It happened only 2 weeks after my 18th birthday; the most heart breaking, horrible experience anyone could live through. In the back of my mind I always knew it would happen one day, better now rather than later, right? But it still hurt, and it hurt like hell.
Edward had found someone else.
He's apologized multiple times claiming that he still loved me, but I never believed it. If he loved me he could have at least acted remorseful when he brought her around me. Instead, he acts like how Mike would if he was dating me, a flipping retriever.
He does everything she says like he's her slave, and she's a complete bitch about it. Selena, that's her name. Yes, she's a bitch, and not just because I don't like her, I loathe her. She's stuck up, bratty, and treats everyone, including Edward, like dirt.
Alice and I are still as close as sisters, and Emmet is still the goofy big brother I always wished I'd had. Carlisle is still like my second Father and Esme my second mother. Jasper was distant for a little after my birthday, but later apologized to me for what happened; I told him that I never blamed him. It was never his fault; controlling his own bloodlust on top of very one else's, including Edward's, whom my blood calls out to most of all, has to be difficult. I never blamed him for the birthday incident.
In fact, if anyone is to blame its Edward. A simple paper cut could have been solved easily, and everyone would have gone back to the party as soon as it was patched up. But no, Edward has to throw me into a glass table, causing more blood loss, and the need for stitches.
Anyway, Jasper took my explanation to heart, and instead of being distant like before, he became another big brother, just not as exuberant as Emmet. We could sit together for hours in a comfortable silence just reading, or sometimes discussing the books we've both read.
Rosalie however had been pissed.
She yelled and cussed out Edward on multiple occasions whenever Selena came over while I was there. She cooled down after about a month though, I was personally surprised. I had no idea she cared so much about me before Selena, but apparently she just didn't want to admit that she was getting attached to me.
Selena, being the bitch she is, would always glare at me and flaunt Edward in front of me, making sure I knew he was hers.
Me, on the other hand, I wasn't exactly the 'lively Bella' I used to be. I still read, but rarely picked up the old Shakespeare or Jane Austin books anymore. Instead I read more modern books that regular teens liked these days, like the Hunger Games or Divergent.
I never listened to music anymore, especially not classical, and I don't eat as much as I used to. Alice always scolded me, though, and forced something down my throat at lunch whenever she asked if I ate breakfast that morning and answered no. She was even starting to come over after school to make sure I ate dinner. She'd sometimes drag me over to her house so Esme could cook something for me. Rose even helped occasionally.
Things weren't getting much easier though. Selena 'banned' Edward from acknowledging my presence directly. And like the good Mike Jr. he is, he obeyed. I got angry when I learned of this, and almost punched her. Alice held me back, luckily, because I would have broken my hand.
Selena is a Newborn vampire that the Denali's had made in hopes for a new companion, but on their visit here for a reunion with the Cullen's, she set her eyes on Edward, and his on her.
She is tall and slim with beautiful flowing blond hair that goes down to her waist, and her legs go on for miles. Her pale skin has the slightest pink blush to it that you normally don't see in vampires, and of course like the rest of her was perfect and flawless.
I had no chance against her, and she knew it. She would wear her sly little smirk every time Edward would kiss or snuggle her when around me, and it just enraged me even more.
It has been about three months since Edward left me for Selena. I was no longer sad that he left, I was pissed. But I never said anything. I cared too much for the family as a whole to cause any more conflict that would make the tension worse. So, I sucked it up and dealt with it like a big girl.
I was still severely depressed though, I missed having someone around when your needed them the most. Sure Alice helped where she could but it just wasn't the same as when Edward would comfort me. I miss the small affectionate things. I miss holding hands, and the loving glances we always gave each other. Most of all, I missed being held at night.
Nights are the worst, I would get horrible nightmares about being left alone, abandoned and hurt. I barely slept anymore. I never tried to date because I was too scared to get hurt again.
"Alice I'm Fine." I said a bit more forcefully then I meant to. Must be the lack of sleep, I thought. Alice just brushed off my tone,
"No, you're not, now EAT." she said, pushing a bagel towards me across the lunch table.
"Really Bella it's not healthy to go without lunch." Angela said looking at me concerned like always. Sighing, I picked it up and began slowly nibbling the edge of the bread. Alice huffed in annoyance and glared at me crossing her arms. I groaned and took a full bite of it. Just like that my best friend was back to her happy bubbly self.
I tuned out my friends conversations like always and continued slowly nibbling away the bagel I'm being forced to eat. I glanced up at the table were Edward and Selena usually 'eat' their lunch. They were gone for the day hunting. Emmet, Rose, and Jasper had graduated from high school… again. That left Alice, Angela, Jess, Mike, Ben, Tyler, Eric and Lauren, though I would only really count Alice, Angela, and maybe Ben at times as real friends.
Nobody tried to get my attention anymore. Not since I went into what Alice calls 'my zombie state'. I'm glad they don't try anymore. I was getting tired of making up excuses and politely declining their offers. Well everyone except Alice, she doesn't take no for an answer.
Part of me is happy she never gave up on me; it shows who truly cares about you. Another part of me was angry and annoyed that she couldn't just leave me to sulk in the hole I had created for myself. And the last part of me was scared. Dreading the day she would leave me like HE did.
"Hey Bella, were going shopping after school today, make sure you tell Charlie." Alice piped up getting my attention away from my half eaten bagel.
"Tell him to heat up the left over lasagna you cooked last night." She said interrupting my excuse to make him dinner.
"Stupid psychic," I mumbled under my breath.
"I heard that!" she exclaimed.
"I know, you were meant to." I retorted. She simply stuck out her tongue and jumped into another conversation going on at the table effectively halting any other excuses I could use on her.
UHG! This was going to be a long senior year.