Shadows & Roses

Memories

"Kyoya!" Tamaki grinned and ran over, throwing his arms around him.

I watched as Kyoya gave a small smile before hugging Tamaki back. When Tamaki finally relinquished his hold on Kyoya, Haruhi stepped up next.

"Welcome back Kyoya." she smiled and hugged him, Kyoya giving her a kiss on the cheek.

"Thank you. And you look extremely well rested for a woman with two year olds." he smiled.

Haruhi laughed, "Tamaki is a big help. Would you like to meet them?"

"Of course he would!" Tamaki yelled and hurried over and scooped up both twins.

"Tamiko, Mattieu meet your Uncle Kyoya." Tamaki grinned.

"Uncle?" Kyoya asked looking at Tamaki with a raised eyebrow.

"Of course! You're family Kyoya!" Tamaki replied.

Kyoya sighed and nodded and I knew he was silently accepting the fact that whether he liked it or not he would now be 'Uncle Kyoya' from here on out to the twins. I didn't know why he wouldn't expect Tamaki to deem him Uncle. Honey had told me that Tamaki counted them all as family since the club's inception.

"Very well then. It is very nice to meet you both." Kyoya said smiling warmly at the twins.

"Kyo-Chan! It's nice to see you again." Honey said from beside me as he got up and walked over to where everyone was gathering around.

"It's nice to see you again too Honey. I hear that the Haninozuka Company just completed a large merge with a toy company. Congratulations." Kyoya said.

"Thank you." Honey smiled.

"And Mori, I trust you're well?" Kyoya asked.

Mori nodded, "Welcome back."

Finally Kyoya's eyes came to rest on me and I saw something glint in them. I knew I would have to go over and say something. So I smiled and stood up from where I sat, picking Taro up with me before walking over.

"Hello Kyoya." I smiled, happy that my voice didn't waver.

"This must be Taro." Kyoya said looking at Taro.

"It is. Can you say hi to Uncle Kyoya, Taro?" I asked.

"Hi." Taro said and grinned at Kyoya.

Kyoya smiled, "Shall we sat down?"

We all walked back to our seats and Haruhi served Kyoya, Kaoru and Hikaru a serving of Soba before going back to her own.

"So Kyoya why didn't you tell us that you were coming? And why did you tell these two?" Tamaki asked.

"I thought it might be a nice surprise. I realized recently that I've been away from Japan for a long time now and thought I'd come back. I mentioned this to Kaoru when he stopped by my flat in London while there for London Fashion Week and he told me about your little gatherings and suggested I come back to Japan for one. I agreed and that was when he suggested I keep it a secret. So here I am." Kyoya said leaning back in his chair, his Soba untouched.

"How long are you staying?" Haruhi asked.

"A couple of weeks. Two months at most. I need a break from London. Hamako is headed with a girlfriend to the Caribbean for a retreat and I'd rather spend my time here where I would still have access to everything involving the company than on some beach." Kyoya said.

"Oh by the way Kyoya…congratulations on your marriage!" I said looking to Kyoya.

Kyoya gave me a strange look before smiling, "Thank you Sora." he nodded.

Suddenly a phone rang and I saw Honey pull his cell phone out of his pocket before looking at it.

"I have to take this. I'll be right back." Honey said and stood up from the table.

Honey answered the phone but said nothing as he exited the gate that surrounded the yard. I wondered if it was-

My thoughts were interrupted as Taro began fussing. Turning I saw he was struggling to get out of his seat. Like his father if he didn't get a nap he'd be angry. Thankfully though he wasn't as scary as Honey when he was angry.

"Looks like it's time for someone's nap. Do you mind if I put him in Mattieu's room?" I asked looking at Haruhi.

"Sure no problem." Haruhi replied.

"Alright thanks. C'mon big boy. Nap time." I said and picked up Taro before carrying him upstairs.

I changed his diaper before laying him on Mattieu's bed which was a toddler bed decorated with dinosaur sheets. Carefully I tucked the small blanket I'd brought with me around him and gave him Inu. He was rather easy to put to sleep when he was tired so in no time he was out.

When he was asleep I stood up and headed out of the room. However a second later I collided with something hard but before I could fall back I felt a pair of hands grab my arms. Looking up I saw Kyoya.

"Sorry. I wasn't watching where I was going." I replied with an embarrassed smile.

"Not to worry. I wasn't either." he said and I saw his phone in his hand.

I nodded, "I was just putting Taro down for a nap. He gets cranky without one."

"Much like his father." Kyoya replied.

"Indeed. He's like Honey in a lot of ways." I said.

"I see you in him as well." Kyoya said.

"He has his moments but mostly he's Honey." I replied.

"He has your eyes. Not the color perhaps but the shape and brightness are yours." Kyoya said.

I felt heat rise in my cheeks and I thanked my lucky stars that it was dim in the hallway.

"So you and Hamako…are you two doing alright?" I asked.

He nodded, "As well as can be expected. We didn't have the luck of knowing one another prior to our marriage."

"Yeah well sometimes luck can mess with you. That's one of the reasons I'm grateful of the fact that we have Taro. We can concentrate more on being parents than trying to make ourselves work as a couple." I replied.

"So things aren't any better between the two of you?" he asked.

"No…we're good. We're doing good. It's not like we fight or anything." I said quickly.

Kyoya nodded, "So I heard that you fainted when you found out about your pregnancy with Taro."

I laughed, "Oh my god…yeah it was interesting."

I couldn't help but smile as that day filled my mind.

I woke to a violent white ceiling above me. Blinking a couple of times I sat up and found that I was in a bed in a hospital room. But why?

A second later Honey was by my bed and thoughts of trying to figure out what was going on stopped.

"Sora! Are you okay?!" Honey asked his eyes wide with worry.

"Yeah I'm fine." I nodded.

"What happened? Haru-Chan wouldn't tell any of us anything except that you fainted. I've never seen you faint before! You must be sicker than you thought!" Honey said.

I had fainted? I had fainted! Right after I had seen the plus sign on the…oh god!

My hand shot down and came to a rest on my stomach. Inside of it a baby was growing! A human being! I was pregnant!

"Sora-Chan? Are you okay?" Honey asked snapping me out of my head.

"H-Honey there's something I need to tell you…" I replied.

Honey looked concerned, "You can tell me anything Sora. I promise." he replied sitting on the bed next to me.

"I don't know how to say this but…I'm pregnant." I said looking at him.

Suddenly Honey's eyes got very big. He looked at me for a few seconds before looking down at my stomach and then back at me. He did this a couple of times before his eyes became unfocused and he began to stare at the wall behind me.

"Honey? Hello? Are you there?" I asked waving my hand in front of his face but he didn't blink once.

"Honey? Honey! MITSUKNI! BAKA! TALK TO ME!" I snapped but still nothing happened.

"What's going on?" Hikaru asked as he walked into the room with Mori and Kaoru in tow.

"Mori! I think I might have broken Honey!" I said looking at him.

Mori frowned and moved over to the bed, "Mitsukuni. Cake."

However Honey still didn't move. He continued to stare at the wall. Mori frowned and waved a hand in front of his face like I had.

"Wow…usually someone says 'cake' and he's bouncing off the walls." Karou asked walking over to look at Honey.

"Yeah…what did you say to Honey to make him do that?" Hikaru nodded.

"Um…well…I sort of told him I was…pregnant." I replied.

"Pregnant?!" the twins asked and all three turned to look at me.

"Yeah. I took a test in Haruhi's hospital room. That's why I passed out. From the shock." I said.

Mori turned back to Honey and looked at him, "Mitsukuni…wake up. This is not the time for this." and with that took Honey's small shoulders in his big hands and gave him a small shake.

Honey's hands slid into focus and he shook his head. He still looked a little dazed as he reached out and pressed a hand to where mine had been a few moments before.

"There's a baby in there?" he asked.

"At least one." I nodded.

"And we made it?"

I nodded again, "It's half yours and half mine."

He was quiet for a few moments before smiling, "This is going to be the greatest baby ever! I can teach it so much! I can teach it Judo and Karate! And Takashi you can teach it Kendo! And we can eat cake together and-"

"Honey! Slow down! It's going to be a baby! Not a full grown kid!" Hikaru said.

"Well when it gets big enough it can do all that. We're going to start it early on everything of course." I said.

"I can't wait to tell my parents and Chika! Oh! I have to go tell Haru-Chan and Tama-Chan and the babies!" Honey said and hurried out of the room.

"He was amazing through the whole pregnancy. He made sure I didn't want for anything and he's a great Dad now." I said as I finished my story.

Kyoya nodded, "I'm sure he is. I'm glad that you're happy Sora."

I could see that he was genuine in what he said and I nodded.

"I'm glad that you're happy too Kyoya." I replied.

He smiled, "We should join our friends again. They may become concerned if not."

"Right. Come on." I said and we headed downstairs.

For the next couple of hours we sat around and talked, getting caught up with each other. Though most of us lived in Japan all of us were so busy things just didn't work out.

Eventually it began to get late and I heard Taro stir in the baby monitor I'd set up before leaving him alone. I headed upstairs and collected him before heading back downstairs.

"Look who woke up." I smiled as we joined the others.

As I sat down Taro squirmed in my lap before sliding off. Walking over to Kyoya he held up his hands.

"Taro up."

Kyoya looked a little taken aback and looked to Honey and I.

"He wants you to hold him." Honey replied.

Kyoya looked at us for a second longer before reaching over and picking up Taro.

"Taro that's Kyoya." I said.

"Kyoya?" he asked.

"Yes Kyoya." I nodded.

I was surprised that he pronounced all of Kyoya's name. Everyone else's name was shorted. There was Tama, Haru, Kao, Hika and Taka for Tamaki, Haruhi, Kaoru, Hikaru and Mori. Honey and I figured it was from Honey addressing everyone as 'chan'. Taro had just shorted it.

"Kyoya!" Taro cheered and grinned up at Kyoya clapping his hands.

"He loves it when someone holds him but usually he's shy around new people. You're the first person that he's ever gone to without being around for awhile. I mean he still won't go to Kasumi." I said.

"He's very intelligent then." Kyoya replied with a smirk.

For a while we all relaxed and talk. Taro was happy to sit on Kyoya's lap and babble nonsense words at him to which Kyoya would reply with something. I don't know if it pertained to what Taro was saying but it always seemed to the answer he was looking for because a second later he'd return to scribbling on the paper that Haruhi had given him to draw on like Tamiko and Mattieu.

I was mildly surprised how good Kyoya was with Taro. He had never seemed like the type of person to like kids. As I watched him I felt memories shove their way into the forefront of my mind as much as I tried to stop them. It was one in particular that got me in the end.

"What are you thinking about?" Kyoya asked snapping me out of my thoughts.

"Huh? Oh…nothing." I replied.

"So you expect me to tell you what I'm feeling but it doesn't go the same way for you? That hardly seems fair Sora." Kyoya replied looking down at me.

I sighed, "Okay I was thinking about that baby at the pharmacy and what our baby would've looked like."

Kyoya nodded and smiled, "That thought had crossed my mind as well."

"Like a little boy with your hair and eyes named Ryuu." I smiled.

"Or a little girl that looked like you named Natsumi." Kyoya replied.

"You've been thinking about this huh?" I smiled.

"As have you obviously." Kyoya replied.

An image of the baby that might have been Kyoya and I's flashed before my eyes and I quickly shoved it away.

The day Taro had been born I had sworn to myself that everything with Kyoya was in the past. I told myself that from there on out there was a blank slate and Honey and I would start over. I would forget about Kyoya and concentrate on our family.

However here I was with him in front of me again. In the few hours he'd been here he'd already made my heart race, made me blush and now watching him stirred tender memories from our time together. I couldn't do this again. I had to leave.

"It's getting late." I said looking at my phone.

Honey looked at his phone and nodded, "Yeah we'd better get going. Taro goes to bed soon."

"Thanks for having us guys." I smiled as I stood up with Haruhi and Tamaki, hugging them both.

"How about a park day with the kids on my next day off? I'll call you tomorrow and we can work out the details." Haruhi said.

"Alright. I'll talk to you then." I said and walked over to where Kyoya sat.

"Say bye-bye Taro. It's time to go home." I said.

"No." Taro said looking up at me.

"C'mon baby boy…it's late. How about we go home and get in our jammies and watch a movie?" I suggested.

Taro turned and looked at me again, "No!"

"We can have cake." I smiled and a second later he was almost jumping into my arms.

"I knew that would do the trick. It was great seeing you again Kyo." I smiled at him.

He looked at me with a distant look in his eye, "It was nice seeing you again too."

I walked over and hugged the Hikaru and Kaoru before walking over to where the twins were playing and pressing a kiss to both of their heads. Mori said he'd catch a cab home that night so with a final goodbye the three of us headed home.

"It was nice seeing Kyo-Chan again." Honey said.

"Yeah. He seems happy with Hamako." I replied.

Honey nodded and continued driving home. By the time we got home Taro was sound asleep in his car seat. I figured it would be easier to just put him to bed.

Unbuckling him from his car seat Honey picked him up and carried him into the house and upstairs. He was still asleep as I changed his diaper and dressed him into a pair of blue footy pajamas with bright yellow stars on them that Honey picked out. Once he was in his pajamas Honey tucked him into his toddler bed with the bright green and blue sheets and we left the room.

"I'm going to bed. I'll see you in the morning." I said with a yawn.

"Okay. Goodnight Sora." Honey said and pressed a kiss to my forehead before I headed to my room.

I changed out of my clothes and into my favorite pair of lavender silk pajama pants and a plain white tank top. After that I pulled my hair into a pair of braided pigtails and exchanged my contacts for glasses before crawling into bed. Reaching over I picked up the book I'd been reading and leaned back against my pillows to continue where I'd left off.

My door was partly open so in a few hours when Taro woke up he could come in here like he did nearly every night. When he was old enough to walk he'd started scaling his crib and wandering into either Honey or I's room. We'd put him in a toddler bed so he wouldn't hurt himself and left our doors slightly open so he could come in whenever he wanted. Most mornings I would wake up to his small body buried under the covers and if he wasn't I'd find him sprawled out in Honey's bed.

As I sat and read I heard movement in the hall but the footsteps were too heavy to be Taro. I knew they belonged to Honey.

He was leaving again to see her.

His girlfriend.

Reiko.

Reiko had gone to school with us and had been part of the Black Magic Club with Nekozawa. She had had a crush on Honey in while we were at Ouran and I had seen them together a few times back then and I had known that Honey had liked her as much as she had him. However he'd remained loyal.

That was why I didn't fault him for going to her now. Unlike me he had been loyal. I thought it was time that he got his chance to feel love like I had.

He kept things quiet and if it hadn't been for the fact I'd overheard a conversation between the two I wouldn't have ever known. It didn't hurt knowing that he was with someone else. I was happy that he had someone.

Since the one night we'd been together Honey hadn't touched me. I hadn't approached him either but I had thought that if we had done it once that it would let him know that I was okay with it. When I got pregnant I thought it might have been because I was pregnant and then afterwards healing. However when I had healed he still hadn't come.

We were friends and nothing more which didn't bother me. We had Taro and were raising him together and he seemed happy. As long as our son wasn't being hurt in any way I didn't mind. It was better to see his parents getting along than trying to force something that wasn't ever there.

With a sigh I marked my place and put the book back next to my bed before switching off the light. As I laid there my mind began to wander and before I could stop it I was thinking of Kyoya. Now alone I finally allowed myself to think about him and feel everything I'd suppressed since I'd married Honey.

I wondered if he was thinking of her as I was thinking of him. Was he thinking of how good it felt to hold her in his arms? How it was to kiss her? To love her?

Before I could stop myself memories came forward and visions of them bloomed in front of my eyes, sharp and vivid. Kyoya and I in bed, our arms and legs intertwined, bodies covered in shared sweats and sheets. It was the first time we'd made love and I'd asked him about loving anyone else.

"You're mine just as I am yours. Even if you marry Honey my heart will always belong to you. What I felt for her was just a fleeting feeling. What I feel for you runs so much deeper and is more honest than anything I could ever imagine. You're the girl I dream of now Sora."

His voice filled my mind and made tears prick the sides of my eyes. I let them fall without shame. Though Taro had helped me to distract myself I still thought about him often. I would be lying if I said that I didn't miss him.

With a shuddering sigh I turned over and pulled the covers closer to me, wiping my eyes. Before I knew it I was asleep.

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