It turned from being a day,
to a week,
to a month,
to now two months.
I've lived in the sewers for two months now. Every night the turtles would leave around midnight and not come back until it was 3. From those times, I felt so alone. Splinter was here but it wasn't the same. From 12 to 3, I slept alone in Mikey's bed, staring at the clock, counting the minutes until he came and we would sleep together.
It was a habit having Mikey by my side as I slept. Sometimes, I couldn't even close my eyes without him there by my side. It was weird yet so comforting.
"Hm? Oh yeah! Sorry." I said sheepishly as I remembered what was happening around me. Donnie sat across from me, tapping his finger against the clip board that he held in his hand.
It has turned to custom for Donnie and I to talk everyday, as if he was my therapist helping me with my problems. Its been nice but every time we talk, I get the need to tell him about Mikey. About how I fell in love with him and what the hell I should do about it.
"So um, I've been 2 months clean now I guess. It's the longest that I've lasted. I'm real proud of that." I said as I hugged my knees and sat in a little ball in the leather chair.
"Good, that's good. Has anything come up that you need to talk about?" He said aimlessly as he scribbled stuff down on his clipboard.
I bit the bottom of my lip as I thought of telling Donnie about what was happening. Just...gosh, fuck it.
"Well, there's a reason why I keep going everyday, a reason why I keep moving and wake up every morning." I said as I looked everywhere else but Don.
"It's Mikey, I fell in love with Mikey." I whispered as a small smile formed on my lips and I blushed slightly.
Donnie looked up at me from his clipboard and had a look of surprise on his face. His chocolate brown eyes went wide and his mouth fell.
"Mikey? As in our Mikey? The Mikey that wears orange and is my little brother. That Mikey?" Donnie said.
"Yeah, I don't know why. I can't explain it. He makes me feel like something that I've never felt before. I just can't tell him how I feel, I bet he doesn't even like me." I said as my smile fades when the realization hit me. It wasn't something that I really hadn't thought about before.
"And how do you know that?" He's eyebrow ridge went up in curiosity.
"I don't know."
Donnie sighed as he got up and helped my up off of the chair. He gave me a big hug and ran his fingers through my hair to calm me down.
"Look, I've got an idea. Just hide somewhere, I'll be back." He said as he gently pushed me towards the closet and walked out of the lab.
I stood there I second before I was able to process what exactly had happened. I was curious at first as to what Donnie had in plan but quickly took action. My heart was beating fast as I walked into the closet and closed the door slightly, leaving only a small bit open for air.
"Don, what's going on? Where's Riley?" I heard Mikey say from the hallway as he walked into the room behind Donnie.
He looked scared and surprised as if he thought I was hurt or something had happened to Leo or Raph. Donnie simply ignored him and sat down in his usual seat as he motioned for Mikey to sit where I sat earlier. I wanted to chuckle under my breath at Mikey's reaction but it would probably be better to not blow my cover.
"Riley's fine, she went to go take a nap. Everyone's fine. The real reason I asked you here is cause I have a question for you. What are your feelings towards Riley?" He said discreetly as he went back to scribbling on his clipboard.
My back straighten as he asked Mikey. Why the hell would Donnie do that? It's basically like he's blowing my cover right away? Is he trying to tell Mikey that I love him?
"Uh why are you asking me this, Don?"
"Just answer the question."
"I like her, Donnie. A lot. Probably more than I should but I don't know. How can she like a thing like me? We're turtles, Don. We're not human. But apart of me thinks that she likes me back.
She doesn't say 'I love you' like a normal person. Instead, she'll laugh, shake her head, give you a little smile and say, 'You're an idiot.' If she tell you your an idiot, then you're a lucky man. Or in this case, a turtle." Mikey said passionately as a cheeky smile played in his lips.
I covered my mouth with my hands to stop myself from making any noise, I wanted to jump out of the closet and tell him everything but then I realized, I can't. If I can barley talk to a person that I've just met, then how can I confess to a person that I love. How can I tell him my feelings when I'm just too shy?
"Ok Mike, thanks."
"Uh that's it? You're not even going to tell me why you called me in here? Nothing?" Mikey scoffed as he got up off of his chair. Donnie simply shook his head no and smiled at his little brother. Mikey smiled back as he rolled his eyes and left the room.
I waited a few seconds before I came out of the closet but I couldn't. The realization of Mikey liking me back was staring to hit me. My heart felt like it was pushing out of my chest, it was beating so had and fast. My fingers went numb and my face was biting as hot as firewood.
Mikey actually liked me.
"Uh Riley? Are you going to come out now or are you just going to stay in there the entire day?" Donnie muttered curiosity as he opened the closet door slightly. The minute he did that, I didn't realize that my body was leaning on the door and fell down on my face.
"Wow, I knew you were shy before but we might as well add clumsy to the list." Don helped me back up on my feet.
"I've always been clumsy, it's just one of my minor qualities that I prefer not to show." I muttered under my breath as I brushed off the fake dust that I thought was on my body when I fell.
I walked back to my usual chair and sat down. My arms wrapped themselves around my knees as I leaned back comfortably. I started to bit bits off on my nails to calm my nerves.
"What is it now?" Donnie groaned.
"Come sit." I said as I motioned for him to sit back in his 'doctor chair' to help me out.
Donnie sighed and grabbed the clipboard that he had and sat back down. I knew that I was tiring my poor friend out but I really did need the help.
"I don't know w-"
"Stop, just stop right there. You need something to distract yourself from all of this. Something to get your mind off of it so that not only I can take a moment to breathe but also you." Donnie said as he threw his board on the nearest desk and got right back up.
I got lazy and didn't feel like following him so I just stayed where I was and fiddled with my long hair. I could see in the corner of my eye that Don was rummaging through some boxes and messing with things up as he tried to find something. The sight of it was actually pretty funny, if I do say so myself.
Which I do.
When he finally found what he was looked for, Donnie pumped his fist up in the air which was very un-Donatello like of him. I chuckled as I shook my head and stared at his silliness, a side that I almost never saw if the purple clad turtle.
"Now I remember, seeing in your apartment room, a bunch of pictures that hanged on the walls by push pins. Those pictures looked like you took them with a worn out camera. Are you interested in photography, Riles?" He said as a smirk played on his lips tightly like he wanted to make a bright smile.
I nodded carefully to him, not exactly sure where he was going with this.
"Well Ms. Matthews, I give you one of the finest camera in New York City. And guess what? It's all yours."