Song: Red-Taylor Swift
"Loving him is like driving a new Maserati down a dead end stress"
Akira listen to the song and smile with herself . Yes, loving Hikaru is absolutely like it: insane and out of your mind.
"Faster than the win
Passionate as the sin
Ended so suddenly"
With somebody who raised in the traditional family like her, this love is so overwhelming , like nothing before, with some evil as the sin he took all her breaths away for the first time they met in that fated day : he came in her father's Go salon and said he never play with anyone before and beaten her the Mejin's daughter. Twice. How crazy can it be? She chased after him for an other chance, an other game but he just simple refused… " Ended so suddenly" she whisper to herself
"Loving him is like trying to change your mind once you are already flying through the free fall"
She burnes out a small laugh , this song is definestely for Hikaru .She can't say it better herself! She never has a chance to get out of the love they have, just like you can't change your mind when you are already take a jump out of the safety zone.
"Like the colors in autumn so bright just before their lost it all"
Yes , she know she has fallen in love with him since their first game. It's obviously, can't deny, can't refuse… it's clearly like the colors in autumn : bright so much that you can't even breath . Like the shooting star , appear in only seconds but take all your attention and mind, like something you can't take your eyes out of it…like every time she see his face…
"Losing him was blue like I'd never known"
The second time she though she lost him is the time when he quit playing Go, the feeling is still as clearly as it's yesterday: angry and unbelievable. He chased after her and when he can caught her , he want to quit? "I don't think there are anybody can make me crazy like you" she think when remember his words " I don't play Go anymore"
"Missing him was dark grey all alone"
And he did what he said , left her here all alone . "How can I reach the Hand of God without you?" Is the thought that haunted her every time she looked around to find him and realized he didn't here . And the missing quickly turned to angry "I'm an independent girl, I won't let anybody be the center of my life or my dream"
"Forgetting him was like trying to know someone you've never met"
But forgetting him is impossible, like Cupid or Eros -whoever it is- is playing fool with her heart. No matter how hard she tried, she saw his face in everywhere: Go board, Go stone …and in her father's salon, she realized she replayed the game they had without noticed, like her hands was being control by the memories of him. She remembered the worried eyes of her parents and Ashiwara , other customers ,pros kept questioned her whether is she alright…
"But loving him was red"
Red is the exactly color to described their love. Her life used to peaceful and quiet like the autumn forest and his love is everything she will never imagine to have in her life : loud and lively , passion and overwhelming…simply just be Hikaru. She heard herself is singing again the word : "…loving him was red"
"Touching him is like realizing all you ever wanted is right here in front of you"
She fell her cheek warm when hear the words and remember their first kiss. The suddenly kiss they have before she got on the plane flied to China follow her father request to play in the international tournament hold for ladies only to celebrate Woman Day. She can still feel it now, quickly and embarrassed contact between their lips but marked that they belong to each other , that they now knew the other's feeling and know that in the other's eyes they are much more than just rivals…
"Memorizing him was as easy as knowing all the words to your old favorite song"
Every time she close her eyes ,overtime she play Go, no matter what she do when she think about him, the memories go back to her brain like a storm: his smile, his face, his Go… as easy as recall the kifus she loved
"Fighting with him was like trying to solve a crossword and realizing there's no right answer"
They have a lot of shouting contests , in past, present and she doesn't think that there are any reasons to stop it even in future. The arguments are usually about Go but with time past , there are more things to star a battle which turn out have no ending : food- she will never find out why him love rame that much, colors- their colors like Yin and Yang, book or manga in his case… but the biggest fight was about his childhood friend- Akari. She hate it when knowing there is the other girl beside him, she hate when he talk about her with joyful in his eyes…that's the moments she know she is jealous with the girl she barely know. That's not like her-she usually collected and calm and cool but when it come to him, she just lost all her control
"Regretting him was like wish you never found out love could be that strong"
She remember that fight when the words came out her mouth without control and his face turn to angry . He didn't understand why she hate Akari, he didn't understand why she so angry when he hang out with other girl…like everything spited out of her hands. She remember tears drop down in her face , recalling the words he said hurted her heart so much…she remember they break up and how regret she was when thought about him and she wished for thousand times to forget him… the pictures appear before her eyes one by one, slowly draw back the time when she can't smile and the fains so much that she can't bear, every time she saw his face , it felt like someone smashed her heart and captured all her breaths… and like every other fight they had, none said word "sorry" first for days, weeks and in the end turn out the months.
Remember him come in flashback, in echoes"
Yes , the feeling was like there was fire burning inside of her. She remember how endless she was kept telling her self that he didn't worth, that this love was just the wind, like he only came in her life in flashback, in moments…
"Tell myself it's time now gotta let go
But moving on from him is impossible when I still see it all in my head"
When she realized that it's impossible to forget him, Akari shown up and explained every misunderstands the girls have. She remember she crushed herself for how stupid she can be, how she runned though the Tokyo stresses like a madman to get to his apartment , and when he opened the door, she jumped and embraced him so strong that they both fall backward. The tears dropped when she apologized and his warm hands hold her tight, told her that so did him, recalled the sweet and warm kiss in the winter air first time of the months
"Come back to me, burning red"
She whisper the words slowly, he has come back to her and this time she won't let him go
"Cause losing him was blue like I'd never known
Missing him was dark grey all alone
But loving him was red"
The door open and Hikaru steps in with the big plastic bags on his hands:
"Oh, Akira,I don't know you have come. How long have you been waited ?"
" Not very long, beside I found your collection of Taylor Swift's song. There is a song remain me about you"
"Huh? What do you mean? What song?"
She look at the computer's sceen and answer:
"Red ,I believe. Nee, why are you smiling?"
" Nothing. What do you say about having ramen for dinner?"
"Hikaru , I want sushi"
" But I want ramen"
"Loving him is like driving a new Maserati down a dead end stress"