“All the things my body once did by itself, it does now only by special order ... A single moment of inattention and I forget to breathe”
“Annyeong hasaeyo So-jung imbnida.”
Prologue | Diagnosed
The overwhelming urge to run away from my fears, is one of my greatest fears. The fear of sleeping.
The serine ambiance of the sky gave chills to his spine. With his arms spread out, feeling the air passed through as the sillage (noun: 1: the scent that lingers in the air, the trail left in the water, the impression made in space after something or someone has been and gone; the trace of someone’s perfume. Origin: French) of the sea water catches his attention in the most unexpected way.
The sea water tickled his nose that lingered within his soul searching for an answer to get away with it, in the most unexpected circumstance. He wore his white sweater that once belong to someone whom soon will fade, through the darkness behind his shadows. The sea breeze gives him chills making him shiver from coldness. He closed his eyes, listening to the waves crashing down tall rocks beneath him, the salt water touches. the sky that drizzle lightly just above his head. He had nothing but a perfect life, well that’s what most people think in their area.
He stood there feeling the absence of the cold water splashing above him, the sky has changed colors into the most perfect shade of abend rot (a/n abend rot meaning: the color of the sky while setting) that touched the ocean’s surface. Abruptly someone invaded his serine mind. Looking back from behind, he saw his cousin running his way like a maniac. “Hyung! Come play with us!”
There’s no day that his cousin invades his peacefulness, but he loved this kind of attention. He smiled at his panting cousin almost out of breath, reaching his arms out to touch his hyung for assistance. “I’m tired hyung, where have you been?” the kid asked breaking down on his knees as he sat next to his hyung. “You never play with us.” The kid complained. “I’m not allowed to.” The boy’s tone filled with disappointment and pity for himself. “Yah! Jeongin your it!” Jeongin’s face lit up. “Hyung I gotta go play! See you around!” The boy waved his way to his friends as they play.
It was fun watching them play, So-jung thought.
He stared at his feet he nodded to himself.“let’s see what the world has for me tomorrow as my journey with this disorder continues”