Needing To Let Go

Love Is Just the Beginning

A/N: thank you to everyone who read and reviewed the last chapter, and I'm glad you all enjoyed it (especially ttcub I'm happy I made you laugh, and I apologize you almost fell out of your seat lol)

(The beginning of the chapter is a recap chapter of what has happened over almost two months just FYI)

(Also, an important Author's note at the bottom please read!)

Previously On Needing To Let Go

It may be the whole incident that happened just now, but I'm pretty sure my brother and Alice had some sort of connection between the two of them.

"Don't worry; you're done with riding lessons for the time being Alice." Edward ordered. I could tell that he was a bit shaken by what happened as well.

The city boy had his work cut out for him if he wanted a relationship with a farm girl like me.

Bella POV:

I can't believe it, but it was actually fixed! The house is almost completely rebuilt, and we managed to finish most of the house a few days before thanksgiving! Thanks to Uncle Charlie, a couple of men from town, and a contractor to make sure that everything were going according to code. Not to mention that we practically worked around the clock to get this house put back together. Edward and his father, Carlisle, offered to help us rebuild as well. There were still some final touches that needed to be done. Like I would need to paint my room, and I had a feeling I would need Raven's help with that, because I had an idea to paint a mural on one of my walls.

In the midst of all of the reconstruction, and going to school, it had gotten around that Edward and I was an item. Yes, we got all those looks and whispers, but nothing more really, except a few death glares from Heidi if I happened to run into her in the hallway. I still don't know why she and I stopped being friends, but when I saw her mocking a freshman who what she was wearing it would all come rushing back to me.

Thanksgiving for my family was definitely interesting; Jasper, Emmett, and I had Uncle Charlie and Aunt Renee over. Our grandparents couldn't make the trip out here from Wisconsin. Which was just as well, don't get me wrong, I love my grandparents, but I just never really spent that much time with them. Plus mom and grandma never really got along very well. Also, Rosalie decided to try and make amends with her parents. She and Bentley went to spend Thanksgiving with them. Emmett was a little worried for her and the baby, because Rosalie and her parents don't really have the best of relationship right now. They are pretty well off, and they introduced her to her ex fiancé. They blame Rosalie for 'ruining a good thing'.

The day after we had our Thanksgiving as a whole family Edward invited all of us, my uncle and aunt included, to his house for a late Thanksgiving feast. Apparently Edward's cousins missed their flight for yesterday, so Edward's dad decided to celebrate Thanksgiving a day later. No problem with us. Alice stopped by later that day to help me pick out from my newly furnished wardrobe, thanks mostly to Alice taking me shopping, to pick out what I would wear to the dinner that night. Honestly? I think Alice just made up the excuse to come over so she could get a better look at my brother Jasper. She thought she was being secretive, but in reality she was as transparent as they come. She had a crush on my brother.

Later that night Jasper, Emmett, my aunt and uncle, and I all arrived at Edward's house. But I don't think the word 'house' was the correct term to use. The only term I could think of to describe what it looked like was the word, 'mansion'. I was a bit intimidated at the fact that Edward lived here. I mean, I know his dad is a doctor, and that his mom is an interior decorator, but this 'house' was a bit more than I expected. After I gathered up the courage I knocked on the door. Emmett and Jasper exchanged theories as to who would answer the door. Emmett thought that they would have a butler or a maid answer the door, while Jasper and I both thought that either Alice, Edward, or their parents would answer the door. Charlie and Renee were running a bit behind and asked us to go on ahead and they would come join us later on.

When the door opened, Alice answered the door, with a little boy tagging along with her. He looked to be about five or six, and I could only assume that he was Alice's cousin or something like that. She let us in and I couldn't help but notice when she gave my brother an extra-long glance. Jasper, being the oblivious idiot, didn't notice at all. He may be smart and into American history, but when it came to girls Jasper was completely unaware of the fact that girls found him attractive.

Alice invited us all in and we were flabbergasted at what we saw. I mean, the house looked completely different from when I was here for the Halloween party; everything had a regal feel about it. I could only assume that Alice's mother, Esme, worked her interior decorating magic and changed a humdrum looking house, into the most beautiful looking living room I have ever seen. I was almost too afraid of to touch anything or sit anywhere.

Once we sat down, Edward's father introduced everyone to one another, and I found out that the little boy that tagged along with Alice to greet us was in fact her baby cousin. Carlisle's older brother, Felix, and their dad, Eleazar, all showed up as well too. Thankfully they had a safe trip to get out here, and turns put that the little cousin's name was Anderson. But according to him he wanted to be called 'Andy', and that 'Anderson' was too boring for him.

We sat around the living room and made small talk. Carlisle and Esme didn't want to start without my aunt and uncle, and everyone was more than welcome to wait as well. Everyone caught up with one another, and my brothers and I all got to know Edward and Alice's extended family a bit better as well.

When Renee and Charlie finally came in, we all got up and gathered around the long table and began to start eating. Everything was amazing, and everyone had seconds of my hash brown casserole. By the time we all finished eating there were barely enough for leftovers for anyone, but that sadness was short lived when Esme and Alice came out of the kitchen carrying pumpkin pie and English toffee pie. Almost immediately our previously stuffed stomachs made room for some pieces of pie. I still have dreams about that amazing English toffee pie. I could have that for breakfast, lunch, and dinner and I would be content for the rest of my living days.

The whole time we spent at Edward's house, he barely left my side. Granted, we weren't given much alone time together, mainly because some of his younger cousins were running around the house and causing a commotion. Plus, one of Edward's older cousins came and wanted to catch up with him. His name was Garrett, and actually looked like he could be Edward's long lost twin brother, aside from the whole Edward being adopted thing. As Edward and his cousin caught up, I couldn't help but bring up the time when Edward and his sister helped me and my family around my farm. Garrett started laughing and was surprised that I was able to get Edward to do hard labor. I couldn't help but mention Edward almost getting attacked by our grumpy billy goat, Grandpa. This caused Edward to blush again, and Garrett to start laughing hysterically. Jasper and Emmett apparently overheard and joined in on the laughter. Emmett wasn't ever really fond of Grandpa, but when he heard about what he almost did to Edward he said that he always did like Grandpa. That was mainly to annoy Edward and me of course. I sighed and asked Emmett to just drop it, but Emmett wasn't having any of that, he liked to tease Edward, mainly because he knew how to push his buttons, plus he knew that it annoyed me.

I looked around and couldn't find Jasper anywhere. I saw Renee and Charlie in a deep conversation with Carlisle and Esme over something, but I was more concerned where Jasper had run off too. I decided to try and look for Alice, but saw that she was nowhere to be found either. I excused myself from Edward and Garrett and carefully tiptoed around the different kids playing with one another to make my way to the kitchen. I got to the doorway and saw that Jasper was sitting on a bench just outside the sliding glass door, and next to him was Alice. They both seemed to be very interested in one another. Their conversation, whatever it was, seemed to be very intimate. I about fell over from shock when I saw Jasper lean over and gently give Alice a kiss on the cheek.

Who would've thought that Jasper had it in him to be so bold as to kiss a girl, and that girl being Alice?

I was actually not upset with either of them for sneaking around behind my back. I'm pretty sure that Jasper didn't want to bring too much attention to him and Alice, mainly because he knew, and so did I, that Emmett would be relentless in his teasing. He may have grown up thanks to Rosalie, but he still was still immature when it came to teasing.

I was just about to go back and sit with Edward when Jasper and Alice started back inside. They both about jumped out of their skin when they saw me standing in the kitchen before them. Alice right away started spewing apologies, and told me that it wasn't what it looked like. Meanwhile, Jasper is just standing there like he was caught with his fingers in the cookie jar. When I finally was able to calm her down, I told Alice that it was perfectly fine, and that they didn't need to explain anything to me. Almost immediately, she sighed with relief and hugged me tight and thanked me over and over.

I honestly didn't care if she was dating my brother. If Alice and Jasper were happy with each other, then so was I, that's all that matters to me.

~*~*~ A Week or Two Later ~*~*~

I couldn't believe it, my birthday was only a day away. My birthday was December 18, and always about a week before Christmas. So, I wasn't like the unlucky kids whose birthday was either the day before, or the day of Christmas, but I wasn't exactly wasn't any better off. Especially since Jasper and Emmett both told me a few days before my birthday that they wouldn't be able to get me much for my birthday. I honestly didn't care, and I made sure to add that they already did when they were able to rebuild the house, and made it almost nicer than it was before. I could tell that both of them were relieved to hear that they didn't need to get me a gift of some kind. It was true, they did enough for me, and they didn't need to spend any more money on me. Plus, after all the renovations and refurnishing the house there was barely enough money left over for anything but to pay the bills.

Emily offered to cover my shift on the day of my birthday. Maude may have made a complete one-eighty, but she still had her moments where she was her cranky old self, she had a sick sense of humor by scheduling me to work on my birthday. I know a lot of people have to work on my birthday, and I was all prepared for it, but Emily said it was her birthday present for me.

Kaleb and Jackson didn't really have a present for me, and that was perfectly ok. I did, however, tell that they could give up smoking as a birthday present for me. Both of them started laughing and reluctantly agreed that they would attempt to give up smoking.

You want to know the weird thing? I wasn't even sure how they were able to get the cigarettes considering that they weren't eighteen. But then I was pretty sure that I didn't want to know how they were able to get them in the first place.

Raven's present to me, or at least that's what I told her, was the mural she helped draw and paint on one of the walls of my room. The mural was of a collection of everything important to me. My brothers were in it, as well as my friends. The farm was even in there as well. Raven asked me, when we painted it, if I wanted to have Edward in it, and I decided against it. If things didn't work out between the two of us I didn't want to be constantly reminded of him.

Speaking of Edward, he had a special day planned for my birthday, and he wouldn't say what it was. Then one day Alice told me that she was going to come over to go through my closet with me to pick out the perfect outfit, I knew that it was going to turn into Alice making me into her own personal Barbie doll. We went through a whole bunch of different outfits until she decided to bring me over to her house so I could try on some of her surplus of clothes she hadn't gotten around to wearing. Well, almost immediately I tried to backpedal out of that idea. I didn't want to take clothes from her if she hadn't even worn them yet. But Alice assured me that she would be more than happy to let me have some of her clothes. She thought of me as her sister, and would do anything for me. Some would think she is trying to butter me up because she wants to start dating Jasper, however, I know Alice and I know that she isn't that kind of person. I know that we haven't known each other that long, and that she and Edward had just recently moved to town, but like her, I feel like I've known her forever.

Alice decided on me wearing a pleated skirt that came a bit shorter than I am used to wearing, but then I don't ever wear skirts to this could be why I was a bit uncomfortable. Then Alice had me put on a powder pink tank top, and a denim jacket to wear over the shirt. Thankfully I had a say in what kind of shoes I wore. Alice tried to get me to wear a pair of her three-inch heels, but I managed to talk my way out of wearing them by telling her that I would get her clothes ruined when I would fall and break an ankle. Thankfully she agreed and let me wear my ballet flats. Then came the makeup. I tried my best to talk my way out of not having to wear makeup, and Alice was actually willing to compromise and let me get by with just some lip gloss and eye shadow. I could tell that Alice wanted to use more of her makeup kit she had bought, but wanted me to be happy too.

"Are you sure that you don't know where Edward is taking me, Alice?" I asked as I plopped down next to her on the bed.

"Oh, I know where he's taking you, but I have been sworn to secrecy by Edward. I really do want to tell you Bella, but I can't I hope you don't hate me." Alice said as she pouted her bottom lip. I just shrugged my shoulders and pretended to be offended by her lack of information, but I couldn't sustain my fain hurt for very long, because a hint of a smile started to crawl across my face and I started laughing when Alice gasped and scoffed at me as she playfully shoved me. I went limp and flopped over onto my side, causing as both to start with laughter.

"So, Bella, do you know if your brother is interested in anyone?" Alice asked while trying to sound nonchalant about it. I knew that she and Jasper had some sort of chemistry, but I guess she wanted to make sure that there wasn't anyone else. I thought it spoke volumes on her personality, and that she didn't want to steal him away from anyone. I told her that the only person I could think of that Jasper had been interested was Maria. She was some girl Jasper had met at College. They were in the same study group. It didn't last all that long though, after about four months they both agreed to part ways.

This tidbit of information apparently was a cause for celebration. Alice all but squealed at the news, but abruptly stopped herself and blushed a bit. I just rolled my eyes while trying my best not to start laughing.

"Alice, you may think you and Jasper are being discreet about whatever is going on between the two of you, but it's so painfully obvious that you have a thing for my brother." I say with a sly smirk.

"I have no idea what you're talking about…" Alice tried to deny it and failed miserably. She let out a long sigh and flopped back on her bed. I had caught her. She finally admitted the truth, and I couldn't help but start smiling like a fool. It was fun seeing Alice being 'normal' for once. At school, she's the model student, and everyone wants to be just like her or be her best friend.

"It's ok that you like Jasper, because I'm pretty sure he likes you too." This definitely caught her attention, because she popped up quickly and all but jumped in my lap demanding more information right then and there. After I was able to pull her off of me I told her what I knew, and that was that Jasper did like her, and that he wanted to get to know her better. It wasn't anything too revealing, and at first Alice thought I was lying. But after I was able to convince her otherwise she was immediately all smiles.

"Hey, where's Edward? I thought he said we were going somewhere special?" I got up off the bed and walked over to Edward's room before Alice could tell me that he was out running an errand for their mom. She needed some fabric swatches to go through so she could decide what would be best for the vision she had for the living room. I took this as an opportunity to take a look at Edward's room. I wasn't usually this adventurous, but I was genuinely curious as to what Edward's room looked like. I wasn't surprised that when I got to his room that there was a tall shelf full of vinyl records, and there was a variety of artists. He had everything from Classical music, to Black Eyed Peas. He was even more attractive that he had a lot of The Beatles records, and some Journey albums as well.

I let my fingers glide across the different records when my eyes caught sight of his very elaborate stereo system. I could see that he had a disc inside, and hit the play button. All at once the room slowly filled with a soft but sweet melody.

Clair de Lune by Debussy. It was one of the very few Classical songs that I knew. I only knew it was Clair de Lune because when my mom signed me up for ballet this was one of the songs my teacher would play.

I closed my eyes and took in the melody and just let out a long sigh.

"I never would've pegged you as a stalker Bella. Should I be worried?" I nearly jumped out of my skin at the sudden voice of Edward. I jerked around and saw him standing in the doorway grinning with that stupid crooked grin that had me weak at the knees. I sputtered some sort of explanation, but couldn't find anything to say.

Come on Bella say something intelligent before he thinks you're a babbling idiot!

"Relax Bella, I'm only teasing." And before I could form my response, he closed the distance between us and carefully wrapped one of his arms around my waist, being careful never to break eye contact with me. Before I knew it he and I were swaying around the room to Debussy. We were in dual silence, nothing mattered, nothing was more important than this very moment. We danced for what seemed like an wonderful lifetime, and as the music played on and our dancing got more and more intimate, I realized that both our lips were slowly inching ever closer to one another's.

When they did finally sought out the other's that same electric spark jolted between us, causing us both to jerk a bit. But that didn't stop us, it only urged us to continue on and before either one of us knew it we were both in the most passionate and fervent kiss I have ever had.

Before either one of us knew it there was a sudden noise, someone clearing their throat, which caused us both to untangle ourselves and scramble to see who was at the doorway. There in the doorway was Edward's dad, Carlisle, and he wasn't all too pleased.

"Edward, you know the rules, no girls in your room unless either your mother or I are upstairs as well." Carlisle wasn't exactly furious at us, but he wasn't all too pleased either. Edward didn't bother to argue and took my hand and hurried out of his room and down the stairs to his car. He hollered out an apology as he lead me to his car parked right outside the front door.

"Where are we going?"

"Just wait and see Bella, you're going to be pleasantly surprised." Edward said with a smile. I just sighed and decided to go with it.

A/N: so what did you think? Tell me in your reviews, and also tell me what you think should happen next? I like hearing what you all have to say. Also, just a quick heads up. I alternate updating between this story and my other story, Paralyzed. So I don't really have a schedule. I just update when I finish with the chapter. I know there are some out there that update on a certain day, and that's just not me. I update when I feel like I got what I wanted to say in the chapter said.

Also, I'm in the process of starting to plan out my next story. It's a collaboration between me and Arrowhead1996. She and I have a good idea going on, and I will be posting it on my profile (long story). It's not your typical Twilight story, which is why I think I'm excited to write it. But I won't start on it until I finish both of my current stories. This way I can focus all my time on it, because it's a very complicated story, and I want to get it right for you all.

So, until then please review and give me your thoughts about the chapter!

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