did I do that again?

"Yes… I did," I admit, feeling my face starting to burn up.

"Yes you did," she repeats, taking another step forward. "So why am I at fault?"

"You're not…" I admit. This is all my fault. "But I didn't mean to."

"You didn't mean to?" she asks incredulously. "What? Did a gust of wind blow you into me and your lips just happened to be puckered?"

"Uhm… Maybe," I say, rubbing the back of my neck with my palm. "Look, Tonks-"

Again, she cuts me off with her lips. I have to admit, I really like it. I never wanted to stop kissing her, her body as close to mine as it ever has been. But no, I have to change her mind. I'm not good for her.

"Tonks…" I mumble against her lips, trying to stop.

"What's the matter now, Remus?" she asks stubbornly.

"I don't think this is a good idea," I say, still centimeters away from her lips. I couldn't pull myself away.

"Why not?" she asks, grabbing my hands. "We both like each other, right?"

"I… I do," I stammer. "Very much. But-"

"So what's the problem?" she asks impatiently. I can't concentrate with her this close. I pull away to clear my head.

"Tonks… Just… just give it some time," I say, not coming up with a better solution.

"What?" she asks.

"Just give it some time," I repeat. "Like…a year or so to yanno, see if you still have feelings for me after you see how, uh…, terrible I am before and after the full moon." I'm a terrible liar.

"I've already seen that," she says, glancing down at the floor, the situation finally becoming uncomfortable for her.

"How would you like a werewolf for a boyfriend, huh? Sounds fun right?" I say sarcastically, hoping to provoke her into dropping it. But she doesn't.

"But I don't care," she says. That won't be the last time those words escape her lips.

"I know, I get it. Just give it a year okay?" I ask, walking over and placing my hands on her shoulders. "Just to see if you still want me."

"Fine…" she says, releasing herself from my grasp. She sulks away, walking back to the wall I had found her leaned up against to retrieve her wand.

"But yanno…. I could use another kiss," I say, trying to sound as alluring as I could, but knowing I was failing miserably. "Just so we don't have withdraw over the next year."

"I don't object to that," she says, and flings herself at me again, our lips locked. This kiss is at least a minute long, and completely bliss. Her arms wrapped around my neck, my arms wrapped tightly around her waist. I didn't want to stop. I had never felt happier in my life.

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*Tonks's POV*

The next few weeks are very awkward between me and Remus. All I know is that I like him, and really, really like him. I can still feel the ghost of his last kiss brush my lips when I lay in bed in the early hours of the morning. No one else knows about our little romance in the corridor, at least I think no one knows. I have my suspicions about James and Sirius, but they never mention it. I hadn't told anyone, so if it got out, it wouldn't be my fault.

My birthday came and passed without much excitement. My parents sent me a fantastic present though. An owl! I had always wanted an owl! I had had to use Sasha's owl up until now, but after I got Mordecai, I would never have to use Sasha's old owl again! And if you're wondering about the name, I had read it in an adventure novel that I loved. I also thought the name was extremely cool, something you wouldn't normally name an owl.

Although Mordecai brought me joy, I still couldn't keep my mind off Remus for the rest of October and November. Christmas was soon evident over all parts of the grounds and school. Snow fell in heavy blizzards, blanketing the whole school in pearly white snow. I didn't complain, I loved the snow!

One day, we got another bit of exciting news: James's mother had invited us all to spend the holidays at James's house! As soon as James told us this, my mind automatically thought There's no way in hell that my mother would let me go. But, to my complete and total surprise, she agreed the following day. Now I had something to look forward to.

Packing wasn't as nearly as traumatic as it was last year. I was in a good mood, ready to leave the school and venture off with my friends! Unfortunately, Peter wouldn't be accompanying us on this trip. His mother insisted that he come home for Christmas. Although we weren't great friends, I still felt bad for him.

It was the evening before the train left Hogsmede station to take us home for Christmas. We were all seated around the fire, laying around in sweats and t-shirts. We looked like complete and total bums, but we didn't mind. Remus had his head rested on an open book like a pillow while he slept. I couldn't help but glance over a few times. This caught the attention of Sirius.

"Waitin' for another kiss, chickadee?"

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