Chapter 7: Raging Fire
I decided I would be able to think more clearly above deck, "Prince Hans," I inwardly groaned, here comes the Duke. It hurts me to admit that he's the reason I'm able to go through with this, "The crew has informed that we should arrive in Arendelle by the end of next week." I nodded, but didn't look at him, "So remind me, how exactly are we getting into the castle?"
I sighed, "I have a contact inside the castle, and he's been keeping contact with me for the past few months. He'll see to our arrival and get us into the castle." I could sense another question, "That's all I'm telling you right now so don't even bother asking." I heard the click of his boots as he walked away. Leaving me to my thoughts. Arendelle's royal family has been a thorn in my side for too long, but I'm going to make sure I don't fail this time.
I almost freaked when I woke up in an unfamiliar bed. Good thing I remember I was staying at the castle before I went up in flames. I sat up and I rubbed my forehead hoping it would clear my headache, even after my mental battle the pulsing headache still remained.
Negative emotion continued to pulse through my mind constantly and somewhat painfully. I needed something to take my mind off of it. Deciding I would go to my forge for a bit I got up and put on some clothes.
I clearly need to find a way of finding my way around this place, because I was sure that I was lost. How many rooms can one palace have? Or was I just walking through the same hallways over and over? I was about to give up when I heard a voice, a voice that was singing.
"And the fears that once controlled me
Can't get to me at all!"
I followed the voice to a partially open door, I slightly pushed it open to reveal Elsa singing a song while braiding her hair. She had the voice of an angel and could sing like one too? I continued to listen to her singing, she seemed to be caught up in the song that she didn't notice me come in.
"Let it go, let it go
I am one with the wind and sky
Let it go, let it go
You'll never see me cry!"
The song was beautiful and the lyrics were powerful, just like her. I decided to make myself known, "You have a beautiful voice." Elsa jumped and turned towards me with a slight blush on her cheeks, "Didn't mean to scare you. I was just passing by and heard you singing."
She smiled, "It's alright Zander,"
I returned the smile, "So what exactly were you singing?" I asked.
She finished her braid and let it rest on her shoulder, "It's a song I made a few months ago." She made that song herself, "I had a lot held back and I really needed to let everything go, and I guess the song just came to me."
"So you sing when you need to take something off your mind?" I asked.
Elsa nodded, "Sometimes, why? Is there something on your mind?" she asked.
I shrugged, "Not sure," I said, "Maybe I'll try your way someday, but right now I need a favor." Elsa gave me a curious look as I rubbed the back of my head slightly embarrassed, "Could you um… show me how to find the entrance."
"Of course," Elsa replied, but I knew she was trying to hold back a laugh.
Elsa definitely wasn't as much of a talker as her sister, but she wasn't the quiet type either. I don't know what to classify her as. The whole time that she was showing me around the castle, one way or another she had my full attention. I didn't realize I had been quiet for so long until Elsa spoke up, "What is it?" she asked in concern.
"Nothing," I said, "Just enjoying the sights." I looked around the grand entryway, but still kept my gaze slightly on Elsa. I saw the door to outside the castle, "Well thank you for the tour your Majesty, but I guess I'll be going now." I walked towards the door.
"Where are you going?" she asked, probably due to curiosity.
I turn back to her, "To take my mind off a few things, don't worry I'll be back." When a smile showed up on her face, I couldn't help but stare.
"Why are you staring at me?" she asked. Realizing I'd been caught I knew I had to come up with something quick.
I gave a sincere smile, "Because you're beautiful." Was all I said before I went out the doors. Did I really just say that?
Did he really just say that? Did Zander just say I'm… beautiful? Even though I have my ice powers, my face felt warm, I was blushing. I felt myself smiling, I just couldn't shake off the happy feeling that one sentence sent through my body. I was about to go tell Anna, but I stopped myself for two reasons.
One; I still had a council meeting to finish up. Two; I'd never hear the end of it if I told Anna.
When I walked into the forge I was immediately greeted by an almost frantic wolf, "Where in Soulsidon's name have you been!" it didn't sound like a question.
"Who's Soulsidon?" I asked out of curiosity.
"He's a- well it doesn't matter." Ithilagar explained, "What does matter is the fact that you've been gone for a little more than a week and I had no idea where you were!" he said he voice raising until he was practically screaming at me by the time he stopped speaking.
"Are you finished?" I asked.
"…Yes" he answered
"Well after the wedding I was arrested by our good friend Captain." I started.
"He was successful this time?" the wolf asked.
"Yes, because Elsa knocked me out with some of her ice." I explained, "I spent the next few days in a cell or being interrogated, during that time I revealed my fire. After a few more events Elsa released me and Anna asked if I could stay at the castle for a little while and I accepted." That was all he needed to know, for now at least.
"So you came here to do what?" he asked.
"To clear my head and to pick up a few things to make my stay at the palace more comfortable." I said in a casual tone. I put a piece of metal on the anvil, "Where's my hammer?"
"On the shelf to you right." He responded and I picked up the smithing tool. "What are you working on?"
I took my glove off and began to heat the metal, "Not entirely sure, I guess it'll come to me as I work." Ithilagar didn't respond, "When did you get so quiet?"
"Maybe around the same time you started to willingly use your fire." He said in an obvious tone. I shrugged and started to pound the heated metal with my hammer, "Okay quit avoiding the subject, what the hell happened to you while you were in the castle?!"
I sighed, he's never going to stop bugging me about it. I put the metal on the anvil and leaned over it, staring at my reflection. Then I began to explain the battle I had while affected by Elsa's ice.
"Queen Elsa, how nice of you to join us." One of the councilmen said as I walked into the room.
"Thank you," I said as I sat down, "Now where did we leave off yesterday?" I was too preoccupied with thoughts about Zander to remember.
"Actually it's a matter of great importance, one that we've been meaning to talk to you about due to recent events." Another member said.
"What is it? Is it bad?" I asked, hoping it wasn't.
"Well it could be depending on your view on the subject." He said, he waited a bit before continuing, "We think it's time you started looking for a suitor your Majesty."
"What?" I said quite surprised, I almost relieved the moment where Anna told me about her sudden engagement to Hans, "I'm a little confused. Why-" I started.
"It has nothing to do with your rule Queen Elsa. I assure you that you're doing a fantastic job." He said, "But now that Princess Anna is married, you do need to consider finding someone to rule by your side, and eventually you'll need an heir to step in and take your place in the future."
"Well I see your point, but I doubt I'm going to get married anytime soon." I said, I actually have been thinking about it, but other than my family. I've never met anybody that actually got the time to know me. "Is that all you've wanted to talk about?" the all seemed to nod, "Very well then. Meeting adjourned."
"-and after destroying the giant ice monster all the ice melted away, but then the loss of energy made me pass out, and when I woke up, I was in the infirmary waking up just in time to stop Captain from killing me in cold blood." I finished.
"Whoa… that was intense. Man I wish I was there to see it." I chuckled, now there was the Ithilagar I knew. "So what exactly is your plan now that the royal family knows your secret?" he asked.
I shrugged, "I don't know, maybe I'll just see what happens." I looked down and was surprised. While I was talking I worked on the metal the anvil, it was now a mask. I don't think it would be one you could wear though, maybe a wall decoration most likely. I put it down on the table.
"Something else is on your mind though." Ithilagar said, "You might as well say it now."
I sighed, "Well your relentless teasing is turning out to become a reality." Ithilagar gave me a curious look, "I'm falling in love with Elsa."
"I knew it!" Ithilagar cried out, I'm sure if he was human he would do a happy dance. The most he could right now was- is he chasing his tail? Please lightning just kill me now.
"Ithilagar stop your embarrassing me." I said as I cover my eyes, afraid to open them fearing he would try something even more ridiculous, "Are you done?" I asked after a few seconds.
"Yes," he replied and I uncovered my eyes, he wasn't 'dancing', but he was giving me his signature wolfish-grin.
"Don't look at me like that." I told him, but it wouldn't drop, "Okay what are you thinking."
"Nothing; just that you should get closer to the queen." Of course he was thinking that.
"No I shouldn't," I said looking away from him, "I can't get close to people, it only ends badly."
Ithilagar looked at me, "Is it because you don't want to hurt them," he said, "Or because you're afraid that they'll hurt you?" he asked.
I looked at Ithilagar, "Both."
"They said what?" I said to my sister in total surprise.
"The council wants me to start considering finding a suitor." She repeated, that's weird that they're bringing it up now of all times. I thought they would've already talked this over after she ended the eternal winter, but I guess they must have waited a little so Elsa could get used to being queen first.
"Well there are a lot of guys out there, I'm sure you can find the perfect suitor." I said, then a playful smile came onto my face and I couldn't resist saying, "Unless of course you've already found someone to make the perfect suitor." Elsa blushed and I giggled, "I'm sure if spent some time with Zander you'd agree with me." Elsa's blush deepened at the thought. This is fun.
"Queen Elsa, Princess Anna," Kai's voice said, "Zander is back and has requested your presence." I smiled at Elsa.
"Tell him we'll be right down." Elsa said to Kai and he walked away.
"Ready to see my future brother-in-law?" I asked her.
"Oh shut up." Elsa said as she left, I giggled and followed her.
I was now beginning to reconsider bring Ithilagar to the castle, because he's not going to shut up about me and Elsa. Right now we were waiting for Elsa and Anna. Ithilagar wanted he to introduce them to him, "So remind me, which one is Anna and which one is Elsa?" he asked.
I rolled my eyes, "Elsa has platinum blonde hair, while Anna is a strawberry blonde." I explained, "Remember, no talking unless I give you permission. I think they've had enough shock from me to handle you."
The wolf probably would've raised an eyebrow if he had one, "They hang out with a talking snowman and you think a talking wolf is going to shock them?" he asked.
I rubbed my forehead, "Yes I do believe that it'll shock them."
"What will shock who?" Ithilagar and I jumped as Anna's voice came out of nowhere. Both of us turned towards the royal sisters.
"Nothing, don't worry about it." I said and Anna seemed to let it go by, "Allow me to introduce you to somebody." I said and Ithilagar walked forward.
"Is that a wolf?" Elsa asked. I nodded, "I didn't know wolves could have that coloring."
"They don't, but this one is a special case." I said, "This is Ithilagar, my companion and best friend." Ithilagar sat down and wagged his tail like any tame dog. How he got so good at acting is beyond me.
Anna was the first to approach him. she reached out a hand and Ithilagar gave it a few sniffs before licking it. Anna giggled and began to scratch the fur on his head, "He's very sweet isn't he." She asked.
"Only around pretty girls," I said, "Other times he's kind of a trouble maker." They giggled and Ithilagar walked up to Elsa, he started to sniff her before sitting down again, "I think Ithilagar want some attention from the Queen of Arendelle." Elsa was hesitate, but she put out a hand and started to pet Ithilagar, Ithilagar leaned into the touch and his tail started wagging.
I gave it a few seconds before speaking, "Okay boy you've had your fun." Ithilagar walked back to me.
"So what did you want to see us for?" Anna asked. I almost forgot the reason.
"Well, if you don't mind," I started, "I am curious as to what the Great Thaw I'm hearing about is, and I was hoping that you two could tell me about it."
They looked at me slightly surprised, "Well it's a long story," Elsa said.
I shrugged. "I have the time."
A few seconds passed before she answered "Okay, I guess I have some time too." I smiled and nodded my thanks. Elsa and Anna walked away and Ithilagar and I followed them.
"I can see how you fell for her," Ithilagar said in a quiet voice so only I could her. I growled at him telling him to shut up.
Elsa and Anna led us into a room with a few chairs and a couch around a fireplace. Assuming this was where they were going to tell me, I took a seat. "I'm going to go get Kristoff; he'll want to be here too." Anna said, "You guys just stay here until I come back." I had a feeling Anna was up to something. I didn't figure out what until Ithilagar 'asked' to tag along with her. They wanted me alone with Elsa.
"So Elsa, what's new?" I asked hoping to start a conversation with the Ice Queen.
"Things are fine for the most part." She answered. I raised an eyebrow.
"And for the other part?" I asked looking for a little more detail.
She sighed, "The council want me to start looking for a suitor so I can get married." Oh, now that I wasn't really expecting.
"Whoa," that was all I could say at that point, "That's sure is nerve wracking," She nodded and I just had to ask, "Do you know anybody that you'd prefer to be a suitor rather than some snobby royal, no offense."
She giggled slightly, "None taken, as for your question." She said and seemed to ponder for a moment, "I guess there is someone I would like to have as a suitor." I wanted to ask who, but part of me didn't want to.
I was about to change the subject when Anna came back, "We're back!" Kristoff, Sven, Olaf, and Ithilagar followed her into the room.
I raised an eyebrow, "They allow Sven to be in the castle?" From the innocent look Kristoff was giving me, I took that as a no, "Well anyway, rule breaking aside, will someone begin the story of the Great Thaw."
Anna nodded and everybody sat down, "So where should we start?" Anna asked.
"The beginning might be nice," I said desperately trying not to be sarcastic. Anna smiled sweetly at me; did she sense I was trying to avoid sarcasm? If she did she didn't mention it.
Anna started by telling me how a little more than thirteen years ago Elsa and her were very close, but something happened and Elsa shut her out and they didn't play since then. I noticed as Anna was telling this part that Elsa looked extremely guilty, she must've regretted shutting Anna out all those years, but she looked the most guilty when Anna first talked about Elsa shutting her out. Does Anna know the reason why she was shut out?
I didn't speak as Anna continued with her tale. I felt sorrowful when she talked about how she and Elsa lost her parents after they were declared dead when their ship was destroyed while travelling. I got interested when Anna started talking about Elsa's coronation and how she met Prince Hans; I tried not to laugh at the thought of Anna almost getting knocked into the fjord by a horse.
I had a very hard time not laughing when Anna talked about the Duke of Weaseltown and his toupee almost falling off as he asked to dance with Elsa. I actually did laugh when she told me that he danced like 'a chicken with the face of a monkey.'
I didn't interrupt, until Anna told me about the time spent with Prince Hans and how it led to his proposal.
"Wait," I said stopping the story, "You're telling me you got engaged to some you just met that day?" Kristoff burst out laughing at that. Anna rolled her eyes in annoyance and muttered something I didn't hear.
She told about the fight she and Elsa had when her and Hans asked for Elsa's blessing of their marriage. The fight caused Elsa to lose one of her gloves. She explained it was how Elsa kept her powers at bay, sounds like someone I know. The revelation of her ice powers that followed the event caused Elsa to grow more scared and she ran away and accidently froze the fjord and causing a winter in the middle of summer.
Anna went after her leaving Hans in charge. I've heard the name 'Hans' only a few times, but I'm beginning the sense the venom used every time it was said. Guess I'll have to keep listening to find the reason why.
She described several events quickly, how she met Kristoff and Sven, how they nearly fell to their deaths after getting chased by wolves. Ithilagar wasn't too fond of that part I'm sure. How they met Olaf afterwards. I nearly couldn't breathe when Olaf called Kristoff a 'Funky Looking Donkey'.
I listened to the remainder of the story with great interest. I was shocked when Anna told about how Elsa froze her heart, I found it funny, but sort of sweet when Kristoff's 'family' wanted Anna to marry Kristoff. Almost fell out of my seat when Hans revealed his true nature and nearly went up in flames when he left Anna to die and tried to kill Elsa. Anna's sacrifice almost brought tears to my eyes. Anna punching Hans was definitely something worth hearing and I found myself smiling as she finished the story.
"Wow," I said clearly expressing my view on the story, "That was quite a story." I added to better explain it. I looked over at Elsa and saw that she was smiling, but it didn't quite reach her eyes. I knew I couldn't let this go unnoticed. I turned to the rest of the group, "You know Ithilagar hasn't seen much of the castle, and I'm sure you guys know it far better than I do. Why don't you show him around for a little bit?" Anna gave me a questioning look, but then got the message when my eyes flickered to Elsa.
"Yeah I think it would be nice to show Ithlagar around." She said, I chuckled and the mispronunciation of his name, "Elsa why don't you keep Zander company while we all show Ithlagar around."
"It's Ithilagar Anna." I corrected, she shrugged and left the room with everyone following her leaving me and Elsa alone in the room.
I turned to Elsa, "Looks like you guys had quite an adventure." She nodded, "But I noticed that there were a couple holes in the story." She looked at me with curiosity, "Anna didn't say the reason why you two were separated. Is that a detail a little too personal, or does she not know the reason?"
I was afraid he would ask this, I hoped he didn't pick up on any missing details. I wanted to tell him it was personal, but his hazel eyes looked at me with concern and I found myself caving, "Anna doesn't know the reason… because she doesn't remember it." he gave me a surprised look, and then it turned into one of confusion.
"What do you mean?" he asked.
I sighed, "When Anna and I were little; we would play in the snow all the time. Anna knew about my powers and loved it when I used them to make her a snowy playground."
Zander smiled, "Sounds great, but I thought Anna didn't know about your powers until your coronation."
I nodded, "I'm getting to that. One night Anna woke me up asking if I wanted to play. I urged her to go back to sleep, but she convinced me by asking if I wanted to build a snowman. We played for a little bit and Anna was having a lot of fun. Then she started jumping onto columns of snow I would make for her, she kept getting higher and quicker and it was getting harder to keep up with her, and before I could make a column I slipped on the ice and tried to do something to save Anna, but instead I hit her head with my ice."
"Like what happened with me?" Zander asked and I flinched.
I nodded, "Yes, but we needed to help Anna quickly. So my father took her to the Valley of the Living Stones to see Pabbie, a troll shaman who could help her. When we got to him he said he could help, but suggested that he remove all magic, even her memories of magic. My father agreed and Pabbie removed her memories, he also told me that my powers had beauty, but also dangerous." Zander raised an eyebrow, "He told me that my power would grow and that I would need to control it… and that fear would be my enemy."
"So your parents decided to separate you and Anna?" he asked and I nodded.
"They said it would only be until I could control my powers, but years went by and if anything I was getting worse at controlling them." Tears welled up in my eyes, "I began to fear what I needed to control, it turns out Pabbie was right, fear would be my enemy." Tears started to slide down my face. I felt someone sit down next to my on the couch, I turned and saw Zander there. He put an arm around my shoulder and I couldn't contain it and leaned my head against his should and let the tears fall freely.
I didn't know what to think right now. Elsa was crying into my shoulder and now I could see why she wanted to protect Anna, she didn't want history to repeat itself. I wrapped my other arm around her giving her a slight hug, "It's going to be alright," I said trying to comfort her.
She pulled away and looked up at me, "How do you know?" she asked, "How do you know that something won't happen?" I shrugged.
"I don't know," I said taking my arm off her shoulder, "I've been through so much bad… I sometimes have a hard time convincing myself things will be good." It was true, with the life I've had. It's hard to stay positive. "But you shouldn't let past events affect you, you're a great person." Elsa looked down and I like a slight blush dusted her cheeks.
"But I'm not," she said, "Not entirely at least."
I raised an eyebrow, "Why do you think that?"
Elsa looked like she was thinking of something horrible, I could feel her emotions. For such a warm loving person, she had a lot of negativity hidden underneath. "Prince Hans came to my ice castle hoping to capture me so I could end the winter I started, but a few men that worked to Weselton came along to do one thing… kill me." my eyes widened, "They chased me to the highest chamber and cornered me. they tried shooting me with crossbows, but I stopped one arrow, but after they kept trying I just… lost it. I don't know what came over me it's just- I was…" she stopped as if knowing how to say it.
I looked down, "Tired of not being left alone when what you want is time to yourself to be yourself." I said and I saw Elsa look at me from the corner of my eye.
"Yes," she said, "I came close to killing both of them, one was almost killed by some icicles I created, the other was almost pushed off a high balcony into a chasm by a block of ice I was pushing." She looked down, "Hans came and stopped me before I could kill them. He told me not to people the monster people claim me to be, but I am a monster."
"No you aren't," I said. She didn't look convinced. I sighed and stood up. She looked up at me and I offered one of my gloved hands to her, "C'mon, take a walk with me." I gave her a small smile and she took my hand. If her negative emotions were going to stay, well… I guess I'll just have to introduce a few positive ones.
With a few directions, I brought Elsa to the castle gardens. There weren't any leaves on the trees, the green on the shrubs was covered in snow, and the small pond was frozen the ground was covered by an inch or two of untouched snow. I looked up and saw it was beginning to grow and the full moon was beginning to rise.
"Anna and I used to play here when we were kids," I turned towards Elsa, she started walking down a path and I followed her. We walked down it for a few minutes before we came across a large frozen pond with a hill next to it, "We would go ice skating, have snowball fights, build snowmen. We had so much fun." I felt a sadness envelop her, "Too bad it had to come to an end. Anna would often come to my door asking me to play." I walked up so I stood beside her, "As much as I wanted to, I couldn't I was too scared that I might hurt her again." She bowed her head.
"Hey it's okay, you were just trying to keep your sister safe, and your parents wanted to make sure your powers wouldn't get out of hand." I said. She didn't seem to cheer up. Good thing I have a back-up plan, "I know a way to cheer you up." Before she could ask what I quickly picked some snow of the ground and put it on the back of her neck. Even though she probably couldn't feel it, but it still gave her a nice surprise.
She jumped away from me and I found myself laughing, "Oh man that was priceless." I said in between laughs. My amusement was cut short by a snowball to the face. I wiped the snow away and saw Elsa holding another snowball with a playful grin on her face. I gave one of my own, "Oh so that's how you wanna play?" I started gathering some snow, "Well two can play at that game." I said.
"You can't beat me Zander," Elsa said, "I'm the Ice Queen." I smirked and threw the snowball I was holding. Elsa dodged it easily and it firmly hit the tree behind her, "Missed me."
I shrugged, "Wasn't aiming at you." Elsa looked at me confused and I looked up, she followed my gaze just in time to have a bunch of snow help up by the tree branches land on top of her. I started laughing, "I guess the Ice Queen is losing her touch." I said Elsa easily got out of the snow and tried to glare at me, but I could clearly see she was trying not to laugh too.
I walked closer to her, "Now that wasn't so bad was it?" I asked. She didn't answer, but she did smirk. Wait a minute- my thoughts were cut short when Elsa pushed me and I fell backwards. Out of reflex I reached out for something, but only managed to grab Elsa and pull her to the ground… and on top of me.
I looked up to see Elsa's equally shocked face inches from mine. I could feel her cold breath against my burning hot face. We stared at each other for a few seconds before I cleared my throat, "You think you could get off me Elsa." Elsa seemed to realize something and quickly got off.
"Sorry it's just that- Well, I was kind of in shock at the whole thing and- Oh man this isn't going well." I chuckled and for a second though Anna had entered Elsa's body.
"Hey it's okay," I said as I stood up, "Well it looks like it's getting late, would you like an escort to your room Queen Elsa?" I asked.
She giggled, "It would be an honor." She said in her regal voice.
As we started to walk back to the castle Elsa asked me something, "So you said you sometimes had a hard time convincing yourself things would be good," I nodded, "so how do you keep going?" I thought for a minute.
"I guess you just need something to hold on to, a reason for why you are able to keep moving forward." I said.
"What if the reason you have isn't a good one?" she asked and I looked at her.
"I guess… you just need to find a better reason." I answered, "One that you know is worth it."
I didn't have a lot of trouble getting Elsa to her room, but I still don't know my way around this place. When we got there I turned toward her, "Goodnight Elsa." She nodded and I started to walk away.
I watch Zander walk away, 'What are you doing Elsa?!' a voice in her head asked, 'Say something.' Before I knew it I was calling out to him, "Zander wait," he turned around. Now what do I say?
"Yes?" he asked sounding curious. I got an idea; I walked forward and began to form something in my hand.
"Did you mean what you said this morning?" I asked, "When you said I was beautiful?" Zander seemed to blush and looked a little embarrassed.
"Yes, I did." He said and I smiled. I leaned up and kissed his cheek.
I pressed what I was holding into his hand, "Well thank you." I said, "Good night." I turned around and went into my room, the smile refusing to leave my face.
No matter how hard I tried, the dazed expression would leave. I reached a hand up and touched the area where Elsa kissed me. It felt strange… but a good strange. Her lips were slightly cold, but the kiss felt warm and it spread through my entire body. She put something into my hand; I looked down to see what it was.
Resting in the palm of my hand was a necklace made of ice, the charm gleamed a silver white and was in the shape of a snowflake, if I looked closely I could see what looked like my insignia etched into the center of the snowflake. How she knew it I didn't know. I put the necklace around my neck and headed in the direction of my room.
When I entered my room I saw Ithilagar curled up in a corner sleeping soundly. I rubbed my forehead, the headache just wouldn't leave. I took of one of my gloves and rubbed my forehead with my bare fingers thinking the heat would calm me down; It didn't.
Growling I clenched the glove in my hand, which both went up in flames a few seconds later. When the flames went out I expected the glove to be nothing but ash, but that was not the case. The leather was black, but different. It felt softer, more flexible. I slipped it onto my hand and tried using my fire, the fingertips of the glove set on fire, but only the fingertips. I was trying to set my entire hand on fire. The glove stopped my fire, but only some.
My headache pounded through my head again, I could feel the different emotions people were feeling as their dreams occupied their minds as they slept. Deciding I should get some sleep I climbed into bed and fell asleep almost instantly.
I opened my eyes and found myself in Rage's Domain, my headache is even worse now. I looked around to see all the cracks in the grey, hard ground had waves of red energy coming out of them. Every time a wave came out, I felt my headache pulse, "What is it now Rage?" I asked.
"You and everyone from your past have been lying to you for far too long." Rage said coming into view. "You, your parents, and the sorcerer." Rage said, "It's time you saw the truth."
"What are you talking about?" I said, "I already know the truth."
"Do you?" he asked, then shook his head, "No, you have been feeding lies to yourself ever since that day, to the point that it altered how you remembered that day. Well I'm wiping away the illusion you've given yourself." The area began to change until it formed a familiar environment. My parent's forge.
Several small memories flashed by. My parents first discovering my fire, when they introduced leather to me, and a few more flashed by until they stopped at a more recent memory.
I saw a younger version of myself; he was sitting on his bed wearing his usual leather outfit. He was staring down at his hands, which were covered by heavy, brown leather gloves. His face grew determined, "I can do this." He told himself and took off the gloves; it was then that I realized what day this was. The day I killed my parents.
Young Zander stood up and walked out of his room, when he got to the kitchen he was greeted by my(and his) parents. I never really noticed how different I looked from my parents, but that wasn't really the point.
"Good morning Zander," my mom said as I came in.
I almost responded, but my younger self beat me to it, "Morning Mom," my dad walked in, he waved to him, "Hey Dad."
'Morning son how did you- wait a minute." He looked at his hands, "Why aren't you wearing your gloves?" Mom looked were he was pointing and she gasped.
"Zander you know you need to always wear your gloves." She pointed out.
"Mom I'm almost 20 years old, I think I can at least try to control it-" he started, but my dad interrupted.
"No you can't, and even if you could. No one would ever except you, remember what we could you." He said.
I mouthed along to what my younger self was saying, "Don't get too close, and don't forget. You're a curse that people will neglect."
"We never told you that you were a curse," my mom said.
"But you were thinking it every time you said it." he grumbled.
"Look Zander," my dad started, "We're your parents and we know what best for you." Younger me scoffed.
"Best for me," he said, "Or best for you," I could feel his rage, "You don't even care about me anymore, at first maybe a little, but now you could care less if anything happened to me." my parents tried to speak, but he kept going, "You told me that the sorcerer's magic was wrong and that you hated what he did, but what about me?" he asked, "He made me what I am, I am a curse to this family like my fire is a curse to me." flames started to form around me. "But the question here is why have you kept me this long, why didn't you just get rid of me from the beginning? Would have been the easy way out of it, so why didn't you?"
Something in my dad seemed to snap, "Because no matter how hard we tried we just couldn't seem to get rid of you." Ouch, that was a low blow right there. I felt both my dad's rage and my own escalate tremendously, which only added more the giant emotional reservoir causing my headache.
The flames grew brighter and I saw that he was close to losing it. The younger me closed his eyes and when he opened them again, they were blood red, and were also glowing. Roaring in rage he let the flames he was holding back loose.
I watched as he burned everything, but I noticed something saw my dad in the memory of me setting everything on fire, but not my mom. I watched until the house was nothing but ruins. I saw the younger me come out of what looked like a daze, he looked around in confusion, but also horror.
The memory faded and I was in Rage's Domain again. "You still consider them your parents now?" he asked. I didn't answer, "Didn't think so, but I'm not done yet."
Before I could ask him what he mean the area faded and transformed into a room filled with books, cages, and very little furniture other than bookcases and a desk. Before I could question where I was. A voice echoed through the room, "Not afraid of me, but afraid of this." I turned and saw myself standing in front of the sorcerer and letting loose an inferno of flame.
The sorcerer blocked the flame with his own power and literally got out of the line of fire. "I see you're no longer holding back, how did your parents like that idea?" the sorcerer asked, it only made him angrier, I could literally feel it.
"Shut up!" he shouted and sent another wave at him. everything in the room was starting to catch on fire, and the dry pages of the books and opened windows only made it worse. Everything was burning and smoke filled the room, but my younger self seemed to breathe it in like it was normal air, "It feels good doesn't it?" the sorcerer asked starting to cough and choke on the smoky air, "To be able to stand in the center of a raging inferno and feel nothing. You should, it's what you were created for." The fire grew stronger as the rage grew, "Did you know that your mother wasn't pregnant with you until I made you what you are?" the world seemed to halt at that question.
The sorcerer smirked, "Your parents probably didn't even want a child, but thanks to me they were stuck with something they didn't want, but they deserved every second I assure you. Did it feel good to burn them, to give them a slow and painful death?" a roar was heard followed by a harsh bright light and a deafening boom. Then my vision returned I saw the sorcerer's tower was in ruins. The rage however remained and the scene slowly faded to black.
I woke feeling… strange, almost dark. I didn't feel my headache, but I felt something. I decided to hop out of bed and go into the bathroom. I ran some cold water and decided the put my hands underneath the cool stream hoping it would help clear my head. I looked up and my reflection, then the image seemed to change.
First it was Captain, "It's time I rid the world of this curse." The image changed, this time it showed my dad.
"Because no matter how hard we tried we just couldn't seem to get rid of you." The strange feeling was beginning to grow. Then the image changed one final time, it showed the smirking face of the sorcerer.
"Your parents didn't even want a child, but thanks to me they were stuck with something they didn't want, but they deserved every second I assure you." I glared at the mirror, "Did it feel good to burn them, to give then a slow and painful death?" Roaring I punched the mirror completely shattering it. My eyes closed tightly as another wave pulsed in my mind, when I opened them I stared into the shards of the mirror that were still on the wall. I noticed something, my eyes were no longer hazel, the were the color of flames.
I don't know what woke me up, but I knew it wasn't morning, maybe it was the dream I had. I felt an urge to talk to Zander about it, after what he told me earlier, I felt that I could ask him about anything. He really was a nice guy, but I felt another reason for wanting to talk to Zander, I couldn't explain what it was, but it kept urging me to talk to him. making my decision I decided to go talk to Zander.
I walked down the hallways toward his room, hoping I wasn't waking him up by doing this. I was surprised to see that he was already awake, and seemed to be walking towards the hallway that lead to the exit, "Zander?"
Why is Elsa up? I was certainly surprised when I heard her voice, "Where are you going?" she asked.
"I'm leaving," I responded, "I don't belong here, I need to go."
"What are you talking about?" she asked. I turned around and she jumped, probably from my change of eye color.
"If I stay I'll only become more dangerous to everyone, and soon I won't be able to hold it back. I can't allow that to happen, not again."
Elsa looked at me with concern, "Zander I understand where you're going with this,b ut you can run from it."
I looked away from her and glared at the ground, "How would you know?" I grumbled.
"Because I went through the same thing." She said.
"No you haven't, you wouldn't understand." I said.
"I used to think I was a danger to everyone," she said, "but I'm not and neither are you."
"Yes I am," I said, she tried to tell me otherwise, but then I all but shouted the next sentence, "MY PARENTS ARE DEAD BECAUSE OF ME!" Elsa looked shocked at that. I sighed and told her the story.
I didn't know what to think as I listened to his story. When he finished he turned away from me, "So now you see why I need to leave, because I'm a curse."
"Zander I want to help," I said, "We want to make you feel welcome. You're not a curse and neither is your fire." Zander seemed to consider my words, but they only make him angrier.
"That's what my parents told me, but they lied to me. everyone I've known has lied to me and wants to get rid of me. 'you're not a curse' they told me, but I knew they were thinking it." he turned towards me, "What about you? Do you really want to help me? Well I've had enough of people 'helping' me." he said 'helping' like it was vile. Flames were starting to form in Zander's hand, "I've… had… ENOUGH!" he waved his hand in a cutting motion and flames came out of it. I avoided them but let out a small yelp of pain as some of the flame burnt my upper arm.
I put a hand over the area of the burn and looked at Zander, he looked horrified.
No, no no no NO! This is bad, very bad. I just burnt the last person I wanted to hurt. I backed a few steps away before turning around and started running toward the entrance. "Zander wait," I heard Elsa call after me. I couldn't let her follow me. I turned around and shot flames at the floor, then I increased them and made them erupt into a wall of fire. I then continued to run out of the castle with one thought on my mind; I need to get out of here.
I had to take a few steps back when the wall of flame blocked my path. Using my ice I easily put out the fire, when the flames were out Zander was gone. I ran towards the door to try and catch up to him. I ran out of the castle to see Zander running down the street to the border of the city. I ran after him when I got to the castle gates I saw Zander turn around and he saw me. I thought he was going to summon another barrier of fire, but he didn't. Instead he roared in what I assumed was rage and punched the ground.
The ground seemed to move and the stone glowed red as it melted into molten magma, pretty soon the road was nothing but a river of molten rock. I used my ice to stop the magma from reaching the castle, but I didn't cool the rest of the road. I knew what I had to do, I went back into the castel. I had to wake up Anna and Kristoff.