He wasn't going to ignore what she said about people leaving, but it was their first time out together and he was going to make it a memorable one. "How about I win you a stuffed animal?"
"Step right up sir, take the gun shoot the moving target. You get three tries. Hit the target all three times win the big elephant. Hit it once you get one of these prizes," he said pointing to the row of smaller stuffed animals.
"I'll love whatever you win," said Sabrina giving him a kiss for luck.
He aimed the small toy pistol and fired. "Oh my god, you got it," screamed Sabrina jumping up and down.
Laughing Jason replied, "look how excited you are. It's like you had no faith in me that I could do it."
"Shut up, you know I did," said Sabrina punching his shoulder playfully.
Jason took two more shots and hit them dead on.
"Maybe, you were like a FBI agent in another life," said Sabrina laughing a little in awe at how easy it was for him.
"Or a criminal," said Jason thinking he must look ridiculous carrying this elephant under his arm, "robbing banks."
"Oh i think we'd know if you robbed banks for a living. Let's go on the Ferris Wheel i bet if we ask nicely they'll let us take Peanut," said Sabrina dragging a reluctant Jason towards the ride.
"Peanut? You named him that quick," he asked glad he was able to get her something she obviously loved. l
The operator strapped them in with no peanut and as they got half way up to the top Sabrina exclaimed, "Look at the view its gorgeous."
"It's nice, but I'm more interested in you," he said sincerely kissing Sabrina just as they made it to the top. Not that it mattered they only had eyes for each other.
The operator cleared his throat loudly feeling more than a little awkward seeing their make out session. "Did you want to go around again?"
"No, thank you," said Sabrina blushing at their display of affection and grabbing her elephant from the ground. How about some cotton candy?"asked Sabrina from behind the elephant struggling a little to hold it. She plowed straight into Jason not even seeing her in front of him.
"You're so adorable right now," chuckled Jason grabbing the elephant from her. They snacked on cotton candy and wandered the grounds talking about the future. Avoiding the most important questions involving their relationship. "Oh look, one of those crazy mirrors that stretches your image."
He stood in front of the mirror that turns you into a dwarf with Sabrina standing beside him. "Look how small your body is compared to your head. I'd still love you with that big forehead," laughed Jason.
"Well, I don't know if I'd like you in this one. Look how tall and skinny your legs are. You have chicken legs," laughed Sabrina.
"This one makes you fat. Look I have a beer belly," said Jason rubbing his stomach and laughing. "You try," he said grabbing her hand and pulling her towards the mirror.
"I don't want to do this one," said Sabrina resisting Jason's grasp.
"What, why?" said Jason a little startled thinking she was still playing around.
"Don't pull me!" she said jerking away from the mirror, "let's go on another ride," taking the strain out of her voice she managed to sound almost cheerful. She didn't wait for him to answer though and just walked in the other direction.
"Bri where are you going! Stop and tell me what happened?" said Jason wondering if he had done something wrong. She was walking awfully fast and he grabbed her arm to stop her. "Say something."
"I was pregnant by the man i love and i lost him and i lost the baby! I don't feel like doing this anymore let's just go back to the hospital," she said storming in the direction of the car.
"You don't get to drop a bomb like that and just walk off," said Jason following her. "Why don't you trust me?" he said stopping in the parking lot. "How can i love you if you don't talk to me."
She turned around to face him tears streaming down her face, "What does that even mean Jason?"
"I loved you from the moment I saw you. And every moment after, when you hugged me I knew what it meant to be loved and cared for. When I kissed you I never wanted us to be apart. But I did it cause you needed time. Now you need to let me in cause for once I'd like to take care of you like you take care of me."
"I don't sleep because I dream about my little boy and what he'd look like if he had lived. I can't even be around a baby without having a panic attack. I don't even know why I brought up his father. I lost him way before the baby was born. I'm just so tired Jason. I'm carrying so much pain and I'm just tired," she couldn't even speak anymore her body seemed to collapse under the weight of so much loss in her life.
He wanted to take all her pain away. He never would have guessed what she was going through. But he did the only thing he could he held her as she cried. "I love you and I'm here as long as you want me."
She whispers, "I'm afraid of falling." He smiles, "I'll catch you."