Silver desert

chapter 10


DISCLAIMER: I don't own Fairy Tail (wish I did but then again I would probably mess up the show) If I were you I would read this chapter listening to the songs "where did I go wrong" Fray and "No good and goodbye" by the script

Chapter 10 - missions and love discoveries part 1

Closing his bag and putting it on his back, the fire mage left his house. It was pretty earlier and so he decided to just walk for a little bit. Happy was with Wendy and Carla so he would see him when they got together at the guild for their mission.

Last night after he had left Lucy's place, the young slayer couldn't find any reason to go to sleep so he stayed training by himself till the sun appeared on the sky. He didn't have a minute of sleep and he could honestly say that he wasn't tired. If anything his body was full charged.

It was like his inner dragon was trying to take charge, his fire magic was almost wild and if it wasn't for the fact he hadn't eat anything related to fire he was certainty he could burn somebody without knowing.

His skin was almost letting out steam and his nose would occasionally let out a little smoke. He was always on edge and frankly he didn't like it one bit.

And it all began when Lucy kick him out. He guessed it was because a part of him didn't want to be apart from her. He remember that when they arrived at her house the smell of another person made his eyes narrowed, and by instinct he pull her closer to him.

He wasn't dumb, well not enteral at least, he knew he had some kind of feelings for Lucy. But the truth is that he was scarred on acting on it. To dragons or slayers, loving someone was different than to humans. Humans were like a clock and when the time gone out, they would simply move on. With dragons it didn't work that way, they would choose a mate and it would be for life, they would never love another and they would never be able to be with another person.

But the reason he was scared wasn't the fact that would have to live by the other person's side forever. No he could and would love to live like that. The problem was that when together the dragon or slayer must performed a ritual which will end with him biting his mate making her or his forever. It all appears to be easy but if the other person doesn't truly love the slayer or dragon, they would die and the slayer could do anything to stop it.

So that was the reason why he was scarred, he didn't know if he was truly loved by someone. And then you have Lucy and Lisanna. They were almost opposites of each other, and yet they were his friends. Lisanna has been by his side since they were children, when she disappeared he felt like somebody cut his world in half, and he grieved for many days. Now she was back and she had openly said she loved him, but Natsu wasn't sure if she really did. Words weren't enough and he hoped this date would make things clear for both of them.

Lucy…. The dragon slayer couldn't even begin to describe what he felt for her because he honestly didn't know. She was beautiful and even if she didn't believe she was one of the strongest people he knew. Oh how he sometimes hated the fact that everyone in the guild treat her like some kind of precious doll. She was strong and she was brave so she didn't need to be protected like if she was made of glass. And yet he was the first to do so. But he couldn't help it, he had an overwhelming feeling of protection when talking about Lucy. 'and know I was replaced' bitterly thought the dragon slayer.

It was true, the fact that his team had abandoned Lucy for two months plus the fact that now there was Gabriel, meant that he wasn't needed to protect the celestial mage anymore. 'Hell she was pretty clear yesterday when she said I couldn't be always there' it pained to know that but he still had one chance 'this mission will be my last chance of redemption'

SPIRIT REALM GABRIEL'S HOUSE

Seating on the floor Gabriel let a tired breath, it appeared things with his master and the slayer were slowly beginning to come together. All they needed was the final push and perhaps he would finally do something good.

Their story reminds him of his own one. What he had said to his master was true, he did fell in love with Arya, what he failed to tell her was that he also had fallen for anther women. Her name was Kaira and she was a snow tiger, her fur just like her soul were the most pure white he had ever seen. She was a servant on Arya's palace and when he became a slave she was his only friend.

She used to sing to him, and now it was one of the only ways he had to remember her. Her hair was purple with a tint of dark blue on it, her eyes were the color of the sea and her lips were red as blood. To him she was perfection, the light that could make run the darkest shadow. She was the completely opposite of him, and yet he loved her with every fiber of his being.

He had fallen for her voice and for her smile but in the end, when Arya saw how happy he was becoming, Kaira was send to another castle and he never saw her again. He later heard she had gotten marry with a noble from the tiger clan, it wounded him to know that they could have been together if it wasn't for his foolish and stupid heart.

He still remembers the last time he saw her, he had sneak out of is prison and kissed her under the moonlight it was the perfect kiss. And yet it didn't made the goodbye any more bearable.

And till today he couldn't help but to think it was his fault for not noticing her sooner. His fault to choose open beauty instead of an inner one. So he guessed that part of him wanted to help Natsu not doing the same mistake he did.

Whispering a small 'Love can never be forgotten' the former demon started to sing:

"All the things that we've lost

Breaking off comes at a cost

And know I miss this mistake

Every word I try to choose

Either way I'm gonna lose

Can't take the ache from heartbreak

Oh, but as you walk away

You don't hear me say

Where's the "good" in "goodbye"?

Where's the "nice" in "nice try"?

Where's the "us" in "trust gone"?

Where's the "soul" in "soldier on"?

Now I'm the "lone" in "lonely"

'Cause I don't own you only

I can take this mistake

But I can't take the ache from heartbreak

No, I can't take the ache from heartbreak

No matter how it falls apart

There's an "art" in breaking hearts

But there's no fair in farewell, no

When I see you in the street

I pray to God you don't see

The silent "hell" in "I wish you well."

Oh, but as you walk away

You don't hear me say

Where's the "good" in "goodbye"?

Where's the "nice" in "nice try"?

Where's the "us" in "trust gone"?

Where's the "soul" in "soldier on"?

Now I'm the "lone" in "lonely"

'Cause I don't own you only

I can take this mistake

But I can't take the ache from heartbreak

I can't take the ache from heartbreak

I can't take the ache from heartbreak

I can't take the ache from heartbreak, no

If I could turn back time then I would re-write those lines

If I could turn back time then I would re-write those lines

If I could turn back time then I would re-write those lines

If I could turn back time then I would re-write those lines

Where's the "good" in "goodbye"?

Where's the "nice" in "nice try"?

Where's the "us" in "trust gone"?

Where's the "soul" in "soldier on"?

Now I'm the "lone" in "lonely"

'Cause I don't own you only

I can take this mistake

But I can't take the ache from heartbreak

I can't take the ache from heartbreak

I can't take the ache from heartbreak

I can't take the ache from heartbreak

I can't take the ache from heartbreak

If I could turn back time, then I would re-write those lines"

There really wasn't a good in goodbyes.

AT FAIRY TAIL'S GUILD

A young celestial mage was talking with her friends while trying to read the book on shadow manipulation her demon spirit gave to her.

"Lucy so this is what you are learning now? It seems hard, you also need to have a pair of daggers to do it, can you show me yours?" a small bluenette mage asked while reading the book on Lucy's hands.

"Levy I think you are spending too much time with Gajel you are starting to behave like him, could you please stop trying to read my book!" a playfully Lucy said, she loved to messed with levy's crush on the iron slayer it was plain obvious.

"Lucy, let the girl be you know she can't leave without her iron pillow" Mirajane joined the joking.

"but… I … we…" before a blushing Levy could say more, Erza said "don't worry Levy we all approve of your relationship we just ask to the maids of honor on your wedding"

That did the trick and with a loud 'THUM', the little mage fainted.

"1…2….3….and she down" a drunk Can said making the sign KO with her hands

Lucy couldn't help the laughing that came through her mouth when a distress Gajel appeared asking what had happen, just leave with Levy on his arms to the infirmary before anyone could say something. It was good to be able to just hang out with your friends without worries without ca…

"So Lucy could you show us now the pair of daggers you asked Natsu to buy with you?" a smiling Lisanna said

'Why do I always talk too soon' a slightly sweaty Lucy thought. But before she could say anything, her demon spirit came to her rescue again.

"I'm sorry to interrupt, but dragon boy and cat are waiting for us on the docks so my Hime and I must leave now, maybe when we returned she will show you her daggers, but for now farewell" and with that Gabriel grab Lucy piggyback style and left the guild running.

An upset Lisanna mumble "I will win this war Lucy you can bet on it"

With Gabriel running using his demon powers, Lucy arrived at the docks in 3 minutes. Just like Gabriel had said Natsu was there with happy but he appeared to be in deep thought. Silently walking to their side, Lucy pant Natsu's head "is everything okay Natsu?"

Seeing the face of Lucy as the owner of the voice that talk to him, made Natsu look up and smile a sheepish smile "Morning Luce, ready for our mission?"

Seeing that Natsu was changing the topic on purpose Lucy said "yeah I'm ready, but are you okay you looked to be in deep thought, need any help?"

"Don't worry Luce its nothing important just thinking about the future" said Natsu while narrowing his shoulders

"Oh okay then…" Lucy wanted to know more but she had a guess on what was he thinking and she didn't want talk about that 'but I did say I would helping him with that' a still debating Lucy enter the boat.

Walking to their cabin, the group was unusually quiet. Siting on one of the three beds the room had Gabriel said "Hime if you excuse me I'm going to talk with the captain about the duration of our trip, do you need anything?"

Finally stopping her trail of thought the celestial mage said "no Hell-kun I'm good, do you want me to go with you'"

"There is no need for that Hime, you can just stay here reading the book I give you it would be very important to our training sessions"

"If you say so then bye hell-kun"

"Bye Hime I will try to be quick"

With that the former demon left the cabin. Pulling out her book, Lucy started reading it. It was very interesting; it showed how the shadow dance style was created, its origins and its evolution. Just like Gabriel had said it was developed by the Bear demon clan, but this style was only used by the special assassins, mostly because it focused more on agility than strength.

She was staring to read the paragraph about the style defense when…

"So this is like a manual book for the style that you are learning" inquired the fire mage, while grabbing the book out of Lucy's hands getting a 'hey!' from the girl.

"I guess you could say that, now would you mind giving it back!" a slightly mad Lucy said.

Ignoring her talking the fire mage continued "Then why do you need to train with Gabriel? I mean you could just do what the books tells you to do" 'and by doing that you would spend less time with him' mentally added Natsu.

"Because it's not just read and do, I need to train my stances and my mind and only Gabriel can help me with that"

"And why can only he help you?"

"Because he is the only one who knows this style that I know of, plus with him helping I'm gonna finish this faster"

"And why do you have to finish this quickly, there isn't another tournament"

"I know that. But I promise I would help Gabriel in his quest"

"What quest?"

"The quest to find the missing pieces of his heart and soul, and maybe his love and family"

"Why did you agree to do that?" that quest looked like it could take years to solved, did that meant that she would be leaving? He wouldn't allow that.

"I didn't agree with anything, I was the one that made the promise! Why are you so interested on my and Hell-kun relationship?" why did he wanted to know all of this? Why did he care? Why now? These were the questions that were haunting the celestial mage head.

"Because I don't want you to leave and why are you calling him that!" shouted Natsu, he was sick of hearing that spirit name being said by her voice with such tenderness. He was the one who know her longer, he was the one that deserve to protect her not some demon bastard.

"Who says I'm gonna to leave, it may take months for my training to be complete, and we aren't just gonna start walking in any direction we will have to do some research first. And I calling him that because it fits him"

"But you will eventually leave and for what I guy you just met not even a month ago? He doesn't know anything about you, he is just playing with your heart to get what he wants, he…"

SLAP. Slapping the dragon slayer Lucy said "don't you ever say that again! Gabriel knows me better than anyone, and he would never play with my heart he knows better than to do that. And I may have only met him a month ago but to me, he is my best friend the only one that hasn't made me cry? Can you say that Natsu? No you can't, so please don't ever insult my friend again, because I don't like it when my partner tries to boss me"

Getting up, the celestial mage walked out of the room, falling to see the tear that escaped the dragon's slayer eye 'just a partner, not a friend …. Is this goodbye is this how it ends?' a crying Natsu thought looking at the now closing door. Had he lost his chance because of jealousy

WITH LUCY

She didn't remember for how long she was walking the only thing that she remember was that it wasn't enough. She needed to be alone right now but all she could see were people working or just talking. Spotting one of those smaller boats the ship had, she jumped inside one.

No one was going to find her here and she could finally be alone.

Thinking the conversation she had with the dragon slayer made her let a silent tear fall. She didn't wanted to say what she said; it was just an excuse to get mad with the fire mage really. Defending Gabriel was in a way the best well… way to let the feelings she was holding in her heart free.

Of course she was mad! The guy had asked her help for his date, not caring her feelings. Then he comes and tries to stop her for in the future to leave is side. She didn't know what she was going to do when Lisanna and Natsu got together, but being close to Natsu wasn't on her list.

So yeah maybe she just wanted a restart or a fresh start, she knew she would have it but dreaming wasn't a sin.

So now that she was trying to get away from Natsu, he started to get closer to her? What was he thinking? He had kissed Lisanna for god's sake. Yeah she knew about that, Lisanna had told Mira and the bartender thought she deserved to know. So why was he doing this right now, he didn't have her permission to broke her heart so why was he doing just that. Taking a deep breath Lucy tried to calm herself down whispering the words of a poem she had wrote she slowly sang:

"You got me sippin' on something

I can't compare to nothing

I've ever known, I'm hoping

That after this fever I'll survive

I know I'm acting a bit crazy

Strung out, a little bit hazy

Hand over heart, I'm praying

That I'm gonna make it out alive

The bed's getting cold and you're not here

The future that we hold is so unclear

But I'm not alive until you call

And I'll bet the odds against it all

Save your advice 'cause I won't hear

You might be right but I don't care

There's a million reasons why I should give you up

But the heart wants what it wants

The heart wants what it wants

You got me scattered in pieces

Shining like stars and screaming

Lighting me up like Venus

But then you disappear and make me wait

And every second's like torture

Heroin drip, no more so

Finding a way to let go

Baby, baby, no, I can't escape

The bed's getting cold and you're not here

The future that we hold is so unclear

But I'm not alive until you call

And I'll bet the odds against it all

Save your advice 'cause I won't hear

You might be right but I don't care

There's a million reasons why I should give you up

But the heart wants what it wants

The heart wants what it wants [3x]

This is a modern fairytale

No happy endings

No wind in our sails

But I can't imagine a life without

Breathless moments

Breaking me down, down, down, down

The bed's getting cold and you're not here

The future that we hold is so unclear

But I'm not alive until you call

And I'll bet the odds against it all

Save your advice 'cause I won't hear

You might be right but I don't care

There's a million reasons why I should give you up

But the heart wants what it wants

The heart wants what it wants [3x]

The heart wants what it wants, baby

It wants what it wants, baby

It wants what it wants [2x]"

And her heart against all reason still wanted the fire mage.

WITH NATSU

He always thought that crying was for weaklings and for people o gave up. But now he knew he was wrong, because these tears hurt more than every beating he had in his life together.

This feeling was the worst feeling he had ever felt. It was like is heart was ripped out of his chest. and yet he was still alive, but was he really living ? Without his sun without his heart.

He had finally understand what Lucy meant to him, but now, now … "it's too late"

And it's done I decided to break this chapter and to at least three others chapter, so this is the end of "missions and love discoveries part 1". Hope you like it.

So what do you think will happen now?

Will Natsu make things right?

Will Lucy let him in her heart?

Our will Lisanna mess things up again ?

Things are getting interesting, the key to heart is falling who will grabbed it?

Stay tuned for the next chapter, chapter 11 - missions and love discoveries part 2

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Sinaikai out


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