Today totally suck. I can't believe I thought Fang would have just froze his life for me when I left and waited for me. How could I have been so naïve? When I got home from school I went straight to my room .I heard my mom call my name and ask how my day went but I just ignored her. When I got to my room I slammed my door, locked it and blasted the stereo. Music is my escape when I don't want to deal with the world. When I first moved I spent most of my time playing my guitar and writing music. I was hoping the loud music would drown out the world around me but it wasn't working. I heard a light pounding on my door. I groaned as I got up off my bed to answer it. I opened to door with a glare on my face. My face softened a little when I saw two little eyes staring back at me. Angel.
"Angel, what do you want? I'm not exactly in the best mood right now." I say with attitude.
"I know," she said in a small innocent voice, which only made me feel horrible about how I had just spoke to her, "I just wanted to know if you want to talk about it. I wanted to make you feel better."
Ok now I feel like the lowest life form on the planet, "Thanks Ange, but I really don't want to talk about it. I had a really bad day and I just really want to be alone." I said in a pleading voice.
"Oh, ok well then why don't you go to the old boat house?" she said in a sweet voice, "You used to always go there when you were sad."
Oh my God, my sister is a genius. "Thanks Angel, that's a really good idea." I said giving her a hug and kissing her forehead. "See, I knew there was a reason I kept you around." With that I gave her one last hug and headed out the door for the boat house.
A few hours later….
I have been sitting here awhile with my feet dangling off the dock a few inches short of touching water. I have been thinking long and hard about the events of the day and found myself staring off into space a lot. I still couldn't wrap my head around the idea that Fang would just stand there and watch as his bit—I mean girlfriend tailed me off like that. It's like those eleven years for friendship meant nothing to him. I was so deep in thought I didn't even register the soft pounds of footsteps behind me until I heard someone clear their throat behind me. I looked up to see who was standing there then looked away quickly staring at the water. Fang. I should have known Fang would come looking for me here.
"Hey" he said in his soft deep voice.
"Hi" I replied still not looking at him. There was a few seconds of silence until he spoke again.
"Can we talk?" he asked with what sounded like a bit of plead in his voice.
I just shrugged in response. He took it as a yes and came and sat next to me, his feet dangling off the dock just barely skimming the water.
"I'm sorry for earlier, Lissa had no right to say those things about you." He said looking at me but I refused to meet his gaze.
"I was a jerk. I should have defended you. I don't know what I was thinking. I have been best friends with you for eleven years and that's way more important than someone I have only been dating for a few months." He said still staring at me. I snuck a glance up at him and saw hurt and sadness all over his face.
"And I told her that too. She promised that she would be nice to you and not bother you anymore. I am so sorry, can you ever forgive me?" He asked with pleading eyes. This is some of the most emotion I have ever seen Fang express. He must really be hurting.
I gave him a long look but still didn't reply. I wanted him to see how much it hurt me to feel like I had lost my best friend again. He waited awhile for a response and when he didn't get one he reached in this pocket to get something. I gave him a questioning look.
He pulled out a chocolate pudding cup and two spoons. I couldn't help but smile to myself. "I brought us a pudding to share" he said handing me a spoon, "my mom thinks I'm too old for these but they just have too many memories to give up."
He ripped off the lid and I took a spoon full of pudding and stuck it in my mouth. We sat there in silence for awhile just eating pudding until I finally decided to speak, "Ok." I said, just one simple word, sounding just like Fang.
He gave me a confused look and said, "Ok what?"
"I forgive you" I said taking another spoonful of pudding.
"Really?" he asked with a huge smile spreading across his face. It made my heart melt. (Wait, Did I just think my best friend's smile makes my heart melt? Where did that come from?)
"Ya, I'd miss you too much if I didn't forgive you." I said licking my spoon clean.
To this he gave me a sudden sideways hug and squeezed me hard forgetting the pudding still in his hand. He accidently spilled the remaining pudding down the front of my shirt.
"Oh crap" he said underneath his breath when he realized what he had done. He hurried looking around for napkins to help me clean it up but I stopped him.
I picked up my shirt bringing it to my mouth and licked the pudding off, not lady like I know, but I was NOT going to waste perfectly good pudding. I let out a small moan of pleasure and said "Yum, I haven't had chocolate pudding in years."
Fang gave me a questioning look and asked in disbelief, "You haven't had chocolate pudding, the thing you love most in the world right next to chocolate chip cookie, in years? You're kidding right? You used to fight me for the last one on the shelf. "
"Nope," I say popping the 'p', "I haven't had chocolate pudding since I left for Miami."
'What? Why?" he asked looking at me confused.
"I don't know," I say looking off into the distance, "It was always our thing, it just didn't feel right eating it without you remembering all the memories we shared and knowing I wouldn't get the chance to have anymore with you. It hurt me to think about it. So I just stopped eating it."
He gave me a long sad look before he spoke again.
"Well we don't have to worry about that now, you have me forever and always." He said putting one of his lean strong arms around my shoulders.
I responded by gently placing my head on his shoulder and saying, "I missed you so much."
He placed his head gently on top of mine and replied, "Not as much as I missed you."
I couldn't hide the smile that crept its way on my face, I finally had my best friend back and I felt, for once in my life, everything was right in the world, well except maybe the brat he is dating but let's solve one problem at a time shall we? Right now I just want to live in this moment for as long as I possibly can.
We sat in silence for a few minutes just enjoying each other's presents and enjoying the moment until Fang decided to break the comfortable silence.
"Max," he asked so quietly I could barely hear him
"Uh-huh" I said still enjoying this moment in time.
"How come you never wrote?" he asked lifting his head off of mine and staring off into the water.
I lifted my head in surprise looking at him then looking down at my hands. I shrugged and replied, "I did at first, but then I guess our lives were taking us in different directions and we started talking less and less. I guess eventually I just thought you had moved on and found a new best friend."I said trying to hide the sadness in my voice but Fang could see right through it. He looked at me with a sad and surprised look on his gorgeous face with a hint of concern.
"I did keep tabs on you though through your blog and I would post comments ever now and then." I said watching a school of fish swimming past me. At this he looked even more confused. Gosh he looks so cute when he's confused. Oh my God, why do I keep thinking these things? He is you best friend Max, he has a girlfriend. Snap out of it! Wow I really need to stop having conversations with myself, people might start thinking I am crazy or something.
"What do you mean you kept tabs on my through my blog. You never posted comments. I would have known." He said still confused.
I have him a smile and couldn't hold back a giggle when I saw his face, he was so clueless. "Fang," I said trying to control my laughter that had gotten a little out of control, "Think about some of the user names you reviewers have, do any of them stick out to you?"
He sat there with his hand on his chin in deep thought. God he looks so—No! Bad Max! He still looked confused so I decided to give him a little hint; I picked up the empty pudding cup and tossed it at him. He caught it in one hand and stared at it. Then I saw his eyes widen the slightest bit and I could tell the light bulb had just gone off. I gave him a small smirk and leaned back on my hands enjoying the view we had on the dock.
"User"I'll~fight~you~for~a~pudding!" he said smirking at me, "Wow Max real original." He said throwing the empty pudding cup back at me.
"Well I thought you would be smart enough to figure it out, sorry I guess I gave you a little too much credit." I said smirking at him. He just stuck is tongue out at me. Wow that was so unFang like.
"Oh wow, real mature Fangy, what are you five?" He just shrugged at me and I saw his lip turn up into a small smile. "Really Fang, Act your age not your shoe size." I add just to bug him.
"I will when you do." He counted back to me. At that I decided to copy him, you know since we are acting our shoe size, and I stuck mu tongue out at him. He just smirked. Well isn't he smiley today.
"Do you remember the time I accidently thought you took the last pudding cup and I got so mad at you?" Fang asked with a small smile playing on his sweet lips.
I chuckle and respond, "You started yelling at me and telling me I was a horrible friend and you never wanted to see me again. And then I kicked you where the sun don't shine." I said laughing a little harder.
Fang's smile started to fade as he remembered being kicked in his man hood. He winced a little. "That was NOT funny Max, I went crying to my mom, I seriously thought you broke 'lil Fang." He said looking sorry for himself.
I just laughed a little harder. "You wouldn't talk to me for a week."I felt my eyes start to water from laughing so hard, "Then we found out Nudge was the one who ate the pudding."
"Ya, she just sat there and watched us fight to the death about the pudding and she wasn't even going to say anything." He said loosing this smile completely. "You're lucky you didn't permanently hurt anything, you know I do want to have children one day." He said giving me a serious look then a small smirk.
I playfully shove him and said, "Ok like I was really doing any harm. Do we really need more emo dark, tall, and silent kids running around. We have enough of those as it is." I said sarcastically. He pretended to look hurt, and then he wrapped his arm around me again.
I reclaimed my place with my head on his shoulder. I let out a small sigh and said, "I miss those days."
He placed his head on top of mine again and hugged me slightly, "I miss those days too."
We sat there in the same position for hours just enjoying each other's company and reminiscing in the good 'ol days. Maybe the universe doesn't hate me after all.