Chapter 1 - Seven years
It had been 7 years since the day his world had been turned upside down and he would never forget it and the pain he felt. 'I guess like Penelope says, everything happens for a reason' Derek thought to himself as he sat up in bed.
He got up and went downstairs quietly not wanting to wake Penelope up. He took out his secret box and took out the book he had, so he could write his feelings.
He took a pen and opened the book deciding he could read what he wrote in the other pages later.
Penelope felt Derek get out of bed and heard him go downstairs. She fell asleep quickly after that, feeling tired still and woke up 5 minutes later seeing he still hadn't returned.
She put on a robe and went downstairs to find Derek sitting by the table with a box and a book in front of him, staring at it. He looked up and put it away seeing she was there.
Clearing his throat he said 'hey baby girl, what are you doing here? I was just coming to bed now'.
Penelope walked over to Derek. 'The bed was cold'
Derek smiled and stood up, taking the box and putting it away, then walked over to Penelope and took her hand, walking back to bed.
The next morning Derek woke up early not being able to sleep.
'Be happy' Derek thought to himself, he went to make Penelope breakfast for when she woke up and then took out his book.
Derek sat there, trying to think of something to write and sighed, frustrated. After about 15 minutes of trying to think he put the book away in the box and got up putting the box away, just as Penelope came down.
His phone went off, signaling a message and he sighed, hoping it wasn't a case. He looked at who it was from and grimaced. 'I miss the fairy it was 7 years ago, too soon and not fair. I hate it, why did this have to happen Derek?' his eyes filled with sudden tears as he read the message.
He replied to the message and looked up at Penelope who was asking him something. 'Sorry baby what did you say?'
'Was that Hotch?' Penelope asked.
Derek shook his head and said 'no baby girl'
Penelope sighed in relief and sat down next to Derek. She rubbed his back and looked at him. 'Are you okay baby?'
Derek cleared his throat and said 'yea baby girl I'm fine, just tired…' Derek stayed silent for a few moments 'do you still want to go out today?'
Penelope smiled 'yea sure, I'd love to' Penelope wasn't convinced that he wasn't okay.
He looked at her and gave her a soft kiss on the lips 'I am okay'
Penelope grinned 'mind reader' she said then patted his head, getting up.
'Shopping… right' Derek whispered to himself, then sighed and shook his head.
His chest hurt as he tried to keep his tears at bay, trying to protect his heart from anymore pain. He got up and went to the bathroom to wash his face.
He went to get dressed and went downstairs, making a cup of coffee trying to regain some of his energy.
Derek got another message 'how are you dealing with it, are you okay?'
'Dealing with it? I'm not dealing with it. I think not dealing with it is a better option. It would be easier for me that way. I mean it won't bring back the emptiness I feel in my heart so I don't see the point. How are you dealing with it?' Derek replied to the message.
Penelope came downstairs a few minutes later dressed and ready to go, her make up placed perfectly on her beautiful face.
Derek smiled taking his coffee and going to sit on the couch next to her.
Penelope sat next to Derek 'baby do you know anyone called Ruby?' Penelope asked.
Derek choked on his coffee and looked at her with wide-eyes. 'I might do, what's her last name?' Derek asked.
'Ruby… Sutton I think' Penelope answered.
'Yea, yea I know who that is…why?' Derek asked.
Penelope responded 'oh she wanted you to call her the other day she said she needed to speak to you… so who is she?'
'Oh I'll call her later, she said it was a personal matter or something like that, I don't know. She is my ex…' Derek said awkwardly and rubbed his head.
Penelope nodded her head 'oh right, is everything okay with her? She sounded kind of sad, why is she contacting you?' she asked.
'Families are friends. She's been feeling kind of down lately, sure she'll be fine soon' Derek replied to her.
'Like you, are you really okay Derek?' Penelope asked concerned, knowing he wasn't telling her something.
Derek turned his body to face her and took her face in his hands. 'Maybe the case got to me a bit I don't know, but I am happy and I am and will be fine okay' Derek told her, hoping she would believe him, then gave her a kiss.
Penelope looked into Derek's dark brown eyes, which were normally sparkling but now were blank, and nodded her head, she had to trust him, and so she would. 'Okay, but you would tell me if anything was wrong, wouldn't you?' Penelope asked, needing reassurance he would tell her anything.
Derek stayed silent for a few moments and then nodded his head and said 'yea I promise, I will tell you if anything is wrong'
Happy, Penelope nodded her head and smiled.
Derek smiled back and kissed her again making her smile even more. 'Your beautiful baby' Derek told her.
'Thank you sweetness' Penelope replied, loving his compliments, mostly because she knew he meant them.
Derek laid his head on Penelope's legs and looked up at her.
She smiled down at him and stroked his head lovingly.
His phone went off again signaling a message and he turned it off instead, not wanting to read it now.
Derek looked at Penelope and said 'shall we go now?'
Penelope's face lit up and she nodded her head. 'Yea, give me 10 minutes, then I'll be done' Penelope told him and got up when Derek moved.
Half an hour later, Penelope and Derek were in the shopping centre and going in different shops, separately.
Penelope was in a candle shop, looking at and smelling loads of different candles she liked and she decided she was going to buy some. She then walked into her favorite shoe shop.
Derek, in the mean time, went into a baby shop and was looking at some pink baby shoes, that he picked up and smiled 'these are cute' Derek thought to himself and put them in the bag of things he was going to buy.
He looked around some more and found another top that said 'I'm beautiful like mummy' Derek smiled and agreed with the top. He put it down in the bag and looked around some more.
He paid for the things and as he left the shop he ran in to JJ. He grimaced and started to feel awkward.
'Hey Derek, what are you doing here?' JJ asked with interest and amusement.
Derek smiled at her and said 'oh hey JJ, I was looking and I just kind of had to buy them, they were so cute, I was just looking around otherwise'
JJ smiled even more and said 'I know they are; are you and Penelope having a baby? I mean you bought the things'
Derek made a face and said 'no we're not having a baby but I want to, I was just looking through and I couldn't stop myself…' after a few awkward silent moments Derek kind of begged 'please can you not tell Penelope I was here yet… she doesn't know…'
JJ nodded her head in understanding and then asked 'anyway where are you headed?'
'Err anywhere where there is clothes for 7 year olds' Derek replied.
JJ frowned but shrugged 'well you can come with me I was going the same place, why you going there?'
Derek shrugged 'I just want to see a few things, what kinds of things do 7 year olds like?'
'I think anything pink they would love, who are you buying it for?' JJ asked, interested to know who it was for and why he wanted to know since apparently Penelope wasn't having a baby.
'Just a cute 7 year old' Derek replied not knowing what else to say.
JJ shrugged in response and they walked into the shop in comfortable silence.