I've hated hospitals ever since my grandfather died of cancer while his doctor was getting coffee. Doctors don't care about their patients and if they die on them, that only means less money in their paycheck. Now my best friend is in the hospital and I'm having that awful feeling again. If Lucas dies here, I am never going near a doctor's office again.
I saw Riley talking to a tall blond woman outside Lucas's hospital room when I went to visit him.
"Maya," Riley says warmly when she sees me. I couldn't tell if she was happy, sad, or mad, because her face looked like a mixture of all three.
"Maya!" the woman next to her exclaims. "I haven't seen you in a long time!"
"How do you know me?" I ask the lady. She looks vaguely familiar.
"Maya, do you remember Lucas's mom?" Riley blurts out before the lady gets a chance to speak.
My mouth fell open. Lucas's mother, I haven't seen her in forever! She changed; she actually looks happy and not so worn-out.
"Charlotte," I say slowly. I was struggling not to burst into a pile of rage. It took her seven years to see her son, seven years, and all because he was in the hospital. How could she abandon Lucas and his father? Does she know how many times Lucas went over to my house afterwards because he was lonely at home? Does she know how many hours Mr. Friar works because it was hard to make ends meet without her? Does she know how much this has impacted her son?
Lucas's mom didn't detect my anger and instead hugged me like I was family.
"I'm sorry that I wasn't able to contact you or Lucas," she says. "It's just that things have been pretty tough on me after the divorce."
"Don't lie to Riley," I say.
"Huh?" she says.
"There wasn't any divorce, you left Lucas and his dad seven years ago and haven't bothered to contact them afterwards. Where did you go anyway? Do you know how much Lucas has changed? Do you think doing this now would change anything?" I say angrily.
"Maya," Riley scolds like I'm the bad guy here. "I already know what happened and I don't blame her for leaving."
"What do you know?" I screech at Riley. "You weren't there to see how much Lucas hurt after his mom left."
"There's a lot you don't know," Lucas's mom retorts. "I am not the bad parent, and you shouldn't talk to me like this like I'm not here."
"You are the bad parent because you weren't there for him during his childhood," I scream. I wanted to rip out Mrs. Friar's eyeballs for what she did to Lucas.
"You don't know half of it," Riley cries, separating me and Mrs. Friar. "Maya, I know you think you know everything about Lucas, but even he hid secrets from you. At least look at things from a different perspective."
Anger was boiling deep inside me like a furnace. "Why are you taking her side?" I scream.
"Because Mrs. Friar deserves a chance to see her son again after this tragic incident," Riley whispers. "It's important that she comes now than never."
What did Riley know? She has never experienced this pain before, the pain of being abandoned by a loved one. I thought she would take my side, Lucas's side, after she comforted me when I told her about my father. But she never understood.
After Lucas's mom left, that's when I began being mad again.
"She abandoned Lucas," I hiss. "Parents like her don't deserve second chances."
"You need to know her side," Riley replies. "She had a very good reason to leave. You don't know about Lucas's dad."
"What does he have to do with anything?" I yell. "The point is that you can't just toss out second chances to everyone, especially the people who leave their kids like this."
"What do you want me to do?" Riley yells back. "I can't be like everyone. I forgive Charlotte because she still loves Lucas after all those years. It's the truth."
"If Lucas could hear us right now, he would take my side," I growl.
"Maybe he would," Riley retorts. "But you need to hear Charlotte's side of the story first."
"Whatever you say won't convince me," I mumble. "People never change."
"That's a bit hypocritical," Riley seethes. "You changed completely after you abandoned Missy."
"Don't bring Missy into this," I yell. "You don't even know anything. You don't even know Lucas like you think you do."
"I know more than you do!" Riley yells back.
"I can't believe he chose you," I hiss. "You never understand anything. You're so spoiled and self-righteous and all you do is pretend the past is the past when we know that the past never goes away. Lucas should have chosen me from the start."
Riley's jaw drops and I immediately regret my words. I just let out my biggest secret. What is wrong with me? I didn't mean any of those words.
"I knew it!" a voice yells from behind me. I turn around to see Farkle's scowling face.
"I knew it was too good to be true," Farkle spits out like acid. "I knew that I just your little toy, your rebound. Did anything from our relationship mean something to you?" Tears slipped out from his eyes and he looked like a crushed puppy.
I wanted to reassure him he was wrong, that I did love him and I always will but my mouth was dry as sand. Lucas once meant something to me and it's over now, but did my feelings still linger around?
My silence was all it took to get Farkle to stomp out of here like an angry five-year-old. He was so hurt, so vulnerable, how could I do this to him? Farkle has been the only boy to make me happy in years and I just wrecked everything. I wanted to cry as well. I try to follow him, but Riley's arm suddenly stopped me. She was surprisingly strong.
"Farkle needs someone who cares about him right now," Riley hisses. She really hates me now. I don't blame her.
There is no Lucaya in this; I just needed more drama and Faya will always be one of my OTPs. Will everyone forgive each other and will Lucas ever wake up to a peaceful home? Find out in the next chapter