The scent of the ocean hung heavy in the air I breathed in and out, even though, as a gem, I didn't need to essentially breath.
It feels like it's been forever since the gems found Malachite at the bottom of the ocean, forever since they defeated and bubbled Jasper.
Since that time, I have felt strangely alone.
It's true we never liked nor trust each other, but Jasper was, in some sense, a relief from my former complete and utter loneliness that I had endured back on Homeworld.
Being together so long, I guess I just got used to her, now that we weren't together anymore, that feeling of emptiness returned.
The gems, aside from Steven of course, still didn't quite trust me, which I don't understand because even after everything I've been through, after everything I have done for them, they've done the most impeccable job of making me feel as unwanted and unwelcomed as possible.
It was like everyday I was there, they were reminding me in some sort of way how much they disliked or mistrusted me, constantly keeping somebody in the room to babysit me like I was a small human child, whispering amongst themselves in the darkest hours of the night of "What to do with her."
The waves in the ocean started to pick up as I let my already tempermental emotions get ahold of me.
I was welcomed by the familar feeling of hatred, the intense anger I onced experienced as Malachite, the same anger that destroyed my sanity in the first place, I needed to calm down.
I didn't know that a certain curly haired boy was watching from afar, if I did, I doubt the anger would have ever came.
"H-Hey Lapis what you doing?" I could feel my heart twinge at the masked sound of fear in the boy's voice, I made him afraid.
"Oh hey Steven what are you doing out here? It's kinda cold tonight, you don't wanna get sick right?"
"Oh yeah you're right hold on don't go anywhere I'll be right back O.K?"
I could feel the corners of my mouth curl up into a small smile as I watched Steven run to the house, no amount of anger could ever make me take anything out on Steven, he was innocent in this and I honestly felt like I owed him everything, he freed me from the mirror, showed me true friendship.
Actually he's been my only friend I've had since I came back and he may as well be the only friend I'll ever have anymore, I can't afford to lose him.
I sat down in the soft sand, looking out into the seemingly endless ocean, absorbing the beauty of it.
I let my mind wander to happier times, memories of what Homeworld used to be, how happy I was, how much I missed what my former home used to be, the friend I used to have, but now I don't even recognize it, now those memories seem like an old fairytale I used to live.
The sound of thudding footsteps snapped me out of my thoughts and I looked to see Steven in a red, hooded jacket with a bright yellow star on it of course.
"I'm back, so what do you think? Pretty cool right, it was in dad's old stuff." I looked him over.
"Yeah Steven it looks really good on you, so was there anything you wanted to talk about?"
Steven looked down at the sand, he seemed nervous about something. "Well yeah kind of, I was just wondering something.."
I looked at him questionably, wondering what he was thinking.
"N-nevermind actually, it was a silly question." I watched as the young boy fiddling with his thumbs, I was unsure on whether I should press the matter further or not, but when I saw him shuffling to get up and leave, I knew I had to stop him from going anywhere, I couldn't stand another night alone.
"Wait Steven, you know you can ask me anything, I mean we are friends right? Friends always ask each other stuff."
I let out a sigh of relief as I saw him relax a little, letting his former stiff posture go slack, he still looked nervous however.
"Like I said it's a silly question, but I was just wondering... how did you get stuck in the mirror exactly, I've wondered about it for awhile now."
My breath hitched, terrible memories flooded throughout my mind, memories I thought were long gone. I didn't know if it was a good idea to tell the boy what would he think?
"Hey it's okay Lapis, you don't have to tell me if you don't want to."
Steven peeked up at me, a nervous smile etched on his face. I smiled half heartedly at Steven, a few tears started gathering in the ducts of my eyes.
"I'll tell you but it's a really long story," I jokingly warned, "You might wanna sit down for it or your legs might fall off from tiredness."
Steven sat down quickly and looked up at me, eager to hear my story.
"Well I guess I should probably start from the beginning, when I still resided in Homeworld..."