I Love You More than Myself Part One

Chapter 79

"Love is like a quicksand. The deeper you get into it, the harder for you to get out."-Unknown


*Remus's POV*

"You have to be joking."

"I'm not! I told you I wasn't!"

"I don't believe you! After five years of pestering the poor girl, she finally said yes?!"

It's nearly midnight in the 6th Year Boys dormitory, but no one has intentions of sleeping. James has just gotten around to telling us all where he went when he skipped Defense Against the Dark Arts this morning, after Sirius pestering him all day about it.

"This is a monumental day in the life of James Alexander Potter," James muses, the silly, love-struck grin still plastered across his face. I can't help but wonder if that's what I looked like just after Tonks and I started our relationship a few years ago; I chuckle, and honestly hope I didn't.

"It sure is," Sirius agrees, scoffing again in complete shock. For some reason, Sirius can't seem to grasp that what James is saying is true. He keeps asking him, over and over, with James giving the same answer each time: Yes.

"We're going to grow up, and get married, and have babies," he fantasizes, flopping back on his bed and closing his eyes in content, imagining all the wonderful things in store for him and Lily. I can't help but roll my eyes and bury my face into my pillow.

"Oh, I'm sure," Sirius says sarcastically, chuckling. "And when you get married, I'll be your best man."

"You sure will be."

"And I'll be the godfather of your firstborn," he continues, the wicked Sirius-esque smile still plastered across his face. "But I will refuse if you marry anyone but Lily."

"Well, be ready to have all that damn responsibility, because it's going to happen," James retorts, sitting back up to give him an odd look; Sirius snorts into his lap.

"I don't know why you would bestow such responsibility on my shoulders," he responds. "You know me. I'm a mess."

"Yes," I say, chuckling very hard into the pillow. "But you're a beautiful one."

"Aw, thanks, Remmy," he says mockingly, getting up and placing mother-like kisses all over the back of my head, the only place he can reach due to my position. "Ooh, Moony."


"You're hair smells lovely," he muses, taking another whiff of my shampoo.

"Thank you?" I mutter, sitting up and quirking an eyebrow at James and Peter.

"Ahh," he says, sighing and pulling away. "What do you use?"

"I dunno…" I say tentatively, chuckling. "Why are you asking me such odd questions?"

"I dunno!" he replies, stalking back over to his four-poster. "Let me know when you find out."

I widen my eyes, chuckling unsurely, almost scared by Sirius's odd actions. James catches my eye and makes the same sarcastically worried look as Sirius flops back on his four-poster, muttering something about unicorns.


*Tonks's POV*

The morning of the ball is a crazy one.

"May, where did you put my curling iron?!"

"I didn't touch your curling iron!"

"Yes, you did! You borrowed it the other day!"

"Stop being such a bitch!" Lily calls, causing me to open my eyes. "It's right over here."

I sit up, rubbing my eyes as Scarlet stalks across the dorm, taking the curling iron from Lily's outstretched hand.

"Never touch my stuff again," she says, looking at Lily with a face full of contempt. "You dirty little thief."

"I did not steal it!" Lily argues, rolling her eyes in exasperation. "It was right over here, on the dresser."

"Whatever, Evans," Scarlet snarls. "Have fun with your little ball of arrogance tonight."

"James has changed," Lily says. I can almost see the anger rising in her. "At least I have a date. You're going alone, are you not?"

"Of course not," Scarlet scoffs. "I'm going with Sirius."

"What?!" I exclaim, jumping out of bed in shock. "I thought you two broke up!"

Scarlet doesn't answer for a minute, but turns away from us, and stands stock still.

"He asked me to go," she says quietly and evenly. "I said yes."

"So you're back together?" I ask incredulously.

"You could say that," she says icily, stalking back over to her bed. She grabs a wad of clothes, and stalks off to the powder room, closing the door with a snap.

"Why didn't she just change in here?" Lily scoffs.


*Later that evening*

My dress is quite spectacular this year; a red silky-satin material that hugs my body to just above my knees, accentuating my curves, and natural body. Then, at the knees, it flairs out, ruched and sparkly. I also can't help but notice that my chest looks fantastic in this dress. I match it with black stilettos (which is going to be quite dangerous for me) and dark brown curly hair.

"Not to be blunt or anything," Lily scoffs as I stand up from doing my makeup. "But Tonks, you look hot." I blush, hiding an embarrassed smile.

"Thanks, Lils," I mutter, looking tentatively up at her. "You look beautiful, too."

"Thanks," she says, smiling. "Can you imagine what Remus is going to do when he sees you?!"

"I can only imagine," I say, blushing even harder.

"Oh," she says, giving me a warm hug. "I'm so excited for you two."

"I hope you and James have a good time as well," I say as she pulls away, going to strap on her heels. "I know he's extremely excited about it."

"Is he?" she asks sarcastically. "I couldn't tell."

I chuckle, waiting for her and Lydia to be ready. I survey myself in the mirror, not really believing what I am seeing; I am almost seventeen years old, and of age. Here I stand, in this gorgeous dress, my hair and makeup impeccable. I can't help but think that I do look really good all dressed up, but I don't want to be arrogant. This just feels so monumental for some reason. We only have one year left of school, and I can't believe it. It went by so quick, it seems that I was just meeting the boys yesterday.

"I'm James by the way," the boy with the glasses said, holding out his hand.

"N-nice to meet you," I said, shaking his hand.

"Sirius Black," the curly haired kid said, holding out his hand as well. When I shook it, he shook back vigorously. "Might I say that was brilliant."

"Thanks," I said smiling a little bit.

"Remus Lupin," the shabby-looking kid said, softly. He looked shy and nervous. He was also blushing.

I smile fondly at the memory, my throat closing up and tears welling in my eyes. My, how time has flown. We've grown so much in these past six years, not only personally, but as a group of friends as well.

"Are you ready, Tonks?" Lily asks, bringing me back to reality.

"Oh," I say, shaking my head slightly, wiping away a stray tear. "Yeah."

We parade from the dorm, leaving Scarlet and May still scrambling to get ready. As we descend the stairs, my stomach squirms in anticipation; I can't wait to see Remus and his reaction to my dress. Lydia goes down first, followed by Lily. I can't help but chuckle as James gets his eyes on her; they widen, and his face breaks into a huge smile as she walks over to him, blushing and trying to hide a smile.

I follow Lily down the stairs, and freeze when I see him; he's standing there so sheepishly in his suit, his perfectly messy brown hair slightly fallen in his face. He wears the biggest smile I've ever seen as he looks up and sees he, his eyes widening and becoming alive. His face turns bright red as I walk toward him, finally able to move my legs.

"Hello beautiful," he mutters, reaching out and grabbing my waist, pulling me into him sooner than I should've. He looks down at me with love, lust, and a million other emotions. I temporarily forget how to breathe. We lock eyes, both our breathings becoming labored. "You look stunning, darling. No, beyond stunning. You look gorgeous, beautiful, amazing-"

"Shhhh," I say, chuckling and laying a finger on his lips. "I get it. Thank you."

"Oh you're very welcome," he mutters, leaning in to whisper in my ear: "And, my dear, I can't grasp how unbelievably sexy you look."

"You look handsome, Rem," I say, blushing even harder. "Thank you."

"Mm," he leans in to kiss me.

"Oi!" Sirius calls, breaking off our kiss. For some reason, this always seems to happen. I roll my eyes as we turn slowly to face our friends. While we were, uh… occupied, Scarlet and May made their ways downstairs. Scarlet now stands next to Sirius, eyes full of contempt as she looks at us. "We have a ball to attend."

"Right," Remus mutters, embarrassedly, lacing our fingers together. "Lead the way."

Sirius chuckles as he offers Scarlet his elbow, she begrudgingly linking hers with his. She is sporting a huge, poof-y, silver ball gown, which surprises me as it does nothing for her figure. I can't help but chuckle as I realize it actually makes her look like she's gained a few pounds.

"What?" Remus asks as we make our way down a corridor. Sirius and Scarlet lead, we bring up the rear.

"Scarlet's dress," I whisper back, still suppressing my chuckle. "She looks pretty bad."

"I thought I was the only one who noticed!" he whispers excitedly back, chuckling as well.

"No," I respond once I get enough air. "I saw it too."


*Remus's POV*

The last song of the night has to be my favorite. After a night of dancing, sweating, and partying, it's nice to have this little alone, quiet time with her. She has her arms wrapped around my neck, and my arms laced around her waist, as they always are when we dance. Her breathing is slow and even, our heartbeats synchronized so they beat as one. I have my face buried in her hair, my head resting in the crook of her neck, hers in mine. Her hand suddenly moves from my neck and down my chest, grabbing my tie tightly.

For some reason, this small movement causes something inside of me to stir, and thoughts I've had for many months all come spewing out in the form of words.


"Yes?" she answers, pulling her head off my shoulder so she can look up at me, her eyes twinkling in the dim light.

"I have a very important question to ask you," I say, not even feeling the slightest bit nervous, even though I should be.

"Yes?' she says again, chuckling.

"Would you…. would you marry me?" I ask, blushing. She looks up at me with a look I can't quite decipher. "I mean, after we graduate of course. We could run off, and get married. Have a life together, maybe a family."

She smiles slightly, blushing even harder than me. She tries to hide it, but I know she is beyond elated and ecstatic.

"Are you proposing?" she asks, the silly smile still creeping onto her face.

"Of course I'll have to do a formal proposal when the time comes," I say, running my hand up and down her back. She shivers under my touch, and lets out a massive breath. "But for now, I suppose it'll just be a promise. A promise between the two of us that we will get married in the future."

She considers me for a moment, finally looking up to meet my eyes for the first time since I popped the question. "Yes."

I don't know how to respond, but my heart swells with joy as she finally lets her smile break across her face. I respond with the same smile, my eyes locked with hers. She reaches up for my tie again and pulls me in for a kiss. Her lips press against mine, so soft and full, her fingers twisting endlessly in my hair.

"And just think," I mutter, breaking our kiss for a moment, our lips still centimeters from each other. "In a matter of years, you'll be Mrs. Lupin."

With that, she closes the gap between us and locks our lips together again so tight, I fear we will never be separated again.


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