How We Feel
Patrick enters Sabrina's room to check her vitals. Jason, Sonny or Felix were in and out of the room so often he was surprised to see the trio missing from her side. Seeing that everything was fine he took a minute and sat by her bedside.
"I should have never left you at the altar and I wasn't their enough when the baby died. I thought that if I found justice for our baby. Maybe it would hurt a little less knowing that I lost him. I followed Sam one lead after another through our investigation and I left you behind. I'll make it up to you if you let me I love you."
Sabrina's eyes fluttered and her hand closed around Patrick's instinctively. "What?" she managed to mutter. Her eyes opened and she looked around the room. "Why am I here?" she said confusion and disappointment washing over her face as tears welled up in her eyes. She pulled her hand away from Patrick's, "Why am I here?"
"Sabrina, you have to calm down. Milo found you and you're in the hospital. You're going to make a full recovery."
She paused looking at her hands which were now connected to monitoring machines, "No I'm not supposed to be here." Tears fell down her face and she turned away from Patrick.
"Sabrina, you're supposed to be here because you're supposed to be with me," said Patrick wanting to hold her, but scared he'd push her further away.
She put her hands over her ears and shook her head, "No, No, No."
"What's going on here?" said Jason survey the scene. "Sabrina you're awake."
"Jason," she screamed elated as she threw her arms open to embrace him in a hug. "Wait, why are you here?" she said pulling back from him. "I don't want to see either of you," she said eyes darting from Patrick to Jason. "Where's Felix, get out both of you?"
They both were stunned neither expecting her to react the way she did. They obeyed her orders and left without another word and Felix entered the room. "How you feeling love? It was touch and go for a minute there."
"I was a little foggy at first but I see things clearer right now," she said.
"Do you, why couldn't you come to me if you were sad or depressed?" said Felix.
"You have already been there for me in so many ways. I was starting to fill like a burden I didn't want a dump anything else on your shoulders. But it was weighing heavily on me so I thought if I ended it all there'd be no sadness," said Sabrina.
"How do you feel about everything now?" asked Felix.
"Everything's fine," said Sabrina.
Felix gave her one of his infamous are you joking looks.
"Okay, as fine as things are going to be coming back from the dead," said Sabrina. She wasn't going to admit that she was still upset that they brought her back. Or that seeing Patrick and Jason made her so angry she could choke on it. Or that she felt so pitiful for still loving Jason even now. Stupid for ever thinking that her and Patrick could still be friends. Even while she was pregnant with her son everything was all about Robin. How do you tell your friend if first you don't succeed try again.
"Well, I think you are going to have a lot more support this time around."
"Why because I'll have a team of psychiatrists watching me in the psych ward?"
"No because to save your life we had to track down some blood relatives. I don't know if this is too much too soon, but you have a father out their whose very excited to meet you," said Felix gauging her reaction hoping this won't send her back over the deep end.
"Does he know what I did?" she asked quietly.
"You needed a blood transfusion from him so yes he does know."
"I. . .I don't want a stranger judging me. I don't want to meet him," she said. The last thing she wanted was to meet someone who would just add to her pain. Who would want to find out about a daughter who was a basket case.
"He's a stranger, but not in the way you think. I mean you have heard of him," said Felix not quite sure how to proceed.
"What do you mean? Is he famous?" asked Sabrina.
"Infamous, yes, well-known, feared," said Felix trailing off and looking like he wanted to run for the front door.
"Why don't you meet him? If you need me to rescue you I'll come back in ten minutes."
"Well only because your description was so cryptic," she said. Felix left the room and a few moments later, "You're Sonny Corinthos aren't you?"
He took a deep breath moments like this was the only time he regretted his reputation. He had to try so hard with his kids to overcome it, but every minute was worth it. "Yes I am, but don't believe everything you hear."
"Like that you're my father?"
"No, that's true and my first wife Lily Rivera was your mother."
"Where is she?"
"She died a long time ago. I want you to know that I never would have given you up. Honestly, before she died I never knew she was pregnant."
"How is that possible?" asked Sabrina.
"It's a long story and I'll answer any questions you have, but right now I want to know about you," said Sonny.
"Right I guess I would want to know too how much crazy I just inherited if it was my daughter," said Sabrina sadly.
Sonny smiled slightly, "It's quite the opposite actually, I should be apologizing to you some of this crazy you may have inherited from me."
"What do you mean?" asked Sabrina curiously.
"I was diagnosed with bi-polar disorder I manage it with meds."
Sabrina thought for a moment, "I think I also inherited your smile I have your dimples to."
"Really, can I see," said Sonny teasingly.
"Very slick, but I don't have anything to smile about anymore."
"That will change," he said getting up to leave, "I can't promise to fix all your problems, but as your father you won't have to face them alone. I'm going to give you some time i know there are two guys out their pacing the floor who want to see you."
He was about to leave, but then backtracked, "I'm going to give you a hug now so don't completely hate me."
She smiled. "There we go I see it now," he said giving her a kiss on her forehead and leaving. "You do have my smile."
The visit wasn't completely horrible and she'd much prefer his company then the emotional storm that follows Jason and Patrick. She didn't like what he did for a living, but their would be plenty of time to sort through that later. She did want to know where she came from both the good and the bad. Cause now she was feeling like their was no reason for her to still be living.