No Need To Worry
I woke up thinkin' about Rick askin' me to marry him and the baby we'd be havin' soon. I was excited, scared and a little sad. The sadness was mostly because I missed my mama and Shawn. I had always thought they'd be here to see all of this.
Actually, 'soon' may have been the wrong word considering it's been five days since Rick asked me to marry him and I still haven't had the baby yet. The only word to describe how I'm feelin' about that is uncomfortable and that doesn't even do it justice. I'm miserable.
The prison was dark and Rick's arm was around me.
I moved his arm and groaned when I sat up.
I've tried almost everything Carol has suggested except for one and I really don't want to do that.
I jumped when I felt Rick's hand on my back.
"Sorry," he mumbled, "you feelin' okay?"
"What the hell do you think?!" I snapped at him.
He chuckled and sat up, "C'mon, mama, we'll go for a walk."
I glared at him. I cannot believe he just called me mama!
He smirked when he saw the look on my face.
We both climbed off the bed and put our shoes on.
We quietly walked out of the prison and over to the courtyard.
My feet and ankles are swollen so it wasn't easy for me to walk and I wasn't walkin' very fast.
We made a few laps around the courtyard before I had to sit down. I just couldn't walk anymore and I couldn't hold back my tears.
Rick sat down beside me, "What's wrong, baby?"
"I'm tired," I cried, "why is it takin' so long?"
"It just is. He'll come when he's ready."
I pouted, "I want him here now!"
"I know you do," he smiled, "I think everyone wants him here now."
He put his arms around me and held me before we walked around the courtyard again.
I had just laid back down and gotten comfortable when the sun started comin' up.
"How are you feelin', Bethie?" Daddy asked.
I opened my eyes and gave him a little smile, "I'm fine, daddy."
He smiled and left.
I closed my eyes again and yawned when Maggie came in, "Hey," she started.
"Don't ask me how I'm feelin', Maggie. I'm fine."
"Okay," she held her hands up, "I actually came to see if you were hungry or if you needed anythin'."
"I am kinda hungry but I can get me somethin'."
"No, you stay here. I'll bring it to you."
"Maggie, I need to walk anyway. I'll be in there in a little while."
After she left, I was relieved when no one else came by my cell.
I was so tired but I closed my eyes and slipped my hand into my panties.
"Not what I was expectin' to see," Rick said, making me jump.
I quickly removed my hand and could feel myself blushing.
"I...I was just...I...," I stumbled over my words.
Rick chuckled, "You don't have to explain anythin' to me. Sit up."
He walked over to the bed and sat down and handed me a bowl of soup. I felt myself blush even more when he smiled at me.
"You're pregnant, Bethie. There's no need to be embarrassed, especially in front of me."
I smiled, "I just thought that maybe it'd help. Carol suggested havin'...um...sex to help things but I'm not ready for that."
He leaned over and kissed my forehead, "He'll come when he's ready. You just need to rest and quit worryin' about things."
"Do you really think it's a boy?" I asked.
"I'm not sure but we need to pick out some names soon."
He picked up the name book I had and started callin' out names while I ate.
"Hey," Carol pulled the curtain back, "I'm sorry to interrupt y'all but do you mind watchin' Judy for a little bit, Bethie?"
"No ma'am, I don't mind," I smiled when she brought her to me along with a few bottles and diapers.
"I'll come get her as soon as I finish the laundry," she said.
Rick smiled at us and kissed Judith's cheek.
"Be good for your mama, baby girl," he whispered to her.
"I'm gonna go check the fences. I'll be back to check on y'all in a little while," he said before kissing me, "Love y'all."
"Love you, too."
I laid Judith down and started playin' with her.
Hearing her giggle and seein' her smile was heartwarming for me.
It just made me wish the baby was here already.
I fed and changed her and watched her eyes close but when I laid her down she started fussin'.
"Same old place Same old city What can I do? I'm fallin' in love
I'm just an old hound dog Roaming around, oh lord I've got all this, and heaven above
Oh, Atlanta I hear you calling I'm coming back to you one fine day No need to worry There ain't no hurry 'cause I'm On my way back to Georgia On my way back to Georgia
I get a feelin' in me When I remember all those crazy days and crazier nights Can't you hear the music playin? You must have heard them saying We're gonna rip 'em up and light up the night
Oh, Atlanta I hear you calling I' coming back to you one fine day No need to worry worry There ain't no hurry 'cause I'm On my way back to Georgia On my way back to Georgia
Same old place Same old city What can I do? I'm falling in love
Oh, Atlanta I hear you calling I'm coming back to you One fine day No need to worry 'cause I'm On my way back to Georgia On my way back to Georgia
Oh, Atlanta Hear me calling I'm coming back to you one fine day, hey No need to worry There ain't no hurry 'cause I'm On my way back to Georgia"
After Judith finally settled down, I was able to get some sleep.
Maggie brought me lunch and helped me with Judith.
"I heard you and Rick haven't picked out names yet," she said with a smile.
"Yeah. We haven't. Me, him and Carl all like different names."
"What about Annette? After your mom if it's a girl and for a boy, name him after Rick or someone that's important to both of you."
"I love Annette and Shawn. Those are my picks," I said.
"Well, maybe y'all should get everyone to vote on names," she laughed a little.
Sometime after Maggie left, I fell asleep again. I knew I was tired but I didn't realize I was this tired.
I kept waking up from bad dreams though.
What if I did end up like Lori? That'd just leave another baby for everyone to take care of.
Another thing that entered my mind was the baby not making it.
I squeezed my eyes shut and tried my best to push that thought out of my head.
"Hey, baby girl," Rick said, picking Judith up and making me jump a little.
"You have got to quit doin' that," I told him.
"I'm sorry, baby," he sat down next to me with Judith, "I didn't know you were so jumpy."
I rolled my eyes and sat up.
"What time is it?" I asked, looking around.
"Late. You practically slept all day."
I groaned, "I feel like I could sleep forever."
"I'm gonna go see if the foods done," he handed Judith to me, "I'll be right back."
"Hey, mom," Carl came runnin' into the cell followed by Rick.
They both sat down and they each pulled out a piece of paper and handed them to me.
"We both wrote down the names we like but the final choice is up to you," Rick said.
I looked over the lists and smiled, "Do I have to decide right now?"
"Yes!" Carl said excitedly.
"No," Rick chuckled, "you don't have to decide right now. Just take your time."
While I was eating, I looked over lists they gave me and the list I had made. There were a few names that we all three liked for boys and none for girls.
Later that night, Carol took Judith and Rick ad I settled in.
It didn't take long for him to go to sleep for the night but I was too uncomfortable but I finally managed to go to sleep.
I woke up to a sharp pain. It hurt so bad I couldn't help but scream.
Rick jumped up and hit his head on the top bunk.
"I don't know," I cried.
He sat down and then stood back up and pulled the covers off of me. That's when I noticed the bed was a little wet.
"Baby, I think your water broke," he said with a huge smile.