Pain and secretes
Three months have passed since we went on that shopping trip, it didn't turn out as bad as I thought it would, it was actually quite
Fun. I remember as soon as we got home that day all the men put
Up all the baby stuff and it was a laugh to watch the men putting it all up.
I was due any day now and we were both so nervous, I didn't have a clue what to do when the baby came, Esme had told me numerous of times that it will just come naturally and I'm hoping she is right.
"It going to be okay, Bells." Edward said that night in bed.
I had made a habit out of freaking out each night when we were alone and he kept reassuring me it was all going to go smooth, I just couldn't shake the feeling that something bad was going to happen. I just couldn't believe we were going to be parents in a few days.
Three days later
We were having a lazing day in bed just wrapped up in each other. I always love the day we get to spend like this. I love my alone time with Edward.
"Ohhh." I said as I wrapped my hands over my belly.
"Bella, what's wrong?" He asked worried.
"I think…. Ouch." I started but screamed when the pain hit me
"I think the baby's coming." I said panting.
"Shit." He said and jumped out of bed and opened the door.
"DAD. MOM. THE BABY'S COMING." He shouted down to them.
Esme and Carlise came running in.
Carlise went straight into doctor mode.
"How far apart are the contractions?" He asked.
"I don't…. ouch… know, a couple of minutes maybe." I said in pain.
The contraction kept coming every five minutes, the pain was
Excruciating, I've never screamed so much in my life.
Edward held my hand the whole time, even though I had a really
Tight grip he didn't care he stayed the whole 20 hours of labourer.
"You have a beautiful baby girl." Carlise said giving me my
"Hey baby." I whispered.
"She looks just like her Mommy." Edward said sitting next to me.
"More like her Daddy." I whispered out of breath.
"What shall we call her?" Edward said.
"I love the name Lilly. What do you think?" I whispered.
I was worried should I be out of energy like this it was too hard to even talk let alone move.
"Beautiful." He said kissing my forehead.
Why was I still in so much pain?
My head started to spin and black spot covered my vision.
I felt someone remove Lilly from me, I wanted my baby back, I tried to reach out but it was no use it was like my arms were detached.
I heard faded voices shout out and then it went black, I heard and saw nothing. This blackness pulled me down deeper, it was like a million bricks on me pushing me further and further into the darkness and I didn't like it I wanted to see Edward and Lilly but they were always too far out of reach. I just wanted to scream, I want my baby back but I couldn't move anything. At the thought of losing everything I was pushed down further and I think it was too late, I would never find my way out, I would never see my beautiful Lilly again, or watch her grow to be the amazing women she will become. I will never see Edward's beautiful face and hear his voice. I would never be able to tell him how much he means to me and how much I love him and our baby girl. She will never get to know her Mom, she will only know me in stories from her father, and uncles, aunties and grandparents will tell her. Death is peaceful for some people but not for me when I know what I have lost and all the pain they will go through because of it.
My last thought were I love you Lilly, Edward, Alice, Jasper, Rose, Emmett, Esme and Carlise. One by one their faces disappeared and I would never see them again.
Lily was just as beautiful as her Mother, she was our bundle of joy.
Bella was amazing throughout giving birth to Lilly.
I couldn't wait to start the rest of our lives because it truly started now.
It all happened so fast, one minute me and Bella were talking the next nothing, we were losing her and fast.
Carlise gave Lily to Esme while he tried repeatedly to bring Bella back but still nothing.
"NOOOO." I scream. "Fight baby, fight." I yelled.
"I'm sorry son. I've tried everything I possibly could. She isn't
Responding to anything, she gone." He said as tears fell down.
Alice, Jasper, Rose, Emmett and Esme where all crying. No she can't be gone, she wouldn't leave me or Lilly or the rest of the family.
Weeks after the funeral was over I was still struggling to cope with Bella's death but I made a promise to her and that was to bring Lilly up and make sure that she knows what an amazing women her Mother was.
4 Years later.
Lilly is now 4years old and it been Four years without my beautiful Bella. Lilly kept going on that she seen her Mommy that she wasn't gone and that it was there secret. It really broke my heart every time I had to tell her she wasn't alive that she was dead and that she had to start excepting it but she never did she still says Mommy always comes to see me of a night.
I was slowly wasting away. Bella was my world, my rock, and my life.
"Baby, I told you not to tell Daddy, this was supposed to be our secret." Mommy said.
"I know but he is hurting Mommy." I said sadly.
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