"Arizona! Arizona! Arizona! Hmm, yes, I am," Callie said in confusion, "which happens at least once a day yet I don't remember ever receiving such a warm welcome before," she added with a smile.
"It's just… something happened," Arizona explained, "something good. And I didn't want to text you. I wanted to tell you in person, and I thought I had to wait until tonight, but you're here early!" she said with excitement.
"Yeah, my surgery got cancelled, and now I'm kinda glad it did. What happened? Did we win something?!" Callie asked.
"Wait right here!" Arizona said and bolted out of the room.
"Women are insane," Callie said to the empty room, "and oh, so delicious."
"Here!" Arizona said and walked into the room, holding the stethoscope she kept at home in her hand.
"Hmm… you wanted to tell me about your stethoscope? Because I see those every single day," Callie said. "Unless… you wanted to play doctor? But Arizona, it can get awkward," Callie teased.
"No, you moron, come here," she said and sat on the couch. When Callie joined her, she handed her the stethoscope. "Put it in your ears."
"Just trust me and do it!" she ordered and Callie did as she was told. Arizona took the chest piece and put it on her own baby bump.
"What are you…?"
"Shhh!" Arizona said, irritated, "just listen."
And Callie did, because she finally understood what Arizona was telling her to do. For a few moments, she didn't hear anything, but then she did, for the first time, her daughter's heartbeat.
"Oh my god, Arizona!"
"This is amazing! I can't believe we haven't thought of that before!" Callie said.
"Well, it wasn't really doable until three weeks ago but then, I guess, we had so many other things on our minds. This is just a little thing."
"A huge little thing!" Callie said.
"Wait, then what made you think about this today?" Callie asked and Arizona's eyes filled with joy. "What happened?!" Callie asked in excitement.
"Well," Arizona started, "what I really wanted to tell you is… she kicked this morning, Callie! She finally kicked!"
"What?! I can't believe I missed it!"
"I was sad, too, but I have a feeling it's gonna become her new favorite thing," Arizona reassured.
"She did it more than once?" Callie asked in hope.
"Few times throughout the day. Every few hours."
"How does it feel?" Callie asked softly, knowing that Arizona never got to the point of experiencing that the last time she was pregnant.
"It feels amazing," Arizona said in teary eyes.
"We should celebrate," Callie said, "our place? Tonight?"
"Our place?" Arizona said with a smirk.
"Come on, Arizona, we were there on all the important occasions since we started this thing. I think it's safe to say it's our place," Callie said with a smile.
"We weren't there when we told Sofia she was going to have a sister," Arizona noted.
"Yeah, well, they don't have Mac n' Cheese on the menu, sue me!"
"I am only teasing, Calliope. I would love to go celebrate at our place tonight. Which means we need to find a sitter," Arizona said.
"On it!" Callie said and picked up her cell phone to make a call.
"Oh my god! Tam Tam is kicking again!" Arizona said and jumped off the couch, "Sof!" she called and made Sofia rush into the room and straight towards her mama. She's been expecting to be called.
"What do you mean, Sof?" Callie said bitterly and hung up the phone. "Doesn't the other parent get to feel it first?" she asked as Sofia put her hand on Arizona's baby bump.
"Oh my god, Mama! I can feel it!"
"I'm sorry, Calliope," Arizona said apologetically, "she's been waiting for her sister to kick ever since she came home from school."
"Mommy, mommy! She's kicking! She's saying hello!" Sofia said and warmed her mothers' hearts.
"Well, I suppose that since you look so adorable talking to your sister, I will forgive you. But now move. I wanna say hello, too," Callie demanded and Sofia glared at her, making Arizona chuckle.
Sofia moved and Callie gently put her hand on Arizona's body, but nothing happened.
"Come on, Tamster, kick for mommy," Callie said to Arizona's stomach, but nothing happened. "Unbelievable!" Callie said and stood up. "You stole mommy's hello," she said to Sofia, "that's not very nice."
"She just loves me more than she loves you, mommy," Sofia said, shrugged, and went back to her room.
Arizona was trying to hold her laughter, but when Callie turned to her and glared, she couldn't help but burst into a deep laughter.
"This is not funny, Arizona!"
"I'm so sorry, Calliope! She came earlier and begged that I call her when Tamara kicks again. I couldn't tell her no. But oh god, your face right now!" Arizona said and kept laughing.
"Laugh all you want," Callie said, "but revenge will be mine!" She announced and left the room.
"Wait, what about dinner?!" Arizona called after her. "Calliope? Calliope!"
"Your chariot awaits," Callie said jokingly when Arizona opened her bedroom door.
Callie was wearing her tight red dress, her hair looked wavey, and she even chose a few accessories this time around. She looked incredible.
"Look at you, all dolled up!" Arizona said nonchalantly, basically like she was giving a compliment to a friend, but she was starting to feel a bit flush. Callie's dress was doing funny things to her. 'Those damn hormones,' she thought, replaying the same old record. It was much easier to stay in control when Callie didn't choose to present a generous cleavage to the world.
"It's a special occasion, Arizona. Tam Tam kicked for the first time today, come on!" Callie said as to explain the extra effort.
"Well, now I feel like an ugly underdressed monster truck, let me go change," Arizona said and turned around, but Callie grabbed her wrist.
"Don't you dare, you look fantastic, come on!" Callie said and pulled Arizona out of the room before the other woman had a chance to object.
Callie thought Arizona looked beautiful. Her hair was down, and she wore a knitted blue/white striped dress [C1] with black tights, and while the dress was simple, it was still really pretty.
"Callie! Come on! Let me change, you're only saying that because you don't want us to be late!" Arizona said and made Callie stop in her tracks and turn around to look at her.
"Correction," Callie said. "I'm saying this because you look fantastic, and because I don't want us to be late. Now come on!" she said and walked out of the door, leaving Arizona no other choice but to follow her.
Dinner was great. The food was amazing, as always, Callie's wine was amazing - she got a glare from Arizona for mentioning it - but mostly, they just enjoyed each other's company. Ever since their spa day a few weeks before, they hadn't had a chance to sit down and relax in a child free zone. Talk in an R rated language.
They didn't want the night to end, but they had to go home and release the sitter from Sofia duty, and put their girl to bed.
"I've got this," Callie said when the check arrived.
"No, Callie it's fine," Arizona objected.
"Come on Arizona, let me treat two of my favorite girls. Especially, let me treat the mother of my unborn child for carrying her this long," Callie said and took the check.
"You always treat me to things, Callie," Arizona argued.
"Yeah, well, when you eat, you're feeding Tammy, so technically, this is about child care," Callie said and winked.
"You're impossible," Arizona said as Callie signed the check.
"So are you," Callie said teasingly. "I better go use the bathroom before we leave," she added and stood up.
"Yeah, I'll join you and live up to my reputation as a pregnant lady."
"Yeah, what is it? Third time since we got here?" Callie teased again as they started walking towards the bathroom.
"Forth, actually," Arizona corrected in pride.
"I love how you're acting like you deserve some sort of a prize," Callie said.
"Oh, I deserve all the awards," Arizona stated as they walked into the bathroom.
Callie snorted as she entered a stall.
A couple of minutes later, they met again by the sinks, Callie was standing next to Arizona, wiping her hands dry with a paper towel, while Arizona washed her hands. As Callie was throwing the used paper towel into the trash can, Arizona stood up straight suddenly and sharply.
"Arizona? What is it? Are you okay?" Callie asked in concern and turned to look at the other woman.
Arizona said nothing but quickly grabbed Callie's hand and put it on her belly.
"Oh my god," Callie said in a near whisper and breathed out when she felt the kick, her eyes started to tear in joy, and a huge smile spread on her face. "I felt it! I felt it!" Callie said excitedly and Arizona laughed in joy. "Arizona…" Callie said in a near whisper again.
Upon hearing her name being said breathlessly, the other woman couldn't help herself anymore. She leaned in and kissed Callie. A gentle kiss, almost a peck, but it lasted longer, and if felt like heaven.
A second later she realized what she was doing and pulled back.
"Oh my god I'm so sorry!" she said and looked at Callie who had an unreadable expression on her face.
She didn't know what came over her. She just knew that she saw so much joy in Callie's eyes, that it made her feel happy, and full of gratitude. Callie was so close, and so so beautiful, that Arizona gave in to what she wanted at that moment, what she had wanted for a while.
But that was the instinct, and now came the aftershock.
"Callie, I'm sorry, I don't know what…"
"Don't," Callie said and made Arizona look down. "Arizona…" she said, willing her to look back up. But the other woman just wanted to apologize again.
"I'm sorry, really, I wasn't think…" and then Callie grabbed her by the neck and pulled her in for a heated kiss, a kiss of real reconnecting. A kiss of exploring every single corner of each other's mouths. Of remembering the past, and conquering the future. Of bringing down walls and barriers. That kind of a kiss.
And then just like it started, it ended and they pulled apart.
"Don't say that you're sorry," Callie said breathlessly.
Callie didn't know what to think. She was standing in the hallway, watching the bathroom door, waiting for the moment Arizona will come out so she could corner her.
After they kissed, Arizona bolted outside of the bathroom and straight into their car for the ride home, during which, she chose to ignore Callie.
Then, when they got home, Arizona had the perfect excuse not to talk to Callie in the form of their daughter's bedtime, after which she bolted straight into the bathroom, and that's where she were in the last twenty minutes.
On the one hand, Callie was upset. She didn't appreciate being ignored and she didn't appreciate not talking about things as big as what happened. On the other hand, she appreciated the time to think, to analyze things.
They shared a kiss. An amazing, life altering kiss. Just like that, in a middle of a bathroom, completely out of the blue.
'But was it really that out of the blue?' Callie asked herself.
For weeks now there were signs. If she was really looking, really letting herself understand, she would've seen them everywhere. In everything both of them did. In the ways they cared for one other. In the way Arizona was the driving force in her life. In the way that Callie didn't mind.
And then, she realized with clarity, what she felt. What she suspected, she maybe never stopped feeling.
She'd give Arizona the night, she figured, but tomorrow was talking time.
Arizona had been locked in the bathroom for twenty five minutes now, fighting the urge to smash her head into the wall and call herself names.
Things were good. Things were so good. Why did she have to go and ruin everything? Why did she have to bring something back from the dead?
But then a tiny voice in the back her head whispered 'she kissed you back.' Arizona tried to ignore the tiny voice, but it kept coming back, and it was getting louder and louder. 'She kissed you back, there was definitely back kissing."
But she kept fighting the voice, telling herself that their physical chemistry was never the issue. They were always drawn to each other that way.
"Hormones?" she asked her reflection in the mirror, but her question was not answered.
When Arizona opened her bedroom door to start her day the following morning, she found Callie standing crossed armed right in front of her.
"Holly shit!" Arizona yelled in surprise.
"Are you gonna talk to me now?" Callie said without missing a beat. She gave the other woman respect and space the night before, but she wasn't going to let them ignore what happened. She was never going to let them ignore anything else, ever again.
"My water nearly broke, Callie!"
"Nuh huh, you are not going to distract me with baby talk. We are gonna talk about this."
"There's nothing to talk about, Callie," Arizona said and passed Callie to go to the kitchen.
"No, Arizona, don't give me that. You know damn well that there is something to talk about," Callie said as she followed Arizona. "You kissed me, and I want to know why."
"I have no excuse, okay?" Arizona said and turned around to look at Callie. "I wasn't even drunk. Obviously. It was just a mistake."
"Was it?" Callie said, challenging.
"Old habits, instinct and whatnot," Arizona waved her off.
"I don't want to do something that makes you feel uncomfortable," Arizona admitted quietly and started walking towards the kitchen again.
"What if I don't feel uncomfortable?" Callie asked without moving from her spot.
"Wait, what?" Arizona asked, stopping dead in her tracks and turning to look at Callie again.
"Did you do this because of the hormones?" Callie asked.
"No," Arizona finally spoke her truth, "I did it because I wanted to, but Callie…"
"Did it matter who you did it with?" Callie continued pushing.
"Of course it mattered, but Callie…"
"Then… no. I was a willing participate. Obviously, I don't feel uncomfortable," Callie concluded.
"But what if I feel uncomfortable?" Arizona asked quietly and Callie looked at her in shock.
"Hmm… you kissed me, in a bathroom. Again," Callie said, throwing her hands in the air.
Arizona was scared. She wasn't sure she could to this again. With other people? Maybe. But she knew for years that Callie was the love of her life. Sure, they could get along, and be best friends, but there was something extra. Always there, buried under their friendship and under putting Sofia's needs first. And Arizona thought that if she let loose, if she lets this something extra out, and things didn't go well, she wouldn't be able to recover. Not again. Not ever.
She thought something was changing between them in the past few weeks. But Callie had just been on another date with Maureen a few days before, so how could she possibly, in all seriousness, feel the same as Arizona did? No. Arizona was gonna shut this down before everything spiraled out of control.
"So that's that?" Callie asked, pulling Arizona out of her inner struggle. "We're gonna keep living in the same house and ignore what happened?"
"We're not ignoring," Arizona said and started walking again, "we had a plan, and we're just sticking to the plan. That's all."
"And what is the plan exactly, Arizona?" Callie asked bitterly "roommates with benefits?"
"Absolutely not! There are no benefits! Benefits were not part of the plan! We're not gonna talk about this anymore, Callie!" Arizona said and finally went out of Callie's sight and into the living room.
"Oh, yes, we most certainly will," Callie said to the empty hallway.