At The Hospital
A/N- Disclaimer : I don't own THG or any of the characters.
"Katniss." Prim coos while gently shaking me awake
"Huh?" I say while beginning to stir
My eyes are running, I'm sweating uncontrollably despite the air conditioning, my throat is still dry, I feel like a hammer is being pounded against my skull and I feel like throwing up.
"How did I get here?" I ask referring to my bedroom
"Andrew dropped you home early this morning and your face was covered in tears...did something bad happen?"
"I don't know...I just remember him bringing back a cup of alcohol to me and that's about it."
"Are you okay? You look yellowish."
I shake my head and run to my bathroom where I throw up anything I had last night and earlier today into the toilet bowl.
"Primrose, I thought I told you to make your sister get ready for church." I hear mom say
"Mom I don't like it when you call me Primrose and you know that."
"But the name is so beautiful dear, where is Katniss?"
"I assume she's throwing up."
"What?!" I hear mom shriek
She always panics when we have the cold or something because she has no idea what to do and neither does dad.
"REMAIN CALM! EVERYTHING IS UNDER CONTROL! BREATHE! OH GOSH I DON'T KNOW WHAT I'M SAYING! DON'T REMAIN CALM! DON'T BREATHE! OF COURSE YOU HAVE TO BREATHE! DON'T LISTEN TO ME I DON'T KNOW WHAT I'M SAYING! JOHN HELPPPPPPPPP" she shouts and runs into the bathroom
I want to tell her to keep it down because her shouting is worsening my headache but I don't have the strength. My world is spinning and I hold on to the toilet bowl for anchorage.
"You can do this Laura. You can do this Laura." She tries to persuade herself in a panicky tone
"Ummm-ummm-uhhhh-what's your-n-name again?Right Katniss-ummm-" She stutters
"Mom calm down you panicking is not helping her." Prim says
"You're right." She says and takes a deep breath
"Sweetie how bad do you feel?" She asks and rubs small circles on my back
"Okay, that was good, good so far Laura." She says to herself
I shake my head and hold my throat.
"JOHN CALL AN AMBULANCE!" she shouts
I continue puking as my throat feels like someone is scraping at the inside of it with sharp, claw-like, nails.
When my eyes open my parents are looking at me sadly and angrily at the same time.
"You snuck out and went to a party?" The ask in unison
"Surprise?" I ask jokingly
"Katniss." They warn
"I'm sorry it's just Andrew-"
"Andrew? Three." The say again in unison
"Three?" I ask confusedly while trying to ignore the headache which has gotten better but is still there.
"Yes three." Mom says
"As in that was three strikes. We don't want you seeing this boy anymore." Dad adds
"What?! No!That's not fair!"
"It is." They say
I throw my head back against the pillow and groan.
"Why am I even here?"
"Well from the information we've gathered we assume someone poisoned you at that party." Mom says
"Am I okay now?"
"Yes the poison was extracted from your body." Dad says
"Katniss if you had asked we would have let you go." Dad says
Prim pops up between them.
"I'm sorry I told them, but they made me."
"It's fine." I say and wave her off
"Anything else you want to tell us?" Dad asks her
"Yeah, I called Andrew, he's on his way."
"What?!" They ask again in unison
"Can you guys please stop talking together I get enough of that from Annie and Madge."
"Oh I called them too." She adds
Mom and dad sigh
"We won't give you a harsh punishment because you got poisoned, we'll be back to pick you up after church." Mom says and they leave but Prim stays
"Don't beat yourself up about it." She says and sits next to me on the bed.
"And I think I know why you were crying last night but I'll let Andrew tell you." She adds with a sad expression
"It's a shame you two have to break up I really liked him." She says sadly
"Break up? What happened? Tell me now."
"I have to go." She says
"Bye." She says, gives me a quick side hug and leaves.
"Are you okay? Did they get it out of your system in time? Please tell me you're alright. Kat-"
"I'm fine Peeta." I say
"If you really care about me you'll tell me what happened after you gave me that last cup of alcohol."
"Everything?" He asks
"Everything." I say with a nod
He passes his hand through his hair and takes a deep breath
"Oh...so you kissed her?" I say trying not to sound as if I feel like I'm dying because I do.
"Yes and it was a mistake."
"Okay." I respond with a nod and try as hard as I can to conceal the hurt I'm feeling.
"I can't believe she poisoned you-" He continues talking but the words don't register in my brain properly because I'm too focused on holding back my tears.
Eventually I think he notices when a tear drop lands on the sheet in front of me.
"No don't cry, I don't like to see you sad." He says, sits next to me and wraps his arms tightly around me
"Then why did you do this to me?" I wail into his chest
I try to push him way but I can't.
"I wasn't thinking straight."
"Look, I'm an ass who tends to fuck things up a lot, I know that but you're not like the other girls I can't lose you so easily."
"Are you lying? Please don't lie to me." I say and continue to sob
"No I'm not, things are different with you, you actually care about me, and you're not afraid to tell me when I'm being a dick , and you make me happier...everything is better with you Kat."
"I don't know if I can trust you again Peeta." I say and shake my head
"Just one more chance."
I continue to shake my head and cry, "Fine I'll give you one more chance."
"Thank yous so much, I'm so sorry." He says and he kisses the crown of my head
"Don't you worry I'll deal with Delly."
"But in the meantime I brought you these." He says, wipes my tears and hands me a packet of trolli sour brite crawler. I sniff and give a small smile because they're my favourite and he knows it. Despite the pain I feel in my chest after remembering what happened with Delly he's somehow become my weakness.
No, Peeta can't be my weakness it will cause me too much pain.
"I think you should go." I say into his chest
"You'll have to let go of me first."
I wish I could but when wrapped in his arms I never want to let go.
"Then I guess you'll have to stay with me."
"Always." He says and I sigh this relationship may be more complicated than I thought.
"So then Finnick threw the pancake at Gale and Gale meant to squeeze the syrup at Finnick but It went flying all over Madge's face instead so she threw some strawberries at him and that's how it started." Annie explains to me enthusiastically
I'm still in the hospital and Annie is telling me everything I've missed out in the past day while Madge and Gale argue in the corner of the room.
Finnick and Peeta are bonding I assume.
"So do you know who poisoned you?"
"Yes, Andrew's ex...Delly."
"Delly? Do I know her? Do you want me to have a little talk with her? Or egg her car? Or form an army of giant gummy bears and attack her?"
"No Annie...it's fine." I say with a laugh
"Alright, but tell me if you change your mind."
"We've been friends for a good bit of years now, so I know you were crying before we came here, what happened?"
"Nothing, nothing happened." I lie and look down at my fingers
"Katniss, I'm one of your best-friends, talk to me."
I don't respond so she draws the curtains around my bed and says, "tell me."
"He cheated on me." I say and take a deep sigh
"I mean...he was drunk but still that is no excuse."
Don't cry. Don't cry. Don't cry.
I look up at her and I can tell she wants to go over there and yell at him but she doesn't because she knows it's not what I want.
"I'm so sorry, so are you guys still-"
"Yes." I say and force a smile to my lips
"If he's hurting you you shouldn't be with him." She says and gently places her hand on my shoulder
"I know but he's grown on me, I can't let him go now, and I know he actually is sorry but why would he do this to me? Doesn't he love me?" I ask and begin crying
"Love you?" She asks and gives me a hug
"I thought you said he doesn't believe in love."
"He doesn't but I do."
"Katniss do you love him?"
"No...I don't know...no. I don't."
"Then why does it matter?" She asks, pulls out of the hug and hands me a tissue from her handbag
"I thought he did because of the way he'd look at me whenever he thought I wasn't paying attention." I say and wipe my eyes
"What do we know about love anyway?" This relationship has just started."
"Yeah, but you've known each-other for years and anyone watching you two closely enough would realize the hate you showed towards each-other was just masking a much deeper feeling you were both terrified of."
"You think so?"
"I know so." She says with a smile
"You also have to remember that he was a player before he met you and old habits are hard to get rid of. Did he push her away?"
"Well I don't know what he was thinking but maybe he did that because it felt wrong."
"Plus he was drunk, you know what he's like when that happens, he doesn't think things through before he does them at all, remember the time when he got really drunk and he tried to skinny dip in the fish tank at school?"
"Yeah." I say with a small laugh and continue wiping my eyes
"I know it hurts but if you really want to be with him so badly then you'll just have to see where this relationship goes and trust he wont do it again."
"You're right. If he does cheat again what do I do then?"
"Well it doesn't make sense staying with someone that causes you so much pain, so it will be the end of you two."
"Yeah but don't worry, if he does that again me, Finnick, Gale and maybe Madge will attack him with our army of large gummy bears riding on the backs of large sour gummy worms." She says and hugs me again
"Thanks Annie." I say with a little laugh
"Anytime." She says
"What are you two doing back here?" Peeta, Gale & Finnick ask while peeping through the side of the curtain
"Just talking." We both say with a smile
"Aww Kat were you crying?" Gale and Finnick ask in unison
"No." I say
"Stop lying." They say in unison, rush over to me and engulf me in a tight hug
"You're-squish-ing-me." I say
"Sorry." The say again in unison and pull out of the hug
"Dude." The say
"Stop." They say
"No you stop." They say
Annie and I just laugh.
"Fin, Gale. Let's give Andrew and Katniss some alone time."
The look between me and Andrew and then nod before leaving.
I wonder why Madge hasn't talked to me all day, maybe she's still mad about me calling her a whore.
I tap the stop next to me on the bed and Peeta lies next to me, he seems to be contemplating whether or not I'm okay with him touching me so I scoot across a little more and lean my head into his chest and he wraps him arms around me.
We lay on the bed silently for a while with me just listening to the steady beating of his heart.
"Why did you do it?"
I feel the rise and fall of his chest against my face as he sighs.
"I deserve an answer Peeta." I say after a while of silence
"I don't know I'm just so used to cheating, it'd come naturally with me over the years but when we started dating I just couldn't anymore and I don't know why."
"I didn't want to kiss her really, I'm over her in-fact I never really had feelings for her the last girl I've been with that I actually had feelings for was Madge."
"I was thinking you're just like the other girls why should cheating on you feel any different but when my lips connected with Delly's it just felt wrong for the first time in a long time I felt bad about cheating because I knew how much it would hurt you and the last thing I've ever wanted to do was hurt you."
"Why?" I ask
"Because...you mean the world to me."
How do I respond to this? Tell him he means the world to me too? What if he's lying?
"I'm not lying Kat." He says
"How did you know I was thinking that?"
"Because I know you very well."
"Where does our relationship stand right now? Do you um..want it to end?"
I sigh again that's all we've been doing since last night sighing, well along with trying to mend this partly broken relationship.
If there's one thing I've learnt from church it's to always forgive but I've also learnt just because you forgive someone it doesn't mean you have to keep them in your life however I've decided to keep him in my life because although I may be able to find a boy covered in tattoos, who has a history of being a player, who drinks away his feelings, skips classes and has a wild carefree spirit he will not mean as much to me as Peeta does or fill the space in my heart that only Peeta can, I know he truly is sorry and will give us one more chance.
"Please say something." He says with hurt in his voice and I realize that I've left his words hanging in the air for a good bit of minutes
"I forgive you, but don't mess this up again."
"Never." He says, pins me down to the bed, places himself on top me and kisses my forehead, my nose, my cheeks, my chin, my eye lids and my lips but when he reaches my lips he takes his time to gently suck on them.
My nurse clears her throat and Peeta quickly flings of the bed.
"Ms. Everdeen in case your boyfriend doesn't know please inform him that this is a hospital not your bedroom."
"How are you feeling?"
"I bet you are after that." She says, hands me a glass of water and scribbles something on her clipboard
Peeta and I's cheeks flush pink with embarrassment and she leaves.
"Mr. Mellark this is a hospital not my bedroom." I warn him jokingly
"I will kiss my girlfriend wherever and whenever I want." He says, makes his way over to me and kisses me again
"I need to stretch my legs." I say, hop off the bed and make my way over to the window
"Wow it's a wonderful view."
"Of a tree?" Peeta asks and hugs me from behind
"Yes! You have to admit that it's one awesome tree." I say
"An awesome tree?"
"Yes! Just look at it, it's beautiful."
"Nah, I'm good." He says and buries his face in my neck
"Why wont you look at the pretty tree." I ask, he removes his face from my neck and I look at him
"Because I'm too busy looking at my beautiful girl." He says and kisses my nose.
A/N- Thanks for all the reviews, follows and favs you guys are awesome, I shall update again when the review count hits 129! Have a good afternoon! :D