Grief for The Blue Eyed Girl
yelled as he ran up to the boy crouched over Kanade's trembling body.
"What are you doing? Get her out of this rain!"
The hunter held his head downcast and clenched his hands into fists as he sat there silently. Yagari bent down and picked the unconscious girl up. He ran inside as Zero sat there on the cold, wet ground feeling as if he failed her, his parents, and Ichiru. He opened his fist to reveal the vial he had ripped off the chain that was wrapped around her neck. It was now empty.
"I can sense it now... she really is a pureblood…" He whispered under his breath.
Kanade felt her head begin
to pound as she found herself in an unfamiliar setting. It was dark and raining
and she was walking behind a woman with a hood over her head.
"Where are we going?" Kanade asked the woman.
"You said being around large crowds is painful for you so I'm taking you somewhere where you don't have to be bombarded by the emotions of all these people."
“Once you regain your strength we will set out to find more of our kind.”
“I see…" Kanade said as she observed her surroundings. From what she could tell she was in a very old place. The buildings were all maid of stone and the clothes the people they passed wore looked as though they were from ancient times.
“There is someone I would like you to meet. I think you two will get along kindly.” The woman said.
“His name is Kaname.”
“Kaname?!” Kanade exclaimed.
She turned towards her and Kanade met with the woman's beautiful pale face, which was the same face from the vision she had at the hunter association.
“You know him?”
"Sorry, I um..."
"You are an odd one Kanade." The woman said as she lightly stoked Kanade's cheek with the back of her hand, Kanade's eyes widened as she suddenly, out of nowhere, was filled with joy and it wasn't the woman's for it was her own. "But I'm glad I found you."
'Who is this woman?'
The woman faded away and Kanade felt as if her heart was being ripped out of her chest.
"Wait!" She called out in the darkness.
Everything was pitch black now and she began to burn. She panted furiously as the agony washed over every inch of her.
"Kanade." A deep voice ran through her ears as she fluttered her eyes open to see a blurry figure standing over her. "Kanade, wake up." Things quickly came into focus and she could see him perfectly now. It was Yagari, soaked to the bone.
"I thought you were gone..." Kanade mumbled.
"You're the one that's been gone. Missing for three days! Where the hell have you been? What happened to make you not heal? Did one of my hunters attack you?" He asked. She looked down at herself to see her clothes were soaked with blood. She was lying on the couch in the Chairman's office.
"Uhhh I don't... I don't remember." She sat up. Her head was throbbing. Everything that recently happened was a bit blurry and she felt a bit... different. She instinctively brought her hand up to her neck to see if the vial was still there, but for once it wasn't. All she felt was an empty chain. "Where is my vial?" She started to panic. "Where's Kaname's blood!"
She dreaded the idea of losing it, it was one of the only things she had that made her feel close to him and despite everything that recently happened she still didn't want lose it.
"Right here." Zero said. She looked over to see him leaning in the doorway. His head was downcast as he held up the empty vial.
"Did you throw away the blood?!" Kanade shouted. She stood up, furious.
"Kanade... it seems your aura has changed. Instead of being unidentifiable I can sense it... you’re a full pureblood now." Yagari stated, she could feel his sadness swirl around her.
"What... I... I didn't take the blood though."
"I had to give it to you. It was the only way to save you. I'm going on an urgent hunt Yagari, make sure she is well." Zero said before leaving without giving her a glance.
Kanade had no idea how to feel, but Yagari's disappointment was the only thing influencing her right now. She stared down at her feet. The Chairman walked in, relieved that she was okay.
"I'm glad your better, but I'm afraid that I am going to have to lock you up... you know information about Kaname who is now deemed dangerous."
"I suppose you're right." Yagari said.
Kanade did nothing as she held her head down and the Chairman cuffed her. Kanade could hear a few vampire hunters outside of the door, peeking their heads in.
"Finally they locked that vampire up, it was enough with Zero but a pureblood dhampire..." One of the hunters said.
"Apparently she's fully turned now."
"Yeah, I can sense it."
The Chairman sat down at his desk and Yagari stood beside. "Do you know anything about Kaname Kuran’s whereabouts?" The Chairman asked, keeping himself composed as he tried to keep a professional air to himself.
"No.” Kanade mumbled, her gaze not straying away from the ground.
"And where were you these past few days?" Yagari asked.
"I was with the Kuran's, I was upset and wanted the comfort of my sister."
"So you were with Kaname?" The Chairman said.
She nodded her head slightly.
"Has he told you of his plans?" The Chairman asked. She shook her head.
"He does not trust me as much as you think…" She whispered loud enough for them to hear.
Kanade was then brought to the jail room for vampires. She was temporarily put in a cell while they interrogated Yuki and Aido. After a few hours Kanade was free to go but she stayed in her cell as did Aido. She sat on her bed with her head down. They said nothing of her change to a full, permanent vampire, but she could feel their sadness... and uncertainty. Yuki opened the barred door to her cell and walked in. Kanade didn't bother to look up at her as she stared down at her feet.
"Aido has been doing the same thing as you... simply sitting there in silence." Yuki said as she sat on her knees in front of her sister. Kanade stayed quiet without giving her a glance. "I will find out why he did this. Why he locked you up and why he killed Lord Hanadagi and Mr. Aido. I'll stop him." She grabbed Kanade's hands. "For now... I'm going to do some things in his place."
"Oi! Get up we're swamped!" Yagari growled to the Chairman who had
his head down on the desk.
"Yuki and Kanade definitely hate me. YUKI USED TO TELL ME EVERYTHING BUT I PUNISHED AND THREATENED AND I'M A TERRIBLE DAD! AND KANADE WON'T EVEN LOOK AT ME!" The Chairman cried out.
"This is so depressing." Yagari scowled.
"You aren't at all sad that Kanade won't even give you a glance?!" The Chairman exclaimed.
"I... don't know how to feel about her change."
"She is still the same Kanade, Yagari." The Chairman said. "She was still born part human."
Yuki peeked in through the doors.
Days passed and Kanade sat in her cell with the picture of her parents in hand.
'They must all hate me now... for what I am.
I've lost all of my family. Mom, Dad, Noda, Kaname, Yagari, Chairman.... Zero. Either dead or simply despising me.
All I seem to have left is Yuki…’
She looked up, feeling a familiar presence close by. She met eyes with Zero, leaning
against the wall on the other side of the cell bars. She quickly averted her
gaze back to the floor. He opened the door and walked inside, standing a few
feet away from her.
"With you being half human it was hard to see you choose to be a bloodsucker whenever you liked… I didn't like that you were still holding onto him, not even trying to really let go and move on..."
"You should have just let me go." She whispered. He clenched his hands into fists and his anger hovered around her.
"You will never die under my watch. I'll make sure you live forever… because no matter where you are I will always be watching over you and I will always make sure you're safe."
She felt her heart flutter from his words, but she kept composed, keeping her gaze towards the concrete. "I relinquished your guardianship, that isn't your job anymore."
"It is my job. I don't care what the association says or what you say. I will always be your guardian and I will always care for you."
"Stop it... just stop." Her voice cracked a bit. She hadn't drunk any blood or taken any tablets in days and her throat did nothing but burn. "Don't do that, don't give me false hope…" She wrapped her arms around herself and kept her gaze towards the ground.
“If you’re thirsty you should drink… you could lose control.”
She glanced up at him and he was looking away. His anger was filling the room so she assumed he still hated her. She couldn't take it anymore and gave into her instinct. She suddenly stood up, grabbed onto his wrist and sunk her teeth into his flesh, devouring his essence. His warm, wonderful taste flowed down her throat.
She pulled away and wiped the blood from her face. He glanced over at her from the corner of his eye as she stared at his wound which didn't seem to heal all that fast. She leaned in and licked it before lightly pressing her lips against the two holes she left, causing it close up instantly. His eyes widened at her actions. She pulled back and stared back down at her feet.
"I was hunting this vampire earlier, he kidnapped two children and when he got away Yuki seemed to catch him. She turned him in to the association—“
"Stop." She interrupted him.
"Acting like we're okay... I'm... I'm a vampire, a full blood vampire. There is no going back now..."
"I know, I'm the one that turned you."
"So why aren't you disgusted by me? I'm the very thing you hate now, the real thing." She clenched her hands into fists.
"You aren't one of them. You were still born half human… You're still that girl I promised to protect."
Kanade burst into tears.
"Please... stop. I'm not her. I'm not. She’s gone now… so please... let her go.” He grabbed onto her and pulled her into a hug. She stiffened from the abrupt action, but soon relaxed. She returned his embrace, crying into her chest as she mourned her human side’s demise.
Kanade returned to the Academy with Zero, feeling out of place. She did not go to classes, but instead spent the next few days locked up in her room. She felt lost now, uncertain as to what to do next. Kaname was on a rampage to kill all the pureblood vampires, Yuki was rounding up people to form a new night class and Zero spent his days hunting low-level vampires.
Kanade heard a knock on the door. She glanced over to see Yuki standing on the other side of the room.
“Everything has been prepared.” Yuki said.
“And?” Kanade said as she stared down at the ground.
“Many would not agree unless they knew you were attending.”
“I trust that you will stay by my side?”
“Where else am I to go?” Kanade sighed.