Keep Me Sane (Shizaya Fanfic)


(Shizuo's POV)

"W-What do you mean by 'breakdown?!' Wasn't this just simple anemia?" I shouted, infuriated on how I didn't notice earlier.

"Don't worry," Mr. K assured me, "I told you we have an important procedure that we follow each time this happens."

"Each time," I snapped back to my senses, "How much times has this happened?"

"To be exact, 257 times, now it's 258," he sighed heavily with grief, "And over 200 people have been injured by him and in the worse cases, they even get killed.

Izaya has done that?! That's ridiculous, sure he may not be right in the head, but if he's able to smile after every single person he's killed then is his personality a facade? A mask to cover up the truth? I clenched my fist and look down at Izaya who's head has been lying on my lap, right now he looks vulnerable, not able to do a single thing.

Mr. K tells me his plan, "We have to go in lockdown now! And to give you the heads up, metal walls will slide down from the outside to protect everyone inside. Only Orihara-san's room is left wide open, his room won't be shielded with metal so that means his window is fully in view. So if we were to chase him down to his room, he'll try to escape from the window and that's where we'll trap him. Then another set of guards will be outside to get him."

"But we don't need to lockdown," I hissed.

"Oh and another thing, this place will get dark soon, emergency lights will turn on, but they're dim. If we lockdown during the day, Orihara-san's room is the only place that has light," he looks at his watch, ignoring my previous comment.

"Why are you telling me this?"

"I'll need to alert everyone or else we'll be too late," Mr. K walked closer to the wall where a red button has been placed. It was guarded with a clear plastic cover and Mr. K took out a set of keys to open it.

"What're you gonna do?"

"We might... No- if he gets uncontrollable..." Mr. K was hesitant, "We'll have to put him down."

"H-How about another way?!" I barked at him, "If you ever try to hurt Izaya by force then I won't tolerate it."

"There's no other way, I'm sorry," Mr. K looks at me apologetically, "We'll find you a new partner to take care of."

(Izaya's POV)

Everything is changing, my eyes are getting covered up in darkness. I can't hear what the outside world is saying, only muffled voiced echoed throughout my ears. The only sound I can hear were the echoes inside my world, they were the sounds of children's laughter and screams. I knew very well that the other me was coming, it was coming to get me. Yet I tried so hard to lock away the other me inside my heart.

I glance helplessly at Shizu-chan and Mr. K. Shizu-chan was shouting something at Mr. K, but I can't quite make out what he was saying. Mr. K presses a button on the wall to make an announcement. The lights shutdown and the emergency lights go on, the red lights flash on and off.

It blinded me, but the sight of red made me think of blood. Blood? That's funny, why would I think of blood right now? Other workers dragged their patients into each room until Shizu-chan, Mr. K, and I were only left.

Why was everybody panicking? I wasn't going to hurt them or anything, that would be stupid! Just then, something switched off in my mind. My blood was pumping, I was full of energy, my heart was pounding with excitement. I wanted... I wanted to kill...

I don't know what's going on, something fled into my soul. I pushed Shizu-chan out of the way and I rushed to get up. Other workers, special workers I've seen each time I 'broke down,' appeared from the end of the hall. They were sprinting to me at full speed. Shizu-chan gets up and tries to walk over to me. I take a knife from under my shoe and twirled it around, everyone, including Shizu-chan, stopped dead in their tracks.

"One more move and we'll play the game of predator and prey," I grinned at them.

Everybody was struck with horror in their eyes, except for Shizu-chan. Did my words not affect him like the others? There really is something unique with him ever since I've locked eyes on him.

I sensed someone trying to catch me off guard from behind. Heh, this is gonna be fun. I swiftly turn around and see one of my previous workers trying to punch me. I dodge his weak-ass punch and stab him on the left shoulder, I take the knife out and blood drips all over the floor. My precious knife was now stained with the blood of a worthless worker, disgusting.

Shizu-chan takes a step, but freezes, regretting he ever made a move. I flinch at his sudden movement, so I ignored it and pointed my blade at another random worker.

"So does anyone want to see where my knife will end up next?" I taunted them with a smirk.

Even if someone did try to say something, their voices will go in one ear and out from the other. There was no use for them to try to communicate with me. It's hopeless. The other me was fully possessing my body.

I can't be stopped now.

(Shizuo's POV)

What's happening to Izaya? His personality changed from being an over the top bubbly person to a psycho killing maniac. Dammit! I can't do anything in this situation! The emergency lights suddenly powered down by itself and just before it was completely pitch dark, I grabbed hold of Izaya's hand.

Still clinging to Izaya's hand, I hurriedly walk to Izaya's room with the wall acting as my guide. I felt a doorknob and glided my fingers higher. I traced the numbers nailed onto the door and I felt the number 13 on the door, it's Izaya's room. Thankfully, it was unlocked, I opened the door and a ray of brightness blinds me for a second. I pushed Izaya in the room and slammed the door shut, making sure it was locked. I turn around only to see Izaya throwing a pair of scissors at me, I dodged it just in time and went into a defensive stance.

"Don't try anything weird," I slowly stepped forward to him.

"Shizu-chan..." He looked sadly at me, "I can't think at all, the thought of killing has been on my mind ever since."

"We can try to figure this out."

"I'm afraid I can't understand what you're saying. Any who, I have to kill you now, it's been nice knowing you," he gives me a menacing smile.

He dashes towards me and strikes his knife to my chest. I barely dodged it just in time and grab hold of his right wrist. I fling the sharp object out of his grip, leaving a cut on the side of my hand. I hold his other wrist and pinned him down on the floor.

This was the first time that I noticed how slim his wrists were. I could barely grip onto his wrists without letting him slip away. I stared at Izaya's eyes, they weren't soulless or full of bloodlust, they were just eyes. But those same blood-coloured eyes gave me a cold shiver down my spine.

(Izaya's POV)

Even if you force me to back down, I still can't hear a single word you say Shizu-chan. Do you know how frustrated I am to not understand what you're saying or doing? I don't care anymore. Shizu-chan's the only person I trusted in less than 5 seconds since we first met. So if he can't invade into my world and knock me back to my right mind then what's there to hope for? I might as well let the whole darkness eat up my whole body.

Tears start to blur my eyes, aggravated at my poor state, I gritted my teeth. I want to say something to Shizu-chan, but my voice always falls flat.

I've had it! Why live if I'm not in my sane mind.

"Shizu-chan..." I mouthed.

"What is it?" His voice was faint, but I could hear it.

I widen my eyes, my sense of hearing was steadily coming back to me.

"Just... Just kill me," I croaked out, giving him a Cheshire Cat smile.

(Shizuo's POV)

I was enraged by his sudden request. How selfish could he be, first he breaks down and injures a person, now he wants to die?!

I realized I wasn't mad at how selfish he was, but on how he didn't treasure his life enough to make him want to die. I noticed how attached I became with this brat ever since we met. It hasn't even been a full week, but I felt like we've known each other since forever. We just clicked, we've bonded without barely getting to know each other, but now he wants to disappear.

I tighten my grip on his wrists, "Why would I do that?!" I furiously yelled.

Izaya's made a pained face, "Well then... Do you have another way?"

"N... No," I said in disappointment.

"W-Well, if you can keep my mind from going further into the cluster of darkness, then maybe I'd change my mind about dying. Just... Just help me, don't let my mind drift further into insanity."

"H-How do I do that?"

A single tear fell from the corner of Izaya's eye, he gives me an unconvinced smile, "Surprise me."

I was uncertain on what I was gonna do next, but it didn't hurt to at least try.

"Ok then..." I leaned in closer to his face.

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