"It's ok, try again," Clint told me when he and I sparred during one training session a few weeks after I joined S.H.I.E.L.D. "It's a tricky move. I know. It took me awhile to master it."
I noticed a difference between Clint's training and the other Avengers. Only he really took the time to make sure I was doing alright and made sure I was ready before moving on to the next step. Everyone else barked out orders and expected me to perform them even when I didn't know what was going on. They had little to no tolerance for me in any way. Though I noticed that if Clint was in the room while I trained, they would go easier on me.
"How come only you really care about how I feel while training?" I asked as he helped me up after he had taken me down. "Everyone else acts like they have better things to do when I'm with them. Even Natasha. I thought she'd go easier on me, at least when I started off."
"I'm your brother," Clint replied. "It's my job to make sure you know what you need to but also make sure you aren't hurt. And Natasha only does that because she knows it makes you try harder, because you want to impress her."
"If you say so," I sighed.
"I'm going to put you through a simulation and then we'll call it a night. Deal?" Clint said.
I nodded. "Deal," I repeated.
We walked to the simulation and Clint had me go in after removing my bracelet that helped me control my powers, wanting to see what I could do without, programming what to do. "You know the deal," he said. "Complete the mission and then we can get something to eat."
"Is there dessert involved?" I questioned, smiling.
Clint chuckled. "Yes, Rosie, there's dessert involved," he answered.
I nodded and waited for the simulation to begin.
I was transported back to the training room. On either side of me were large metal doors. I look at both of them, getting my bow and arrow ready to shoot.
"Simulation begin," a smooth female voice said.
Both doors slowly cranked open. Two large robots came out.
My eyes widened slightly and I knew a bow and arrow wouldn't work this time: I'd have to use my powers, something I was really hesitant about. I put the bow and arrow away and raise my hands in the air, forming two plasma balls.
The robots started at me.
Once they were a close enough distance, I released a plasma ball at both of them. As they recovered from the attack, I turned into an eagle and flew into the air, going to one and at the last moment, changing into a gorilla and landing on the head. I opened the plate on the back of the neck and started ripping out wires.
The robot started to fall backwards.
I turned human and froze time so that I wasn't crushed. I jumped off of the robot and darted to the other one, letting time move again and the first robot falling to the ground with a loud boom.
The other robot shot missiles at me but I stopped those and sent them back.
That's when I felt the control starting to fade away.
"No, no, no, no, no," I whisper quickly. "Not now. I'm almost there. Come on! Come on! You can do it!"
The robot grabbed me before I could use another spell and threw me on the ground roughly.
Slowly, I sat up. The robot went to grab me again but I casted an enchantment that caused it to rust quickly.
As I got up, I saw my hands beginning to shake, knowing I didn't have much time.
Finish the mission or abort it?
"Stop the mission!" I cried as I cast a spell that I didn't mean to cast. "I'm losing control!" I fell to my knees, my whole body shaking. "Clinton!"
The robots disappeared and I was back in the room.
Clint came to my side but I pushed him away. "Rose," he said. "Let me help you."
I shook my head. "You'll get hurt," I said.
"What can I get you?" Clint said. "To help?"
"B-bracelet," I muttered, doubling over with my face in my hands, shaking violently. "Hurry!"
Clint ran to get it and tossed it to me.
I tried to put it on but my hands were too shaky.
"Here," Clint said in a calm voice, taking the bracelet from me and fastening it around my wrist.
The shaking died away and I slumped into Clint's arms, exhausted. "That was the closest call we've had yet," I breathed.
"You're getting better, though," Clint said. "Before, you couldn't even do the plasma balls as powerful as you did. You almost completed it today."
"Practice," I said. "Need more practice."
"Yes, but right now, rest," Clint said. "We'll do dinner tomorrow, ok?"
"No dessert today, then?" I said softly as Clint got me up, keeping me in his arms.
"Unfortunately," Clint replied. "But tomorrow, I promise."
He took me to my room and had me lay down before he left to get some food for us.
I sighed, staring at the ceiling. "How can I be an Avenger," I mumbled, "if I can't even complete the easier simulation?"