Hermione lay in her hospital bed with Draco by her side holding her hand. She was trying to sleep but her body wasn't letting her, she was too worried about something. And that something was Jason. What would happen to him? She didn't want him to die; if he did she would never be able to get over it. What if he found out that she loved Draco more than him? She didn't want him to think that because she truly cared about him.
"Draco… I need to talk to Jason," Hermione whispered opening her eyes.
He sat silently not looking at her as he rubbed her hand with his thumb.
"I know," He said softly his eyes trying hard not to show his disliking of the fact. He starred at her hand not able to meet her eyes, "He'll be coming to see you soon."
Hermione's heart cringed, what in the world was she going to say to him?
"What am I going to do?" She whispered trying to fight back a tear that threaten to burst forth. She tried to hide it but her voice gave her away.
Draco gave her a painful look forgetting himself as he paused for a moment, "I'm sorry you have to chose Hermione."
Hermione eyes snapped to him surprised at his words.
"No one deserves to have that on their conscience," He whispered mostly to himself, but Hermione was able to hear him.
Hermione looked at Draco in sadness as she finally tore her eyes away from him looking up at the ceiling. It wasn't fare; Jason was a good, no wonderful guy. He didn't deserve this, what did he do wrong to have this happen? She wouldn't be able to do it. How was she even supposed to face him?
Why did loving them both feel so wrong?...
"We could always go back to plan B?" Draco said a sad teasing smile playing on his lips.
Hermione glared at him, "That's not a plan that's a suicide attempt."
Draco gave a sigh leaning in and kissing her on the for head, "Your worth it."
Suddenly the hospital door opened. Hermione felt Draco cringe as she felt her self lift at the sight of Jason. He came in almost running to her bed side to see her.
"Hermione you're awake!" Jason said smiling his gorgeous white pearly smile.
She smiled back at him in spite of herself. Who couldn't smile when he was around, his aura was as contagious as a cold. He was a perfect gentleman.
Jason help her sit up carefully, being ever so careful. Hermione felt herself jolt alive at his touch as she clinged onto him. The sent of a musky forest filled her lungs making her body feel instantly better.
"Hey you," She said smiling, "It's about time you come see me."
Jason's face instantly lifted at her words feeling better than he had in ages.
"I'm sorry I left you," He said leaning down and kissing her cheek.
Draco shifted in his seat anger growing in his eyes, he did his best to keep his temper in check though as he saw Hermione's face when she saw Jason.
"Draco's been taking good care of me," She said throwing Draco a grateful look. She couldn't help but feel the happiest when both of them were around. That's when she felt the best and she knew it was because they were both apart of her life... no matter what happened.
Jason threw Draco a jealous look as he turned his attention back to Hermione, "How are you feeling?" He said worried.
"Never better, like a slash in the stomach could ever keep me down," Hermione said giving him a teasing smile.
Jason looked at her critically as he turned to Draco for a real answer.
Draco gave a glare, "She's been pretty weak since she woke up, it's hard for her to even sit up sometimes. It's been worse after she tried to walk."
Jason eyes bulged to Hermione, "Why on earth were you trying to walk?"
Hermione threw Draco a thank you glare for bringing it up, "I guess I just wanted to see if I could," She lied smoothly.
She turned to Draco still holding his hand, "Draco I need a minute to talk with Jason alone if that's alright?" Her voice growing softer as she gave him a pleading look.
Draco immediately tensed not wanting to leave Hermione's side. Heck he hadn't left her side for six days. He was attached to her now, he needed her to breathe, and he couldn't stand not being close to her making sure she was alright. He knew that Hermione needed to do this though; he knew that she needed to decide for herself on what she wanted. He hated how his life was practically thrown into her hands and he had no choice or control over the matter.
He realized that Hermione was still waiting for an answer.
He nodded reluctantly, "I'll just be outside if you need me," He said getting up to leave as he began to let go of her hand to walk away.
But Hermione pulled him to back down to her face as Draco's heart lifted, "I love you," She whispered seductively in his ear so low that Jason wasn't able to hear. She then gave him a kiss on the cheek.
"And I you," He said giving her a peck on the cheek too, not caring that Jason was fuming by her bed side.
Draco finally stood up to leave walking away, "Don't do anything stupid," He said to Jason giving him a threatening look.
Jason gave him a cold look but didn't say anything as he waited patiently for Malfoy to leave.
"And Draco," Hermione said, "Try to get some sleep."
Draco gave her a gorgeous crooked smile over his shoulder as he kept walking out the door not responding.
Hermione watched him leave not liking the empty feeling she was getting once again from leaving her. She waited until he had closed the door to speak. The door finally closed shut as silence crept in for a moment.
Jason sat down on her bed side looking at Hermione painfully.
"Why does it feel like I've already lost you," He whispered to her somewhat angrily.
Hermione's eyes snapped to his seeing his angered pain filled eyes. Her heart immediately broke; she didn't want to start out like this. She didn't know what to say to him, she wanted to put her arms around him.
"Jason you haven't lost me," She said truthfully, she hated seeing him in pain.
Jason looked away giving her a scoffing laugh, "Do you think I'm blind Hermione?"
She stayed silent for a moment as his words pierced her.
Hermione gave him a glare, "That's not fair."
Jason turned to look at her again, "Not fair? What about this is fair Hermione?" He asked coldly.
Hermione sat up a little more squinting in pain slightly but she ignored the pain.
She didn't know what to say, or even how to start. How was she supposed to break both of their hearts? She didn't want that, she wanted Jason, alive.
She didn't know what to do so she simply stayed silent waiting for him to scold her more.
But Jason's eyes slowly softened as his eyes went down to her scarred arm as pain reentered his gorgeous eyes.
"I'll tell you what not's fair," He whispered as he moved smoothly closer to her putting both hands on either side of her so he hovered above her, facing her face to face making Hermione not be able to breath. "It's not fair how you have a never failing hold over me, the way I can't force you to leave my mind. It's not fair how you hold my life in your hand and I don't have a say in what happens," He said his voice beginning to crack as she saw his eyes get watery, she tried to say something but he then said something that knocked the breath out of her.
"It's not fair how I'm in love with you. Every. Single. Part of you," He whispered as he got lower to her lips, so close that she could feel his breath on her face.
Hermione couldn't do this. She couldn't do this to Jason because she was in love with him too; she needed him almost as much as she needed Draco. She wasn't able to tell Jason, she loved him to much to make that kind of decision yet.
Hermione swallowed hard not being able to stand how close Jason was with out touching her. His muscles were flexing as his arms held him above her, his face held with perfect honesty. His eyes were now a silver color the way they were when he was only with her, his tan skin making them stand out.
"Jason," Hermione whispered his lips almost on hers now, teasing her, haunting her.
"Yes," He whispered seductively on her lips.
Hermione gave in to her body wants not being able to hold it in any longer.
"I-I don't know what to say," She whispered.
Not a moment later he gave into his wants and leaned down and pressed his lips to hers.
Hermione felt herself jolt alive the moment his lips touched hers, his lips were so soft, fitting perfectly to hers. She felt a burning want for him as he explored the feeling of her lips memorizing them. They molded together perfectly, Jason couldn't believe that this was finally happening. He had been dreaming about this ever since he laid eyes on her, and his wish was better than he had ever imagined it. Her lips were so soft, so plump and kissable. He wished that this moment would never end, that he could keep her all to himself forever.
Hermione lifted her hands to run them through Jason's dark brown hair surprised on how soft it was. She heard him let out a soft moan as she did so not knowing the effect she had on him in doing so. She drove him crazy, and she didn't even know it. Jason's kisses became more passionate as she ran her hands through his hair, trying to savior every moment.
He finally pulled away from Hermione for a moment letting her breath.
"You're amazing," Hermione said before she could stop herself.
She felt him freeze in shock for a moment, taking in what she had just said. Her eyes widened on how boldly she could speak. A smile slowly crept on this his face making her weak in the knees.
Jason gave her a heart melting smile, "I must be a good kisser huh?"
Hermione whacked his arm playfully.
He smiled again. Hermione suddenly wanted to kiss him again, he was really something different. So she kissed him again not being able to help herself, his lips were like an addicting drug.
She wrapped her arms around him pulling him back down as he more than willing let her do whatever she wanted with him. She pressed her lips to his again a little more boldly this time. She truly loved him, she couldn't deny that. It was just a different kind of love. It wasn't as strong as her feelings for Draco, but she couldn't just shove Jason out of the picture.
She felt him very carefully run his fingers down the side of her stomach, caressing her as they kissed. Hermione heard herself moan from the touch as her hand went under his shirt running them up and down his toned back.
Jason heard her moan and thought it was the best sound he had ever heard his entire life. Her hands then went to his back, running them up and down, driving his body crazy. He wanted more of her, he wanted all of her.
Jason suddenly pulled back, "Hermione if I don't stop now I won't be able to control myself," He said breathing heavily.
Hermione suddenly turned red, "I'm sorry I shouldn't hav-"
Jason cut her off giving her a light kiss, pulling back swiftly. "Don't ever say sorry for making me happy."
Hermione's heart instantly felt guilt rip it apart. What on earth was she doing? She couldn't do this to him; she couldn't lead him on and dash his hopes when he found out that she would pick Draco if it came down to it. She stayed silent for a moment starring at him, amazed of how truly wonderful he was, and she was going to ruin everything for him.
Her eyes started to form tears as she did her best to keep them back.
But Jason was more observant than she gave him credit for as he notice the sadness creep into her face.
Hermione took a small breath, "Don't say that," She whispered.
Jason looked at her sincerely, "I only say what's true."
Hermione shook her head, "Jason you deserve so much better than me," She said giving him a sad laugh letting a tear slip through her guard.
He looked at her for a moment letting his eyes pierce hers.
"Hermione Granger I love you. No one in this entire world could make me feel like I have a reason for living more than you," He said pausing, causing her eyes water even more from guilt, "I realized that when I almost lost you Hermione, you could have died right here and front of me and I would have been entirely my fault. You're everything in this world to me. The only thing holding me down in this universe is you."
Jason reached out to Hermione's face to wipe the tear from her eye.
"You're my only reason of living anymore," He said, his gorgeous eyes looking straight into hers.
She shook her head, "I can't lose you Jason…" She said another tear falling from her face. She seemed to be letting that happen a lot lately.
"But you can't say that, I can't be your only reason for living," She said pleading.
Jason face grew into confusion as he looked at her, "What are you talking about; of course you're my only reason."
Hermione suddenly got angry, "What's so special about me Jason? I'm not worth it don't you see that? You should have picked someone better, a girl who loves you and only you! A girl who will give all of her thoughts to you and savior every moment she spends with you."
She started to shake as she continued not letting Jason interrupt her, "And… and I, I won't ever be able to do that, I'll always have someone else in the back of my mind all of the time. I'll always love someone else too. I can't be that girl that you deserve Jason," She said her voice growing quite not trusting herself to speak anymore.
Jason simply smiled a sad smile, "You think I would ever regret choosing you?"
Hermione caught her breath as her mouth almost dropped in awe at his words.
"Hermione I know all of that," He said softly and caringly tucking a stray hair behind her ear, "But I also know something else. And it's that your in love with me too, I can see it from the way you crane your neck to find me in the classroom. Hermione your eyes give you away. You can't stand the thought of losing me, and that's reason enough for me to keep fighting for you… Even if I know that Malfoy will probably win," He said his voice becoming dangerously soft finally looking away from her from the sad realization that had just out from his lips.
Hermione looked at him tear stained, "You mean," She said taking a big gulp, "That even if you knew that I would pick Draco… you'd still love me anyway?" She said un able to comprehend what he was saying.
He blinked away his tears, a half smile growing on his face as he starred out of space away from her eyes.
He suddenly snapped his eyes to hers, "Until my dying day…. the day I turn nineteen."
Hermione heart stopped. She didn't want him to go through that. When your eighteen you shouldn't have to worry about things like finding who your going to be with the rest of your life, or for that matter worry about finding your sole mate before you died when you turn nineteen. She could never do that to him.
"Jason you should hate me for that," She said outraged.
Jason gave her a glare, "I could never hate you."
Her let out a grunt of frustration, "Do you have to be so perfect? Can't you at least get mad at me, hurt my feelings, or throw something at me? You shouldn't have to do this Jason," She said throwing her hands through her hair.
He immediately put his arms around her to comfort her.
"I'm going to do my best to make you want me Hermione, I'm far from perfect. I'll fight for you, what else can I do? I couldn't even try to want a girl as much as I want you," He said rubbing her back soothingly.
Hermione snuggled into his chest trying to keep her body from shaking.
"Your right about one thing Jason," She said into his chest, "And it's that I love you too," She said before she could stop herself.
She felt his body go ridged for a moment as he soaked in her meaning, savoring her voice saying those three words.
He gave her a light squeeze, his arms tightening around her, "You don't have to choose right now Hermione, let what happens happen. Everything's going to be alright," He said soothingly kissing the top of her head.
He suddenly put his arms underneath her lifting her up off of the bed bridal style.
"Jason! What are you doing?" She said clinging to him from the sudden movement.
He let out a laugh that sounded somewhat of a bark, "You've been in this hospital about a week, I thing you deserve some fresh air," He said.
Jason grabbed a blanket with his other hand as Hermione clung to him silently. He carried her over to the other side of the room. He came to one of the large window ceils that over looked the Hogwarts grounds. Jason carefully sat down with Hermione in his arms still as he placed her carefully in between his legs letting her back rest against his chest. He then put the blanket on top of them making sure Hermione would stay warm.
Hermione looked out the window and had to catch her breath. It was simply a beautiful night at Hogwarts. The sun was beginning to set over the green mountains that hid Hogwarts, giving everything a pink and orange glow to every thing it touched. A few stars could be seen twinkling getting ready to shine when night fall came. It was enough to make Hermione want to Hermione jump out of the window and go sit on the grass.
"Open the window Jason," Hermione said as she reached for the handle to open it herself, but Jason got to it first as he unlocked the window and let the pink and orange rays sink there warmth into Hermione's skin. She breathed in a big breath of fresh air and instantly felt better, leaning into Jason again as she simply starred out into the sun set.
"I could watch the sun set everyday," Hermione confessed as Jason leaned against the stone wall making himself comfortable. He loved having Hermione in his arms.
She felt Jason nod his head in agreement as he rested his head on top of hers.
"It's beautiful…I could defiantly get used to this," He said his voice soft.
Hermione smiled in spite of herself, "Thank you Jason," She said softly pausing for a moment. She looked up at him, "For everything."
He looked at her gently for a moment as he lowered his lips to hers kissing her softly for a moment.
Hermione felt her insides squirm as she felt his lips meet hers.
"Your welcome love," He whispered as he gave her a half smile, and then looked away from her, his eyes roaming into the sun sets rays.
Hermione stared at him for a moment then she to finally looked away back toward the barely seen sun that was now almost covered by the mountains, snuggling into Jason's chest as he wrapped his arms around her.
They stayed just like that for what seemed like forever.
"Jason?" Hermione whispered.
"Yeah," He said his eyes closed leaning his head against the wall.
"You have to know that I can be selfish sometimes," She said biting her bottom lip, "Sometimes I can want two things at once and hurt you both in the process… I don't want to lead you or him on. I don't want anyone to get hurt because of me."
Jason's eyes opened looking down at her, "You don't think me or Malfoy are selfish?" He said giving her a teasing smile.
Hermione rolled her eyes, "That's not the same thing."
"Yes it is," Said Jason.
Hermione decided to give up giving a defeated sigh.
He leaned down to her ear and whispered, "I love you Hermione Granger, whether you like it or not I do, and so does he. Just enjoy having us both for now; you need to concentrate on being able to walk again," He said kissing her head.
Hermione couldn't help but help feel safe when he and Draco were always able to say the right thing to make her relax a little. She didn't know if it was just their amazing Veela persuasive skills or if she really believed them.
"Ok," She said giving in not wanting to talk about that anymore.
"Plus you need your strength to see your family and friends tomorrow," He said giving her and evil grin.
Her eyes widened, "My family's here?"
He nodded, "Madam Pomfrey has only let me and Malfoy see you, she knows about our… situation. She let me and him see you, but everyone else has had to wait until you were stronger to see them."
She nodded glad that she at least let Draco and Jason stick around.
"I'm glad you're here Jason," She said her voice soft not able to look at him, instead she chose to look out into the night. The sun was gone now barely leaving light in the sky as more stars became visible.
Jason kissed her head again, "So am I Hermione."
They stayed silent for a long time as they stared out the window watching the stars come out, the bright moon now giving light to the sky. Hermione felt her eyes droop as Jason as a pillow became all too comfortable to stay awake.
She began to fall asleep in Jason's arms, feeling him squeeze his arms around her making her feel safe while she slept…