The first thing I realized was that I was lying down on something hard. I opened my eyes only to be greeted by thousands of twinkling stars in the night sky. I looked around and sat up slowly. I was sitting on a hill top, on a dirt path. Behind me, I saw a big shimmery thing that looked kind of like a moving curtain, or wobbly gates. The sparkles reminded me of a crystal.
How I Merlin’s name did I get here?
Then it all came flooding back. Yelling in desperation to Lily; feeling the fear for her and my son; seeing the door burst open and the cloaked figure behind it; looking at my darling Lilyflower for the last time, trying to be strong as I watched her gorgeous green eyes fill with tears; literally feeling my heart tearing as I turned away from her and my son; then hissed words, the flash of green light.
Now I am on a hill. Interesting.
Thinking about all those things, I could only come to one conclusion, I just didn’t know if it was the right one.
I was dead, that I knew for certain. No one survives the Avada Kedavra curse. No one in history has lived through it, and I’m pretty sure no one ever will. Especially if those words came out of Voldemort’s mouth.
I sighed. Lily was always better at this sort of thing then I was. Lily. The thought of her made my eyes fill with tears, and my heart fell like it was breaking into a thousand pieces. So this was what it felt like to lose the person you loved most in the entire world-your soul mate, your one and only. As cliché as it sounds, I knew that Lily was my soul mate from the moment I saw her. And that was the first day of our first year at Hogwarts. We were only eleven, and I still thought girls were gross, but from the moment I saw her, I loved her.
I was sobbing about losing Lily, and I just got worse when I thought of Harry—the little boy, who already looked so much like me. But he had Lily’s eyes and probably her personality, if he was lucky. The boy who I would never see grow up, never see off on the Hogwarts express for his first year, never watch his first quidditch match, or meet his friends.
I thought of my friends, Sirius, Remus and Peter. They would all be so sad to hear of my death but they would take care of Lily and Harry for me. Especially Sirius: my brother of sorts and the godfather of my child. I was here, and I was all alone.
Thinking of my friends and my family, I realised I had to be strong and figure out what to do from now. I took a deep breath, and then another one, to calm my self. When my sobs had eventually faded, I got to my feet, with no idea what to do. I looked down the hill and saw lots of houses with yellow lights streaming out several windows and many grey roads, illuminated by rows of street lamps.
As I was contemplating the sight before me, there was a small thud from behind me. I turned and saw a woman a woman lying face up behind me. Her bright red hair was spread all around her pretty, heart-shaped face and her eyes were closed, but they didn’t need to be open for me to know what they looked like.
“LILY!” I yelled in surprise and fell back to my knees beside her. I put my hand to her cheek and repeated, quieter this time, “Lily.”
She stirred and opened her eyes. When she turned her head and saw me I saw her emerald eyes widen, then fill with tears.
“James.” She whispered, and her tears overflowed. I carefully sat her up and wrapped my arms around her, my own tears flowing again. She sobbed into my chest for a long time, no doubt thinking about everything that I had also thought about when I arrived.
“Lily,” I said quietly when her sobs had quieted, “What are you doing here?”
She lifted her head to look me in the eyes properly. “Well I’m dead aren’t I? And so are you, and now we’re here....wherever here is.”
I knew she would have figured it out faster then I did. “No, I mean, what are you doing here? You were supposed to run with Harry. I wanted you to live.”
This reminder brought her tears back again. “I tried to run, but I didn’t have my wand, and then he k-killed you and…I tried to protect Harry because I couldn’t just let him take him away f-from me. I couldn’t lose you both and-and….” She started sobbing again and I completely understood.
“I know.” I muttered into her hair, kissing her head. “It’s okay. We’re together now, so you don’t need to worry.”
“I guess.” She sighed, relaxing slightly but still crying. After a few minutes of me just holding her as she sobbed she muttered quietly, “I love you.”
“I love you too, Lilyflower, more then you will ever, ever know.” I could practically hear her rolling her eyes, but I couldn’t see it because she was still drenching my shirt with her never-ending tears.
She eventually calmed down and then she looked up at me again. “What about Harry, James? Would Voldemort have…killed him?”
I frowned. I hadn’t thought of that. “I don’t know Lils, but if he did, wouldn’t Harry be here now too?”