"If you are planning on avoiding the question, you have been doing really great so far, kid." Morgan said, as he pulled his car in front of Reid's apartment.
"But guess what?" Morgan automatically locked the car before Reid could open the door. "I have decided to have the conversation with you no matter what."
"Hey, don't Morgan me."
Reid sighed and leaned back on the seat.
"Look Reid, I'm not trying to say what you should do." Morgan slightly turned from his seat, facing Reid. "Do you have an idea, how lively you are when you are around her? I know you like her."
Reid turned, looking at Morgan.
"What? You're going to tell me that I'm wrong? That you don't like Amy?"
"Okay, fine. You want to hear it? Yes, I like her, so what?"
"What do you mean by so what? You don't just stop there, you need to take another step, ask her out, man."
Reid exhaled, throwing out the air, he was holding. "What if…she said no?"
"What if she said yes?" Morgan argued back.
"You don't know that."
"Then, how you could be sure that she would say no?"
"My dad said he doesn't know how to take care of me anymore, Gideon left with just a letter, and Maeve died right in front of me."
"Your mother never stopped loving you, how about us? We never backed out or how about Jack or your godson, Henry?"
Reid remained silent.
"You have people loving you more than people who have left you, Kid." After a few moment of silence, with a comforting voice, Morgan said. "It's okay to fall in love again, Reid."
"I know." Reid whispered. "But I don't want to get hurt again, Morgan."
"What if Amy likes you too? What if she is waiting for you to take the first step? You have a chance, Reid and you are forsaking it for fear."
Reid looked at Morgan again.
"Like I said before, I'm not telling you what to do, but promise me at least you will think about it?"
"Okay, can I go now?" Reid asked.
Morgan smiled as he unlocked the car.
"You're coming in?" Reid asked.
"Sorry man, I got a date with Savannah tonight, but I will be back before bedtime."
"Okay, get out before Savannah thinks you're not going to make it."
"Bye, Kid, remember, don't do anything stupid when I'm not around."
Reid shook his head. "I will be in one piece."
"Good boy." Morgan drove away, leaving Reid alone.
Reid inhaled, sometimes he wondered how he got himself so lucky with such noble friends.
Three days later.
Reid got down the car carefully. "Thank you for dropping me off, JJ"
"You know I don't mind, Spence." JJ looked around. "So, Derek is picking you up later, right?"
"JJ, I'm just going to sit in the library and read books. Don't worry about me."
"Okay. Don't over-stress yourself. I'm just one phone call away."
"JJ, stop babying me."
"Even if you have your own kids one day, I won't stop babying you."
Reid smiled. "Go, have fun with Will and Henry. Tell Henry, I love him."
"Now, why should I tell Henry something he knows by heart?"
"Bye, JJ." Reid said before he walked into the library with his crutches. With few books, Reid settled at the end of the reading area.
Reid was in the middle of his third book when he heard the whisper.
Reid instantly knew who it was.
"Hai, Amy." Reid whispered back.
Amy sat opposite of Reid. "So, enjoying some time alone with books?"
Reid nodded. "How about you?"
"It's my day off. Christina is out with her boyfriend. So, I decided to gain some extra knowledge today." Amy said as she showed the medical books she have brought with her.
"I can drop you off." Amy said as they walked out of the library.
"Oh, I don't want to …."
"Don't be ridiculous, you're not a burden at all and besides, you said I can borrow some of your books. Come on."
Morgan was resting lazily on Reid's couch. As he was waiting for a text from Reid to pick him up from the library, Morgan spends his evening with his favorite movies.
Morgan heard the beep.
Amy is sending me back home.
Morgan smiled when he saw the text, he didn't want to know how they meet and how Amy is sending him back home. Morgan quickly jumped off the couch, turned the television off, took all his things off the couch and dumped it in the guest room.
As fast as he could, Morgan changed his clothes, locked the door, and ran his way to his car. Sitting in the driver seat, Morgan messaged back.
Great, I'm just heading out. Savannah wants to meet. You guys have fun. Meet you later.
Morgan knew he was lying, but as long as Reid and Amy get to spend some time alone, he doesn't mind wandering around.
"You have a beautiful apartment, Spencer." Amy said as she walked in.
"Thank you. Would you like anything to drink?"
"Water would be nice, thank you."
"Oh my, look at the collection of your books." Amy stepped closer, running her finger along the books.
"Well, enjoy yourself." Reid said, as he went to fetch Amy a glass of water.
Reid chuckled to himself as he could hear Amy mumbling. "Oh, I always wanted to read this, can't believe you actually have it."
Somehow, he felt that Amy has changed to be a kid who is on her first trip to Disneyland.
However, Reid's smile died when he saw Amy holding the book that matters the most to him. The Narrative of John Smith, the book Maeve has presented to him.
"Spencer," Amy called, looking at Spencer once before turning back to the book. "The quote in the book is amazing."
Amy reads the quote "Love is our destiny. We do not find the meaning of life by …"
"Ourselves alone. We find it with another." Reid finished.
Somehow Amy could feel that the book held meaning more than it should. "Looks like the book was presented by someone important."
"Was?" Amy raised her eyebrows.
Reid sat on the couch. "She was first my love, Maeve. She was killed by her stalker right in front of me."
Amy sat beside Reid, stunned. "I am so sorry, Spencer."
"It's okay. I had terrible headaches, and she helped me with it." Reid smiled a little. "We never meet, we only spoke on the phone, she was scared her stalker might hurt me and finally, when we meet, she died in front of me."
Amy suddenly felt sick, she couldn't imagine how it could be for Spencer. Amy found herself loss of words to comfort him, so she silently reached for his hands and squeezed it.
"That book meant the world to me, but as time passed by, I knew I was holding on to something that was not real anymore. So, I kept it back in the bookshelf.
"But she will always the most beautiful chapter in your life."
Reid smiled. "How about you? You have some beautiful memories in your life?"
"Beautiful, no. Painful, yes." Amy said. "Since we are sharing, Brian, he used to be the most important person in my life, but turned up I was not his."
"He cheated you?"
"No. He did something worse than that." Amy said, avoiding Reid's eye contact. "He assaulted me and tried to … rape me, but …" Amy exhaled. "Luckily, Christina decided to surprise me and walked through the back door, if not …"
"Hey, it's okay." This time Reid held her hand.
"I guess we all have some memories we want to bury it away, right?"
"I think I should go back." Amy placed the book on the table before she walked towards the door with Reid following behind.
Amy stood outside. "I had fun today. Thanks." Amy closed the distance, leaving a kiss on Reid's cheeks. "Bye, Spencer."
"Bye." Reid said, startled with the kiss he has gotten.
Amy walked into the apartment she was sharing with Christina.
Amy snapped out her thought. "You said something?"
"I said I got a cake from the bakery. Where's your mind, girl?" Christine asked.
"Nothing, just thinking." Amy shrugged.
"I'm listening if you want to share."
"I meet Spencer at the library."
Christina smiled. "I knew you guys got a thing. How come you just end up meeting him in the library?"
"It's a coincidence, Chris."
"How about him?"
"He shared about his first love, they loved each other without meeting, he didn't care how she looked like and finally, when they meet, she was killed in front of him."
"That's so sad, Amy." Christina mumbled.
"I know and I told him about Brian."
"What did he say?"
"I didn't give him a chance to, I left after that." Amy said. "Can you imagine, after all the cases we see each day, the girls being assaulted, tortured for sex and here we have a guy loving a girl, not knowing how she would look like?"
"Spencer is sure a sweet guy."
"You know Chris, you always asked me why I never opened myself for another relationship?"
"Yeah, but you never tell me why."
"It's because I was scared, I trusted a guy with my life, and he just ripped out my trust, my feeling and it hurt like hell. I don't want anyone to take advantage of me. I told myself I will open myself again when I yearn the feeling of needing to be loved again."
"And?" Christina asked, she was curious.
"I felt it today, Chris. If he could love her so much even without seeing her, it says everything about him. I want to feel that, Chris. Call me crazy or anything you want, I want to be the girl loved by Spencer."