I Love You More than Myself Part One

Chapter 52

"A lawful kiss is never worth a stolen one." -Guy De Maupassant


*Tonks's POV*

"That's your dress?"

Lily and Lydia stand in awe at the foot of my bed, jaws dropped, staring at my dress for the ball.

"Yeah… my mum sent it to me," I explain, in awe myself at the beauty of this dress.

It's a long, dark purple dress that's fitted to right below the bum and then flares out in different pick ups and waves. The top has no straps and beading around the neckline. It's the most beautiful dress I'd ever seen.

"This is gorgeous, Nymph," Lily says, fingering the satin fabric. "Why did she send it?"

"It came with this," I say, handing her the letter from my mother.


You're probably wondering why I sent you this dress. Well, your father got promoted at work and we decided we wanted to reward you for having such a good school year. We're so proud of you Nymphadora. You're a good student, responsible, respectful. You deserve this. Have a wonderful night with Remus and your friends.

Love, Mummy and Daddy

"That's amazing," Lydia says, staring hungrily at it.

"Yeah," I mutter. "Well now that's one less person we have to worry about in Hogsmede."

"Yeah," Lily agrees, finally tearing her eyes off my dress to go check her bag on her bed. "My mother sent me money this morning."

"Good," I say. "We'll have a good time!"

"Obviously," Lydia says, smiling.

The situation in the dorm has gotten so much better. Lily, Lydia, and I are closer than we ever have been before and Lily has stopped the nonsense of complaining about James night and day. The whole dorm is more peaceful and just a better environment. It makes me confident that we can live harmoniously for three more years.

"Do you know who the other boys are going with?" Lydia asks, wandering back to her bed as well.

"No," I admit. "I knew Sirius said he was going to ask someone, but he wouldn't tell me who, the jerk."

Lily and Lydia snigger.

"James… well you all know James's first pick."

Lily blushes.

"So, I don't know exactly what his plans are now. I don't think he has any. Peter… well. He'll probably follow James and Sirius around all night."

"Poor chap," Lily muses. "He'll probably never get a date."

"I think that sometimes, too," I admit. "He's extremely friendly once you get to know him, he's just shy."

"I figured," Lily says.

"TONKSIE!" I hear Sirius bellow up the stairs. "GET YOUR ARSE DOWNSTAIRS NOW!"

"Do they always call you like that?" Lily asks, chuckling.

"Pretty much," I mutter, getting up and grabbing my bag. "Sorry to have to leave, but Sirius will keep shouting until I go downstairs."

"It's fine, just go have fun," Lily says.

"Thanks Lils," I gush, then sweep from the dorm, down the stairs and into the common room.


*Sirius's POV*

"What do you want?" she asks, marching across the common room towards us.

"No need to sound so mean, chickadee," I chuckle.

"Sorry," she says, blushing. "I was just-"

"Oh, it doesn't matter. I'm mean all the time," James says, waving a hand in her direction. "I want to know why you've summoned us all here, Sirius."

Tonks looks apprehensively at the four of us, then wanders over to Remus and takes a seat in his lap. I blush.

"Anyways," I say. "First thing's first. I got you a date Jamesie."

"What?!" he exclaims. "Who?!"

"That May girl from Tonks's dorm."

"What?!" Tonks exclaims, snorting "She's a total slag!"

"Slag or not a slag, she's attractive," James muses. "Thanks mate!"

"Anytime!" I say as she slaps me on the back as a way of saying thanks.

"I cant believe you two," she says, rolling her eyes. "Going out with a girl just because she's pretty."

"Well, that's how I decide on my dates," I say, chuckling at her ignorance.

"Yeah, well," she says, rolling her eyes, laying her head on Remus's shoulder, who's been silent the whole time.

"Got anything to say, Moony?" I ask.

"Not really," he mutters, running a free hand down his face.

"You feeling okay?" she asks, sitting up to face him with concern in her eyes.

"You know," he says, referring to the full moon.

"Oh…" she says, nuzzling her head into his shoulder. "I'm sorry, sweetheart."

"Nothing to be sorry about," he mutters, laying his head back against the couch, tracing small circles on her back in a comforting way. We sit in silence for a moment, then I clear my throat.

"Next order of business is, well… I've found myself a date, too," I announce, trying to break the awkward silence.

"Who?" Peter asks.

"Scarlet White," I say, a smile curling on my lips. Tonks immediately sits up, jaw dropped.

"You're going to the ball with Scarlet?!" she questions.

"Yeah!" I say, nodding my head.

"She is a terrible, terrible person," Tonks says, standing up.

"Tonks, it's not like I'm going to marry her!" I argue, standing up as well.

"Yeah, but still!" she says, expression growing angrier every second. "You don't realize what a slag she really is! She has no respect for herself, or anyone else for that matter!"

"Tonks, she's just a pretty face for me to bring to the dance," I explain, trying to calm her tantrum.

"That's ridiculous!"

"No, it's not."

"Sirius, how could you-"

"ENOUGH!" I hear Remus exclaim. "This is too much. Stop arguing like first years!"

"Remus, you've heard all the stories about Scar-"

"I know I have. I understand she's not a very nice person. But you cant be doing this right here, right now," he says, laying a hand over his eyes.

At first, I am confused, then I realized our shouting must have been irritating Remus since he's feeling ill from the full moon.

"Oh my gosh…" she says, rushing over to him. "I'm so sorry."

"Remus, mate," I start, blushing. "Sorry."

"It's fine, just don't do it again," he says, sighing. "Tonks, take me up to the dorm please."

"Sure, sweetheart." And they leave.

"Woooo…" James says, letting out a breath. "That was intense, mate."

"I don't see why it's such a bad thing!" I exclaim.

"Well, we do know Scarlet treats Tonks like shit," Peter pips up.

"Well…" I start, searching for a counterargument, but I come up short.

"Mate, maybe you should look at it from Tonks's perspective," James suggests. "There's this girl that you absolutely hate, and all of a sudden, one of your best mates decides to bring her to the ball with him. Now, this girl isn't just mean to you, she puts you down constantly, she makes you feel like nothing. She's just a bitch."

I stay silent. Maybe this wasn't such a good idea.

"I cant just tell her I'm not bringing her anymore," I say, exasperated.

"I know," James says, standing up to pat me on the shoulder. "Just think it through next time, okay?"

"Okay," I agree. Downtrodden, I sit down. "But she is a gem, though."

"I don't disagree," James muses. "May is too."

"Yeah," I say, spirits starting to rise a little bit. "I bet they're gonna look really good."

"I bet," James says, fantasizing with me as well. "But Evans is gonna look better."

I snort.

"Leave me be," he says. "I'm happy."

"Okay," I mutter, chortling to myself, realizing that although Tonks is angry with me, this wasn't such a bad idea.


*Remus's POV*

The feeling a few days before the full moon is only comparable to having the flu, but a million times worse. Your whole body aches, your head pounds, you feel as if you're about to throw up, but you never do. Your vision is cloudy, loud noises hurt, and above all, everyone and everything is a bother.

"Here you go, darling," she croons, helping me lay down in my four-poster.

"Thank you," I mutter, pulling the covers up to shoulders; I'm shivering.

"Are you cold?" she asks, concerned.

"I'm always freezing, or burning up," I explain. "At the moment, I'm an icicle. In a few minutes, I'll be on fire."

Her expression softens as she climbs into bed next to me. My heart starts racing.

"I just want you to never have to deal with this again," she whispers, chin on my shoulder, looking at me. Now, if I didn't feel as if I was about to die, this situation would have been golden.

"Thank you sweetheart," I muster before letting my eyes close.

"Just go to sleep," she croons. "I wont leave you."

She lays her head on my chest, snuggling up very close next to me. The last thing I remember before falling asleep, is her starting to snore.



Yeah… I think all you guys are accustomed to me not updating for a while, no? So incredibly sorry about that! D: I feel terrible every time a day passes and I haven't updated!

So, I just started school again (doesn't it feel as if I was just celebrating it being out?) so I've been busy, going to school, going to bed early, etc etc. I'm sure most of you understand! :D

But I would really appreciate a review! Reviews make me smile! Thanks guys! Hope to be updating in a few days! :D

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