"I didn't slit my wrists someone did it for me," said Sabrina thinking back on that night.
"What do you mean? You didn't try to commit suicide?" asked Jason.
They were still in her hospital room. They had spent the night talking. Jason filling her in on all the things he remembered now and all the people. He wanted her to meet everyone and be a part of his life especially the son he didn't know he had. It all sounded exciting, but how well would she really fit into his life. She wasn't going to dwell on it because she knew they could face anything together.
"No I did take the pills," she said trying to remember. "But someone came in while I was in the tub."
"Are you sure whatever you saw wasn't just a product of whatever you were taking?" asked Jason concerned holding her hand. "You could have just seen Milo he was the one that found you."
"Maybe I'm not sure," she said hesitating, "But why would I dream of seeing Luke Spencer. I had already gotten into the tub after I took the pills I didn't have the strength to slit my wrists. He said something I cant remember and Luke slit my wrists."
"Oh my god," said Sam appearing at the door.
They both looked up startled neither one of them saw her come in, but she had obviously heard something. Jason jumped up and escorted Sam into the hall.
"What are you doing here?" said Jason not bothering to hide his anger.
"Jason you haven't been home in days. When you call its to speak to Danny and you barely say two words to me. I want to know what's going on? If I didn't know any better I'd say you were avoiding me," said Sam.
"If it wasn't for Danny I probably never would have come up for air. I didn't know if she was even going to make it or not and that fear consumed me. Tell me something though did Patrick call you and tell you she was sick?"
Sam's breath caught in her throat. She should have said something earlier why didn't she. "Yes, he did and I was going to tell you later that night."
"Later that night Sam really she could have died in that time. You put her life in jeopardy and for what?" said Jason disgusted.
"You had just walked in with Danny and I wanted you to spend more time with your family. I knew it be awhile before you'd be able to do it again if you rushed off to Sabrina's side. Excuse me if I just wanted to give our son some more time."
"Are you sure it was for Danny and you weren't just trying to spare yourself some more time?" asked Jason.
"Yes I wanted more time for me and Danny. Or are we not apart of your family anymore since Sabrina?" said Sam tears welling up in her eyes.
"You and Danny will always be my family and I'll never miss another moment of Danny's life. I am going to stay with Sabrina and it doesn't mean I don't love you because I do. I want you to be happy, but we're not going to be happy together. We don't have to be together because everything in our past pointed in that direction."
"This is just for her," stated Sam more to herself than Jason.
He looked through the window at Sabrina and smiled slightly. "I can't go back and have a brand new start, but when I'm with her I feel like I can start from now and have a brand new ending. I love her and she needs me and I need her," said Jason.
"I hate the way I don't hate you, not even close, not even a little bit, not even at all. I thought I'd die without you then I got past the seconds, the minutes, the hours and the agonizing days without you. Somewhere down the line I realized that I still had a life beyond you. I lost you a long time ago I mourned you, I grieved and I moved on. Now I'm going to do the same now" said Sam walking away and not looking back.
Jason went back into Sabrina's room and called Sonny to drop by the hospital he wanted him to hear what Sabrina said for himself. He didn't like the sound of this and was worried about what this meant for him and Sabrina.
"Okay now that you've done that. Stop stalling what happened between you and Sam," she said worried about him.
"It went better than I thought it would."
"What does that mean?" she asked anxious preparing herself for him to say that he was going back to Sam.
"It means that I told her the truth of how I felt. That I love you both, but my future is with you. I think we have an hour before your dad gets here. What do you think we should do?" he said locking the door and closing the blinds.
Sabrina smiled, "I can think of something."
Sam hadn't cleared the hospital before she ran directly into Patrick almost falling.
"Oh, Sam I wasn't paying attention sorry about that," he said steadying her on her feet.
"Don't worry about it I wasn't really watching where I was going either," said Sam distracted by her thoughts.
"Why what's the matter? I was just going to check on Sabrina, but I have a minute. Thinking about maybe releasing her tomorrow," said Patrick pulling her to the side.
"She didn't commit suicide that ought to be some good news for you I know you're her friend," said Sam.
"What are you talking about she didn't commit suicide?" said Patrick when he treated her injuries that all pointed to being self-inflicted.
"I overheard her talking to Jason she admitted that she didn't slit her wrists Luke Spencer did."
"Luke Spencer! Well is she going to the police to report it or what?" asked Patrick.
"I'm not sure, but I don't think so."
"Why not?" fumed Patrick, "What if he tries it again?"
"I'm not sure, but considering its Luke this may be some sort of mob hit. I think Sonny and Jason will want to take over from here. So we should just stay out of it," said Sam biting her lower lip and contemplating the situation.
"He obviously can't keep her safe. She's Sonny's daughter all of a couple of days and she already has a bounty on her head. I mean how can you stand it? Can't believe you guys lasted this long," he said pacing back and forth in front of her not bothering to stop for air.
"Patrick me and Jason broke up," said Sam tearing up.
"I'm sorry Sam," he said stopping in front of her and sitting down. "I know what you're going through. We mourned the people we lost for what we thought was forever. Like a miracle they came back only to take us through a different kind of loss. You'll feel all kinds of things now disbelief, sadness, hurt."
"What about hatred?" asked Sam.
"Hatred too I guess, Rage at the unfairness," replied Patrick.
"But I don't hate him in fact I think he set me free."
Patrick listened silently thinking how beautiful and courageous this women was to go through this and come out the other side unscathed.
"I went back to him because I felt I had too. Truthfully, my life is not the same now and neither his. I don't think will be happy together anymore."
"That's really grown up of you to say," said Patrick.
"We haven't had the greatest start jumping from place to place looking for your son's killer the one who forced Rafe to do what he did. But I felt our connection and when we kissed at the hotel in New York I just got cold feet. So I guess what I'm asking is would you like to go on a real date?"
"Sam I have to be honest with you what I felt for you was 100% real, but when Sabrina and Jason came back that changed things," said Patrick hesitantly.
"That's what I'm trying to tell you that it doesn't have to change anything. I talked to Jason and I'm ready to move on and see what's out there. We had something or at least I thought we did?" said Sam
"Sam if you'd have asked me earlier I would have said yes, but I told Sabrina I loved her," said Patrick.
"Your still in love with her?" asked Sam feeling stupid for saying anything.
"Yes I am."
"Forget I said anything," she said about to walk away.
"No," he said stopping her from leaving, "I don't want to forget you."
"Let me ask you something, Patrick you say you love her but why?" asked Sam curiously.
"I chose Robin when she returned and that was a mistake. Holding Sabrina in my arms on those same very steps as she was going through it again. Reminded me that I never wanted to see her hurt like that again and that I didn't stop loving her. I just brushed her aside."
"Patrick I know you when you made that decision to leave Sabrina for Robin it wasn't an easy one for you to make. It definitely wasn't a mistake either she made you and Emma happy. In that moment you didn't need or want anything else and it wasn't a mistake for you."
"Maybe, you're right, but doesn't stop me from feeling like a complete idiot. I had so many plans for our future and look at us now. She's halfway across the world leaving her daughter behind to suffer. That's what I did to Sabrina I left someone who loved me to suffer. If she stays with Jason that's all she'll get now."
"You stayed her friend and deep down she always knew you cared. How do you think you can help in the first place that day at the church it was because she trusted you. As far as Jason is concerned she'll be fine with him. Even if she's not just keep being her friend. She has to learn to be brave on her own," she said giving Patrick a hug.
"I'm not saying all this because I want you to drop everything and go out with me. At the end of the day I'm still your friend. I want you to be happy, but in my opinion It does sound like your just a concerned friend and not a man in love. Think about it," she said.
"As a friend who does have a crush on you let me give you some advice Sam. Maybe Danny isn't as safe around Jason as you think," he said.