~*~ Contemplation ~*~
It has been a week since I told Nik about my feelings for him and his brother. He hadn’t tried to speak to me, only Elijah had. I didn’t expect Nik or Rebekah to attempt to talk to me, but I expected Kol to. Although due to his brother, he was likely to be killed if Nik saw him.
I hadn’t left my room for about a weak, and whenever Elijah brings me blood I refuse it; I find it too hard to face the problem of knowing I had separated their family. If only Elijah had never found me then his family would still be in tact but it wasn’t that way. I would never wish I never met these people but I guess there life would be better.
My choice in no blood wasn’t great for me. As a vampire, quitting blood cold turkey meant I would probably desiccate. The use of probably really meant I would desiccate. After only a week without blood I could barely move, my breathing was raspy and I was beginning to go pale.
At the moment I was curled up in my bed, ready to take my last few breaths before I’d spend God knows how long unable to move or do anything productive or non-productive.
Within about ten minutes of this moment in what I’d like to call my own pit of despair, my door was knocked in.
I couldn’t retaliate, even if it was someone I wanted to kill. It was impossible for me to get up or do anything. Slowly I looked up at the door to reveal Kol looking angry standing behind the door that now was lying on the floor.
“Elisabetta Valentino, what in the world do you think you are doing?” He questioned.
All I could do was be silent I didn’t want to talk to him. I loved him and all, but actually talking to him whilst I felt like this wasn’t going to make me feel any better. It would probably only make me worse.
It took all my energy but I turned my head so I didn’t have to look at him. A small tear began to trail down my cheek.
He came over to me and sat down on the bed next to me so he could look me in the eyes. He let his two fingers lift my head up so he could look at me properly and I could only look at him and nothing else.
“Liza, why? I love you Liza. You can’t let yourself desiccate, and even though I know I’m being selfish, I need to make sure you are okay. I know you don’t want to be but I need to,” He said softly with a soft smile on his face.
Using the other arm he bit into his wrist and hovered it over my lips tilted my head back with the hand that was holding my chin up. His warm blood drizzled down my throat until I had enough energy to bite down onto his wrist on my own I let my hands hold onto his arm allowing myself to drink his blood until I was strong as normal.
I pushed his arm away from me wiping my mouth of the blood that hung around it. Smiling at him, he made himself comfortable sitting opposite me.
“Never do something that stupid again Elisabetta,” He stated sternly, “If you actually was desiccated I would feed you blood. And if you killed yourself, I would take every measure to get you back.”
Although his voice sounded stern but I could see in his eyes he was speaking from the bottom of his heart.
“I’m sorry Kol,” I whispered still croaky for not talking for a while.
His lips moved as if he was about to say something but someone cleared their throat. I looked towards the broken door only to see Nik standing there. As soon as Kol saw him he gave me one last small smile before he sped from the room.
My expectation was that Nik was kill him as he ran past him but he simply moved to the side allowing him to leave. I know Kol was doing that to save his own life, but now I was face to face with Nik and I’m sure he didn’t want to gossip.
“Liza, I heard you decided to desiccate yourself,” He stated coming over and sitting where his brother had seconds ago.
“I didn’t think you’d care,” I said bluntly.
He smiled softly (which rarely happened) and took my hand in his rubbing small circles with his thumb onto the back of it.
“Of course I care Liza. You’re…” He stopped to think for a second before smiling, “Liza and I’d never want you to die or be desiccated.”
“Lovely descriptive words,” I chuckled sarcastically.
“I know you love Kol, more than you could ever love me. And I know he loves you dearly. As you said Caroline likes me and I know she’s a very nice girl,” He smiled softly.
“I’m sorry Nik, but you and Caroline would be great together,” I shrugged.
To be honest I didn’t know whether they would be perfect for one another but I knew they would be good for one another to the extent, which Nik didn’t try to kill her or anyone she cared for.
I didn’t understand why Caroline like Nik; he had done so many bad things to her and her friends. Although I don’t know why I found it hard to believe, I always cared for him although he did so many horrible things to me.
We talked for a little longer until he decided to go over to Caroline’s to devote his undying love to her (I kind of over-exaggerated on the undying love part), whilst I made my way downstairs so get a blood bag.
Wandering into the kitchen, I rummaged through the fridge to find a blood bag. I really needed something from the vein but this thirst would make me kill someone, and at the moment I didn’t want to kill someone.
When I got a blood bag, I began to drink it until I couldn’t get anything more out of it. Throwing the left over bag into the bin, I got another from the fridge and began to sip at it, until I was disturbed by footsteps.
Turning around I saw Elijah leaning against the kitchen island.
“Hi, Elijah,” I smiled softly taking another sip from my blood bag.
“Hello Liza, it’s nice to finally see you out of your bedroom,” He chuckled going to get his own blood bags.
I didn’t know how to respond, I just smiled softly at him.
“So what’s this about you and Kol?” He questioned raising an eyebrow.
“I love him Elijah. I know I said that about Nik, but seriously I love him. Never have I felt like this about anyone,” I whispered softly.
How he would react, wasn’t something I didn’t know. He cared about me a lot but he also valued his family, so it wouldn’t be easy for him to accept me being in a relationship with his brother.
“Liza, you almost got killed by Nik, when you were in a relationship with him. Kol has a worse temper than Nik and he cannot control it. You will be hurt,” Elijah sighed.
“No I won’t. He loves me, and I’m sure if he was capable of hurting me he wouldn’t have fed me his blood to make sure I didn’t desiccate,” I stated.
I knew Elijah wouldn’t give in easily for Kol and I to be together but never would I see it as right to go behind his back.
“But you’re a hunter and you will hurt him if he doesn’t hurt you,” He frowned.
“I tried to kill him, but I couldn’t. I know it sounds back but I really wanted to kill him but I physically couldn’t as I knew I loved him,” I whispered.
Even though it only happened recently, it was a memory I’d rather lose forever than continuously think about it.
“Liza, don’t think I’m being mean but I don’t want to see you hurt,” He smiled softly.
“I know Elijah but if he hurts me you can hurt him,” I chuckled.
“Just be careful,” He sighed.
A smile grew on my face as I ran around the island kissing his cheek and running out the room shouting a ‘thank you’ and a ‘I love you’.