Chapter 14 Deux
I couldn't get over how much had changed in so little time.
I had broken up with the girl that gave my immortality life, realized it was the biggest mistake I had made in my 109 years of existence and decided to come home. But what awaited me at home I could have never expected.
I expected Bella to tell me to go away and never come back. I expected the entire school to exile me and never speak to me ever again. And I DEFINITELY never expected to find out I was going to be a father.
Feeling that little movement on Valentine's Day, the first time Bella or I had felt the baby move, terrified me and excited me at the same moment.
And then, when Bella told me that I was the father...if my heart could have stopped again, it would have. It was thought to be impossible for me to reproduce. I mean the rest of me was never aging or changing. The last thing I expected was that I was still producing sperm.
But although it was the last thing I ever expected I knew I now had a responsibility to Bella and to my baby. I didn't remember my father and the day that he completely disappeared from my memory I swore to myself that if I had ever had the opportunity to be a father, biologically or by adoption, that child would know their father. That didn't change now that Bella was pregnant.
I had a responsibility to her and to my child.
It had been an interesting and very bumpy ride, and I knew it wouldn't get any easier, but I also knew I wouldn't take it back for anything in the world.
Even Carlisle didn't know what to tell us.
In all of our years of existence there had never been a record of a child born to a vampire. At least, not one that the mother and child both survived.
However when I went with Bella to her checkup the doctor told us everything was right on schedule.
When I asked Carlisle he said there was a strong possibility that the baby had more of Bella's genetics than mine helping the baby and Bella to have a normal and healthy pregnancy.
It didn't matter to me, as long as Bella and the baby were healthy and not in mortal peril, I was ecstatic, yet completely terrified, to be a father.
But now that my entire family was here and they were all willing to help us it was a little easier.
Unfortunately I could see how much it was killing Bella not to have her best friend here helping out.
We had not heard or seen from Jacob since the day he came over and I tried to seek redemption with him. She would text or call him every night before bed.
She thinks I don't know because she always does it right after her shower before she comes back into the bedroom.
She forgets my hearing is A LOT better than hers'. I also hear the small sob she gives out when he doesn't pick up or respond back in a text.
I need to do something about it. Maybe after the baby's born.
Bella and I both are really looking forward to today though.
Today we're going to find out if Bella's right about us having a girl or if we're having a boy.
I slipped out of Bella's room just before sunrise so Charlie wouldn't catch me. Bella was so fast asleep she didn't even move when I removed her from my embrace.
A little while later when I knew he was sitting down for breakfast I knocked on the door acting like I was just now coming in for the day.
"Come in." I heard him say just before I opened the door.
"Hello Mr. Swan." I say as I walk into the kitchen.
"Hey Edward, would you like something to eat? Alice is making another buffet it seems." He said as he filled his plate with bacon, eggs, sausage, mini pancakes and toast.
"No thank you Mr. Swan, I already had breakfast at home. I'll just have a cup of coffee." I said as I headed over to the coffee pot.
I couldn't digest human food but coffee passed through my system like it was water.
After Charlie had breakfast he left for work.
"So when are you gonna tell Bella?" Alice asked.
"Soon, on March 8th to be exact." I tell her as I take a drink of coffee.
"She's gonna love it. It's gonna be the best gift she has ever gotten." Alice said as she continued to cook now fixing Bella's breakfast.
"How would you know that?" I asked.
"Seriously Edward? Did you forget?" She asked pointing to her head.
"Oh yeah, psychic. Sorry forgot." I say feeling a little ridiculous.
Suddenly I hear the squeaking of Bella's bed as she got up. I then heard the shower start to run.
Alice got a plate out of the cupboard as I got another cup of coffee.
As I sat back down I heard the shower shut off. About 10 minutes later Bella came down.
She walked over and hugged Alice good morning.
She then came over, sat on my lap and gave me one AMAZING kiss.
"So what did you dream about last night?" I asked her as I took another drink of coffee.
It killed me that I couldn't read her mind and she had told me that most of her dreams right now included me, her and the baby, so I was very interested in the dreams she was having.
"You and the baby. You were at the park with her pushing her on the swing." She replied.
It felt so good when she told me the dreams she had of me and the baby were happy and good ones.
"What if it's a boy though?" Alice asked from the stove-top.
It wasn't like she didn't know. She just liked teasing us like this.
"If it's a boy, it's a boy. Edward and I have both sworn to each other that we'd love this baby no matter what." Bella said as I started rubbing her belly.
I loved rubbing her belly. It made me feel that much closer to the baby.
At that point Alice puts Bella's breakfast on the table. As soon as the aroma hit my nose I felt the baby start doing gymnastics in Bella's belly.
"I think someone is hungry." I say jokingly as Bella got off my lap and slipped into the chair.
"Well, of course the baby is. She's probably excited for today too." Bella said.
I knew she was testing me to see if I remembered. But how could I forget? I had been looking forward to today all week.
I simply took a drink of coffee, stood up, and suddenly wrapped my arms around Bella kissing her cheek.
"Not as excited as daddy is. I can't wait to find out if you're carrying my little prince or princess." I say into her hair.
After Bella finished breakfast her and I are sitting watching the news when suddenly Alice drops a water bottle in Bella's hand.
"Alice, what is this for?" Bella asked as Alice sat in her dads' chair.
"You need to drink that." She simply says.
"Alice, I already drink enough water throughout the day without you reminding me thank you." Bella says as she puts the bottle on the table.
"I know that Bella. But I saw the note from your doctor saying you have to drink at least 4 glasses of 8 ounces of water before your appointment at 1. And it's already 10 now so start drinking girl." She says as she hands Bella the bottle again.
12:30 that day
Bella and I are in the car headed to the appointment. As I'm driving I can see Bella slightly fidgeting from side to side. Thanks Alice . As if the baby didn't put enough pressure on Bella's bladder throughout the day.
After we get checked in we sit down and wait. I start looking all over the place, shaking my leg and tapping my fingers on the arm of the chair.
I knew I would be nervous, just didn't expect to be showing it this bad.
"You ok?" I hear Bella ask me as she took my hand in hers.
I put my head down, feeling ashamed, sighed and looked at her.
There was so much understanding and wanting in her eyes I couldn't help but be honest.
"No, I'm really nervous to be honest." I told her.
"Why?" She asked.
"Because I'm finally going to see the baby for the first time. You've seen the baby before. I haven't." I said feeling the sadness and nervousness inside me drip out onto my face.
She picked up our hands and kissed mine, then she kissed my cheek.
"You'll be ok. I promise." She promised to me.
"Bella Swan?" we hear the nurse call out.
"That's us, let's go see the baby." Bella says as we stand up and walk through hand in hand.
As we walk into the room I see the doctor getting everything set up. It's not Dr. Bennett but Bella told me that Dr. Bennett told her before hand that she wouldn't be here. So I told Bella if it doesn't worry her then I'm ok with it.
After the doctor turns on all the machines and the TV he turns to us with a smile.
"Hello Bella, my name is Dr. Stewart. I'll be helping you guys out today. Go ahead and lay down and we'll get started." He tells her with a smile.
I let go of Bella's hand so she can lay on the bed. As soon as I can tell she's comfortable I immediately take hold of her hand again.
The doctor doesn't say much throughout the process. He just keeps running the wand over Bella's stomach. I never studied gynecology so I don't quite know what all he's looking for, but I know that he does.
Suddenly he stops the monitor. I immediately look at Bella then the doctor.
"Is everything ok?" Bella asks before I can.
"Oh everything's fine. I just thought you'd like to see your baby's face. If you look up at the TV you can see the face. You can even make out the nose, eyes, and mouth." He says with a smile.
This is by far the best thing I have seen in my 109 years of existence. Our precious baby's little face. I can quite obviously make out her little nose, eye and mouth that we can see in the profile.
I then looked down at Bella and saw that she was crying. But I knew they were happy tears.
If I could have, I would have been crying those same tears.
I delicately took my pointer finger and wiped away the tear I saw escape her eye.
Bella looks at me and gives me a knowing look. Like she knows if I could cry with her I would.
Suddenly the doctor's voice snaps me out of my little daydream.
"Did you want to know the sex of the baby?" he asks.
I responded so quickly I think the doctor got whiplash.
"Yes, please." I said working around the very large lump in my throat.
The doctor then found the little area between our baby's legs.
Bella was right all along. She IS our little princess.
"Also, would you like me to make a video for you two? A lot of families like to make a video of this ultrasound since you can see most of the baby's features." the doctor asked.
I didn't even know if Bella had packed a tape.
"Yes please. There should be a DVD in my bag over there." she says as she looks at me.
I guess she did bring a disc.
I go over and grab the VHS and hand it to the doctor so he can record some things on the disc.
He then ejects the video and hands Bella some photos. They were photos of the baby's leg and foot, arm and fist, her sex, and her precious face.
"OK well, we're done." the doctor says as he wipes off Bella's stomach.
As Bella sits up I suddenly see her eyes get very big.
I'm about to ask her what's wrong when she turns to the doctor.
"Where's the nearest bathroom?" she frantically asks.
I should have known. Thanks again Alice.
The doctor points to the little room behind the TV.
Bella jumps off the bed and runs into the bathroom.
I suddenly hear her sigh.
"Sweet relief." I hear her whisper.
I can't help but smile as I hear her.
I sit down and wait for her until she comes out of the bathroom.
"You ready to go?" I ask as I grab her bag for her.
She just nods as she walks over and takes the bag from me.
"And thank you Dr. Stewart." she says as I open the door for us to leave.
"You're welcome. This is one of the best parts of the job you know? Seeing the parents face when they see the baby that clear for the first time." he says with a smile.
We get out to the car and I hold her door for her as she gets in. After I shut her door I humanly run around the car and get in my seat.
I just sat there for a minute taking it all in. It suddenly REALLY hit me how real all of this was. I am going to be a father. Bella is carrying MY child.
I couldn't help the sudden excitement and happiness that overwhelmed me. I could feel myself smile.
I reached over and started rubbing Bella's stomach.
I saw Bella reach for my hand.
I watched her as she took my hand and kissed it.
She went to put my hand back when I decided to kiss her stomach.
I silently whispered to my little girl. "I can't wait to meet you my little princess."
Suddenly I hear a tiny voice say "I can't wait to meet you either."
I momentarily wonder what that was until I hear Bella sniffle.
I lift my head up and kiss the tears on her cheeks and then kiss her lips.
After the appointment we drove to my family's house.
Charlie's cruiser was parked outside the house. He told me he was coming over today because he wanted to know what we found out.
As we walked in the door Alice nearly pummeled Bella.
"What is it? What is it? What is it?" she constantly asked.
Luckily Jasper came to Bella's aid.
He stood up and gently took Alice by the arms pulling her back toward the couch.
"Let her breathe Alice." he said as he sat her down.
We both sat down on the love seat. I saw Alice take a deep breath (even though we all knew she didn't need to) to calm down.
"OK Bella. Is it a boy or girl?" Esme asked.
Bella looked at me silently asking me something. I didn't have to read her mind to know what that look said. I simply nodded though.
I turned to the family and smiled.
"It's a princess." I told them with a huge smile on my face.
Alice suddenly jumped up and started clapping and squealing.
"I knew it, I knew it, I knew it." she started singing in an annoying song tone.
I looked at her confused.
"Wait, you mean you knew the whole time?" I asked.
I only thought she had had the vision a couple of weeks ago.
She just smirked at me.
"Well, I am psychic." she whispered with pride in her voice.
I know she would have said it louder, but with Charlie there, we had a secret to keep.
"But I didn't want to tell you guys. I wanted you to find out for yourself. Besides if I had told you it would have ruined the whole surprise you two just had." she said quietly.
With an argument like that I couldn't disagree with her. She smiled at me as if SHE knew what I was thinking.
"Well, thank you for keeping it a secret Alice. I didn't want to know before today." Bella said with a smile on her face as she hugged her.
After that the pictures were passed around and 'Awwwed' over. We also watched the video Dr. Stewart had made with Carlisle interpreting for those who didn't know what they were looking at.
At least one of us had studied gynecology.
After the video I felt Bella lean against me. As I looked at her I saw her close her eyes.
I turned to my family a few minutes later.
"I should get Bella home before she falls asleep over here." I told them.
Esme looked at Bella with an understanding smile on her face.
I knew Esme had been where Bella was now. In fact I went to her quite often asking her if some of what Bella was going through was normal. She answered everything with patience and understanding. She was definitely a mother at heart.
Carlisle helped me with the bags and the car door as I put Bella in the car and strapped her in.
We were just about home when I heard Bella breathe deeply and saw her start to stretch.
"Welcome back." I said with a smile as we pulled into the driveway.
After Bella got the key in the door and I had shut it I heard Bella let out a huge yawn.
"I think I need a nap." she says as I take her coat and hang it up.
"OK then. You go take a nap. I'll wake you up in two hours to eat and so you'll sleep tonight." I tell her as I hug her.
She just nodded and headed upstairs.
After I heard her bed squeak letting me know that she had gotten in I went into the living room. I thought about turning on the TV but instead went over to the bookshelf.
I scanned the shelves looking for a good book to read. Suddenly my eyes caught on an old tattered photo book. I pulled it out to see what it was.
It was a baby photo book of Bella's. I was taken aback at the photo that was on the front. It was obviously a photo that was taken in her first few weeks of life. She was truly a beauty from the beginning.
I couldn't help but open the book. There were pictures from Charlie and Rene holding her the day she was born all the way up to her school photo taken last year.
As I closed the book I thought about how much I hoped and prayed that our baby girl would be as gorgeous as her mother.
I had just put the book back when I heard the front door open.
"Bella?" Charlie called as he hung up his coat.
I came out of the living room into the walkway.
"She's upstairs taking a nap." I explained to Charlie.
He just looked at me, nodded, and walked past me into the living room.
I had to break the tension with Charlie if he was going to be my father-in-law someday. And today seemed as good a day as any.
I walked into the living room and sad down on the couch.
"Mr. Swan," I said getting his attention, "I know you really hate me right now so why don't we just get everything out into the open and try to make this work. For Bella and the baby's sake." I said hoping he would agree.
He turned off the TV and sat up in his chair.
"Honestly Edward, you're lucky to be alive right now." he said giving me a very serious look.
I wasn't sure where this was going but if he pulled out his shotgun I knew I was going to have to do some fast talking.
"The day you walked back into this house and told me you wanted to fix everything with Bella I wanted to just go into my room, grab my shotgun and put a thousand holes into your body." he said bluntly.
I kept silent letting him finish before I said anything.
"But then that night I laid there thinking about what had transpired throughout the day. I realized…you got guts kid."
I looked up shocked.
"I don't know how many guys I've seen in town that get a girl pregnant and hop the next but out of here never to come home. Now I don't know what caused you to come back. – Did Bella tell you about the baby?" he suddenly asked.
"No sir, I didn't find out about the baby until I met Bella at school on Valentine's Day." I explained.
"Then, no offense, but…why DID you come back?" he asked.
"First of all, no offense taken. Second of all, I came back because I found life…incomplete without Bella." I told him. "Everyday was the same; there was no reason to get out of bed anymore. It felt like I was in a lifeless void and I never knew how passionately I love your daughter until we had to leave when Carlisle got the teaching job." I explained as best I could.
"I'll comment on that in a moment." he said. "First of all I want to get back to my original point. Like I said before: I've seen so many girls tell their boyfriends they're pregnant and the boyfriend jumps ship. I was honestly surprised when you told me you knew about the baby and you wanted to take full responsibility for her and Bella. And I admire the maturity and chivalry you have to do that."
He sat back a second and sighed. I did the same feeling a huge weight lifted off my shoulders.
Then Charlie sat back up straight.
"Now then, what's this about how you passionately love my daughter?" he asked.
I knew this could either go really good or really bad. I was hoping for the first.
I sat forward and looked Charlie square in the eye.
"Mr. Swan, I am going to be 100% honest with you about how I feel about your daughter." I said.
I waited for a response.
He held out his hand as if willing me to go on.
"Mr. Swan, I love your daughter. She, to me, is the reason to my life. She is my reason for getting up out of bed every morning. I honestly can't picture a future with her not in it. In fact that's why I begged my father to let me come visit her and Alice. I missed seeing Alice but I HAD to see Bella. And that day in the classroom when I saw Bella, I expected her to tell me to leave and never come back. And if she had I would have done exactly as she said. I would have never bothered her again. But she didn't. And now that I know she's carrying our child it just makes me love her even more." I said quickly.
I watched him for a minute as he processed all that I said.
He then sat back in his chair and sighed.
"Wow." was all that he said at first.
I waited till he continued.
"I didn't know you felt that strongly for her." he said looking at me.
"Yes sir, I do." was all I said.
"And what kind of future DO you see with Bella?" he asked.
"Honestly Mr. Swan, I fully intend to, with your blessing beforehand of course, marry your daughter and spend the rest of my life with her and our daughter. I'm not sure how she will feel about having more children but I figure we'll cross that bridge after we're married." I told him.
He just sat there and nodded thinking about all of this.
Finally he spoke.
"Well Edward, as long as you come to me beforehand and ask for my blessing I don't think there will be any way you won't get that future." he said.
I looked at him a little surprised. I honestly didn't expect him to be that understanding.
He saw the look on my face and smiled.
"Like I said, you've got guts Edward. It took a lot of guts for you to come home. Let alone face me on the same day. Then coming to me to my face today to lay it all out on the line? I know for a fact that no other guy in town would do that." he said with a smile.
I reached out my hand and shook Charlie's hand.
"Now enough of this touchy feely stuff, we're missing the game." he said as he reached for the remote.
'I really hope Bella makes the right choice and sticks with him. He really is a good kid.' I heard his thoughts read loud and clear.
I smiled to myself as sat back to watch the game with Charlie.
I started to feel like this would turn out alright after all.
About half an hour later I heard the front door again.
"Don't worry, it's just me." Alice said as she carried in some bags.
"Alice, what is all that?" Charlie asked as she put the bags on the kitchen counter.
"Groceries." she replied simply.
"Alice you don't have to buy us groceries." Charlie replied.
"Well, Mr. Swan, Bella told me that she's usually the one who shops for food. And I told her that while she was pregnant I would take care of stocking your cupboards." she replied with a smile.
"Oh, ok." Charlie said.
'Note to self, talk to Bella.' I heard his mind say clearly.
I couldn't help the smile that fell across my face.
Suddenly I realized it had been 2 hours since Bella went upstairs to take a nap.
"I'll be right back everybody. I need to go wake up Bella or she won't sleep tonight." I said as I headed for the stairway.
"Good, cause I'm starting dinner." Alice said as she pulled the bread, butter and cheese out of the refrigerator.
I knocked on Bella's door. But I got no response.
I opened the door to see her lying on top of the covers. She had grabbed the body pillow from the side of the bed and was hugging it.
Usually I was the body pillow so she didn't use the actual pillow that much.
I lightly shook her shoulder trying to get her to wake up.
When she didn't respond the first time I shook her again.
This time her eyes popped open and she stared rubbing them.
I leaned forward and kissed her forehead.
"I'm sorry to wake you love, but you need to eat something." I said.
When we got downstairs there were plates of hot tomato soup and grilled cheese sandwiches.
After we "ate" dinner Bella and I sat and watched the basketball game with Charlie.
Alice had volunteered to wash up after dinner so Bella and I could relax.
After the game was over I saw Bella look at the clock.
I instinctively looked as well.
It was almost 11:00.
Suddenly I could feel a burn at the back of my throat. I remembered that tonight was hunting night.
As my mouth started to water I knew I had to leave soon. And fast.
"It's getting late. I should probably be getting home." I said as Bella and I stood up.
I saw Charlie look up and nod.
Bella and I walked to my car hand in hand.
"Are you coming back tonight?" she asked.
I could hear the hope in her voice. And as much as I wanted to I knew that if I did it would be disastrous for her and our baby.
"No, I can't. We need to hunt."
I saw her face drop.
"But I promise I'll be here in the morning to wake you up." I said quickly.
I couldn't stand seeing her upset since the day I had broken her heart 5 months ago.
I saw her face light up a little bit more.
"OK, just don't rush. I don't want you to not eat enough and accidentally do something you'll regret." she said.
At times it seemed she could read MY mind.
"OK." was all I could say.
I then took her into a hug and kissed her head. As I did I could hear her silently inhaling deeply. I knew what she was doing. She was memorizing my scent until I returned to her. I never understood why she did but I let her anyway.
After our embrace I looked her in the eye.
"I'll be back before the dawn." I promised her before leaning in and kissing her passionately.
With that I got in the car, backed up and drove away.
When I got home I went upstairs while we waited for Alice to get home. She usually came home right after Bella went to bed.
As I sat at my desk listening to Debussy by Claire DeLune I smiled at the paper I had in my hand.
I was going to give this paper to Bella on the 8th of next month. I couldn't wait to see her face.
I heard Carlisle call everyone into the living room. Alice much have come in.
I put the paper back in the manila envelope and headed downstairs.
It was time to hunt.