It has always been hard for me, I lost the one person that actually cared for me and the rest of the world never saw me. Hell, when I was in choir my own mates and teacher didn't notice my presence or absence unless I was needed for something.
My own friends never really did much with me, I was just there ya know. The world seemed to move on around me while I seemed to stay frozen in time. At my mothers side as she breathed her last. And the person who was always there for me was gone.
Dont laugh but when I was cleaning out my moms room I found her old Transformers g1 series tapes. After watching a few I instantly fell in love with them. Especially with Wheeljack and Skyfire, in some way the reminded me of myself and my thirst for knowledge. And also in being alone all the time.
As I hit the collage age I was officially a Transfan. And I began my study in engineering to be a scientist like Jackie and Sky. And my gift in understanding whatever I look at showed through and I became the best in class when it came to studies, but not with building sadly. Maybe wanting to be like the inventor with the constant exploding inventions was a bad idea. Because that was happening to me almost everytime too. But my heart and head were in the right place.
Enough about the past, I'm sure you want to know how I got here? I really am not entirely sure actually.
I was driving home late from my night class when a nasty storm hit. This being Missouri with its possibly Bipolar weather (sorry for the bad pun if you get it.) I was use to it. What I wasn't use to was the blue glow from outta nowhere and a GIANT METAL LEG! I screeched like a banshee and tried to swerve out of the way only to see the headlights of a 18 wheeler heading my way! Well, Fuck and Frag, was my last thoughts when the whiteness of the headlights consumed me...
"Wake up my little Sunshine, I need to talk to you." Came a familiar voice. As the whiteness faded a little I saw a middle aged woman with reddish blond hair wearing her glasses and work clothes instead of a hospital clothing I last saw her in. Her blue green eyes soft and yet stern. I gave a small gasp and my green blue eyes widened. Even though I had not seen her since I was 9 years old I would recognize her anywhere.
"MOM!" Getting up from my spot on the floor (how did I get there anyway?) I launched myself onto her and sobbed taking in her smell and the sensation of her touch. I felt her gently stroke my golden blond hair and whisper soothing words to me. And for the first time in years I was with her for a mother daughter moment.
"Listen Sunshine, as much as I would love to spend all eternity with you to catch up it's not your time yet. The world of the living still needs you." She gently pulled me from her embrace and looked me straight in the eye. I still felt the tingling of tears on my face as I looked at her and then looked past her as I saw familiar metal legs come towards us. The very ones that caused me to swerve into my fate. They belonged to a giant mech! Probably as large as Unicron in the g1 movie, but with no evil aura around him. It was more of a...fatherly type. As he came closer my mother let go of me and walked over meeting the mech halfway and both stood in front of me. Seeing how at ease my mom was with him there was only one name that could fit ths mech.
"Primus..." I breathed and both my mom and said god chuckled at my face. If I wasn't dead right now I'm sure I would sure I would be fangirling out at the moment. Then my mom gave me a sad but proud smile as Primus lowered himself down so I could see his calm blue optics along with his faceplates that I will never be able to quite describe what it looks like.
"Indeed young one I am Primus, Creator of the race you know as Transformers. As your carrier said, it is not your time quite yet to join her on the other side. So I shall grant you a new life as one of my children in their world. I shall warn you ahead of time that you will be in a sparkling body while your mind will stay the same. Though your memories of what exactly happened in the show will be blurred so you won't give away the future. Your destiny will eventually come to sat and then wheather you join the Well or your mother will be up to you."
As he finished his explanation I looked at him and my mother with 'are you serious?' look. Mom gave a snort and rolled her eyes knowing what I was thinking. This was kinda cliche right now. A Transfan being reborn into their favorite Transformers realm? Yeah, soooo never read that somewhere (sarcasm). But as cliche as it sounds I kinda wanted too, and it didn't even bother me that I would forget what happened during the show. I would hate to be the one who screws up the timeline to pit somehow. I looked back at my mom with sad and yet joyful eyes. Joyful, because I got to see her again. Sad because I had to leave, and let me tell ya, when I thought we would see each other again it would be like ya know FOREVER! then I gave a small humorless smile and looked at my mom.
"So, guess I'll see ya around then?" Trying to keep my voice from wavering. But it was hard, after so many years I had finally had the chance to be with my mom again. And now we were being separated again. Mom gave the same smile and I noticed tears underneath her glasses too. Suddenly I was in my moms warm embrace once more and I clung on and cried a little bit more.
"I know Sunshine, I know...But please be patient a little longer and I promise that we will have plenty of time to do whatever mothers and their daughters do in the afterlife." Her voice shook with raw emotions that she never showed us. When she was my mom in the living world we never saw her emotions, but now it all came out.
Primus left us bee for a while understanding that we needed time with each other. Then ever so gently with one large servo he separated us and picked me up. tears still streaming down my face I smiled and waved at my mother one last time before I got too high up to see her clearly. Then turning around I looked into the face of the creator of all the Transformer race as he gave me a warm fatherly smile. Then his chestplate opened revealing his spark in all it's glory. But I had no time to marvel, he slightly tipped his servo and I fell into his spark. And I felt all of my soul be absorbed and lost all physical appearance. The last thing I heard while I still had ears was Primus's soothing voice speak...
"As life ends another begins anew, my you find your Purpose my child..."