Hi! I somehow feel like I want to do this lifetime too for some reason. So I'm going to write a few chapters on it that will hopefully end up good. I'm not going to tell you which lifetime this is though. You'll have to see for yourself but this is a prequel to what was written in 'Shattered Souls'. I hope you'll like it.
Rule one: Don't make eye contact.
Rule two: Appear as small as possible.
Rule three: Don't say a word. Ever.
I reminded myself as I walked through the school halls to my next class. It was always a mantra in my head. Three rules that I always followed no matter what. Three rules that I learned pretty fast in my family, because if there is one thing you need to learn if you're in my family it's that it's better to stay unnoticed. Less attention is on you like that. And I hate attention. Attention makes it impossible to keep secrets. And I like for mine to stay hidden.
So I keep to my rules. I have since I was little. No one notices me like this. Half of my own class doesn't know I exist and I'm in my last year. But I like it like that. Not being notices is good. Being invisible is always good.
My brother doesn't think so though. He loves the attention. Always did. I guess that being kind of related to him did help me in staying hidden. No one gives you a second or even a first glance if you're standing next to Jace. Jace who is all golden hair and golden eyes. A complete attention grabber in itself unlike me who just looks plain. But again, nothing to complain here.
I honestly think that adopting him into the family is the best decision my parents made. For me and for them. Aside from my crush for him but that doesn't matter. No one knows about that so it's fine. No one has to know and no one will. I can live with it. I have for years now and I will for many years more so I'm used to it.
But it really is the best thing for my parents for adopting him. For one he's straight, unlike me but that's another secret that is best left hidden. Especially in my family. I'm glad they have at least one perfect son though. Even if he's not biologically theirs. Perfect grades, looks, a girlfriend…His every parents dream. Except for the behavior but that isn't that important when you can have eyes of every in the room on you by just entering it.
So yeah I'm happy for them. I am.
Besides I'm good like this. Keeping to my rules and avoiding people. It left me with no friends aside from my siblings but I don't mind. I don't want any friends anyway. No point really. I'm not a social person either way.
Even with my rules though, there is still one person who sees me. I don't know why, I could never figure it out but sometimes I can feel his eyes on me. It was unnerving at first but I got kind of used to it over time. It's still weird though. I'm not used to people seeing me after all.
I entered the classroom just as the bell rang and went to the first empty spot right away. Today it seems I'm going to be in the first row. It is not the best when keeping hidden but not even teachers see me anymore either way so I'm going to be fine. If you keep quiet no one can see you after all.
When the teacher came and started the class I took notes dutifully as always. That is I took them for the first ten minutes before getting bored and trailing off, ending up doodling on the page of the book instead. It was only half through the class that it hit me that I haven't said a word in nearly a week now. I was taken aback by it for a second before shrugging it off because it has been a month once that I didn't talk. It even took my siblings a while to notice then and they usually notice pretty quickly, them being the only ones that care and all. But it was a month that Jace met Clary and with that Izzy met her friend Simon too so I guess that was more important. They are dating now after all and I couldn't be more happy for them. I want to rip Clary's head off once in a while true, but I'm still happy for them.
I was just about to go back to doodling when I felt it. His gaze was on my again. I didn't even have to turn around to see him either. He always sits on the same spot at the back with a view to the whole classroom so he can see me no matter where I sit.
I may have stared a few times at him too but no one needs to know that. How can I not though. Always wearing tight colorful clothes to school even after getting more than just a few warnings because of it. He is hot and I couldn't help but notice that but It's not like I'm going to do anything about it. I don't even know why he keeps staring. There is no reason for him to. He doesn't like me. I know that because no one does.
So it's better to just ignore him like I always do. Because to do otherwise I would have to talk and let myself be seen and I don't like that. I makes me feel uncomfortable when I have eyes on me. It makes me feel like they know. Like they know everything. Every secret I have. Every thought I don't want to be heard. I don't like it so no, I'm not going to do anything but ignore him. I have for a year now. Everything has been normal until a year ago. No one saw me before then but then suddenly Magnus was there and he saw for some reason. He always sees and I don't like it. I don't like it one bit because if he does maybe the others will too. And that is not good. Not good at all.
I have three rules. Never make eye contact. Appear as small as possible. Don't say a word. But somehow he manages to pass them all for some reason. Only he passes over all of them and sees me anyway. I don't know why. I never knew why. And honestly, I don't want to find out.
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Like I said, not telling which one this is but I hope you liked the first chapter. There should be five chapters all in all. Let's hope they end up good and also please tell me what you thought of this and maybe your guesses on what this may be. I'll try posting soon.
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