Zutara – Hold On To Me
Summary: What would happen if Katara lost all of her memories and Zuko was the one who had to take care of her?
Three years ago, I was banished and scarred by my own father. Doomed to hunt down the Avatar in order to restore my honor. Sad thing is…I did find him. I followed him and his two friends from the Southern Water Tribe all over the world for nearly half of a year. I have fought them countless times just so I could retrieve the Avatar and return home. Each time I failed. Still I continued to follow them. Now look at where it has gotten me.
Two months already since the day my Uncle Iroh and I became fugitives of the Fire Nation. Two months we have been living inside of a cave in the Earth Kingdom near a cliff looking below a large lake. We will go into town when we need to beg for money just to buy supplies in order for us to survive out here. To many we are considered refugees. How about that?! Once crowned prince of the Fire Nation goes from being banished one minute and practically begging the next! I hate this! Why did my father have to send Azula after us?! What have I done to deserve this?!?!
“Prince Zuko the rice is done,” my Uncle called out to me which made me stop my pacing, which I had been doing for over an hour since the sun had set.
I walked over to my Uncle and we ate in silence. Unfortunately it did not last very long after we had finished our meals.
Uncle called out to me again asking, “What is troubling you my nephew?”
Might as well tell him the truth, I argued with myself before turning to him and telling him the decision I had made throughout my pacing back and forth in front of the entrance of the cave. “I’m done hunting the Avatar. For good.”
Uncle paused briefly, eyeing me like I was sick with a cold. “You’re absolutely sure about this decision?”
I nodded only once. I didn’t want to talk about my reasoning behind this, but knowing Uncle he was going to ask within the next ten seconds.
“Not that I’m not happy about this decision, but why the sudden change of heart? For three years now you have talked of nothing except capturing the Avatar, but for these past two months all you have done is grow angrier and have retreated more within yourself. Zuko, please tell me the truth. What is wrong?”
I groaned exasperated. “Look at us Uncle. We’re fugitives of the Fire Nation. Being chased by my crazy sister and could be turned over to her and my father by just about anyone. We can never go home! I’ll never be able to become fire lord so I can stop this idiotic war! And besides you, no one even cares about me! How am I supposed to feel Uncle?! I’d really like to know!”
“Don’t call me that! In case you didn’t hear me I’m not even considered a prince anymore!”
“My nephew,” Uncle tried again, “I know you are hurting. It pains me to see you like this. It truly does. And I don’t mind the fact that you don’t want to hunt down the Avatar anymore. What I do mind though is your attitude! You have never been one to give up and throw in the towel because things become too hard! You must hang on to hope Zuko. You would be surprised how much it can pull you through even the toughest of obstacles.”
“You’re making absolutely no sense!” I shouted frustrated. Can’t my Uncle ever say anything without it being so cryptic?
“Listen to me Zuko” Uncle commanded in his General’s voice that demanded authority. “You don’t have to go after the Avatar, but at the same time you cannot lose sight of who you are and what is important to you.” His voice became thoughtful as he asked, “Do you really wish to end this war?”
I was still angry about this conversation, but as I started to answer him my voice, surprisingly, came out almost soft; it was still a little rough. “After hearing what the generals in the Fire Nation are willing to do and seeing how they can hurt innocent people like that nurse…Song?” It had been a while since I thought of the nurse that treated Uncle once and showed me the fire burns on her leg. “It made me realize how dumb this whole war is. No nation should be considered better than all the others. There needs to be peace amongst the nations once again so others no longer have to live in fear.”
“I see,” Uncle mused quietly. He’s up to something. I know it. Of course I was proven to be correct when the next words to come out of his mouth were, “If this is so then why not ask the Avatar if you can join his group and work together?”
I felt my good eye widen while my other one tried, with little success. I couldn’t control myself as I blurted, “HAVE YOU GONE COMPLETELY INSANE!!! What makes you think they would ever let me join them even if I wanted to?! It’s not like I can just go up to them and ask politely ‘Hey, I was wondering can I join your group please?!’ After having chased them around the world for nearly half a year I highly doubt they hold a warm spot for me!” You know for being a wise general that is one of the stupidest ideas he could have ever come up with! I need to calm down before I start fire bending and possibly cause someone to investigate. “I’m going for a walk.”
With that I turned from my Uncle and walked away heading for the cliff to look at the lake. But not without grabbing my duo swords first. No way am I taking any chances if I have to fight and can’t use my fire bending to protect myself.