Things are looking up
"Maybe you should see a canceller of something. Please don't be mad but I think it will help love." I said sadly waiting for her to blow again.
"Okay." She said calmly.
I did not expect her to be so good about that sort of subject but I'm also glad she didn't blow because I don't think I could take it knowing I've caused her pain.
I held her to me until she fell to sleep, she was restless all night at one point she woke up screaming but I managed to get her to calm down and she soon fell back to sleep.
She started to stir in my arm and she opened her beautiful brown eyes.
"Morning beautiful. How are you feeling?" I said giving her a kiss on the forehead.
"Morning, fine I guess?" she said but it sounded more like a question than an answer.
"Let's get you something to eat, love." I said.
She didn't say anything back she just followed me out to the kitchen area.
"So what would you like me lady." I said in my best English ascent.
I was glad when she laughed, it was so carefree and happy and I think she realized what she did and put her hand over her mouth to cover it before she could laugh anymore.
"What's wrong?" I questioned.
"What's wrong? What's wrong is that I'm laughing like nothing has happened, I shouldn't be laughing." She said panicking as tears fell down.
"Love. Look at me its fine to be happy you know." I said.
"How the hell can I be happy when my baby is fucking dead." She shouted getting out of my hold and running to her room slamming her door shut, which woke everyone else up.
"What happened?" Rose asked.
"She feels bad for laughing. She think she doesn't have a right to be happy after what has happened." I said in a dead voice.
I felt a few tears fall down, how could she think that? None of this was her fault, so how can she blame herself.
I was so confused as to what she thinks she did or didn't do.
But the truth was she did deserve to be happy more than anything else she deserved that. I love her so much that it literally kills me seeing her like this it is like a knife to the heart.
"What am I supposed to do now Rose?" I said sadly.
"Just by being here is helping her Edward. She just needs time for her Edward just to let it all sink in. Everything will be okay I promise." Rose said caringly.
"But what if by me being here is making it worse?" I asked.
"No Edward you're not she cares about you so much." She said.
"Really?" I asked.
"Yes Edward. She really does." Rose said before walking over to where Emmett was.
I'm going to do all I can to be here for her and I'm going to help her get through this, if it is the last thing I do.
Two months later.
It has been two long hard months for Bella but things are turning around for the good. I have stood by her all the way even when she hated me and wanted me to leave , I didn't I always stayed by her side and I'm glad I did. From the outside to people who don't know us would probably think we were a couple but we wasn't we were just really close friend, even though I have always thought of her more than that I respected what she wanted even though she didn't say it but she just needed a friend. I loved her and I really wish we were more than friends but maybe just maybe she might feel the same for me. Jasper, Alice, Emmett, Rose all know how I feel about her they all says she feels the same but I don't know? And I'm always too scared to bring it up because if she doesn't then what? What if I lose her as a friend as well, I couldn't deal with that, I was just glad she was in my life at all.
I was on way to pick up Bella when Alice phoned.
"Hey Ali. What's up?" I asked.
"Hey Edward. I was wondering how about we all go for dinner and a movie tonight?" she asked excitedly.
"Sure. Ill check with Bells before and I will text you when I have asked her." I said.
"Okay. Bye." She said hanging up.
I sat outside the building for Bella to come out.
Ten minutes later she got into the car with a massive grin.
"How was it today love?" I asked grinning myself.
"Yes it was good. She said that I don't have to see her anymore after my next session." She said proudly, grinning like a fool but she was my fool.
"That's good baby." I said kissing her hand which was in mine.
I was so proud of her, she has made so much progress since that day ten months ago.
Since she has been seeing Dr. Harped she has helped her so much through it all. Yeah she will always remember but she has learned to deal with everything that happened.
"Edward." She said waving her hand in front of my face bring me out of thought.
I must have been so lost in thought I didn't hear a word she said.
"So what are we going to do?" she asked.
"Huh? Sorry, love." I said.
"What are we going to do tonight?" She laughed.
"Well Alice phoned before you came out and she thought it would be fun to go to dinner and a movie. What do you think? I asked her.
"Yeah sounds fun." She said smiling.
"Okay. Well text her and let her know." I said.
"Sure, Sure." She said texting.
After a while of silence she spoke.
"She texted back saying will leave at eight." She said reading the text out loud.
"Okay. Well it's only two. Do you want to come to my special place?" I asked her.
"Yeah sure." She said putting her hand back into mine.
After half an hour I finally pulled up to the outside of the forest, where I normally go to my meadow.
"The forest?" she questioned looking a bit scared.
"Yeah it about half an hour walk. But it is beautiful you will like it." I said laughing.
We both got out of my Volvo and she came next to me and put her hand into mine and we started our journey to the meadow.
Every time she tripped I always made sure I could catch her. I hated knowing she could hurt herself it pained me.
Her hand felt amazing in mine every now and then she would squeeze my hand. We talked about everything and nothing.
That was the best part we could talk for hours about everything, I mean we both know everything about each other but she still amazes me with stuff she says to me. Finally we made it here.
"Right close your eyes." I whispered in her ear.
I stood behind her so she wouldn't fall.
"Okay. You're really cheesy you know that." She laughed.
I put my hands over her eyes and walked her into the beautiful meadow.
"Open your eyes baby." I whispered into her ear.
"Oh My God." She said breathless.