Chapter 1 ~ Their Conflictions
Levi had been walking down the hall, a tune had just rested in his mind. But he was a bit too angry to start humming it. "Mikasa!" He said, managing to calm his own rage. "Where's Eren!?" He yelled. Mikasa had been talking to Sasha, but didn't think of...Eren?
"I have no clue sir. I thought he had been cleaning your office, and just a minute ago he"- "He destroyed it? Good." Mikasa blinked, and tilted her head in confusion, "wha"- "I said good." Levi stated. "Good that he's finally learned a lesson that I'm tired of teaching him many others." "Such as?" Mikasa added. Levi's face reddened at the thought of his office clothes and, "Your...hair..." Mikasa said. "I-it's...Blue...a-and...green." She attempted to say as Sasha almost broke into laughter in spite of Levi standing there.
"What!?" He hollered, as Mikasa's eyes widened and Sasha tensed. "I know! And you'd best get your brother Eren that did it! Along with my unorganized office! Get Hanji to see if she can get these ridiculous dyes out of my hair, and my other uniforms as well! Because I'm not going to show up at some meeting with a pink jacket and reckless punk hair!" Levi added in boisterous anger. "And what if I go get Eren sir?" Mikasa asked, as Sasha quietly walked down the hall and around the corner to avoid the argument. "I'll add on to his court trial." Mikasa tensed as well as Sasha had before, then clenching her fists she stated, "If it wasn't for Armin halting me you'd be dead!" She yelled. "If it wasn't for that court trial I could have continued." Levi said. "You didn't even have to kick him that hard!" Mikasa stated, "What if I do so now!?" Levi said. You'd have no authority to stop me?" Mikasa stepped back as her pupils reached intense and her face darkened in color. "Watch me try so myself." She said to Levi, her statement as real as ever she lunged forward at him. Levi stood still, grabbing her wrist. "Was that your attempt to punch me? Ackerman?" Mikasa rolled her eyes and back-handed Levi. "No, it was my attempt to get you off guard corporal."
Levi nodded, his face tilted a bit to the side. "I see you've taken a few tips from Shadis." Mikasa shrugged, "No. I just figured you wouldn't expect a slap from a girl a day in your life. So it's about time you"- Mikasa shoved Levi into the wall as soon as he'd started to twist her wrist. "About time I'd learned something?" Levi added to her sentence. Mikasa nodded, kicking Levi in the process, "Yeah." Levi stood still for most of it, avoiding to show pain whether it hurt him or not. "Are you done with your rampage? Mikasa?" Mikasa blinked, "Rampage? Have you seen yourself lately? I'm sorry but your holding yourself a little too high at the moment and I think you should realize the level of which you stand on." Mikasa's eyes narrowed, "But I guess you're too short to see that." Levi crossed his arms, "I'm surprised to hear such language from someone so...disciplined. Which is only what I am trying to make of your brother?" Mikasa growled. "You're going through me first!" She exclaimed as Levi stood still, his arms still crossed at ease. Mikasa punched him, as Levi didn't budge, though his cheek reddened he'd only felt it to returning to crossed arms. "Go on. Show me how much you really care about Eren."
Mikasa had continued to throw punches and kicks at Levi, but Levi only blocked or took the hits that Mikasa had given. "Sorry yet?" Mikasa said. Levi smirked, and sighed; leaning against the wall he stated, "Sorry? Mikasa you should be sorry." Mikasa blinked, letting go of her grip on him. "What?" She replied.
Levi stood, looking at Mikasa. "What makes you think that Eren really helped you for any of this? Not, for anything in return? I suppose, you just don't get it." Mikasa stepped back. "Shut up." She remarked, trying to ignore the words that Levi spoke. "Eren never did anything for you?" Mikasa shook her head, "Your a liar, he's risked his life many times for me a-" "And how much Mikasa? Levi's eyes narrowed as they sunk into Mikasa's, "Do you really think that Eren had saved you because he'd wanted too? Or because his father had told him to save some little girl in harms way?" Mikasa shook her head, her eyes darting away from his. "What makes you think Eren loves you back? The stubborn brat loves killing titans more and I'm sure of it. When's the last time he's told you that he's glad to have a sister or friend like yo-" "Stop it!" Mikasa yelled, her eyes filling with tears. "Your parents were never your parents, the same going for the second set; Eren's mother and father of course. And that scarf. It's nothing but trash that you're holding onto? Because I'm sure he's never commented on it? And that he'd only given it to you at the time because it was the gentleman thing to do-" "I said shut up!" Mikasa shrieked, backing away as his words sunk in. "Eren didn't join the Survey Corpse to protect you? Nor did he ask for some girl to follow him throughout his life. He only wants to avenge his mother's death?" Mikasa shook her head again, sinking to the floor, "Eren didn't think before destroying the things dearest to you, other than the memories you cherish? He'd almost killed you in titan form before, not quite saying sorry the way you'd imagined huh?" Mikasa shivered a bit, starring towards the floor, "N-no." Levi nodded and continued talking, "Mikasa why are you here? Why did you join the Survey Corpse?" He asked, as Mikasa tried to choke out the words.
"I...I joined t-to stay by E-Eren's side...t-to help him-" But is that why Eren signed up Mikasa?" Levi interrupted. "N-no." Mikasa repeated. Levi continued, "Exactly so why bother? Why are you here Mikasa? Who are you Mikasa? Did Eren ever ask you what you wanted to do with your life before he came along? Or ask you if you were feeling okay? No. I'm positive he hasn't. So why should you care? Why are you here, and what have you done with your life, come to think of it, Who. Are. You?
Mikasa closed her eyes. Tears running down her cheeks she sat there on the ground. Stunned, thinking of what to say but finding nothing. What so ever...nothing.
Levi stood there in the silence. Not hearing the cry that she had spilled out. Ignoring the sympathy that sat inside of him for a moment, waiting for an answer, that he knew she might not reply to. Mikasa stopped her running tears, blinking with eyes that were still stuck in a daze. "I...I d-don't know anymore..." she said, starring off into the distance. "I don't know why I'm still alive." Levi had heard her say, as he froze when he heard a click from her gear. "Why do you have that? We're not on alarm or duty or-" "Maybe this is the perfect time...I-It doesn't really matter anymore does it?" Mikasa said. "What are you-" "I have n-no purpose anym-more!" She attempted to say as tears streaked down her cheeks again, and her hand rose shakily holding a sword that she intended to end her life with, holding her breath she cried. "I'm sorry corporal...E-eren and Armin...I-I'm so...s-so...sorry-" Levi stopped the blade within the split second that she moved it. "But this isn't what anyone's asked for. Nor should this go for you." He said quietly. He sat down next to Mikasa, and she lifted her head from the floor to look up at him. "W-why? Why didn't you let me?-" "You have a reason to live Mikasa. You just can't see it."
~The Next Chapter~