A New Beginning
I left I do not know why I left I just knew I could no longer be a part of the house anymore. It was hard to live there with all the rules and no one understanding where I was coming from. People judged me my whole life and never really knew where I was coming from. But what could I do I was born into a world that should be made up and just in stories. What my life was what not in some story book it was real life and I had no way out but to run away. You would run away too if you lived my life. I do not think anyone would be able to handle themselves with everything they would be thrown at them. I got my last straw about a week ago when the biggest secret was told and I was the last to know about it. I was not sure where I was going I just knew that it was time to try to find my own way. I was done being the little girl that they saw in their eyes.
I was on a train heading to the east coast I was surprise that no one had found me yet or tried to really stop me. They never really let me out of the house before. I know I should be thankful for my family and the parents that brought me into this world but how much could someone take before breaking. I was finally the same age that I looked; I had lived in the environment of being sheltered from everything for 17 years. I was on a train to New York City; I was going to spend a few days there and then I would be heading over sees for awhile. I was done playing by the little game my family wanted to play. They believed they could have my whole life planned out for me; well I was not going to let that happen. I was going to see the world and see what others thought of me.
There were places I want to see before I have to choose what my future holds. I know it will be tough once I get the call from my parents but I have a feeling that I will make it work somehow. Once I am far enough away from them I feel like they will not have any choice in the matter. I know one person will not give up the search of me until I was back in his eye sight again. He was the one person that I was afraid of finding me. Jacob Black was suppose to be my best friend but he ruined that. That is why I was on my way to go on a road trip. I wanted to forget about that day it was the worse day for me and I only want to make up happy days from now on. I knew what I was getting into no one from my family ever gone far away and if they did it was together.
The train ride seemed to take forever but I knew it would be worth it once I made it there. I loved hearing about cities and always dreamed about seeing one someday. I did not think it was ever gonna happen with my family so I decided to do it on my own. In the end it was my choice anyways and they would just have to live with it. It took two days to make it across the country but I did it. I reached the big apple and was happy to hear everything and even smell everything. The station was like a place I have never seen before. Once I made it above the ground and could see everything the city had to other I knew I could not go back home until I finished this trip.
Many might believe that it is dangerous to travel on your own when you are only 17 and that might be the case if I was not a special girl who was half a vampire too. I had some speed and I had the strength in case anyone tried to mess with me here. I was happy to be where I was and I was happy with what I was I just hated how others treated me because of what I was. I had only been here for a few seconds and I could tell I would have to adjust how I acted around people and what I did to come off too. I did not want to stick out but I did not want to look vulnerable either. Only time would tell how this city would treat me. I knew I would have to find a hotel soon it would be getting dark soon and I did not want to be looking for a place to stay when it was night time. I do not think I was ready to handle the street life at night. I found a hotel with no problem. I already paid for the plane ticket and did not need to worry about that. I had saved up all my money since I was born. I did not spend anything on myself. My family usually bought me things anyways. It seemed to me that I would never be able to use my money for what I wanted. I had to tell someone at all times where I was going to be and how long I would be gone.
The hotel room was not that bad it was small but I did not need a big room I was only going to be sleeping in here anyways the rest of the two days I would be outside enjoying the city and everything that it had to offer. I turned on my cell phone afraid of what I would find on it, I have had it off since I left my home in Forks. I did not want to have to answer anyone when I was on my ride and it made no sense to turn it out if they could use it as a tracking device but I turned it on quick to see if there was anything on it before I turned it off again. I was thinking about getting a new phone and new phone number. That way I had their numbers but they would not have mine. It seemed like the best option for me. I would do that tomorrow. I did feel a little bad for leaving because every year around my birthday for two weeks a Volturi guard would come and check in on me to make sure I obeyed laws and did as the rest of the community did. This year in two months they would find out I left. I do not know if my parents would be blamed but hey I could not think about that now.
I ordered some food and had it delivered to my room. I could live on both food and blood. Blood tasted better but when I was in cases like this where I could not get blood, food would do. I just ordered a small pizza that I could eat over the next day and water. I like to keep things simple so people do not worry and that I do not get to hungry. I was able to blend into the human world better than my family was. They had to have many background stories before they went to one place. I hated that always having to remember a story so no one would question us and asks us questions that could get them killed. We even lied to my Grandpa Charlie who was my mom's dad just because he was human he had to be kept in the dark. Nothing seemed right with the life we were living. I did not have any real friends outside of the family. No one was ever allowed over and I lived each day like I should be in fear. I knew my family was in fear of when my birthday came up because of the Volturi guard. It seemed so stupid what could they do to us; I know I did nothing to them so why were they always checking on me. Well now they could not, I guess in a part I was running away from them too.
I looked outside the wood at the dark city below except you could mistake it for day almost with the lights and the noises still going on. It made me feel alive. I loved hearing all the different noises going on. Nothing was quiet about this place which made it even better. I knew I would love coming here, maybe one day I will move here. This would be a wonderful place to live. Not in some house far back in the woods, waiting for someone to find out who you are or be killed by something else. I did not want to live that way. Having to travel every so often so no one would question why you did not age. In the city no one would notice they would just think you had work done which was a bad thing to let people believe but it was better than what the family was doing. Why does everything I think about somehow end up going back to the topic of my family? I guess it is because for so long they tried to get me to think like them and act like them and be who they are. It is hard when you do not always agree with what they believe in. I feel like I was a failure to them because I went against what they had to say and what they had to do. I was going to prove to them that they could not stop me I was going to do what I wanted to do and live my way of life. I would not kill people but I did not want to be afraid of anyone living in one house afraid if I went outside that would be the end. Well I went outside and I did not die and I had a feeling that I would not die if I continued on my adventure. As long as I am smart in the actions I choose to do that I will not have to worry about anyone wanting me dead.
I looked at the clock and it was getting kind of late I decided I would head to bed now because I wanted to be up early to start the day exploring what this place had to offer. It would be a great way to begin the day to see everything before everyone got up. I was laying in bed and everything was just running through my mind. Everything that could happen, I hoped would happen and anything that could go wrong. I did not want anything to go wrong that was my one fear about all this. If something went wrong then I would most likely have to go back home. I would be in more trouble then just running away because something happened. I tried not to think about that I thought about the good stuff again and everything I could do for tomorrow and what I could do the next day. Nothing seemed to be out of reach. I did know I would need to get a new phone that was at the top of my list tomorrow I would go searching for a store and get a new phone. I was ready to break my ties that conncted me back to Forks and to my family. I was ready to begin a new by myself and tomorrow would be the day I let that all happen. I could not help but smile as I drifted off to sleep.