3 weeks later
Olivia beamed to herself after she finished reading her emails while absentmindedly rubbing her small baby bump. It had become a habit she formed in the past few weeks as she started to show more and she found that it soothed her when she was thinking about something or beginning to feel anxious.
"Hey boss, I'm getting ready to head out for the next week. Need anything before I go?" Nick asked.
"No you're good. Have a good time in California and tell Maria and Zara I said hello."
"Thanks," he said getting ready to walk out.
"Wait, Nick hold on a second. I've got an announcement I want to make before you leave."
He walked with her to the middle of the squad room and leaned against his desk with a puzzled look on his face. Olivia had been nothing short of personal announcements lately so he was unsure of what else she had to share.
"Everyone can I have your attention. Please gather around," she said motioning for them to come closer. Everyone had the same puzzled look on their faces as Nick.
Putting her best game show announcer voice on, she continued with her news. "Ladies and gentlemen I just received an email from 1PP that we officially have a new Sergeant in our midst." She glanced toward Fin who hung his head and gave her a shy smile. "Please give a round of applause for SVU's own Sergeant Fin Tutuola."
Everyone clapped and Fin stood up putting his hand in the air to signal for everyone to stop their applause. Olivia beamed with pride while the squad congratulated Fin.
"Alright alright, enough with all of that," Fin said. "You guys are clapping as if there was any doubt."
"Well we didn't know considering the only smarts we thought you had were street smarts," Amanda teased earning light laughter from the rest of the room.
"Yeah yeah well now I can officially say….everyone get your asses back to work."
Olivia stood by while everyone walked up to him and said their congratulations, which in typical Fin fashion he waved off as no big deal.
"Congrats man," Nick said shaking his hand. "Ill see you next week."
"Walk you out?" Amanda asked shyly.
"Yeah, sure. See you guys later."
Olivia and Fin watched them walk out together but kept their comments to themselves.
"Congratulations Fin. I'm proud of you," she said giving him a hug.
"Thanks Liv. You should be proud after all this is all your fault."
She laughed while he followed her back in her office.
"You love it don't act like you don't."
"The only thing this new title can do for me is get me a little more play with the ladies," he joked.
"Well that and a raise which goes into effect next week. That should get you a long way with the ladies too," she joked back.
"You women are all after the same thing."
She laughed and shook her head as she packed up for the day.
"Ok so I have those tests tomorrow so I'll be out most of the morning. I'm not sure how long everything is going to take but I should be back in after."
Fin watched her closely trying to feel out her demeanor. She seemed to be a little guarded when she talked about the tests and he didn't want to push her.
"No problem I got you covered."
Her mood had changed quickly which wasn't out of the ordinary over the past few months considering her pregnancy but Fin sensed something else was wrong.
"Wanna talk about it?" he offered.
"Talk about what?"
He gave her a knowing look. "Ok ok. I'm just…nervous that's all."
"That's understandable but don't be too nervous. I don't want you stressing my niece out," he said earning a laugh from her that he was still so sure about the gender.
"Easier said than done but I'll try." She finished packing and got ready to walk out.
"Thanks again Fin…for everything. Without you picking up the slack around here…just thank you."
"Anytime Liv. Let me know how it goes."
The next morning Olivia and Elliot were in the car on the way to the doctor's office. They were both quiet lost in their own thoughts. Every once in awhile he would reach over and squeeze her hand for reassurance and she would give him a small smile and continue to look out the window.
"Everything's going to be ok Liv," he sighed.
They walked hand in hand to the doctor's office and tension was radiating off of her as she checked in and was given some papers to fill out.
"Ok, what do we have here?" he asked putting his hand across the back of her seat and reaching for the clipboard of papers.
"Oh don't worry, there's some here for you to complete too," she said handing him a couple of forms.
"Oh great, let me get started."
He read over the forms while she completed the basic paperwork with her personal and insurance information. She was so busy completing her stack of forms that she didn't notice that Elliot stilled next to her when he was halfway through the first page of his forms. She kept going until she got to the page with "Family History" listed at the top. She paused momentarily and noticed he was on that section on his forms as well.
They both expelled a puff of air and eyed each other tellingly. Olivia could only complete her mother's section and wasn't exactly sure if that information was correct. The only thing that came to mind when she thought of her mother and any kind of condition was alcoholism and abuse.
"You ok?" she asked him.
"Sure," he said clearing his throat. "I'm fine."
She glanced at him out of the corner of her eye as he slowed down completing the forms .
"El?" she asked putting her hand on his hand that was holding the pen to get his attention.
"I'm good…just trying to remember the kids medical conditions. I have everything for my parents that I can remember but just trying to get it right on the kids."
Olivia felt like she should say something to him to comfort him. These few little forms were bringing up issues within them that they managed to keep buried as much as they could but it didn't occur to her that getting extra tests for their child would open so many wounds.
"You done already?"
"Yeah I don't know my father's history and my mom's was pretty simple so…"
Elliot's expression changed at the realization that this was probably hard for her as well. He didn't know what to say to make it better so he rubbed her back while waiting for her name to be called.
"Olivia Benson," the nurse announced and they both jumped at hearing her name.
"Right here," she answered and they walked hand in hand to the back.
"Hi my name is Heather and I'm Dr. Thompson's nurse. Let's stop at the scale first before we go to the back."
Olivia paled for a second at the realization she would have to weigh herself in front of Elliot.
"Where's your bathroom?" he asked.
"Oh it's right around the corner that way," the nurse answered.
"Ok I'll go to the bathroom and meet you all back in the exam room." He gave her a knowing smile and went around the corner. These were the moments that she realized just how much she loved how well Elliot knew her. It pissed her off when they were partners and he wouldn't drop it when he asked her what was wrong because he could read her body language and tell something was off. Or when he could tell she was hiding something from him that she didn't want to discuss, but his knowledge of her served them well in their romantic relationship.
After charting her weight they walked into the exam room, she took her vitals and went over some basic information while Elliot rejoined them.
"Olivia we are going to draw some blood today to check for chromosomal defects like down syndrome and then give you another ultrasound to check on the baby and also your placenta previa," she stated. The nurse was very soft-spoken, older and she immediately put her at ease. She took Olivia's blood and after giving her directions to undress for the ultrasound she left while they waited for the doctor to come in.
Olivia got up to take off her pants and Elliot immediately jumped up to stand right in front of her.
"You know if you need some help taking that off, I could assist you," he said in a low voice.
"Really El? In a doctor's office?"
"It doesn't matter where I am, I always look forward to helping you remove your bottoms," he said kissing her ear lobe.
"Mmmm," she moaned. "Don't start something you can't finish."
He pulled back and lifted his eyebrow at her challenging her. "Don't test me Liv. I think we both know that I could make you come for me before the doctor even got back here."
She couldn't help but laugh at his arrogance. He had every right to be arrogant because he was the best sex she ever had and his physical prowess was like nothing she had ever experienced before.
"Oh no you don't," she said pulling herself back from him and putting her hand up in warning. "Don't you dare Stabler."
She was trying to sound serious but her eyes and the smirk forming was giving her away.
"Liv," he moaned in her ear while sliding off her pants and helping her to step out of them.
"Don't," she whispered. "You are going to get me turned on, we can't do this here."
When he reached for the waistband of her panties, Olivia started to feel herself lose control.
"Do what?" he asked feigning innocence. His lips pressed hard against hers into a demanding kiss. "I'm just helping you get undressed."
They were kissing and his hands were pushing her underwear down when they heard three quick knocks on the door and the doctor walked in.
"Oh, I'm so sorry," she said blushing. "Ill give you guys another minute."
Olivia buried her head in embarrassment in Elliot's shoulder. "Oh my god, I can't believe she caught us!"
She pinched his shoulder while he laughed and put her clothes off to the side. She gathered herself together and got on top of the exam table. Elliot sat in the guest chair. A minute later the doctor knocked again.
"Is the coast clear?" she asked in a playful tone.
"Yes it is."
She still walked in with her hands over her eyes and Elliot started to laugh again. He liked her instantly.
"I'm so sorry about that," Olivia apologized looking mortified.
"It's completely fine Ms. Benson. There's nothing wrong with a little fun between couples. It's healthy for you and the baby. Your baby needs positive vibes, no stress and worrying."
"See there Liv. I told you it would be just fine."
"That's because the doctor doesn't know what you had planned before she walked in."
He winked at her and the doctor went over their paperwork while enjoying their playful banter.
"Since she's so rude and haven't introduced me, allow me. I'm Elliot Stabler the baby daddy," he said shaking her hand.
"I can't believe you just said that." Olivia rolled her eyes in mock disgust. "Dr. Thompson this is Elliot my fiancé and the father of our child," she said emphasizing the word fiancé.
"It's nice to meet you Elliot. I assume we will be seeing more of each other at these appointments," the doctor said clearly taking an instant liking to him.
"You will see me at every appointment for sure."
"Good. Let's get to it then. I was looking over your paperwork and had some additional questions. Olivia, you don't have any information on your father's medical history? Is there someone you could call and ask?"
Olivia and Elliot locked eyes and both knew who she had to reach out to. Simon, the brother that she hadn't really talked to for almost the same amount of time as Elliot before he came back into her life. The last time she talked to Simon he had just lost custody of his kids and his fiancé left him after he had to serve time for trying to kidnap them. He sent an email here and there and they exchanged texts for holidays once he was released from jail but nothing else. Elliot had never liked Simon but she knew he wouldn't get in the way of her contacting him if it was for the good of their child.
"She has a brother that she can reach out to," he said matter of factly as a way of letting her know that he understood what she had to do.
"Ok good to hear. Alright Elliot I see that you have a history of mental illness in your family with your mother and your daughter. What medications are they currently taking?" she asked looking at Elliot expectantly.
He froze and didn't answer. Olivia waited a moment to give him time to speak up but when he didn't she answered on his behalf.
"His mom does not take any meds as far as he knows and his daughter passed away."
Dr. Thompson visibly blanched at her words.
"I'm so sorry," she said sincerely.
"It's ok. You didn't know," he finally said. Olivia wanted to hop off the table and throw her arms around him but he made eye contact with her to tell her he was fine.
"I wish I could say that these tests that we are going to run over the next months would tell us if your child has bipolar disorder or any other mental illness but unfortunately that's not something we can screen for."
"I understand," he choked out.
She paused briefly as she observed Elliot and looked as if she wanted to say more but continued on as normal.
"Ok. Well everything else in your paperwork looks good so how about we take a look at the little one?" she said in a chipper tone trying to lighten the mood.
Elliot's eyes lit up and he stood up next to Olivia while the doctor set up the ultrasound machine.
"You ok?" she whispered to him.
"I'm fine Liv."
She placed her hand in his and rubbed her thumb back and forth along his palm to soothe him while the doctor placed the gel on her growing belly.
Within seconds, the image of their baby was on the screen and all signs of tension and sadness swiftly disappeared.
"There's your baby," the doctor said. "Everything looks good. Heartbeat sounds good. The baby looks as it should for 11 weeks so that's a good sign too."
Olivia was trying to listen to everything the doctor said but she was mesmerized at the image on the screen. What first looked like a peanut on her initial ultrasound now looked like an actual baby. It was super tiny but looked like a baby nonetheless. She glanced up at Elliot and saw that there were tears coming from his eyes.
"And everything's ok?" he asked the doctor through tears.
"Everything looks just fine Elliot. The placenta is still in the same place but I'm not worried about that right now. There's still plenty of time for it to correct itself. We will check it again at your next appointment in a couple of weeks."
"When do we get the results of the blood test?" Olivia asked.
"In a couple of days. I'll give you a call. If I can't get in touch with you, I'll give dad a call if that's ok," she said giving Elliot a reassuring wink.
"That's perfectly fine."
After reminding Olivia to continue to take it easy at work and to call if she has any additional questions or issues, the doctor left to allow her to get dressed.
"Are you sure you're ok?" she asked him tentatively.
Elliot blew out a little breath and rubbed his hand over his face. "Yeah I'm fine. Those questions about Kathleen and my mom had me a little on edge but…I saw the baby and it was just like nothing else matters you know?"
"Yeah I know," she said returning his smile.
"Let's get out of here and finish what we started earlier."
"You always have a one track mind."
"Always when it comes to you," he said kissing her forehead.
They walked hand in hand down the hall back to the waiting room to leave when Olivia spotted the doctor writing in her charts.
"Hey umm I think I forgot my sunglasses," she said taking her hand out of his.
"Ok I'll go back with you."
"Oh no let me go grab them why don't you go and get the car?"
"Ok I'll meet you out front," he agreed.
She waited timidly for the doctor to wrap up talking to her nurse before trying to get her attention.
"Olivia did you forget something?" Dr. Thompson asked.
"Yeah can I just talk to you for a second."
"Sure," she pointed to one of the empty rooms. "Let's go in here."
"I'm sorry I know you are busy, I won't hold you up I just…I just wanted to say. Actually I don't know what I wanted to say," Olivia said fidgeting and stumbling over her words. "I just wanted you to know this baby means everything to Elliot and to all of us our whole family. I know this is a long process all of these tests and I don't…know a lot about all of it. If you could just be straight with us all the time and just let us know what's best. I can't have anything happen to this baby."
It wasn't until the doctor handed her a tissue that she realized she was crying. Olivia took and it continued to talk, "You can probably tell from what just happened in there how quickly everything changed when he saw the baby on the ultrasound. Whatever it takes I'm willing to do it, whatever you feel like maybe you shouldn't say, say it. Just always be straight with us please. He already lost one child. He can't lose another one. I can't lose this baby and I will do whatever is humanly possible to make sure he or she is healthy."
"Olivia," the doctor said touching her hand. "I get it. I will be straight with you. You can count on that. I'm going to do everything in my power to make sure you both stay informed on all the tests and guide you through as much as I can in making the best decisions for your baby. I promise you."
"Thank you. I appreciate that more than you know."
"I understand exactly what you are feeling. Ill do everything I can Olivia. Trust me," she added. They made eye contact briefly and she saw something in them that she didn't see before. There was a reason that Elliot and the doctor seemed to hit it off so well. They shared the same experience…they both lost a child.
On the ride home, Elliot was uncharacteristically quiet. She glanced away from the road to watch his face as he drove and saw that he was going through a myriad of emotions. She didn't want to rush him to speak so she said back patiently and waited.
"What…what if our child ends up being bipolar or have some other mental illness?"
She thought for a few moments before answering and grabbed his hand that was resting on the console.
"Like a wise man once told me a few weeks, whatever it is we will handle it….. as a family."