Epilouge: After The Curse
Kanade and Kaname looked out on the scenery before them. Kanade
couldn't help but feel warmed by that light that radiated through the large
hole in the wall and she hoped that this strange boy felt the same. She glanced
over at him as he stared with amazement as if he was a child. She noticed by a
glimpse that the two strange girls were gone. Kaname outstretched his
hand and small butterfly landed on his fingertip.
"What a beautiful light." Kanade's eyes widened as he held the delicate butterfly. She was astonished by his graceful movement, his calm aura, and his soothing voice that seemed to wrap her up and give her warmth. She stared up at him and he glanced over at her. "Don't you agree?" She slightly nodded, still completely engulfed in his shining magnificence.
'Ah... who is he?
Who am I...?
No, wait... Kanade.
That's all I can remember... and him?
"Would you like to take a closer
look?" Kaname asked as the butterfly flew away and he lifted his hand,
holding it out for her. She stared up at him.
'How do I remember.... this strange man's name... but nothing else?
Ah... are we siblings? Our names... they sound awfully alike as if the same person gave them to us...
… But this feeling I have when I look at him...
really the feelings you would hold towards a brother?'
She carefully placed her hand in his. They both stood up and walked out into the glittering forest hand in hand. Kaname stared up at the sky as if he was at peace and for a moment she thought that he might have lightly squeezed her hand.
"Kaname..." Kanade started.
"Hm? Is that my name?" He said as he turned his gaze towards her. Kanade's eyes widened.
"You don't remember?"
"Honestly, I don't have a single memory of who I am or what happened to get us here."
"Oh..." She stared down at her feet.
'So we are alone... and confused. What will we do? Will we part ways?'
She lightly squeezed his hand and he looked over at her in confusion.
'… For some reason…
…I don't want to ever let go.'
"Since I can't seem to recall anything, would you mind filling me in?" Kaname asked.
"Huh?" She looked up at him and she felt her cheeks begin to burn as she gazed into his big brown eyes. "Umm sorry... I can't remember anything either... all I know is... our names."
"Hmm I see. Well since you seem to know my name I suppose we aren't strangers." She slightly nodded and she began to trudge behind him as he started to walk deep into the forest, still clutching onto her hand.
"There's nothing that way anymore." A deep voice said. Kanade and Kaname turned to see a young man standing before them. "Its just forest for miles beyond these trees. The town is that way." He nodded his head to the opposite direction and they both stared at him in confusion.
"Who are you?" Kanade asked.
"My name is Touma. Lady Kiriyu asked me to make sure you started out safe."
"Who?" Kaname asked.
"Hmm so it seems you both lost your memories in the process, though it's not like it's a phenomenon I suppose." He kicked a nearby rock as he slipped his hands in his pockets. "Here you go." He pulled out a key and held it out for them. "It's for your apartment. Should do for now." Kaname walked forward and Kanade felt her heart drop as his fingers slipped through hers and the warmth was gone. Kaname took the key from the man. "Here is a map." Touma said as he handed him a folded up piece of paper. "All the essentials are waiting for you there. And since Lady Kanade couldn't finish school, Lady Kiriyu took the liberty of enrolling her for her last year."
"Kanade." Kaname whispered very quietly to himself as if he was amazed by the single word.
Touma peeked his head past Kaname to meet eyes with Kanade. "You start next week. Good luck." He then stood up straight and started to turn around.
"Why...?" Kaname asked. "Why are you... doing this? What happened to us?"
"What's the point of telling? It's not like you'll remember." He paused for a moment and then let out a sigh. "But I suppose this is my chance..." He then got down on one knee and bowed his head. "Please, forgive me for my betrayal to you. I was young and blinded by my jealousy." Kanade and Kaname stared down at him in confusion. He let out a breath of relief and then pushed himself back up. "Ah, I've waited a long time to say that. Although Lady Kiriyu had already forgiven me, it just wasn't the same. I finally feel... much more at peace now." He smiled to himself as he stared up at the sky.
"I still don't understand." Kaname said. Touma returned his gaze to the boy with a sincere smile.
"It's alright, as long as you have each other." He turned around and began to walk off deep into the forest. "Have a wonderful life." He said as he waved his hand without a glance back.
The two watched after him in confusion before examining the map and heading towards town. They thought about going after the boy, but they felt as though it was best to leave him be.
Kanade trudged down the cobblestone trying to keep up with Kaname as he made his way down the busy streets to the apartment; barely even glancing at the map they were given.
'I wonder... if it was like this before.
In the memories I've lost... was I always just desperately trying to catch up with him?
... Did our paths even cross once?
He seems so far away…
…yet so close.'
Kaname glanced back at her to see her pushing past the crowd with her head down. He turned around and grabbed hold of her arm.
"Don't get lost." He said as he pulled her to his side and placed her palm in his. Kanade stared up at him in surprise and for a moment she felt the large, unseen gap in between them seem to get just a bit smaller.
After a few minutes Kaname stopped and let go of her hand as he glanced between the map and the door.
"This is it." He said as he reached in his pocket for the key and unlocked the door. Kanade followed him inside as she tried to find something familiar.
It was a standard room with all the essentials and none of it brought back any feelings of nostalgia. Kaname walked up to the kitchen counter and grabbed a small envelope laid out.
"A bank account..." Kaname said before setting it down and turning towards Kanade. "Under the name Kuran."
"... Is that us?" Kanade asked. He shrugged his shoulders.
"Guess so..." They began exploring as they found two bedrooms, one bathroom, a small living room and the small kitchen. It was nothing extravagant, but there were many new things. There were new clothes in each closet, food already in the refrigerator, and new furniture. "Someone must really care for us to go to this extent."
After a week of awkward silence and occasional of what she felt was one-sided staring, Kanade found herself having to go to school. It was the first day and she was, of course, nervous. She stared at herself wearing her school uniform in the mirror. She had found the outfit already hanging in her closet when they first discovered the place.
Kaname was barely ever around. He seemed to be going out everyday, but he would always come back and make her meals, she really was starting to think that he was supposedly her big brother. And after a week of internal rationalization even the plain differences between their appearances still didn't seem to sway the idea. Their accents, their looks, their auras, every single thing about them were different... so how could they be related? And deep in Kanade's heart she felt relief from those little differences between them, because there was this feeling inside of her... a small nagging feeling... that she didn't quite understand. What is he to her? What is she to him? Those questions would not stop swarming in her mind.
Kanade grabbed onto her bag and walked out into the living room to meet with an unexpected surprise.
"What are you wearing?" Kanade asked with her eyes wide.
"Huh? The school uniform of course." Kaname said as he grabbed onto his backpack and a small bag. "Here, I made you lunch." He said as he held it out for her.
She grabbed hold of it, "what do you mean school uniform!? You look like you're in your twenties! How can you be a high school student!?"
"I just said I was in an accident last year, making me fall back a grade." He started to walk towards the door. "Come on, you took so long this morning, we are going to be late."
She stared at him for a moment in surprise, but then she forced her feet to move and the next thing she knew she was following him as they walked to school.
'What is he doing?
Why would he want to go to school?
Shouldn't he go to college at least? Or get a job?
He's obviously older...
Has this been what he was doing all this time? Trying to get enrolled in my school?
AHH WHY WON'T HE JUST TELL ME?
want to pry so I haven't really asked... but how can he be so content with
everything suddenly being this way?'
'In the end... he turned out to be really popular...' Kanade thought
as she slumped over. She walked down the hall, clutching onto her books.
"Kya! Kaname you're so cool!" One of the dozens of girls that were surrounding him in the hallway exclaimed.
'We may be in different classes... but I hear his name everywhere I go and everyone only ever talks to me about him.'
"Kanade! Is Kaname Kuran your brother? You two look nothing alike and your accents are different, but you have the same last name." One of the girls asked her as Kanade sat down and everyone crowded around her.
"Uhh... well you see it's..."
"Our situation is complicated." A deep voice said. Everyone looked over and all the girls lit up as they saw Kaname leaning in the doorway.
"Ahh its Kaname!"
"He came to our classroom!"
Kanade slumped over in her seat in embarrassment.
"Kanade." Kanade looked up in surprise as Kaname stood over her desk. "Lets have lunch together." She nodded in awe and he gave her a smile before heading back to class.
"Aww you're so lucky Kanade!" A girl said.
"Even though you might be related you get to spend so much time with Kaname."
Everyday he would come in and say that they were having lunch and everyday they would sit in the school garden, eating the lunches he made in silence as all the girls from the other classes watched from afar. And everyday...
"Kanade!" The smooth voice exclaimed. Kanade glanced back and stopped when she saw Kaname walk up to her. "Lets go home together." She nodded and they walked home in silence as always.
She knew it probably never really meant anything... they did live together after all, but still every single time he'd call her name she felt her heart begin to beat just a bit faster. However, despite her overwhelming feelings there was something inside of her that felt as though it was forbidden.
'Stop thinking about him.' She would think. 'Because, he definitely isn't thinking about you.'
However, after awhile it all stopped. Kaname would never even come within 5 feet of Kanade. Kanade ended up eating the lunches he made for her everyday alone, walk home alone, and sit at home alone as he locked himself in his room or came late. He was avoiding her and she didn't understand why.
'Perhaps he has come to hate me.'
But one day that also changed.
"Kanade? What’s wrong?" A classmate of hers asked as Kanade lay unconscious in the middle of the track field during P.E. "Kanade are you alright? Help! Kanade fainted!"
When Kanade woke up she was in the nurses
office on one of the beds with the curtain drawn and heavy weight on her
stomach. She glanced down and her eyes widened in surprise as she saw Kaname
passed out with his head lying on top of her. She felt her heart begin to quicken,
it grew louder with every second and her face turned crimson red as she covered
her mouth out of embarrassment and she stared up at the ceiling.
'Aw man... just him being here is affecting me.'
The feeling she felt hidden inside her heart grew and grew as she stared down at his sleeping face.
'The last time we were this close... was the very beginning...'
She couldn't help herself.... she took a chance. She slowly lifted her hand and very lightly placed it on the top of his head, entangling her fingers in his long soft hair. When he began to move slightly she quickly pulled back her hand and stared up at the ceiling, frozen. His eyes fluttered open, he lifted his head, and when he noticed she was awake he exclaimed,
'Ah... don't... you haven't done it in so long I won't be able to control myself.' Kanade thought as she looked the other way and covered her crimson red face. 'Don't call out my name like that. Don't make my heart sway this way.'
"They said you passed out from anemia during gym. I'm not surprised since you barely eat the food I leave out for you."
'Stop... stop acting like you care for me.
I know you hate me, you don't have to
"Sorry." Kanade said, her gaze locked onto the white curtain at her side. "Why are you here?"
"They think I'm your brother so they called me of course. I decided to wait until you woke up and then take you home, but I guess I fell asleep..."
"Do you think so?" Kanade said as she gripped into her pillow. "Do you think we are brother and sister?"
'Even if we are... it's better to have some connection to him.
Just something so he won't be able to leave me.
I don't care if I have to hold in these
feelings forever, I just want him around.'
There was a long pause and after awhile Kanade couldn't take it anymore and she turned to face him and her eyes widened when she saw him smiling down at her.
"You are talking to me." He then leaned down and pulled her into an embrace. Kanade stared ahead in surprise. "Thank goodness. I thought you hated me."
What is happening right now?
it... how did it turn to this?'
"You never once tried to hold a conversation with me so I came to assume that I annoyed you so I tried to give you space, but damn it was hard."
'Stop... don't say those things.
You'll make it worse.
You'll make these feelings unbearable.'
He lightly laughed as he buried his face in the crook of her neck. "You know I was in an absolute panic when they told me you fainted, I ran here full speed."
"But now that you have finally properly talked to me..."
'.... Did I really not talk to him?
Was I really shutting him out?
I was so consumed in all my questions and too afraid of his answers that I guess I never really paid attention to my surroundings.
Have I just been walking around in a daze
these past months?'
"Will you say it? Just once..." He whispered and Kanade felt as if she was melting with every syllable.
'You are so close... what do I do?'
"Say what?" She asked.
"Say that you don't hate me."
‘How am I suppose to not feel this way when you do these things?'
"... I don't..." She lifted her arms and grabbed hold of him. "I don't hate you." She said as she leaned her head against him and closed her eyes. After a moment she loosened her grip and he lowered her back down onto the bed.
"I'm so glad." He smiled down at her. She felt her cheeks begin to burn and she quickly turned her head the other way as she covered her face with her hands. Once again, Kanade felt the unseen gap between them had grown just a bit smaller. He lightly laughed at her reaction.
"You didn't answer my question." Kanade mumbled.
"Excuse me. You and your sister can go
home now if you like." The nurse said as she peeked her head through the
"Ah thank you." Kaname said as he stood up and held out his hand for Kanade. "Let’s go."
"Here." Kaname said as he laid out a bowl of soup for Kanade.
"You don't have to do this…"
"It's just some soup." Kaname said as he sat down across from her and handed her a spoon.
"No… it's not just that. You don't have to stick around me, pamper me, go to school with me. It's okay for you to have your own life. It's okay for you to leave." She said as she stared down at her soup. She didn't like this feeling, like she was holding him back.
"Why would I want that?" Kanade glanced up at him in surprise.
'His words… I don't understand them.'
Kanade began to become obsessed with whatever it was that had happened before they woke up in the ruins. She would spend every waking moment of her free time studying records of the building and looking up the lives of anyone who had their names. It got to a point where Kaname would have to carry her home passed out from the public library at 2 in the morning.
Kanade walked back to her class from the cafeteria in a daze. She was exhausted from researching all night. She glanced over at Kaname, he was surrounded by a crowd of girls as he leaned against the wall and smiled down at them, but it wasn't the same smile as when she first saw him.... It was much different.
"Kaname! Kaname, won't you go bowling with me after school today?" A girl asked as she clung onto Kaname's arm.
"No! I want Kaname to tutor me today!" Another girl said.
"Sorry girls. I'm going home with Kanade today." Kaname smiled. All the girls turned towards Kanade who held her head down as she walked past him.
"Kanade, do you want me to carry your books for you?" Kaname asked.
"No, it's fine thanks." She said before walking off a bit faster to her classroom.
Later that day during one
of the breaks a group of girls from a variety of classes surrounded her as she
sat quietly at her desk.
"Who do you think you are, rejecting Kaname like that!?" One of the girls said.
"You may be his sister, but that doesn't mean to can treat him like crap!"
"Kaname is so kind, but you're just a bitch!"
Kanade just head her head down as she listened to their hurtful words.
"Get away from her!" A deep voice exclaimed. The girls turned around and gasped to see Kaname walking up to them in a fury. Kanade lifted her head in surprise.
"Kaname! It isn't how it looks!" One of the girls said.
"She's just so rude to you, we thought we should say something."
"That isn't any of your business how she treats me." He growled. "Now go."
They did as he said and scattered.
"Are you alright?" Kaname asked.
"… What's wrong with you?" She mumbled.
"Huh? What do you mean?"
"I don't always need
you to save me!" She blurted out. "I don't need you smothering me
with your kindness! Stop showing up everywhere I go! Stop suffocating me!"
She instantly regretted her words. Her eyes widened and she covered her mouth
with both of her hands. She looked up at Kaname to see him looked down at her
in surprise. Everyone around them watched in disbelief.
'No... that is not what I meant to say...'
He smiled, "If that's what you want." He said before turning around and leaving.
She watched him walk away from her and she felt her heart drop deeper and deeper with every echo of his steps and as he turned the corner her tears began to form.
Don't do that….
Don't smile with such sad eyes…'
As Kanade walked back home,
all alone, she felt an emptiness overcome her. It wasn't the same without him
smiling next to her, asking about her day at school and talking about what he
should cook for dinner.
'I was so overwhelmed by my emotions...
Just being around him makes everything... harder...
But I still don't like this feeling when he isn't around either.
I don't understand...
I don't understand what
When she got to the apartment she was surprised to see that it was locked.
'He hasn't come home yet?... I suppose he's trying to avoid me...'
She decided she would sit and wait for him, but hours went by and the sun went down; she was beginning to get worried that he may never come back. Just the thought of it sent her into a state of utter despair.
She pushed herself up and
walked over to the door to his room. She reached out for the handle, her hand
trembling as she feared for the worst. She forced down on the handle and pushed
open the door to see that everything was still there just as she had hoped. There
was still a chance that he would come back... but still she didn't want to wait
anymore. She grabbed her coat and ran out the door.
She ran through town in search for him and as she was running she realized,
'Where would he be?
I don't know a thing about him.
I don't know where he would go when he is sad...
I don't know what he does in his free time...
I don't know a thing.'
She ran to the school, but he wasn't there. She ran to the bowling alley, the public library, she ran everywhere... until she finally stopped, sat down and tried to catch her breath as she had given up. The sun began to rise and she felt her chest begin to tighten as the cool breeze swept across her brow.
How could I say those things?
I've lost him...
I've lost the only thing I had.
What will I do without him
now?' She thought as she stared up at the night sky.
Suddenly she remembered the one place she hadn’t checked. She jumped up and ran as fast as she could, she wouldn't stop no matter what. She didn't care if she would keel over or cough up blood, it didn't matter how much she stressed out her body, she just wanted to see Kaname.
When she arrived at the ruins where her and Kaname woke up together with no
remembrance of their past, she stopped and fell to her hands and knees in the
grass, coughing nonstop as she tried to catch her breathe. She looked over and
there he was, staring up at the sky. She forced herself up and stumbled through
the large crumbling hole in the wall.
"Kaname." She said, her voice cracked. He looked over and his eyes widened in surprise as he saw her stumbling over to him.
"I'm sorry." She said as she fell to her hands and knees on the concrete a few feet away from him with her head down. "I'm sorry about what I said."
"I was frightened."
He stared down at her in confusion.
"Everything." She lifted her head and their eyes met. "I don't understand anything that is happening. The world just doesn't seem to make any sense... and when you're around I become more and more curious until I just want to puke... but when you're not around..." She tightened her hands into fists as she tried to muster up the courage to say the truth." I feel so lonely that I just want to fall asleep and never wake up again! I don't understand... and it's killing me."
There was a long moment of silence as Kaname consumed her words. She began to shake in fear of his next words.
"... I was scared too." He finally said. Kanade lifted her head up in surprise. He never seemed scared, she never imagined that he could feel that way. He was so perfect, so amazing, how could he feel frightened of anything? "When I first woke up right here. I thought that I was alone. I was scared, but then... you sat up and looked up at me with those big blue eyes and I felt suddenly relieved. I don't understand it myself... but no matter where I am or what's going on around me, whenever I see you I can't help but smile." He said as a smile began to form as he stared down at her. "I enrolled in your school because I wanted to feel that way as much as possible, I didn't want to lose that feeling." He lightly chuckled as he looked down in embarrassment. "For the first two weeks before it started I even studied at the public library everyday so I wouldn't be behind you." He looked back up at her and his smile grew as she stared back at him with wide eyes. "It's okay not to know or understand things, sometimes... you just need to go with it."
Kanade stared up at him as she consumed his words.
"So... that was the only moment you were scared? Before you knew I was with you?" She asked.
He laughed and said, "I've been scared countless times since then. I was scared that you hated me and that I annoyed you, I was scared that you didn't find that same comfort in me as I do in you, I was scared that you meant what you said earlier today."
"I didn't... I... I..."
"It's alright." Kaname said as he stood up and walked over towards her. "You don't have to strain yourself anymore." He held out his hand for her and she stared up at it in awe. "I know how hard that was for you to say, so we will leave it at that."
She stared up at him for a moment before slowly taking hold of his hand. He helped her stand up and pulled her into his arms.
"Let's go home." Kaname said as he stroked her golden hair and kissed the top of her head. She nodded and leaned on him as they began to walk.
"... Kaname." Kanade said.
"We're... family right?"
"…I will always be here for you. Isn’t that was family means?”
The bell for classes to
start rang and the teacher walked in.
"Alright class, today we will be watching Romeo and Juliet." He announced as he switched the lights off and turned on the TV.
Kanade didn't read the entire play. She found it hard to understand and she gave up halfway through.
Kanade watched and tried to follow along the best she could and when it was over she was still confused. She couldn't follow at all.
There was a break and Kanade was still hung up on the movie. She wanted to understand, she wanted to make sense of it all.
"Hey Kanade." A classmate of hers said as she walked over to Kanade's desk.
"How'd you like the movie?"
"Uh... well it was a bit confusing."
"I know how you feel." She laughed as she sat down in the empty desk next to her. "But it's romantic anyways."
"It is?" Kanade asked, surprised that killing yourself was a romantic thing.
"Well yeah. They were so in love they couldn't imagine life without each other."
"Love?" Kanade had never heard the word before. She didn't understand it. Although to seemed foreign to her, it still brought up these nostalgic feelings.
"Yeah, love at first sight. So cute!" The bell rang and everyone went back to their desks. Kanade was unable to concentrate on her studies, as her thoughts kept going back to that word; love."
As Kanade and Kaname ate lunch together she was unable to escape the thoughts around that one word.
"Do you know what love is?"
"Love? Well... When I was studying Romeo and Juliet a lot of the reviews mentioned it, so I looked it up in the dictionary and it's apparently "an intense feeling of deep affection for someone."
'An intense feeling of deep affection?
What does that mean?
What kind of affection?
Is this what I feel... for
"I honestly don't understand the concept myself, but... I can't help but feel nostalgic about the idea." Kaname said.
"Maybe you were in love before you lost your memory." Kanade said.
As Kanade and Kaname walked back to their classrooms, the most popular girl in school approached them.
"Hey Kaname, we are still on for after school right?"
He nodded and she gave him a smile before walking off.
"What are you doing after school?" Kanade asked.
"We are doing a project together in science and decided to get a head start on things, so we are going to the library."
'I... I don't want Kaname to go.
I don't want him to hang out with other girls...
I want him... to stay by my
side and only mine...’
As Kaname and the girl
walked to the library together, Kanade watched from the front doors of the
school. She didn't want to feel the way she did for him. This forbidden,
one-sided love... it was making everything around her harder to bear.
'I love him... I love Kaname.'
For some reason this
realization made her feel overwhelmingly sad. It didn't make sense...
when Romeo and Juliet first found out they loved one another they seemed happy...
so what was wrong?
Kanade began to feel guilty for her feelings for Kaname... there was something wrong with loving him and it resulted in her avoiding him once again.
One day as Kanade was going
to the library; she spotted Kaname with the girl from the other day there. She
quickly hid behind a bookshelf.
'What am I doing? They are just doing a school project... why am I hiding?'
She peeked out from behind the shelf to see them laughing and smiling. Kanade couldn't help but feel saddened by this, she felt something for him and seeing him with someone else was hard to watch. The girl then leaned in and kissed his cheek and Kanade's eyes widened in surprise.
He just laughed.
He didn't push her away, he didn't protest, he just laughed.
Kanade felt heartbroken and she ran out of there.
She ran all the way to the ruins where she had awoken with Kaname. She stayed there until nightfall. She lied on the stone platform and stared up at the stars.
'I guess he has a right to be with other girls... it's not like we are together, we are brother and sister nothing more.'
"This message is from our mother and father. We want to give to you, whom we both love, the world we saw when we were human."
'What does that mean? When we were human? Does that imply that they were not human? Or that they did something that made them seem inhuman?'
"Please, forgive me for my betrayal to you"
'What betrayal was he
"What's the point of telling? It's not like you'll remember."
'Does that mean that this fate is indefinite? That we will never remember no matter how hard we try and we won't find any proof of our existence anywhere?
I’ve searched for so long but…
There’s absolutely nothing…
What do I do?
Who were we?
Did we know one another?
Were we good people?
Do we even exist?'
"What now?" She whispered before letting out a sigh. She felt her eyes begin to get heavy and ended up falling asleep.
"Kanade!" A high pitched voice called out for her, but there was no one around. "Kanade!" It cried out again.
"Hello?" Kanade said as she looked around unable to find the voice's owner.
"Kanade, what are doing all alone?"
"What do you mean?" Kanade asked.
"Kanade, you cannot let him be alone, you cannot leave him."
Suddenly a large apple tree appeared in front of Kanade it was a large magnificent tree and its leaves flew in the wind as if it was snow falling from the sky.
"You cannot be alone."
"Do you remember me?" A different,
deep voice said. She turned around and a beautiful boy with silver hair gazed
down at her. She felt sad when she looked up at him... like her heart was being
ripped into two.
"It's okay, you don't have to push yourself." He lightly touched her cheek with the tips of his fingers.
"I'm sorry..." She whimpered as she stared up at him, tears beginning to fall.
"I'm sorry that we never were able to grow up together and that I hurt you... over and over again."
"It's not your fault."
"I'm sorry." Her voice cracked as her tears blurred her vision. He pushed back her hair from her face and wiped her tears with his thumb as they fell.
"It's alright, I forgive you."
"We should have grown up together... grown old together... died together... we should have had children and gotten married. I should have been able to wake up every morning and see your face... But I can't... I can't even remember your name... I'm sorry. I'm sorry." He pulled her into her arms and held her tight as she laid her head against her chest. "I'm sorry."
"I forgive you." He whispered. "Even though we never got to do those things, we still had a good run. I loved you till the very end and I know you feel the same. Thanks to you I was able to be happy, now it's your turn."
She felt her tears begin to get heavier as she tried to control her breathing.
"I'm sorry." She choked out.
"I know, I forgive you."
"I know." He leaned lifted his head up and kissed her forehead. "It's time to let go."
"...Thank you." She whispered as she loosened her grip on him.
Kanade shot up from her spot, gasping as she woke up from her dream.
"It's alright, as long as you have each other."
"Kaname." She jumped up and began to run home.
However, when she got there all of Kaname's stuff was gone along with a note,
I've been offered
a year to study abroad. Goodbye.
"No." She whispered before she ran out as fast as she could to the train station.
'Please, please don't be gone yet.'
When she got there she searched everywhere for him, but he was nowhere to be found. After awhile Kanade gave up and sat down on one of the nearby benches in despair. Tears flowed down her cheeks as she thought,
'He's gone. He's gone and I'm all alone.'
"All aboard train 3B!" The announcer exclaimed.
Kanade glanced up and her eyes widened as she saw Kaname walked past her.
'I want to get to know Kaname better...
I want to know what he's thinking...
I want to understand him.'
"Kaname!" He stopped in place as he heard her familiar voice. "I don't care anymore!" She shouted. "I don't care about the past." Kanade stood there, waiting, as she caught her breath. He slowly turned towards her, surprised by her words.
"Kanade!? What do you mean? What past? We don't have one… neither of us."
"Of course we do." Kanade said. "We just don't remember… ever since we woke up in those ruins with those strange people all I have ever been thinking about is what happened. I was so caught up in the idea of what had happened that I didn't even pay attention to right now. I didn't even pay attention to the feelings I have for you right at this moment and ever since that day."
She remembered the story of Romeo and Juliet, she remembered the word that seemed just perfect, but would he really understand? Would he really get what she was saying if she said it?
"… You were my beginning. Ever since I woke up all there ever was that seemed to surround me was you… and although I was so caught up in the past that I couldn't see it… there was still something inside of me that reacted to it, every second of everyday this… feeling of love I have for you has grown."
'I said it… Did he notice?'
Kaname stared at her as snow began to fall down and the silence filled the air.
"I love you." Kanade said as she took a deep breath as she felt a warmth fill her when she finally admitted it. "I love you more than anything and anyone and I don't want to leave you alone, I don't want to lose you. I don't care if you are my brother, I don't care if you don't feel the same way, I don't care if you have feelings for someone else. I would do anything for you. I'd even die! I want to understand you, I want to get to know you, because I love you!"
'I understand now. All of
these feelings I feel, I would be nothing without them and these feelings that
you give me… they are the only thing that can keeps me moving.'
"We aren't brother and sister." Kaname bluntly said.
"... How could you know such a thing?"
"I sent in a DNA test the first week we were together." He gave her a crooked smile as her eyes widened in surprise.
"So... we aren't related?"
"So... it's okay for me to love you this way?" She mumbled as she held her head down.
"Yes." He said as he walked over to her and lifted up her chin. "And it's okay for me to love you as well."
He leaned down and pressed
his lips against hers. For a moment she was so surprised she kept her eyes
open, but after awhile she soon relaxed and closed them as she
deepened the kiss and wrapped her arms around his neck.
I'm kissing Kaname.
Kaname loves me.
I'm so happy, I feel like I might explode.'
Kaname pulled away and wrapped his arms around her. She buried her face in his chest as he stroked her hair.
"I love you." He whispered in her ear and she felt as if she was going to melt.
"Last call for train 3B." The announcer said.
"I'll come back for you." Kaname said.
"And I'll wait for you, because we're family."
He smiled, just like the first time she saw him, and she felt tears begin to form from the overwhelming feeling of happiness.
~6 years later~
"Mommy?" Kanade glanced down at her child as they stood out in the snow.
"What is it Yuki?" She said as she tightened her grip around her daughter’s hand.
"Hatori and I have been talking…"
"I don't see how that’s possible since he's only a year old, but okay." She lightly laughed as she glanced down at her son who was clutching onto her other hand.
"Why is it that you say you and Daddy were born together? You don't have the same mommy..."
"I was wondering when you would ask that." Kanade said as she knelt down in front of her two children and smiled. "Your father and I, we took our first breaths in each others arms. No, we don't have the same mommy. We actually just sort of woke up. Perhaps we were never 'born' from a mommy and daddy like you two, but you see, there are some things in this world that are unexplained and we will never really come to understand them… but the fact that they are there, gives me a very odd sort of comfort."
"Huh?" Yuki said as she cocked her head to the side. Kanade laughed.
"Okay, then how about this? Your father and I fell asleep, for a very long time and two people, who loved us very much wished upon a large apple tree and that tree was so magical and felt so much of their love that it decided to shed some of it's leaves and wake us up. The thing is, since we were asleep for so long we forgot everything of when we were born, and all we had left were the feelings of love the two people had for us. So, daddy and I woke up in each other’s arms like babies and set out into the world holding hands. We've loved each other for a long, long time. Even when we were sleeping for so long."
"I like that one the best." A deep voice said. Kanade smiled and glanced back to see Kaname laughing as he approached her.
"We were just killing time while we waited for you."
"I told you to stop waiting out in the cold for me when I go off for work, you're going to get sick; all of you." He walked up to his wife and pecked her lips. "And stop telling them all these fake stories about us." He chuckled as he wrapped her in a warm hug before picking up their daughter.
"How do you know it is fake? It all comes from my head so it could all very well be true!" Kanade said as she picked up their son and headed inside.
"And the one about us being vampires and you my long lost bride is true?"
"Well you never know! Those two girls did say that their parents weren't human, how do you know we weren't either?"
"What about the one where I was in love with my sister and you with her childhood friend and when they ran off together we got together on the rebound?"
"That one was the more depressing one… but it still could have happened!"
"What about the one where you died in my arms and then reincarnated?"
"That one was the best!" Yuki exclaimed.
"Oh you think so?" Kaname laughed and she nodded.
"Well in the end it doesn't matter, because I have you right here, right now." Kanade said before leaning in and pressing her lips against Kaname's.
"Ew!" Hatori said.
"Isn't he a little young to be criticizing our public display of affection?" Kaname said.
"It's your fault for giving him your smart genes!" Kanade said.
Kaname laughed, "I'm so glad I have you." He leaned in for another kiss and laid his forehead against hers, smiling.
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