I am getting weaker and weaker everyday. I don't know how much longer I can handle doing this to myself. Today one of my boys is coming and I have to be strong for him. I really don't want him to see me in this shape if it's going to be the last time he see's me. It has to be a happy memory for him and everybody.
"I've got an idea." I said out loud. My dad looked over at me. We were sitting in the living room watching tv, waiting for Matt's plane too arrive.
"What's your idea, shorty?" He said with a smile.
"Well I don't want anyone to feel sorry for me. So what I want to do is write all of my friends a letter telling them each how I feel for them. What do you say?"
"That's a great idea. Hold on." He got up and walked into his office. A few minutes later he walked back out with a stack of paper and a pen. "Here you go shorty, I'll leave you to it then. Do you want to go to the airport with me?"
"Yeah, what time are you leaving?"
"4. Oh and he's going to be staying with here helping with the plans."
"Awesome." I said and slid down onto the floor. I moved over to the coffee table and started writing the letters. Dad left me there and walked into his office again. I looked over to where he had disappeared to and sighed. "Might as well get this over with."
Matt…I began, might as well begin with his.
I want you to know that you are one of my best friends. I want you to be happy with your life and stay focus on your job. I know that if you want something you will get it. Ashley is the best thing for you. I am truly happy that you two are together. Try your best not to hurt her. This is truly what is coming from my heart. You are my Brother and that is all that I have ever wanted in life. I love you and I don't want you to shed any tears over me. I know you will however. Just remember that you will always have me watching over you.
-Alia…I Love you Matty-
Well that's one down, only let's see…About a Zillion to go. The hardest one that I will have to write is Jeff's. That one just might kill me. I want everyone to have one to remember me by. So that means that Adam, Randy, Dave, John, Shannon, Shane, Mickie, Ken, Phil, and Ashley. I might as well go on to the least harder letters on the list.
Thanks for all your help with everything that has happened. I love you and I hope that your career heads to the place that I along with everyone else know where it's going. You are the one person that I know will make John happy when I no longer am around. Please even if you guys are friends try not to let him get depressed. I want to thank you for and I love you very much.
That's another one down. I glanced at the tv and sighed. ESPN again. Isn't John going to realize that there is something other than that. Oh well whatever makes him happy. I looked on to the small clock that was on the side of the screen. It was just after noon. I stood up and walked over to dad's office. The door was open so I walked in.
"Do you want anything for lunch?" I asked sitting in the chair across form him.
"Nah, I'm good. How has your letters been going?"
"Two down only 9 more to go. I told ya I had a lot to do."
"Dang. Who are you writing?"
"You will find out when I get done. Do you have a box that I can put them in?"
"Uh," He got up and went to the closet. "Let me see." He searched through the top shelf. "Got it. Here." He grabbed the old shoe box and shut the door. He handed me the box with a smirk.
"Thanks. I'll go finish the letters now."
"Have fun shorty."
I walked back out to the coffee table. I put a pillow on the floor and sat down on it. I looked at the two letters and folded them both and wrote the correct names on the outside of them and placed them in the box. I sighed and went on with the next letter.
It's so good that we get along with each other. I love you so much and you know that our little Matthew loves you to. The only thing that I want you do for me is love him. Even if it ends bad for the relationship I want you to love him. He is the nicest and sweetest guy around. You are the sister that I never had. I want you to be as happy as you can. If you can be happy then I can be happy. Stay true to yourself and don't let the big boys get to you.
I folded this one and placed her name on the outside like the others and placed this on top of the others in the box. The only way I would be able to get this done is writing them now. While I have time to myself.
I know that we haven't really hung out much but this is important. I think that the reason why I became so strong was you. All the training in the ring really helped me out. You will never know how much fun I had with you inside that ring. My home. Thank you.
I did this letter the same as the others. I to a deep breathe. The next letters are going to be slightly harder than these last ones. On to the next letter.
I know that during all the parties we had so much fun. Well I had fun tormenting you at any chance that I got. I love you and that is why I did it. I am glad that I had you in my life and that you let me doing some of the things that I did. But we are even now. With all the pranks that we did to each other we came out even. It was so much fun and it still is. Keeping having fun with the guys and try to keep them straight. I know that they are going to be hard to get along with for a while, and for that I am sorry.
Love you a lot.
I put the pen down after I wrote his name on the outside of the letter. I sighed and closed my eyes. This is getting harder than I thought it would. I folded my arms on the table and laid my head down on them. I was listening to the game that was on and somehow I dozed off. The next thing I knew was that I was being awoken by John.
"Sweetheart I'm about to leave. Do you want to go get Matt?"
"Huh." I said rubbing my eyes. "What time is it?"
"3:45. If you don't feel up to it I can go by myself. You need some sleep anyways."
"No. I'll go. I want to see Matt anyways." I rubbed my eyes again and John offered me his hand. With his help I got up off the floor and walked over to the hall closet. I tugged on my jacket and followed John outside to his car. He got in and we backed out of the drive way and made our way to the airport.
--At the Airport--Matt's POV--
I was waiting for the line to move so that I could meet John in the front of the building. Finally the damn line was moving. Today I'm a little impatient. I want to hurry so I can see my best friend and sister. Every second that I am here I'm not there. If that even makes sense. I pulled my hat out of back pocket and placed it on my head and pulled it down over my eyes hopefully nobody will recognize me.
A few minutes later I got my luggage and made my way out front. I love that I know so many people in the wrestling business that live in different states. I am so grateful that John is letting me stay with him for about a week. I went though the front door of the airport and John was standing there waiting.
"Hey man." I said as we pulled each other into a hug.
"How was your flight?" he asked as I placed my bags in the trunk.
"Let's get going." He said as we walked to the front of the car. I opened my door and got in. I wasn't paying any attention to the back of the car so I didn't see what was coming. John got in and turned his head to the backseat and nodded. I looked at him confused. All of a sudden my eyes were being covered by something.
"Fuck." I screamed.
"Dang. That was loud. Well I see how much I'm loved." said a voice from behind me. Wait a minute I know that voice. I pushed the hands off my eyes and turned my head to the back. "Hiya Matty." She said. A huge grin was placed on my face and for the life of me I couldn't get it off. Alia giggled.
"Hey there girl. It's good to see you."
"Same here Matt. So what's up?"
"Nothing." I said turning back around and putting my seatbelt on. "What have you been doing with all that free time." I glanced over to John and his smile was now a frown. I know what he's thinking and it's killing him to see her like this.
"Oh a little project. Dad's letting me do what I want. I told him to treat me like nothing's happening. But apparently he's to pigheaded and stubborn to listen to me."
"So you want me to treat you like I have always been treating you. No special treatment?"
"You got that right. I want to be normal for once."
"Sorry to break it to you doll…You have never ever been normal. I don't see how I can treat you normal when that hasn't been the case this whole time." That made John chuckle and I received a slap to the head.
"Thanks a lot Matthew." she replied with another giggle.
Soon we made it back to John's house and I got settled into Alia's room. I keep telling her that she should spend time in there but she said that it was nothing but things and what she really wanted was to spend her time with the ones that she loved with all her heart. So I gave up and listened to her. For once, maybe more, she was getting her way.